Chapter 33: I want you
Brittany's POV
Monday 5th July 2021
Emma left for work early this morning so Aiden, Santana and I are all in the kitchen having breakfast. Things are still somewhat weird with us just now but I'm hoping it might help when I go to therapy today. I spoke to my manager and she's letting me leave early for my appointment.
"So I've managed to get some time off this afternoon so shall I pick you up and we can go together?" Santana asks.
"Go together where?" I frown in confusion.
"To your therapy session" she replies. "I could take you to work today since I'm working from home and pick you up later and we can go straight there or we can just meet, whatever you prefer."
"I think I need to go by myself Santana" I say honestly. No offence but I did want to talk about a few things I'm not overly comfortable talking about with Santana yet.
"But I want to support you" she says.
"I know you do but I need to go myself" I tell her.
"Ok" Santana replies sadly. "Maybe I can come another time" she says.
"Yeah maybe" I nod. "Plus I don't want Aiden going as well so it's probably best you stay here with him" I tell her.
"My mom isn't working today so she's going to have him" she replies. "I think my mom is going to look after him regardless this afternoon so if you change your mind then I can come."
"Thanks but its honestly ok" I assure her.
"Ok" she sighs.
"I need to get ready for work now but I'll be back down to say goodbye to Aiden" I tell her while getting up from the table.
"Ok" she nods and then I leave. As soon as I am ready, I go back downstairs.
"Mommy is going now baby" I say leaning down to Aiden. "Can I get a kiss goodbye?" I ask him.
"Yesss" he says excitedly while smiling at me. As soon as I press my lips together, he leans forward and kisses me.
"I'll see you later" I tell him while standing up again. "So I'm not sure when I'll be home" I say turning to Santana.
"That's fine" she smiles slightly.
"The therapy session is booked for 3pm but I don't know how long I'll be there or what the traffic will be like on the drive home" I say. "We can just sort out dinner when I get back. It'll likely be the two of us because you said your parents are having Aiden and I think Emma is staying at Artie's place tonight."
"Ok well I'll see you when I see you I guess" Santana says.
"Yeah, bye" I say and then leave.
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I've just walked into therapy and I'm actually quite nervous. Nothing scares me more than talking about how I feel in front of someone. I do want to get better but it is still really quite embarrassing.
"Hi Brittany, take a seat" the therapist smiles.
"Thanks" I say while sitting down.
"So you're pregnant again" the therapist smiles at me. "How is that going?" she asks.
"That's kind of the reason I'm here" I say honestly. "The pregnancy itself is what I expected which is fine but the things that come with it aren't so good."
"Ok so what kind of things?" she asks.
"My body I guess, I mean I was ok with it changing in the beginning but I think I've gotten more insecure now" I admit.
"Why do you think that?" the therapist asks.
"It's kind of embarrassing actually" I say nervously.
"I'm not here to judge so just tell me whenever you're ready" the therapist says.
"I feel like Santana doesn't like the change in me anymore" I tell her.
"Did Santana say that?" she asks.
"Not in so many words but I can just tell" I reply. "I'm not subtle with my actions, I'm very obvious about it most of the time and she just doesn't see it so clearly she's repulsed by me."
"Does she pull away whenever you go near her?" she asks.
"No but she does act slightly distant. I mean for example she only kisses me on the cheek nowadays no matter how hard I try to get her to kiss my lips" I say. "I also put on something sexy one night and all she said was I would get cold. She didn't even say anything about my breasts practically hanging out."
"I think you need to talk to Santana about this because it's hard to evaluate the situation when we don't know how she really feels" the therapist points out. "Either try talking to her at home or maybe you could both schedule a couple's session with me at some point" she suggests.
"Yeah I guess" I nod. I suppose someone needs to figure out how Santana feels first before we can move on in an appropriate way. It's ok hearing my side of things but we can't do anything until we hear Santana's. "So do I just go now?" I ask unsure of what to do.
"No we've still got a bit of time left so why don't we talk a little about you and how you're getting on" the therapist says.
"Ok" I nod.
"So have you had any worries about eating or anything like that recently?" she asks.
"Yeah" I reply.
"And what have you done to try and overcome them?" she asks.
"Well I've basically forced myself to eat sometimes or tried to distract myself when I am eating so I don't think about it too much" I reply honestly.
"Ok" the therapist nods. "So have you mentioned them to Santana?" she asks and I nod. "I'm guessing Santana is worried about you as well then."
"I suppose she is" I nod again.
"Maybe that's part of the reason why she's acting how she is then" she suggests. "She is perhaps just worried about you so she doesn't look at you like she wants to have sex all the time. She is looking at you in the way she wants to keep you safe and healthy. That night with the lingerie was maybe her trying to keep you warm than it was about something else" she points out.
"That is a fair point but she is deliberately holding back from me anyway" I say.
"Well like I say we'll sort that out so don't let it worry you" she assures me. We spend the remainder of the session talking about me and the ways I can overcome my issues with food. It's not necessarily a weight thing anymore, it's more about eating healthier and at appropriate times.
"How did therapy go?" Santana asks as soon as I walk in the front door of the house.
"Hello to you too" I say rolling my eyes while closing the door behind.
"I'm sorry, hi" she replies. "I've just been worried the whole time you've been away so I want to know how it went."
