Chapter 32: House Guest
Santana's POV
Saturday 26th June 2021
Emma has just arrived to stay with us for a few days so Brittany is going through a few things with her. She has obviously been to our house many times before but Brittany just wanted to make sure Emma gets settled in ok and knows where everything is. I'm just following them around with Aiden in my arms. I just need to make sure Brittany doesn't leave anything out because this is still our house so I need to make sure Emma knows the rules.
"Honestly just treat this like you would your own house" Brittany says. "Aiden has a bit of a specific routine when he's going to childcare but there's enough bathrooms to use anyway so don't worry about getting in the way or anything" she smiles.
"Ok" Emma smiles back.
"Ok so this is going to be your room while you're here but you don't need to be in it all the time. Just hang out wherever you want to" Brittany says.
"Yeah but just don't come into my bedroom, that is way off limits for you" I add.
"Yeah it didn't really cross my mind to go to your room" Emma states. "I walked in on you two having sex before and that still chills me to this day so I really don't need a refresher."
"Yeah somehow I think that's not going to happen again" Brittany states. "Anyway as I was saying feel free to hang out wherever you want and help yourself to whatever you want from the kitchen."
"Ok but let me know when you normally go to the grocery store and I'll go instead. Buying some groceries is the least I can do if you're letting me stay here" Emma smiles at Brittany.
"We go Sundays at 8am" I cheekily smile at Emma.
"Um…ok" Emma nods. "It's a little early on a Sunday for me usually but I'll do that tomorrow" Emma replies.
"Don't be silly, you don't need to do that" Brittany shakes her head. "We don't go every Sunday, just whichever day we need to go and it's not at 8am on a day off so don't worry" she assures Emma.
"Ok well let me know when I need to go and I'll go" Emma nods.
"I will" Brittany replies.
"Anyway I think it's probably time for lunch now so will I just get you all in the kitchen?" I ask.
"Yeah" Brittany smiles.
"Ok" I nod before turning and walking downstairs with Aiden to the kitchen. "So Aiden what shall we make for lunch?" I ask him while bouncing him slightly in my arms. He shrugs his shoulders before leaning his head against me and closing his eyes. "Are you tired sweetie?" I ask.
"No" he replies quietly but I can tell that he is.
"Come on let's go for a nap" I say while going to the study. Just as I'm about to lay him down, I feel him keep a tight grip on my shirt.
"M-mom…no" Aiden says resisting by kicking his feet slightly. "No" he repeats starting to get teary.
"Sweetie you need to take a nap" I tell him. Its kills me when he gets upset and I really hate doing this when I know he doesn't want to but he has to take a nap.
"No!" he says louder getting even more upset.
"Do you want mommy to come down here?" I ask and he quickly quietens down. I know I should be more authoritative with him and using Brittany to get him to do something isn't the way. Brittany just always knows how to not give in to Aiden. "Come on, let's get you settled" I say while laying him down. After a few minutes he begins to fall asleep so I make my way to the kitchen to start lunch.
"Hey where's Aiden?" Brittany asks while walking into the kitchen with Emma.
"He was starting to get tired so I've put him down for a nap and I'll make him something to eat later on" I reply while continuing to make the food.
"Ok" Brittany smiles.
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Once we finished lunch, I went to the dining room to do some work since Aiden was still in the study. Brittany said she'd make Aiden something to eat when he woke up and I could keep working if I wanted. I don't usually make a habit of working on Saturdays but I'm just trying to do as much work as I can just now when I have the time before the baby comes along. We've still got a good few months left before that but I want to be as prepared as possible to take the pressure off Brittany.
After working for a while, I decide to go and see what the others are up to. When I walk into the kitchen, Brittany and Aiden are sitting at the table.
"Hey" I say walking into the room.
"Hi" Brittany smiles.
"Where's your sister?" I ask noticing Emma isn't in the room.
"In the living room on the phone. Someone from her work called and it sounded important so she went to talk in private" Brittany replies.
"I see" I nod. "So what's going on in here, are you two colouring in some pictures?" I ask noticing some colouring utensils scattered around the table.
"We are and Aiden is drawing you a picture" she smiles at me.
"Oh well I can't wait to see it" I smile at Aiden just as Emma walks into the kitchen.
"Hey is everything ok, do you need to go into work?" Brittany asks.
"Yeah it's all sorted so thankfully I don't need to go in" Emma smiles while sitting down next to Brittany at the table.
"Oh lucky me" I say sarcastically but I don't really mean it.
"Be nice please" Brittany says seriously while looking at me.
"It's just a joke honey, I promise" I smile at her and she nods.
"Aiden and I are colouring in some pictures, do you want to help?" Brittany asks looking at Emma.
