Chapter 41: Love
Santana's POV
Friday 4th February 2022
"Thank you for seeing me this morning" I say gratefully. "I wasn't sure how it worked because you were Brittany's specialist so I didn't know if you could help me or not" I add as I sit down in front of the therapist.
"I'm happy to help either of you" the therapist smiles. "So what's going on at the moment?" she asks curiously.
"Well there was a slight situation last weekend and I don't think it was handled in the best way" I admit. I don't think Brittany or I went about things the right way so I need some advice today.
"What happened?" she asks. I then go into detail about what happened at the weekend when Brittany got drunk and how we dealt with things the next day. "How do you feel about things now?" the therapist asks.
"I feel like I was too hard on Brittany last weekend which I didn't want but at the same time, I feel I had some right to be upset" I admit. "It's not the fact that she was drunk that upset me, it was more what she did when she was drunk that got to me."
"Is there a particular thing that annoys you or was it everything together?" the therapist asks.
"I don't know, it's hard to explain" I say. "I just didn't like the feeling I got that night where she was stripping in front of everyone and completely ignoring me."
"You were married before you met Brittany weren't you?" she asks.
"Yeah" I nod.
"What was that marriage like?" she asks.
"It wasn't great but I don't suppose our age helped either. I mean we met at 23 and were married by the time we were 24" I say.
"Isn't Brittany 24 right now so she would have got married at 21?" the therapist points out.
"Yeah but that's different" I state.
"In what way?" she asks curiously.
"Well I've certainly matured now and I have experience plus Brittany is quite mature for her age. I mean sure she does what other 24 year olds would do but on the whole she's a lot more mature than I was at 24" I reply. "Jen and I had no business getting married when we did because neither of us were that grown up whereas with Brittany it's different. We both wanted to be married and didn't jump right into it."
"So why did you and Jen end would you say" she asks curiously.
"My ex-wife cheated on me" I reply. "I mean that's not the only reason we broke up because she didn't fully admit to cheating on me until a lot later but I always knew there was someone else" I shrug.
"Do you still feel hurt by that?" she asks.
"I mean, it's hard to say" I shrug. "A part of me is like I shouldn't care anymore and another…"
"Why do you think you shouldn't care anymore?" the therapist asks interrupting me.
"Because I'm Brittany's wife now, not Jennifer's. She is a part of my past so I shouldn't let it affect me because it's irrelevant now" I reply.
"Ok" the therapist nods.
"Like I say though, sometimes I feel like I am still hurt. I mean it's not a nice feeling to know you committed to someone 100% and they treated you so harshly" I say.
"It is ok to still feel hurt by that because what you just said is completely true. When you do put that much work into a marriage and the other person doesn't, it's hard" the therapist agrees.
"I don't care about Jen anymore but I think I'll always have that insecurity in me unless I find a way to move past it" I say honestly. I don't want to think about Jen anymore but the way she made me feel still stays with me.
"Are you ever concerned that Brittany will do the same thing?" the therapist asks.
"Oh god no" I shake my head. I'm confident in that aspect of my marriage that Brittany and I would never do something like that. "I can say with certainty that neither Brittany nor I would ever cheat on the other."
"I'm not just talking about cheating" the therapist replies. "I mean in general, are you ever worried that Brittany might do something that could hurt you or make you feel the way you did when you were with Jennifer."
"Not really" I shake my head again. "Maybe I use the term 'hurt' a little too loosely because I can't say Brittany has ever hurt me. What happened at the weekend annoyed me but I think maybe hurt is too strong a word" I say honestly. Brittany has never made me feel the way I did when I was married to Jen.
"Ok, I understand" the therapist replies. "So back to what happened at the weekend, what do you think annoyed you the most?" she asks.
"I suppose it was the thought of all those people seeing Brittany the way I'm meant to only see her. Also the fact the guys were all drooling over her and egging her on didn't make matters better" I say.
"Do you go on vacation a lot?" the therapist asks.