"It was fine" I tell her with a slight shrug.
"So what happened? What did you say and what did she tell you?" she asks curiously.
"If I wanted to divulge everything this soon then I'd have invited you to the session" I tell her while making my way upstairs to the bedroom.
"Where are you going?" Santana asks while quickly following me.
"I'm going to the garage" I say sarcastically causing Santana to roll her eyes. "Where do you think I'm going since I'm walking into the bedroom?" I ask rhetorically.
"Brittany I want to make sure you're ok" she tells me.
"Look just let me get changed" I snap while beginning to get out some clothes to change into. I'm still in my work clothes so I'm uncomfortable and all sweaty.
"Fine but after that I think it's time we have a talk" she says seriously. I don't reply, I just start changing into my other clothes and freshening up before moving to sit down on the bed.
"Talk then" I say looking at Santana.
"Why have you been snapping at me recently, like seriously Britt enough is enough" Santana says shaking her head. I guess she's just as tired as me with how much we've been fighting recently and hates it too.
"Because I want to fuck you so bad" I reply in frustration.
"Excuse me?" she asks slightly confused at my outburst.
"I want you so badly and I can't have you" I state. "I mean I might look the size of a beach whale but it doesn't mean I don't have needs."
"B-but why not?" she asks frowning because she's obviously still confused.
"Why not what?" I ask confused too.
"You say you want me so bad but you also say you can't have me. Why can't you have me?" Santana asks while sitting at the bottom of the bed from me.
"Because you don't want me anymore" I shrug. "You don't find me attractive anymore and I get it Santana, I really do because I wouldn't find me attractive either right now. What embarrasses me the most though is that you won't tell me how you feel so I have to act like an idiot to prove it for myself?"
"Let's back this thing right up, what makes you think this?" she asks confused.
"A lot of things Santana" I reply. "I just wish you could be honest with me and say you're repulsed by me because I'd rather that than to keep hanging on praying my hormones are fucking me up and I'm overreacting."
"Repulsed by you?" Santana asks shocked. "Brittany I still love you, that'll never change" she says moving closer to me.
"I know you love me Santana as in care about me; I just don't think you love me" I say gesturing up and down to myself.
"That's not true, I love all of you Brittany" she states.
"Please don't make this any harder than it already is" I say beginning to get teary. It is so embarrassing right now. "Don't just say things to make me feel better because it makes me feel worse when I realise it's not actually true. You need to be honest with me because protecting my feelings because I'm insecure gives me a false understanding."
"I'm not saying it because I don't want to hurt your feelings because you're having a rough time; I'm saying it because it's the truth" she tells me while leaning in to gently wipe a few tears from my cheek with her thumb.
"But it's not though is it?" I ask sniffing slightly since my nose has begun running since I'm upset.
"What makes you say this?" she asks holding my hand.
"You don't initiate things anymore so I don't know what's going on. I mean you don't always need to make the first move because sometimes people aren't like that but with us it's weird because I know you are like that" I say honestly. "You don't kiss me anymore unless it's on the cheek and any time I try to act sexy you completely dismiss it."
"Listen to me…" she says taking a hold of both of my hands before looking straight into my eyes. "I love you, I'm in love with you and I love everything about you. If I have been acting off recently then I most certainly don't mean to because nothing has changed about how I feel about you."
"It doesn't feel like that; it feels like you don't want me anymore" I say as tears continue to roll down my cheeks.
"I do want you Brittany, a little more than I should sometimes" she says chuckling slightly to herself.
"It doesn't feel like that Santana" I shake my head. "I want you and sometimes it's like you want nothing to do with me."
"Brittany you can have me whenever you want me" she assures me.
"Do you honestly think we're who we were 2 months ago?" I ask.
"No I mean I know things have changed between us but my feelings haven't changed" she states.
"So you know you've been holding back from me?" I ask and she nods. "Ok so that proves my point, you don't want to be with me like that."
"No I'm only doing that because I don't want to put pressure on you. I know how you feel about your body sometimes and how you can get slightly insecure so I don't want you to think I want sex all the time. I know with Aiden you weren't always in the mood so I'm trying to give you some space" she admits.
"There's space Santana and there's nonexistence" I state. If she was just giving me some space then we're well and truly past that stage now. She's basically not doing anything anymore.
"I just didn't want to pressure you and I also figured you had Emma to hang out with and give you support as well through the pregnancy so you didn't really need me at times so I backed off slightly" she says.
"This has been going on since before Emma came" I tell her.
"I know it has" she nods. "I have been holding back since we went on that mini vacation because you were always too tired for sex and I just didn't want you to think that was what I was after all the time so I held back."
"You didn't just hold back Santana, you stopped completely" I tell her.
"I'm not winning here Brittany, whatever I say to prove my point just isn't working because you come back with something else" she sighs.
"I'm sorry" I apologise. I guess I haven't been letting her explain properly.
"What do you want me to say?" she asks.
"I just want you to tell me honestly how you feel. I don't want you to hold back because you're worried about my mental health" I reply.
"My feelings have not changed one bit for you. They're all still there Brittany, I'm just withholding how I feel to keep the pressure off of you but I see now it's backfiring" she replies. "I'm still so insanely in love with you and I still find you the sexiest girl I know."
"Really?" I ask for clarification.
"I'm still into you 100%" she smiles.