"Sure" Emma replies. "I love colouring in pictures with my nephew, we always have fun don't we Aiden" she says leaning over to affectionately pat Aiden on the head.
"Do you want to help?" Brittany asks me.
"I'm ok but I will sit with Aiden and wait on my picture" I say sitting between Aiden and Emma.
"Ok" Brittany nods before going back to her picture.
"Hey sweetheart, how about we try this with the other hand" I say taking the pen from Aiden's right hand and placing it in his left hand.
"Santana no" Brittany states firmly while shaking her head.
"But I want him to be left handed" I reply nonchalantly.
"Yeah and I want to be a supermodel" she states sarcastically causing me to roll my eyes. "Look just let him do whatever he feels comfortable with" she reasons.
"He might be comfortable with his left hand though, he won't know until he tries" I tell her.
"He's only 17 months old Santana, I think he has plenty of time to change his mind once he's a little more coordinated. He's just doing what is comfortable just now but when he can actually write then maybe he'll use his left hand" Brittany points out.
"Ok fine" I say giving up.
"So is this what marriage and motherhood is like, you just disagree over what hand to write with?" Emma asks. "I mean if it is then I'm in for a boring ride of my life in the years to come" she shakes her head.
"I'd rather disagree over that than be alone on a Saturday night" I smirk at Emma.
"I'm not going to be alone, I have my sister and nephew to hang out with tonight" she smirks back.
"Yeah but if you weren't living with us just now you would be at home alone" I point out. "I mean your life must be so good if Saturday nights are as exciting as sitting at home alone with a puzzle."
"First of all, I do more exciting things than puzzles. You caught me doing a crossword once so let it go please, it's not something I do regular" Emma states. "And furthermore this would be one of a very select few Saturdays I'm home alone. I'm usually with Artie or my friends but Artie is out of town on business as you very well know and my friends are all busy."
"All of them are busy, huh" I say pondering it.
"Why are you saying it like you don't believe me?" Emma asks giving me a slight glare.
"It just seems a rather rare situation for every one of your friends to be busy" I reply. "Are you sure you actually have friends?"
"Of course I fucking have friends" Emma states defensively.
"Emma!" Brittany scolds. "You're lucky Aiden is too preoccupied colouring in his picture otherwise he could have heard what you said. I don't want any swearing in this house in front of my son" she states.
"Yeah you go Britt" I say smugly. I just love it when Emma gets put in her place.
"Yeah you shouldn't get so smug" Brittany shakes her head at me. "You rile her up just as much so you're partly to blame in this."
"Fine, whatever" I sigh.
After spending most of the afternoon together, we all had dinner and then got Aiden ready for bed. Since Emma hasn't spent more than a night with Aiden at the one time before then Brittany thought it might be nice for Emma to help her give Aiden his bath. I didn't see the point in all 3 of us bathing him so I took a backseat this time even though I love giving Aiden his bath and going through his night time routine.
"Emma and I are watching a movie, do you want to come join us?" Brittany asks as we quietly leave Aiden's room after saying goodnight to him.
"Thanks but I think I'll pass" I reply. I think Brittany really likes spending time with Emma so I don't want to impose on their time together.
"If it helps you can pick the movie" Brittany smiles at me.
"Honestly I'm good, just you two watch the movie" I say. "I might just take a bath right now and relax."
"Ok" Brittany nods before she and Emma head downstairs.
After taking a long bath to relax, I went downstairs to see if they were still watching a movie. When I peeked my head around the door, they looked like they were having fun just the two of them so I decided not to disturb them and hang out in the study. To say I'm jealous is a little too farfetched but it is only the first night Emma has been here and I kinda miss Brittany already. I'm happy to help out family but I don't like this situation already.
"Hey" Brittany says walking into the room.
"Hey" I smile briefly. "Is the movie done?" I ask.
"Yeah it finished ages ago but Emma and I just ended up talking for a while" she replies. "Anyway are you coming to bed?" she asks while coming over to beside me.
"Yeah" I smile.
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Sunday 27th June 2021
I'm just walking down the stairs to see where Brittany and Aiden are when I need to use the bathroom so instead of walking back upstairs, I decide to just use the downstairs bathroom. As soon as I open the door, I get the fright of my life.
"Jeez…lock the damn door would you" I shout while slamming the door shut.
"What's going on?" Brittany asks while rushing out of the kitchen to see what the noise was all about.
"Your sister didn't lock the door and I didn't know she was in the bathroom so I walked in" I say shaking my head. "Thank goodness the glass was fogged up in the shower otherwise I would have seen something I really didn't want to."
"Are you saying you think my sister would look ugly naked?" Brittany quirks an eyebrow.