"Um…" I'm not really sure how to answer because that seemed very random to ask right now.
"I know it seems a random question but it'll make sense in a second" she smiles. She obviously noticed the confusion on my face.
"I mean now and again we go away together. We've never had the opportunity to take Ella since she's only 3 months old but we've been on a family vacation last summer and have took Aiden a few trips" I reply.
"So have you perhaps went to the beach or sunbathed by the pool?" the therapist asks.
"Yeah, quite a few times" I nod. We like those kind of relaxing trips rather than doing activities every day.
"Ok so there's an opportunity there for you and Brittany to wear bikinis and such like in public, correct?" she asks.
"Yeah there is" I reply.
"Ok so I'm assuming the issue at the weekend is more to do with being drunk at the same time rather than being about the way Brittany was dressed" she points out.
"Crap…" I sigh. "I have majorly overreacted haven't I?" I shake my head. I shouldn't be pissed about Brittany taking her shirt off when clearly I'm comfortable when we're at the beach together or something.
"That's not what I'm saying at all" the therapist assures me. "I'm just trying to get to the bottom of what the issue actually is."
"Ok" I nod.
"Do you ever think there's a correlation between your first marriage and your marriage now?" she wonders.
"My first marriage was a disaster so I guess sometimes I might come on too strong about situations because I just want everything to be ok so badly. I don't want to make the same mistakes I did in my first marriage because I can see that being married to Brittany means a lot more to me than it ever did when I was married to Jen" I admit.
"Are you scared of having another failed marriage?" she asks.
"Yes, I mean wouldn't anyone be" I shrug. "The difference is that it's not about how I look or what people might think about me; it's about how much this marriage is worth fighting for. I don't care what people would say about me being divorced twice or whatever, I'm more concerned about ruining one of the best things I've ever had in my life."
"Ok" the therapist nods.
"People can call me whatever they want but if my marriage broke down I wouldn't be cut up about being a failure. I would be devastated that something so special that was worth fighting for didn't make it. Being married to Brittany and having her in my life is one of the best things I've ever had so if I screw that up then I know it'll be the worst moment of my life" I state. I know that fighting for my first marriage didn't matter to me but my marriage to Brittany is everything.
"So on the subject of failed marriages, do you feel that it could happen if you don't fight for it?" the therapist asks.
"I don't see us struggling right now but at the same time we do need to work on a few things. I'm not about to walk out on Brittany and I know she isn't about to end things either but I don't think we're being as open as we could" I reply.
"So if things do carry on without intervention then you think problems could start?" she asks and I nod. I mean we're ok at the moment but if we don't communicate better then years down the line things could just blow up and of course I don't want that. "Let's fix that then" she smiles.
"Yeah so how do I do that?" I ask.
"It's not just you Santana" she tells me. "I know you feel bad for the way things reacted after the weekend but I wouldn't say you're completely to blame. I would say you both need to work on a couple of things."
"Just a couple?" I laugh.
"Honestly you're being too hard on yourself" she tells me honestly. "I haven't seen Brittany in some time but I can honestly say you and Brittany have nothing to worry about. Just a few issues need ironed out and I think you'll be ok."
"Yeah I hope it's not too much we need to do because I hate fighting with Brittany and I know she hates it too" I say.
"You're both still young so as much as Brittany shouldn't have went as far as she did, it's not actually a surprise. It's not ideal but it is typical behaviour that sometimes you get too drunk and you're judgment becomes clouded" the therapist replies. "However I will help you both through it so don't worry" she smiles.
"Thank you" I smile back. For the rest of the session we talk through a few things and she tells me some ways Brittany and I could communicate better.
"Come back and see me anytime if you need to talk about anything" the therapist smiles.
"I will, thank you" I smile back and then leave. Once I'm in my car, I head straight home. As soon as I drive along the road, I notice Brittany's car parked outside in the drive obviously meaning she is home already. I park my car next to hers and then quickly head inside. I'm feeling a lot better about things now so I'm looking forward to having Brittany to myself for an hour or so before I need to pick up the kids.