"Ok" I say looking down embarrassed. I don't know what's worse, feeling so unattractive or accusing Santana of not being into me when she really is.
"If I need to prove it to you then I will" she smiles while letting go of my hands and wiping the tears from my cheeks again.
"Maybe you should" I joke trying to shake this embarrassing feeling away.
"Fine, lie down" she states.
"Right, ok" I laugh shaking my head at her.
"I'm serious, I will fuck you right now" she says.
"But…"
"Don't worry, I won't be rough or anything because you are pregnant" she assures me while leaning in to kiss me. The feeling of her lips on mine are almost electric. It's like so familiar but so new at the same time because it's been so long.
"Ok" I nod.
"Lie down" she whispers while pulling away to give me some room to move. As soon as I lie down, she hovers over me and attaches her lips to mine once again.
"Ok that is super sexy right now" I say starting to get turned on.
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Thursday 8th July 2021
I'm currently driving home after picking Aiden up from childcare. Work wasn't exactly stressful today but I am looking forward to getting home to spend some time with him. I know he's looking forward to getting a brother or sister but it will be a big change for him once they arrive because he won't be the only child anymore so I want to devote as much time as I can with him.
"Mommy?" Aiden asks from the back of the car.
"Yeah buddy" I say looking at him through the rear view mirror.
"Food?" he questions.
"As soon as we get home mom and I will make some food, ok?" I tell him.
"Mom" he says smiling at Santana's name being mentioned.
"That's right, mom is at home" I reply. As soon as we arrive home, I park in the drive and then get Aiden out of the back. When I place him on the ground he starts to run over to the door. "Aiden no running please in case you fall, walk nicely" I say while quickly following him.
"Ok" he smiles at me before reaching up to get the door handle but struggling since he can't reach.
"Mommy will get it" I tell him while opening the door. Once we step inside he grabs my hand. "Oh dear, this can't be good" I say as I walk into the kitchen with Aiden holding onto my hand to see Santana and Emma in there by themselves. "I don't like this because there's too many knives lying around and Aiden and I love you both so we both want you here" I tease.
"Very funny" Emma says smiling at me.
"So what's going on?" I ask.
"We're making dinner together" Santana smiles.
"Yes we are but it's almost ready so why don't I take Aiden to wash his hands" Emma says while walking over to us and taking Aiden's jacket off.
"Ok" I smile.
"Will you keep an eye on dinner Santana?" Emma asks while walking out the door with Aiden.
"Yeah no problem" Santana says just as they leave.
"So…hi" I say walking over to Santana.
"Hi" she smiles back before reaching out to take my hand to pull me closer to her. Ever since we had the conversation the other night, Santana can't keep her hands off me. "How was work?" she asks while wrapping her arms around my neck.
"Same shit but a different day really" I chuckle.
"I'll have you know I'm one of your patients and I don't appreciate being called shit" she smirks at me.
"No I don't mean that" I shake my head. "I would never speak about my patients like that, I meant like the same issues that keep occurring. I mean my boss sits in her office all day giving out orders and drinking coffee. She doesn't give a shit about anyone but herself and doesn't even do a bit of work. We've all to bend over backwards and do it for her while she takes the credit."
"I've always said you'd make a good manager, you should totally take her job. I mean it wouldn't be hard for you to run things because you pretty much do it anyway" Santana states.
"I think it would be too much stress but I appreciate how much you believe in me" I tell her while pulling out of the hold when I hear Aiden coming.
"Mommy look" Aiden says running into the room while holding his left index finger up in the air. When I look closer I realise he has a Band-Aid on it. "What happened sweetheart" I ask in concern.
"Absolutely nothing" Emma chuckles. "I was helping him wash his hands and he spotted them at the side and wanted to put one on. I think it's because they're patterned and have cars on them."
"Oh right" I say laughing.
"You won't be so excited when you hurt yourself and have to wear one of them for real Aid" Santana says while scooping him up. He doesn't say anything, he just shrugs at her like he doesn't care. "Hey did you miss me today?" she asks him.
"Yeah" he nods, "and mommy" he adds while looking over at me and pointing.
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After dinner Santana and I spent some time with Aiden before giving him a bath and reading him a bedtime story. We then spent some time downstairs watching a movie with Emma. We're now in our bedroom getting ready for bed. It's still a little early but for some reason I'm quite tired tonight so I think I might just get into bed when I'm ready.
"I was going to watch another movie in bed but I don't have to if you want some peace and quiet to go to sleep" Santana says noticing me yawning as I get changed.
"I am tired but go ahead and watch your movie because I don't suppose it'll keep me that awake" I smile.
"Ok" she smiles back just as we hear Aiden through the baby monitor beginning to cry.
"I'll go" I say while making my way to the door.
"Ok" Santana nods and then I leave. I'm only away for a matter of minutes before I go back to my bedroom. "Is he ok?" she asks in concern as soon as I walk back in.
"Yeah he just dropped Santana and couldn't reach him" I shrug.
"Him?" Santana questions, laughing slightly.
"Yeah" I nod. "Santana is a boy teddy remember" I tell her.
"No it's a girl" Santana shakes her head.
"Well I mean there's no definite way to tell but the other teddies had pink bows and this one has red so I'm guessing that could be the difference. Also from the day we got it for Aiden he has called it a boy" I reply.