"I'm not saying that, I'm just saying I wouldn't want to see her naked" I state. "I've already got one blonde I love seeing naked, I don't need another" I point out.
"Smooth, real smooth Lopez" Brittany smirks.
"It's true" I shrug. "Anyway I need the bathroom so I'm going to run upstairs to the bathroom up there" I say.
"Ok" she smiles.
"I'm going out a run soon though but I'll come and see you before then" I tell her as I make my way up the stairs.
"Ok" she smiles again before going back to the kitchen. Once I'm finished in the bathroom, I decide to just put my running clothes on since I'm upstairs anyway. I then make my way back down to the kitchen.
"I'm back again" I smile while walking into the kitchen.
"Mom!" Aiden screams from his high chair as soon as he sees me.
"Hi buddy" I smile at him while walking over to him. "How is my favourite little guy this morning?" I ask while kissing his head.
"Food" he says holding up a piece of banana.
"Oh are you eating your breakfast?" I ask him.
"Eating, throwing it across the room, it's all the same right" Brittany shrugs.
"Are you being messy Aiden?" I ask but he doesn't reply he just starts giggling before throwing a piece of banana to the floor. "Aiden Lopez, do not do that" I say seriously but as usual he just continues giggling.
"Aiden?" Brittany gives him a warning look. His face quickly changes from a smile to a frown. "Throw your breakfast one more time and Auntie Emma won't take you to the park" she says while bending down to clean up the floor.
"Brittany let me do that" I say while taking her hand and helping her off the floor. I'm not having my pregnant wife kneeling on the floor when I can easily clean up.
"Morning" Emma says cheerily while walking into the kitchen.
"Clothes Emma, please" I shake my head while rolling my eyes at her. Apparently it's ok to stroll around someone else's house in nothing but a towel.
"I'm going to get changed, don't panic" Emma assures me. "I just wanted to grab some coffee to take upstairs. I thought that shower might wake me up a bit but it hasn't and I need to waken up" she says walking over to the coffee machine I have.
"I would kill for coffee right now" Brittany sighs.
"Surely one sip won't hurt, right?" Emma asks. "Here take a quick sip of mine" she says handing Brittany her coffee cup she has just filled.
"Absolutely not" I say while jumping up from the floor and grabbing the cup from Brittany.
"Controlling much" Emma rolls her eyes at me before snatching the coffee back.
"You're not supposed to have caffeine during pregnancy end of story" I state seriously.
"Yeah who cares about Brittany, just as long as your baby is ok" Emma states.
"It's not like that Emma so just stay out of it" I shake my head slightly annoyed at her.
"Santana chill out, she was just joking" Brittany says frowning at me slightly.
"I'm going out a run soon so do you want me to get Aiden ready before I go?" I ask.
"No Emma and I can manage" Brittany says.
"Ok well I'll see you later then" I say while walking towards the door to leave.
"Emma watch Aiden" Brittany says before following me to the hall. "Santana wait a second."
"What?" I ask turning around.
"What is going on with you this morning?" she asks.
"Nothing" I shrug.
"I know you and Emma have a weird relationship but ever since she got here yesterday you've been acting weird whenever she's in the room" she says.
"I don't want to talk about it right now" I sigh.
"Yeah that answer doesn't work for me Santana" Brittany sighs also. "We're not supposed to bottle things up anymore, my therapist even said that because it can't be good for us or our marriage."
"I guess I just feel left out" I admit embarrassed. "You and Emma were colouring with Aiden and then you and Emma hung out all night and would talk about things I had no clue about. Then this morning you're saying Emma is going to the park with Aiden."
"I'm sorry but it's been nice hanging out with my sister because we don't get much time together" Brittany replies.
"Fair enough but the weekends are when we get to see each other properly and spend time together because we're working a lot during the week" I point out.
"I get you might feel left out when she's hanging out with Aiden but this is just one weekend Santana so surely you can let Aiden spend it with his aunt just this once" she says.
"It's not just about Aiden, it's you too" I tell her.
"What about me?" Brittany frowns in confusion.
"I've missed you a lot this weekend because you've been hanging out with Emma a lot" I say. I know they're sisters but I like my weekends with Brittany too.
"Bullshit Santana" Brittany shakes her head.
"Excuse me" I say slightly taken aback.
"This isn't about spending time with me. It's about someone else spending time with Aiden when you miss him" she says.
"It's both of you" I tell her. I have no idea why she suddenly turned like she just did. It's maybe the pregnancy hormones or something.
"No Santana it's not been…"
"Brittany can you come here please because Aiden's table has stuck and I can't get him out of his chair" Emma shouts through from the kitchen.