"Hey, it's me" I announce my presence as I walk inside.
"I'm in the kitchen" Brittany replies so I make my way to the kitchen.
"Hi" I smile at her as she washes some dishes at the sink.
"Hey" she smiles back before going back to what she was doing.
"How was work?" I ask.
"Same as usual really so I'm just glad it's the weekend now" she says while finishing up with the dishes and turning around to lean against the counter.
"I'm glad it's the weekend too" I smile.
"Where's Aiden and Ella?" Brittany asks curiously.
"Still with my mom" I reply while taking my jacket off before walking over to her. "Dylan is at basketball practice so he won't be home until later either" I say while unzipping her sweater.
"What are you doing?" she asks sheepishly while watching my every move.
"You" I shrug.
"But why?" she asks while subconsciously tilting her head back as I kiss her neck.
"Why?" I chuckle slightly. I don't know why she would need to ask me why I would want to do that.
"Yeah, I mean aren't we still fighting or something" she shrugs while looking away from me.
"We were never fighting" I shake my head. "A situation occurred and we had to deal with it but I wouldn't say we fought about it."
"Ok" she nods.
"I'm still so madly in love with you" I say while gently turning her head towards me again so I can kiss her.
"Yeah me too" she smiles as we pull away from the kiss.
"You too are what, still so madly in love with yourself or you feel the same way about me?" I ask teasingly.
"I'm still so madly in love with you" she laughs while pulling me closer so she can wrap her arms around me.
"Shall we go upstairs?" I ask.
"Yeah" Brittany smiles. I then take her hand and lead her upstairs to our bedroom.
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"I went to see your therapist today" I say as Brittany and I lie in bed curled up together.
"You did?" Brittany asks surprised while turning her head slightly so she can look at me more.
"Yeah" I nod. "I felt like maybe I hadn't dealt with what happened at the weekend in the right way" I admit.
"I shouldn't have been so out of control but at the same time, I just wanted to have fun" she replies.
"I know and I overreacted at times" I tell her. "I don't want you to ever think I'm disappointed in you or anything like that because I'll never feel like that. Personally I just didn't like people looking at you like that but I know you didn't do it to annoy me" I say.
"I should have opened up to you though and maybe I wouldn't have let things get to me. I might not have felt how I did if I did talk to you before" she replies. "I just feel like I lean on you too much sometimes because you're my wife, not my life coach. I want our relationship to fun and happy, not depressing."
"I like it when we can talk to each other and can confide in one another about things. I don't find it depressing when we talk" I reassure her.
"Doesn't it get too much when I come to you with all my problems?" she asks.
"No definitely not" I shake my head. "There are different aspects to our relationship and I like that. I like when we're happy and having fun but I also like it when we talk to each other."
"Ok" Brittany nods.
"I think the general consensus today though was that I project my insecurities onto you sometimes and I guess it makes you feel like you need to be this perfect person for me when you don't. I love you for who you are so I don't want you to accommodate me and change. I just want you to be who you want to be" I smile.
"Maybe we're both trying to be too perfect for each other" Brittany shrugs.
"In the back of my mind, I've got that feeling I had in my first marriage so I don't ever want us to get to that stage so sometimes I panic. When things don't go the way I think they should, I get worried that something bad might happen but I think I just need to have more confidence that it won't be so bad" I tell her.
"Sometimes I want to be this person for you that just isn't possible to be. I don't want you to feel like you did with Jen so I try to overdo things to make sure you don't feel as down as you did with Jen" Brittany admits.
"Maybe we just need to start being our own person and our marriage will go hand in hand with that" I say. If we don't force something then surely it'll work out better.
"I mean what happened last week was a bit too much but maybe we both need to be less uptight. I mean I'm not going anywhere so you don't need to do anything special because I'll always be with you" she smiles.
"I feel the same" I smile back. "So as much as I like this, just lying here with you, I need to go and get the kids from my mom now" I say while regrettably getting out of bed.