"If I knew that I wouldn't have asked him to call it Santana" she laughs.
"If it helps I'll buy you a girl teddy and you can call it Aiden or something" I joke.
"Sounds good" she smiles. For the next few minutes we seem to fall into a bit of a silence as I get ready for bed. "Hey come here" she says patting the space on the bed next to her.
"I'm just about to brush my teeth" I tell her while walking towards the bathroom.
"Ok" she nods.
As soon as I'm done in the bathroom, I walk over to the bed and sit down. I grab my moisturiser from the side and begin putting it on some dry areas of skin. That's another wonderful perk of pregnancy getting dry skin in places.
"Are we ok now?" Santana asks quietly while moving down the bed to sit next to me.
"I think so" I shrug.
"It's just you've been quiet the last few days, do you not believe me still?" she asks sadly.
"No I do believe you" I smile. "I'm just honestly so embarrassed Santana. I shouldn't have doubted you like I did and I shouldn't have carried on the way I did either. You're not someone who lies so why I would ever think you wouldn't tell me if there was a problem is ridiculous. It's also really embarrassing how much I wanted to have sex with you."
"You have nothing to be embarrassed about" she assures me. "I probably went too far so I'm as much to blame as well."
"Shall we just try and forget about it then and promise to talk to one another when something is wrong?" I ask.
"Yeah" she smiles.
"Ok, good" I smile back while rubbing the back of my neck slightly.
"Do you want a neck and shoulder massage?" she asks as I continue rubbing my neck.
"No it's ok" I smile.
"Sit down baby" she smiles while moving to sit behind me as I sit on the edge of the bed. She begins massaging my shoulders. "Does that feel any better?" she asks.
"A little actually" I reply in relief. It actually is relieving some of the tightness I have.
"Good" she says while continuing to massage my shoulders before leaning down to kiss my neck lightly. God you have no idea how much I have missed this.
"I love you so much Santana" I say turning around slightly to look at her.
"I love you too and don't ever think I don't because I do" she assures me. "I know pregnancy changes your body but it doesn't mean I don't like it because I do, I love every single part of you."
"Ok" I smile. "But just please don't hold back from me because when I really don't want something I will tell you so you don't need to be afraid to get too close."
"I promise I won't do it again" she says leaning in to kiss me. "Come on, let's get into bed" she says while moving back up to the top of the bed. I then join her and we begin watching a movie.
"No" I say holding onto Santana tightly as I feel her trying to turn the other way.
"Ok" she smiles while moving back to how we were. I think I have been rather clingy with Santana recently but I don't think either of us care at this moment. I think we just want each other to know how much we love each other.
Santana's POV
Friday 9th July 2021
As soon as I am done in the shower, I dry off before wrapping my towel around me and heading downstairs. Artie is in the kitchen eating when I walk in to make a start on breakfast. After saying good morning I walk straight over to the coffee machine and get it fired up. I am so grateful for Brittany letting me have coffee again even though she can't. Today is a day I really need coffee because I've got a packed schedule ahead of me.
"Oh pancakes" I say noticing what Artie is eating. "I need to come up with more ideas for Aiden's breakfast because he's turning his nose up at a lot of things."
"There's enough pancakes there for everyone is you want to give him some" Artie replies.
"Ok cool, thank you" I smile while pouring my coffee.
"Morning" Brittany smiles brightly walking into the kitchen before quickly frowning once she scans the room.
"Morning" Artie replies looking up and smiling before going back to eating.
"Hi" Brittany says walking over to me and kissing me.
"Morning Britt" I smile.
"Oh what I'd do for coffee right now" she groans before pouring herself some orange juice.
"Where's Aid?" I ask.
"Emma has him but she'll be here just now" she replies.
"Cool" I smile before turning to look at Artie. "So how is the Henderson case coming along" I ask while moving from behind Brittany, who decided to stand right in front of me. I prefer talking to someone face to face rather than have someone blocking my view.
"Yeah not bad" Artie replies.
"Do we think our client has a good shot at winning?" I ask while moving from behind Brittany once more.
"I actually do" Artie nods. "We've got some very strong evidence that can help us" he tells me.
"Baby I love you but you keep blocking my view and I'm trying to discuss something with Artie" I say while moving from behind Brittany once more but she just moves with me. "I can't see past you babe" I point out.
"I know" she states.
"Well stop it please" I state moving once again.
"I'll stop when you stop flaunting your body in front of everyone" she says seriously.
"Oh come on babe, Artie is not interested in me, he loves your sister" I point out.
"I know but I still don't like it" she shakes her head. "Just please wear clothes in the kitchen from now on" she tells me and I nod.
"So Artie how are we…"
"Santana!" Brittany states interrupting me.
"What?" I ask.
"I thought you were going to put some clothes on?" she states.
"I just thought you meant from now on but you'll give me a pass for just now" I say honestly.
"I really don't like you dressed like this in front of people" she shakes her head.
"Ok I'll go and put some clothes on now" I say while placing my coffee cup down and walking to the door. "I won't be too long Artie so we can leave soon" I tell him.
"That's cool" Artie smiles.
As soon as I'm ready and have Aiden sorted, Artie and I head to work as does Brittany and Emma. Aiden was just staying with Brittany's parents today who had a day off so it was much easier to drop him off there and go straight to work instead of having to take him to childcare.