"I need to go and help her" Brittany sighs.
"Ok but I don't understand what you were getting at a second ago" I say still confused.
"Just forget about it, I'm probably just overreacting or something. Just go for your run" she says walking to the kitchen. What the fuck is going on here. I'm not supposed to bottle up my feelings but its ok for her to say something and then dismiss it.
"Fine but we're talking when I get back" I say while heading out the front door.
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So as usual I didn't get a chance to talk to Brittany again because she and Emma went to the park with Aiden after lunch and when he went for a nap, the two of them started working on a little project together. It's their brother Scott's birthday in 2 weeks and they wanted to put together something special for him since he's going to be a first time dad soon.
"Hey Britt, can I talk to you for a second?" I ask walking into the dining room. We're about to have dinner soon so I'm hoping for 5 minutes to talk before its ready.
"Ok but only for a second because I'm busy" she says while getting out of her seat. "Emma just you keep going and I'll be back in a second" she says before following me to the living room.
"Ok so earlier, what was that?" I ask getting straight to the point.
"As soon as I said it I regretted it, I'm sorry" she sighs.
"What did you mean though?" I ask.
"Just that the whole thing was about you missing Aiden and wanting to spend time with him. You were trying to cover up and say it was about both of us but I know it's just because your weekends are spent with Aiden" she says.
"I will admit I am annoyed slightly that Emma has been with Aiden more than me this weekend" I say honestly.
"That's what I was saying but when you tried to say it was about me too then I sort of let the insecurity get the better of me" she admits.
"What are you insecure about?" I ask confused.
"The way I look and feel right now" she sighs.
"I love you Brittany" I tell her while hugging her. "I know this is hard but I'm right here for you so please don't feel down about anything."
"It's easier said than done" she sighs again.
"I'm sorry if it came across I wasn't interested in spending time with you too because I am and I do like my weekends with you" I tell her.
"Ok" she smiles slightly.
"If you wanted we could go for a walk or something tonight, just the two of us" I suggest.
"Actually I can't because I'm going out with some friends tonight" Brittany replies. "I meant to say earlier but it slipped my mind. Are you ok watching Aiden though?" she asks me.
"Of course" I smile.
After we finished our talk, I finished up with dinner and then we all sat down together. I think I know where Brittany was coming from earlier because we haven't spent as much time as we used to together so I don't blame her for thinking I was more annoyed about not spending time with Aiden than her. Also her hormones have been playing up a bit recently so sometimes she overthinks situations and freaks herself out but I know that's just part of pregnancy so I'm not going to take anything to heart because I love her and she loves me so we're good.
Brittany is now hanging out with some friends so I'm just watching some TV in the living room while Aiden is in bed.
"Hey" Emma says throwing herself to the couch next to me.
"Um…hi" I say slightly confused. We never sit together or really say hi to one another so this is kinda weird.
"Don't look so scared, I'm not going to eat you" Emma says laughing.
"Yeah I didn't think you would" I state rolling my eyes.
"So anyway, I would like to talk to you about something" she says seriously. "With Brittany not here then I figured I should use the opportunity to talk to you alone" she says.
"Ok" I say slightly confused. "So what's up?" I ask.
"Well the thing is…" Emma says nervously. "God this is nerve wracking" she shakes her head.
"Just tell me" I say turning to give her my full attention.
"I like you Santana" she sighs.
"Like me as in friend?" I ask slightly taken aback. We have a weird relationship but since we are family then I guess we could be sorta friends.
"No I like you the way Brittany likes you" she replies seriously.
"Yeah you need to get out of my house" I say standing up quickly. This is not an ok situation right now so I don't want to be sitting anywhere near her.
"Come on Santana, I know you like me too" she says also standing up. "You can't deny all the looks and flirting we've been sharing over the years" she says stepping closer to me.
"Yes I can deny it because it's not true" I state. "Sure we mess around and stuff but it's not flirtatious one bit. I only do it because you annoy me and you usually get in the way of me trying to get to Britt whenever you're around."
"You wanted to walk into that bathroom this morning and see me in the shower naked" Emma says closing the gap between us even further.
"Emma I am happily married to your sister and I love her so much" I tell her. "You really need to leave now because this isn't ok" I say getting frustrated.
"You want this as much as I do" she says while reaching out to grab my hand.
"Oh no, get away from me" I say jumping back. Seriously what planet is this woman on?
"Oh my god, your face" Emma says bursting into laughter while moving away from me. "Relax ok, I don't like you like that and I know you don't like me either. It's really quite obvious how much you love Brittany, it's actually quite sickening to be honest with you."
"So this is just another one of your games?" I ask sceptically.