I know today is going to be a hard day at work so I'm trying to just think about Brittany and Aiden to keep myself upbeat so I don't get stressed out. I usually just work a half day on a Friday but with how busy we are then I'm staying on an extra couple of hours. It'll also be really beneficial to have that extra money once the baby comes and I'm not working.
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My work day has finally just ended and I'm currently walking into my house. Brittany texted me earlier and said she picked Aiden up already so I was able to drive straight home.
"Hey, it's me" I say announcing myself as I walk through the door.
"I'm in the kitchen babe" I hear Brittany reply so I drop my bag in the hall and go through to greet her.
"Hi" I say leaning in to kiss Brittany.
"Hi" she smiles at me. "Aiden is upstairs with Emma just now" she tells me.
"Cool" I say while reaching out to wrap my arms around her. "God I missed you a lot today" I tell her with a slight sigh. I am so relieved today is over.
"Hmm…someone is happy to see me" Brittany smiles.
"What…oh well I am happy to see you but that's actually just a packet of mints babe" I smile back gesturing to the mints in my pocket. "I had meetings all day and drank a lot of coffee so I didn't want to breathe coffee on everyone I talked to."
"That's a wise move because your coffee breath is the worst" she smirks.
"Hey cheeky, no extra loving for you tonight" I tease.
"Since when do we say extra loving" Brittany laughs. "Just say sex babe."
"I wasn't just talking about sex, I was talking about everything that we do before, during and after sex. I wasn't literally just talking about a quickie" I state.
"Ok" she smiles.
"So any ideas for dinner tonight?" I ask. We haven't planned anything to make and I am rather hungry right now.
"Actually I thought it might be nice for the 3 of us to go out for dinner" she replies. "Emma is cooking for Artie here so I thought it would make sense if we got out of their hair anyway."
"Sure I'd like to go out for dinner but I'll need to freshen up and change first" I tell her.
"Yeah that's cool" she smiles.
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Saturday 10th July 2021
I'm currently in the kitchen having some coffee while talking to Artie as he eats his breakfast. Emma is moving back into her apartment today so the house will finally be back to normal. I don't grudge helping family but it will be nice to get some time with just Aiden and Brittany before the baby comes.
"Morning everyone" Brittany smiles proudly walking into the room.
"Oh my goodness" I rush over to her with a dishtowel in hand. I have no idea why she isn't wearing a shirt or even a damn bra right now but I'm not wasting time in finding out. My wife's naked chest is on display so I just need to cover it with the towel.
"Whoa…uh…" Artie says nervously unsure about what to do.
"Artie get out of here please" I state and he quickly puts down his breakfast and begins moving towards the door.
"Babe are you ok" I hear Emma ask worriedly as she approaches as Artie crashes into the side of the door.
"Brittany is topless and I think Santana might kill me if I don't get out of here" he says panicked while trying to leave the kitchen as quickly as he can.
"Wait what?" Emma asks shocked turning around to look over at us. I'm currently still holding the towel over her chest trying to keep anyone from seeing it.
"Yeah they're completely on show" he states.
"Brittany what the hell?" Emma asks frowning at Brittany.
"Oh it's nothing you all haven't seen before. I mean we're sisters Emma and Santana's my wife" Brittany shrugs. Yeah I don't like this nonchalance about it.
"Yes but my boyfriend doesn't need to see your chest on display" Emma points out. "Come on babe, you go to the living room and I'll grab your breakfast" she says while picking up the plate and following Artie out the door.
"What is this Brittany?" I ask while shaking my head.
"You did it yesterday" Brittany shrugs.
"No I did not, I was in a towel" I state.
"You don't like it do you?" Brittany asks with a slight smirk across her face and I shake my head. "Think about how I felt yesterday" she states.
"I get that you didn't like it but I haven't done it since and my breasts were not on display like yours" I tell her.
"Don't you like them?" she asks. "They're bigger than usual because I'm pregnant and I actually think they're sexy" she says looking down at them.
"No matter whether you're pregnant or not, they're still very nice" I tell her. "The fact of the matter is though that I'd rather you kept that between us."
"Look Emma is moving back to her apartment today anyway" Brittany shrugs.
"I know but that's not the point babe" I tell her. "Your body is for my eyes only, ok?" I tell her.
"Ok" she smiles.
"I mean I totally get it because it's a great body so why shouldn't you show it off but the fact is that I like having something no one else has you know" I say honestly.
"Don't worry, it won't happen again" she assures me. "We are alone now though so if you want a sneak preview before later then remove the towel" she smirks.
"Sneak preview before later?" I question with a smirk. "What's happening later baby?"
"Well since we're hanging out with friends and Aiden is with his grandparents and Emma is moving back to her apartment then I think we should make most of the time together alone" she tells me.
"Sounds good because I have a lot of making up to do" I reply. I know I haven't been the greatest wife recently but I really didn't mean things to happen how they did. I honestly thought giving her space was what she needed because she was so stressed out the first pregnancy.
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Like planned, Brittany and I are hanging out with some friends. We're all at Quinn's place since Harry is with my parents who also happen to be looking after Aiden. We ordered some pizza to all share for dinner and now we're just hanging out in the living room.
"Since we're all kid free tonight, let's play a drinking game" Quinn smiles.