"Yeah it was just a joke but I do actually want to talk to you about something" she says while sitting down again.
"Ok so if I sit down you won't pounce on me or something?" I ask.
"No I think I can contain myself" Emma rolls her eyes. "You're not really my type anyway" she shrugs.
"It's ok you don't need to joke" I tell her. "I know now you might not be into me but I am everyone's type so you don't need to pretend about that."
"No you aren't actually" Emma shrugs again. "Anyway can we please talk?" she asks.
"Yeah, sure" I say while sitting down next to her again.
"Look I figured we should take this opportunity to maybe get to know one another better and sort out our differences" Emma says.
"Ok but why now, Brittany and I have been together 5 or so years" I say.
"I know but we're all adults and this silly game we play is funny but it's also getting offensive at times so maybe we should get to know one another a bit more" she says. "Also you're married to my sister, my brother is with your sister and I date your business partner so it's probably best we get along better because we're connected in a way, you know" she says.
"So you just want to get to know me because of that, you don't think we could actually be friends?" I ask.
"I wouldn't mind being friends but we are 2 very different people so I understand if it doesn't work out" Emma says honestly.
Things are a little awkward in the beginning but the more we talk the more I think we might be able to be friends, if not then we can certainly be a lot more mature around each other. It is actually quite nice to get along for once because it's exhausting fighting sometimes. It'll also be good for Brittany because she can't like it when we're messing around all the time being immature and she's stuck in the middle of it all.
"By the way if you want to take Brittany out sometime or do something yourselves then I'm more than happy to look after Aiden" Emma says as we change our topic of discussion slightly.
"Thanks I appreciate the offer but I think we're just happier being a little family with Aiden at the moment" I say honestly. I would like to go out with Brittany but lately she hasn't really enjoyed our date nights that much because she's either tired or struggling to eat certain foods so I've tended to stop asking for the moment so she doesn't feel pressured.
"You and Brittany are ok though, right?" Emma asks in concern.
"Yeah why did she say something last night when you two were hanging out?" I ask panicked.
"No I was just making sure because usually you're a lot more affectionate with one another than you've been since I got here. I mean I know it's not ideal having a house guest but that never used to stop you" she points out.
"Brittany just isn't in that kind of frame of mind at the moment and I don't want to pressure her" I say. "The pregnancy is going ok but I can tell things are getting to her a bit more now so I'm trying to be respectful of that."
"Ok" Emma smiles, satisfied with my answer.
"Speaking of relationships, you can always invite Artie here if you want as well, you don't need to make him stay away just because you're a guest here. Artie is one of my good friends so I'm more than happy for him to come over" I tell her honestly.
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Tuesday 29th June 2021
Artie and I are just wrapping a few things up at work before we get ready to go home. It's been a tough day today so I'm looking forward to going home to my family. Just thinking about how much I love my family reminds me that Emma and Artie are together but I don't think they've really seen one another recently because Emma has mostly been at work or my house.
"Hey Artie what are you doing tonight?" I ask getting an idea.
"Not a lot to be honest, why?" he asks looking at me.
"Well how would you like to come to dinner at my place?" I say.
"Thanks for the offer but I'm kinda tired so I might just go home and grab a pizza or something" he replies.
"That's cool, maybe another time I guess" I smile.
"Yeah definitely" he smiles back.
"You're probably wise in not coming over tonight anyway because we're letting Emma loose in the kitchen and it's probably going to be a disaster" I joke.
"Shit I forgot Emma was staying with you guys" he mutters.
"Does that mean you might like to come to dinner after all" I smirk.
"I mean I guess I could" he says trying to sound cool about it but I know he really wants to come now that he's remembered Emma is there.
"Ok well it's settled then, you're coming to dinner" I tell him as we begin leaving the building.
"Cool" he smiles. "To be honest with you I just didn't want to be sitting like a third wheel while you and Brittany sat there kissing all night but now that I know Emma will be there then I'm happy to come."
"Don't worry that's not going to happen, we're be civilised" I assure him.
"Good" he nods.
"I can't help it though sometimes, I mean I do really love Brittany" I tell him.
"I know you do but you don't need to make everyone aware of that all the time" he teases.
"You're one to talk Artie, you have Emma as your screensaver not only on your phone but on your work computer too" I point out.
"I know but I don't make out with it" he states.
"Yeah that would be really weird" I say laughing.
"You know what I mean" he shakes his head. "You two constantly make out all the time in front of everyone whereas I'm more reserved with just keeping a picture of my girlfriend."
"Ok fair enough" I nod seeing his point. "Anyway I'll see you at my house" I say as we get into our own cars.
"Yeah see you soon" Artie smiles.