"Um…hello" I say to get everyone's attention. "I'm having a baby remember so I can't drink."
"Oh my god Santana, are you serious? Congratulations" Puck says hugging me.
"Wait…what?" I ask confused.
"I had no idea you were pregnant Santana. I mean what are the chances of you and Brittany being pregnant at the same time?" he smiles.
"What the fuck is going on here?" I ask very confused now.
"He's being a jackass because you made it sound like you're the one who's pregnant not me" Brittany states rolling her eyes at puck.
"I meant Brittany is pregnant so therefore she can't drink and I'm not going to drink either since she can't" I tell them.
"Look just have a drink Santana. I don't mind playing the game sober" Brittany smiles.
"Are you sure?" I ask to make sure she really doesn't mind.
"Honestly it's fine" she says while squeezing my hand in reassurance.
"Ok" I smile.
"So who wants to go first then?" Quinn asks while looking around the group.
"I suppose I could go" I shrug.
"Ok fire away then" Quinn smiles at me.
"Ok, never have I ever met someone as amazing as Brittany before" I say smiling at Brittany. There's a few chuckles from some of the others before Artie takes a drink. "Are you saying you've met someone better than my wife?" I ask looking at him.
"I mean Emma is pretty amazing" Artie shrugs.
"Ok well let's move on" Quinn says and then a few others begin taking turns. "Ok Sam, you're up" she says looking at him.
"Ok well, never have I ever seen Brittany naked" Sam states.
"Oh come on what kind of question is that" Brittany shakes her head while laughing. "Half of these questions have all been about me tonight, what's going on?"
"I think everyone should just respond to the question" Sam smiles. I obviously take a drink because on many occasions I've seen Brittany naked. Quinn, Artie, Emma and Puck then all take a drink.
"Puck come on, you've never seen me naked" Brittany laughs shaking her head.
"Never say never Britt" Puck smirks.
"Yeah let's say never" I say giving him a slightly playful glare.
"So we know why Santana is drinking but why are the others?" Tina asks.
"Unfortunate sister moment" Emma shrugs and we all nod because it makes sense.
"Yeah and I only saw her naked because we went on a photoshoot together a couple of years ago to get pictures. Brittany wanted to surprise Santana and I wanted to give Jason something" Quinn replies and I almost throw up a little in my mouth because I don't need to think about my brother and his sex life. I dare say they hate it when I talk about Brittany but still.
"But Artie why are you drinking?" Mercedes asks in confusion.
"It's a long story that I doubt Santana or Emma wants us to get into it but in my defence it wasn't fully naked, just a topless situation" Artie replies.
"Yeah it happened this morning actually" Emma says looking over at Brittany. I guess she's still a little annoyed about Brittany walking into the kitchen like that.
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Tuesday 27th July 2021
Brittany, Aiden and I are sitting together eating dinner. It's nights like this that get me excited about the new baby arriving because it's nice having family time together. I also can't wait to see Aiden with his little brother or sister. He's going to be such a great big brother.
"So how was everyone's day?" I ask looking at Aiden and Brittany.
"Ok" Aiden shrugs before picking up a carrot and eating it.
"That's good" I smile at him. "What about you Britt?" I ask looking at her.
"The usual really" she shrugs. "The more pregnant I am the less I can do so I'm pretty much sitting in front of a computer all day now because I can't do much of the physical work" she tells me.
"Does it bother you?" I ask trying to gauge how she feels about things.
"No I'm ok with it actually" she smiles. "I'm just happy to still be working right now because I don't want to start maternity leave too early and worry about money."
"Ok" I smile back.
"Anyway enough about me, how was your day?" she asks me.
"Not great actually because I saw a bit much of your sister today" I tell Brittany.
"I don't like where this is going because you two always fight but do elaborate" Brittany sighs.
"I don't just mean I saw her frequently, I mean the one time I did see her was far too much" I state while shaking my head.
"What are you talking about?" Brittany asks, losing interest slightly since Emma and I are always taking digs at one another.
"She was sat in my office naked" I say.
"I beg your pardon" Brittany asks, her head quickly turning to me and a glare etched across her face.
"This isn't a joke Brittany, I'm serious" I tell her.
"You're damn right it's not a joke. I don't find anything amusing about my wife and my sister in the same room with nudity involved. So what was going on or was this payback for what I did the other week in the kitchen?" she asks.
"No it wasn't payback, it turns out she wanted to surprise Artie" I say nonchalantly.
"Artie?" she questions. "Why would she think Artie would be in your office?" she asks confused.
"There was a leak in Artie's office again so we're sharing until it gets fixed" I reply.
"Oh right" Brittany nods understanding.
"Anyway enough about that, let's just enjoy our family dinner" I say smiling.
"Yeah" Brittany smiles back.
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Friday 30th July 2021
Another day from hell at work today but at least I'm finishing in two minutes and have the weekend off to spend with the people I love. I've just got a quick few emails to send and grab some documents to take home and I'm ready to go. I've just finished speaking to Artie so now I'm heading back to my office to finish up.
"Oh hey Britt" I smile while walking into my office noticing Brittany sitting behind my desk.
"Hi" she smiles slightly but also has a slight nervousness across her face.
"What's going on?" I ask while leaning over her to open up my email on my computer.