Brittany's POV
I'm just beginning to help Emma cook dinner when I get a text from Santana making sure it's ok that Artie comes to dinner and that if we don't have enough dinner then she can run by the grocery store and get more food. I quickly text her back that there's plenty of food before going back to help Emma.
"So how was work today?" Emma asks.
"Not too bad" I nod. "I don't do a lot of individual work anymore because of the pregnancy so I work a lot with others which is good because having someone to talk to makes the day go quicker" I admit.
"Yeah I suppose it will" she smiles. "So are you coping ok with work then and the pregnancy because I'm guessing physiotherapy can be quite physical at times?"
"Yeah I'm taking more a different approach at the moment because I obviously can't help with cases like people learning to walk again because I can hardly protect them from a fall" I say. "I do a lot of the emotional support and preparing their physio schedule. I work with Martin most of the time so he does the physical work and I prepare the schedules and updating cases. Don't get me wrong though, I'm fully involved in it all and I do the slightly more simplistic cases."
"Sounds cool" Emma smiles at me before going back to cooking. "So speaking of pregnancy, is everything going to plan with that?" she asks.
"Yeah no complaints really. I mean it's not ideal at times and I don't feel like myself sometimes but I know that's what pregnancy does so there's nothing new to be concerned about" I reply.
"That's good" Emma nods. "Santana is really cute with Aiden so I have no doubts she's going to be just as good with this next little one."
"Yeah she's the best mother ever" I smile thinking about her. "Aiden gets away with murder a lot right enough and she spoils him so bad but other than that she's great with him."
"We actually had a nice conversation the other night and I can see how good you and she are together" she smiles.
"You and Artie are just as good you know" I tell her honestly. They seem really suited to one another so I can definitely seem them together for a while.
"I've never had a relationship with someone like that before so it scares me sometimes but I do really love him. I mean it'll almost be a year since we started dating" Emma says, blushing slightly since we're talking about her boyfriend.
"That happens but being scared means you care so you'll be fine" I reassure her. "By the way Artie is coming for dinner tonight" I tell her.
"He is?" she replies confused.
"Yeah Santana invited him and she texted me earlier to make sure it was ok. I mean I figured it would be because you haven't seen him much since you've been staying here" I say.
"That's cool" Emma smiles. "Santana did say it was ok to invite him over at some point but I didn't want to push my luck because you guys are doing enough letting me stay here."
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The four of us and Aiden are all sitting together eating dinner. It really is nice to have Artie here because I can see he makes Emma a lot happier. I'm not saying she was miserable without him but Santana, Aiden and I are all a little family and I could see Emma felt a little out of place sometimes. Emma is my family too but this is only natural to grow up and have our own little families so it's nice to see Emma begin hers in a way. I don't think they're ready for kids but that's not really my business anyway but what I mean is that it's nice to see her have a stable relationship.
"Do you know we should do this more often because I like us hanging out with other couples" Santana says looking at me.
"Yeah it is nice" I reply.
"I agree" Artie smiles.
"We should invite some of our other friends and their partners sometime and have a bit of a dinner party" Santana suggests. "Aiden could stay with my parents and maybe Harry too so Quinn and Jason can hang out with us as well."
"That might be nice because it's been a while since us grownups all did something together" Artie says.
"When would we do it though because we are quite busy at the moment Santana" I say.
"We can wait until after the baby is born or we can just make some time in the next few weeks before things start getting busy" Santana replies. "I mean there's no pressure, I just thought it might be nice."
"No I want to do it, I'm just wondering when you want to" I smile.
"Ok" Santana smiles back.
After we finish dinner, Santana and Artie insist on clearing up since Emma and I made dinner. Of course Aiden wants to help too since Santana is doing it. Honestly the relationship between Santana and Aiden couldn't get any cuter. Whatever Santana does, Aiden does. Once we're all cleared up, Santana and I put Aiden to bed and let Emma have some time with Artie herself.
"Well I better be making a move now but thanks for dinner" Artie says.
"It's no problem" I smile.
"Wait up Artie and I'll walk out with you" Santana says while grabbing her sweater. "I left some paperwork at my parents' house the other day so I need to quickly pick it up before the morning so I might as well go just now since I've got time and Aiden is already settled in bed" she says.
"Ok" I nod.
"I won't be long though" she tells me while walking over to me.
"That's ok, you don't need to rush" I assure her.
"I'll see you later then" she smiles.
"Bye" I smile back while leaning in towards her.
"Bye honey" Santana says kissing my cheek.
"Um…bye" I say slightly confused. I was going for a proper kiss but for some reason she just kissed my cheek again. This has been happening a lot recently and I don't get it. I've tried to chalk it up to my hormones since I'm pregnant but the fact of the matter is that I think Santana just isn't into me anymore.
I hang out with Emma for a while before deciding to go upstairs to bed. Since Santana isn't home yet, I decide to go for a quick shower to freshen up and put on the sexiest pyjamas I have. Surely if I dress up nice then I can see how Santana handles it and I might see once and for all whether I am overreacting or not. The minute I hear Santana get home, I quickly get onto the bed and wait for her. I grab my book to make it look as if I was just casually reading otherwise she'll wonder why I'm just sitting there doing nothing.
"Hi" Santana smiles walking into the room.
"Hi" I smile back. "Are you staying up or are you going to bed?" I ask.
"I'm kinda tired so I think I'll just get changed and go to bed" she replies while walking over to the bathroom.
"Ok" I nod before she shuts the door. I wait patiently for her to finish before adjusting my position on the bed so I'm sitting a little sexier when I hear her about to open the door.
"Don't you want to put a cover on Britt, you'll catch a chill sitting like that" she tells me while getting into bed. I frown slightly because that's not the reaction I wanted. This is the sexiest pyjamas I own and Santana usually likes them because they show a good bit of leg.
"Maybe I want to catch a chill" I say trying to sound flirty.
"You're pregnant babe so I don't want you getting sick so maybe cover up a little" she states while getting comfy at her side of the bed.
"Haven't you got a way to warm me up" I ask as sexily as I can although I am getting slightly embarrassed here at how hard I need to work.
"Actually…" she smiles while moving closer to me. Ok now we're getting somewhere. "You can borrow this if you want" she says while leaning past me to grab her hot water bottle.
"Oh" I say sadly.
"Shall I fill it up for you?" she asks.
"No it's fine" I shake my head while sighing.
"Ok well I'm going to go to sleep now so is there anything else you need?" she asks and I just shake my head again. "Goodnight then" she smiles before laying down and turning to face the opposite direction. Yeah I think it's safe to say she's not into me anymore. I was really praying I was dreaming all of this but the reality is that I'm not.
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Friday 2nd July 2021
We're all getting ready to leave for work and to get Aiden to childcare. The only problem is that Santana keeps playing with him and it's distracting him from getting ready which is what we don't need when we're about to go to work.
"Santana can you just put his jacket on and you can play with him later" I sigh in annoyance.
"Alight keep your hair on Britt" Santana says slightly glaring at me.
"Well if you would hurry up I wouldn't get so annoyed" I state.
"What is wrong with you this morning?" she asks looking at me as she puts Aiden's jacket on.
"You're faffing around and I don't have time for this. I need to get to work and Aiden needs to go to childcare" I reply.
"I'm the one driving him there so I don't know what you're so bothered about. Just go to work if you're late" Santana states.
"Fine, I will" I say picking up my things. "Mommy will see you later sweetheart" I say leaning down to kiss Aiden.
"Bye mommy" Aiden mumbles.
"See you later Emma" I say to my sister.
"Bye Brittany" Emma smiles at me and then I make my way to the front door.
"That's real mature Brittany not even saying goodbye to me" Santana shakes her head at me as I walk past.
"Well if you didn't mess around so much I'd actually have time to say goodbye but I don't" I shrug my shoulders at her before leaving. I know I'm being immature but this situation is really getting to me now.
The whole time at work before my break I was distracted and I can't have that. I couldn't help thinking about this situation with Santana though. I'm thinking of booking a therapy session next week to see if my therapist can shed some light on the situation because it must just be a pregnancy thing because Santana is still Santana, she just doesn't seem as into me anymore that's all.
"Hey you ok?" Martin asks as we eat lunch together. "You look deep in thought about something" he points out.
"Do I look ugly?" I ask causing Martin to spit out his water.
"Uh…what?" he asks nervously.
"Do I look ugly right now?" I repeat the question while standing up to give him a better look.
"I don't know what to say Brittany" he replies nervously.
"I'm not tricking you or anything, I just need to know if I look ugly because I think Santana thinks I do" I tell him.
"Come on Brittany, anyone can see how much Santana loves you" Martin tells me.
"Yeah I know she loves me, I get that" I say honestly. "I just don't think she's attracted to me anymore. She loves me as a person but right now I don't think she loves all of me if that makes sense" I tell him.
"Brittany I really don't think that can be true" he shakes his head.
"I'm telling you, I think Santana is repulsed by me" I say.
"That can't be true" he shakes his head again.
"It is because she barely kisses me anymore and when she does it's always on the cheek" I say.
"Just because she doesn't always kiss your lips doesn't mean there's something wrong" Martin points out.