"I think your receptionist just saw me naked" Brittany says just as I begin typing an email causing me to hit a few too many wrong keys.
"Excuse me" I reply shocked while deleting the incomprehensible sentence.
"The story about Emma surprising Artie got me thinking that maybe I should surprise you" she starts. "As soon as I saw the door open I figured you were about to walk in so I dropped my coat and basically it wasn't you looking at me."
"Please tell me you had something on under the coat" I ask worriedly.
"I did…my birthday suit" she replies nervously
"Oh god, this day gets better and better" I shake my head. She already exposed herself to Artie the other week and now another colleague of mine has seen her naked.
"I'm so sorry, I just assumed it was you walking in" she says while taking my hand and squeezing it to make me feel better. "If it helps I covered up the moment I saw her and she walked right back out. I doubt she even registered what I looked like" she tells me.
"It's ok" I smile while leaning down to kiss the top of her head. "It's not ideal but I'll live with it."
"So you're not too mad then?" she asks.
"Of course not" I tell her honestly. There's no way I could be mad at Brittany right now. "So I've only got a few emails to send and to grab a few things and then we can go home" I say while going back to typing out the emails.
"That's cool" she smiles while sitting back on the chair to wait for me patiently. As soon as I am done, I grab my stuff and we leave the office.
"Shall I drive?" I ask as we make our way out to Brittany's car. I had to get a tyre fixed on mine so Brittany drove me to work this morning and was going to drive me home hence the reason she's here now.
"Yeah you might as well" she smiles while handing me the keys. I quickly grab the passenger door for Brittany before helping her into the car. "Thank you" she says gratefully. I then get into the car too and drive off.
"Babe" I say after 5 minutes of driving.
"Mm" she hums.
"Your hand is on my crotch right now" I tell her while momentarily glancing in her direction.
"I know" she smirks to herself while continuing to look out the window.
"Baby we're picking Aiden up soon so I can't get hard right now" I state.
"You can't or you just don't want to?" she smirks at me.
"It's not that I don't want to, I just don't think it's wise" I reply. Any other time I wouldn't be so bothered but we are in a car and we are about to pick up our son.
"Well would I be a bad parent if I texted my mom to say we're stuck in traffic so we're going to be a bit longer before we can get Aiden?" she asks.
"No you'd be a perfect wife" I smirk at her.
"Ok well we don't have time to go home so quickly make a detour and we'll park up in that spot on the country lane we used to like going to" she says.
"Are you sure you should be having car sex when you're pregnant, I'd hate one of us to get injured making a wrong move" I reply.
"It seems like its car sex or no sex baby so you decide" she smiles.
"Car sex and a popped hip coming right up" I smirk before driving faster along the road to get us there quicker.
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Friday 6th August 2021
Brittany and I are heading to an antenatal class today. We've been to quite a few when she was pregnant with Aiden but we didn't think it would do any harm to get a refresher with this pregnancy. I'm quite excited actually because it makes the prospect of having another baby more real because these classes are held 8-10 weeks before the birth so it means it's less than that before we get the baby.
"Ok I'm ready" I smile while walking down the stairs.
"You are?" Brittany looks at me confused from the bottom of the stairs.
"Yeah, don't I look ready" I frown while looking down at myself.
"We're going to a hospital babe not a nightclub, are you sure you need such fancy heels on?" she asks.
"They're not fancy plus I need the extra height so I'm in line with you" I smile.
"Don't get me wrong you look great but I'm just saying it's a hospital and I'm not exactly dressed up either" she replies. "Plus it might be better if you wear pants since we'll be sitting on the floor from time to time."
"Yeah maybe you are right because they'll probably want to go through birthing positions and breathing techniques at the antenatal class" I nod. "I'll be two seconds" I say before running back upstairs. As soon as I'm changed, we head out to the car and go to the hospital.
"Honey you know I love you but this is my place of work so let's be polite today ok?" Brittany says as we walk into the hospital.
"Yes mom" I smirk.
"Come on, you know what I mean" she says softly. "You can sometimes rile people up when you get excited about things and I like that you're happy but I do work here."
"It's ok, I get it" I smile back.
"Oh we're early" Brittany says as we walk into the room where the class is being held. "Hey why don't we just grab something to drink while we wait" she says while walking over to the table with the refreshments on it.
"Ok" I smile while walking over to the table behind Brittany. "I'm just grabbing some water, what do you want babe?" I ask.
"Water is fine for me too but I might actually use the bathroom before we start so can you grab me a water?" she replies.
"Of course" I smile and then Brittany heads to the bathroom. After I pick up the waters, I notice some cupcakes sitting on the table so I reach over to grab one for Brittany because she's got quite into cakes with this pregnancy. Just as I go to pick it up, someone else goes for the same one. "Sorry, on you go" I smile at the woman.
"No it's fine you have that one, I'll take the chocolate one" she replies.
"Ok" I shrug.
"So are you with someone here because you don't really look pregnant" the woman smiles.
"Yeah my wife is pregnant" I smile. "What about you?" I ask noticing the woman doesn't look pregnant either.
"I'm just here to support a friend" she replies. "Her idiot boyfriend is a little unpredictable so I'm going to be her birthing partner. I've got two kids of my own with my husband anyway so I know what it's like during pregnancy so I don't want her to do this by herself."