"It's not just that though" I sigh. "She hasn't tried anything with me in months. I think it's because I look ugly while pregnant, I really do" I say honestly.
"What do you mean by tried anything with you?" Martin asks hesitantly.
"You know, initiated sex, that kind of thing" I reply.
"Ok I get you" Martin nods understanding.
"I want Santana so badly sometimes but I get the impression she'd rather not have me anywhere near her. I'll be lying in bed or something and she'll have just come out of the shower and all I want to do is rip her towel off but I can't" I admit.
"Um…ok" Martin says nervously.
"It doesn't exactly help that she's amazingly good in bed because it makes me miss it even more" I say shaking my head.
"Yeah I'm not…"
"I mean I know I can't be as energetic now that I'm pregnant but it's not like I can't do anything" I say. "I mean I can still give a very good…
"Brittany I want to be a good friend but this is going somewhere I'm not comfortable with" Martin says embarrassed interrupting me.
"Sorry" I apologise realising I may have shared a bit too much.
"Look I think the key here is just to talk to Santana" he replies.
"Yeah, maybe" I sigh. I'm still really confused and frustrated with this whole thing right now.
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"Honey is everything ok with you and Santana?" Emma asks me as we sit in the kitchen together.
"I think so, why?" I ask confused. I mean I know I have been feeling slightly insecure about stuff but I didn't think it was obvious to everyone.
"You seemed very short with each other earlier and you haven't been wearing your wedding ring for a while now" she points out.
"We weren't necessarily short with each other, we were just tired and bit irritable. Aiden has another couple of teeth coming in and he's not dealing with it as well as he did with the others" I reply. It's not a complete lie because that's true but that's not the full story though either.
"And what about the wedding ring?" she asks.
"If you must know, this pregnancy is doing really weird things to me. My hands have gotten so swollen that my rings don't fit me right now" I tell her.
"Ok" she nods just as Santana walks into the room. "Did anyone hear my phone ring there?" Emma asks while standing up and walking to the door.
"Nope I don't think it did" I reply. I know exactly what she's doing so her damn phone didn't ring.
"Yeah I'm definitely sure I did hear it so I better check it" she says before leaving. The bitch clearly thinks Santana and I should talk alone.
"You ok?" Santana asks walking over to me.
"Never been better" I shrug.
"What's going on Brittany?" Santana asks while leaning against the worktop to look at me.
"Nothing" I shake my head.
"Are we ok?" she asks.
"I don't know, you tell me" I say. I know I'm being immature but I don't know how else to handle a situation like this. It sounds like I'm getting pissed about my wife not wanting sex or something but it really is more than that.
"You're not wearing your ring again" Santana states.
"I know" I nod.
"Look is there something going on with us that I should know about?" she asks while sitting down next to me at the table.
"I don't know, you tell me" I say looking at her.
"What's that supposed to mean, I mean you keep saying that and I don't get it?" she frowns in confusion.
"I'm not the one who is acting weird around here" I state.
"Well actually you kinda are Britt" Santana sighs.
"Ok well tell me in what way" I say.
"For starters you used to always wear your wedding and engagement rings because you loved them and now you refuse to wear them" she replies.
"I don't refuse Santana, that's a strong word" I point out.
"Well regardless of whatever word you want to use, you still don't wear your rings anymore" she states annoyed. "I guess they just don't mean as much to you anymore or something" she shrugs.
"For crying out loud Santana, it's not that big of a deal. My hands are just swollen right now because of the pregnancy so I can't wear them. God why do you always have to think the worst in me" I say shaking my head.
"Oh" she replies feeling bad.
"Look Aiden is getting hungry so I think we should leave this for the moment and sort out dinner" I say and Santana nods.
The whole of dinner and thereafter was kinda awkward. Santana and I were being weird around one another which made Emma feel weird. After we put Aiden to bed, Emma and I hung out together while Santana went upstairs.
I'm now just walking into the bedroom to change for bed when I notice Santana fast asleep in bed. She is lying hugging the pillow so tight and I can't help but get jealous. I would give anything to be that pillow right now. I mean how ridiculous is that, I want to be a damn pillow?
"Uh…hi" Santana says while rubbing her eyes since she's just woke up. It takes me a second to realise I'm just standing there staring at her like a creep so I quickly turn around.
"I just came to get changed for bed" I tell her.
"I suppose I should too" she says looking at the time before getting out of bed. She grabs some pyjamas before stripping her clothes off. Oh Santana please put some clothes on babe. You're making me want you so bad right now.
"Honey are you ok?" Santana asks laughing, bringing me out of my thoughts.
"Uh…yeah" I say trying to bring myself back to reality. It's so hard wanting someone who basically seems repulsed by me.