"Well that's very nice that you're supporting her" I tell her honestly.
"Yeah" the woman smiles. "So what about you, is this your first?" she asks.
"Second actually" I reply.
"I see, so are you hoping for a boy or girl?" she asks.
"Well we already have a son and my wife thinks he's a lot like me so I think I'd like maybe a little girl who is exactly like Brittany" I reply. I mean I don't actually mind but if I got to choose it might be nice to have a daughter.
"It makes sense" she smiles just as Brittany comes over to us.
"Hey" Brittany smiles at me.
"Hey" I smile back. "I got you a cupcake" I say while handing her a cupcake.
"Thank you" she replies.
"Well it was nice talking to you but we're going to get a seat now" I say to the woman.
"Yeah nice talking to you too" she smiles and then Brittany and I leave.
"Who was that?" Brittany asks curiously.
"I never actually got her name, we both just reached for the same cupcake and then got to talking" I tell her as we sit down.
"How romantic" she nods.
"What?" I ask laughing. "Baby are you jealous or something?"
"No…I mean I don't know…maybe" she sighs. "Look I don't want to keep you from talking to other people because you can talk to anyone you want. These pregnancy hormones are just doing stuff to me so I guess it does make me a little jealous when you talk to hot women who are so much hotter than me."
"You have nothing to worry about" I assure her.
"I know that but it doesn't help how I feel" she shrugs.
"Look at it this way, any woman can talk to me all they want but the woman who gets to go home with me all the time is you. The furthest a woman will ever get with me is talking whereas there are no limits for you" I smile while reassuringly taking her hand in mine.
"I guess that does make me feel a little better" she smiles.
"Good" I say while kissing her cheek.
"Hey do you want to split this with me?" she asks while taking a bite of the cupcake.
"Don't you want it all?" I ask and she shakes her head. "Ok I'll take a bite of it then" I smile while leaning over to bite the cupcake. As soon as we're done eating, the instructor walks into the room.
"Ok so if everyone would like to take a seat on the mats in their couples and form a circle" the instructor tells us. "Before we actually get started on some of the techniques I just want everyone to introduce themselves so we can all get to know each other because we'll be spending one day a week together for the next few weeks" she says and then some of the couples start introducing themselves. "Ok so who's next?" she asks looking at Brittany and me.
"I'm Santana and this is my wife Brittany and we're currently expecting our second child" I smile while gently caressing Brittany's stomach. "We have a one year old at home so we're going to be very busy."
"So how far along are you?" the instructor asks looking at Brittany.
"31 weeks" Brittany replies.
"Well congratulations to both of you" she smiles. "Ok, so who's next" she asks while looking at the next couple. As soon as all the couples are introduced, the instructor gets us all to sit on a mat each in our couples with the pregnant women sitting down with the partners sitting behind them.
"You smell really good babe" Brittany says turning her head slightly and smiling at me.
"Thanks" I smile back.
"Is it just my hormones tricking me right now because I'm pregnant or are you getting slightly turned on right now?" Brittany asks turning her head slightly again to look at me.
"Haven't you noticed how I keep moving about? I'm trying not to get hard babe" I smirk at her.
"I did actually wonder why you kept moving behind me" she smiles.
"I can't wait to get home" I whisper seductively.
"Me neither" Brittany whispers back while smiling at me.
"Hey when we get home we should…"
"I'm sorry but are we boring you Santana?" the instructor asks looking at me and raising an eyebrow.
"No sorry" I apologise.
"Ok well let's all pay attention" the instructor says before going back to teaching the class.
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After we were guided through all about the birth and what happens, the instructor moved on to teaching us some things about once the baby is born. We've each just been given our own doll and we're going to get shown how to swaddle the baby and put on a diaper. I know we've been to this before since we have Aiden but Brittany thought a little refresher wouldn't hurt.
"Is it weird that I think this doll looks like us?" I ask laughing.
"No it kinda does" Brittany smiles.
"Ok everyone, if you want to all get started" the instructor says and we all begin. She then makes her way around the room seeing how we get on. After a minute or so, Brittany and I finish.
"We're done" I scream holding the doll up in the air by its foot.
"That's good that you're done but this isn't a race. It's about quality not how quickly you can do it" the woman tells me.
"We're still finished first" I mumble.
"I assume you wouldn't hold your baby in the air upside down at home once you completed changing their diaper" she glares at me.
"No I would not" I state placing the doll on the table. Ok so the excitement got to me but I really wouldn't hold a baby up like that. I was just motivated to do well in this class that my excitement took over. Eventually everyone else finishes.
"Ok so we've actually finished a little earlier than planned so I thought since we have some time that we could look into some other techniques like CPR" the instructor says. "It's very important that you know what to do if your baby is chocking as well" she adds.
"Well that's obvious" I whisper sarcastically to Brittany.
"Babe, come on" Brittany says laughing while shaking her head at me.
"Well she's rubbed me up the wrong way because she had the cheek to think I would mistreat a baby" I state.
"Is there anyone here that would like to help demonstrate how CPR is done?" the instructor asks.
"I could easily do it" I say raising my hand.
"Ok" the woman nods, "come on up to the front then" she says and I go up to the front.
"I could do it on Brittany if it helps to use a live person" I shrug.
"No that really is not necessary" the woman frowns at me.