"That's ok" Brittany smiles. "I'm just going to leer at you though while you get changed and then I'll get myself out of bed" she smirks.
"Works for me" I shrug.
"Do you ever just lie in bed and watch me?" she asks.
"Duh!" I say like it's obvious. "I do it all the time Britt because it's a very attractive sight watching you get changed. You're a very sexy lady" I smile.
"Now I don't want you to leave" she sighs playfully.
"I want to jump back into bed with you but my mom will be wondering where I am not to mention the kids will be getting antsy because they'll want home for their dinner and to play with their toys" I say while walking back over to the bed and leaning down to kiss Brittany. "I'll be as quick as I can though and then you can stare at me all you want for the rest of the night" I smile.
"It's not just staring I want to do to you" she smirks.
"I really need to go Britt and you're making this hard for me to leave" I point out.
"Is that the only thing that's hard?" she teases.
"Britt, please don't" I laugh.
"Don't what?" she asks while moving to kneel on the bed and wrap her arms around me. Ok how the hell am I meant to leave now? The covers aren't over her anymore so she's right in front of me naked with her arms around me.
"I really need to go and that's not easy to do when you're in front of me like that" I sigh.
"I know but it's so fun teasing you" she laughs.
"How would you like it if I lay there naked making remarks like you just did when you had to leave to go and get the kids?" I ask smiling.
"I wouldn't like it but knowing it's not going to happen right now allows me to tease you" she smirks. "I will stop though because I can see you really need to go and get the kids" she smiles.
"Thank you" I say before kissing her again. "I'll see you soon" I smile while walking towards the bedroom door.
"Babe" Brittany says while lying back down in bed.
"Yeah" I say pausing at the door for a moment.
"I love you" she smiles.
"I love you too" I smile back before winking at her. I then make my way downstairs and out the door so I can pick up Aiden and Ella.
Brittany's POV
My mood has really picked up today ever since Santana got home. I am so relieved everything is ok between us now and we can finally move on from last weekend's situation. It's been a tough few days for us because I don't think either of us knew how to act around the other but at the same time I think we both wanted to put it behind us and just make up. I am so glad we got that little bit of time just the two of us because it has made me feel a thousand times better. I mean I'm not just talking about the sex, I mean on a much deeper level. Just lying there talking Santana a bit ago really made a big difference because we somewhat managed to open up to one another and say where we think we're going wrong.
Santana still isn't back yet from collecting the kids so I'm just finishing some tidying that I started earlier downstairs. I'm just cleaning the kitchen worktops when I feel my phone vibrate in my pocket so I pull it out to see who has texted me. When I read the text I can't help but chuckle.
From Santana: not funny!
After she left to go and get the kids, I finally got myself out of bed and as I was about to put some clothes on, an idea popped into my head. I decided to take a picture of myself naked and send it to her because I just can't resist teasing her. I can just imagine her though talking to her mom about the kids or scolding Aiden for yet again jumping on something when her phone bleeps and she pulls it out to see a naked picture of me. Her face is most likely hilarious right now. Nevertheless I'm going to text her back anyway.
To Santana: I'm sorry, I just couldn't resist winding you up once more
From Santana: you're really not sorry though are you?
To Santana: no lol
Even though her text sounds a little serious, I know for a fact she isn't mad right now. I mean I'm sure she'd like to be with me right now but she knows she can't.
From Santana: Monday morning when you're at work I'm going to take naked selfies all day and constantly send you revealing photos and there will be nothing you can do about it
To Santana: I dare you to do that
I know she thinks she's trying to tease me back because come Monday I'll be back at work and she'll be at home since she hasn't started back work yet. The teasing isn't working though because I wouldn't mind a nice picture to brighten up my boring day at work.
From Santana: ok I will. Anyway I need to go now, see you soon x
As soon as I quickly type out a reply, I put my phone away and then go back to tidying up a bit and getting the kitchen straightened up.
"Hey" Dylan smiles while walking into the kitchen.
"Hey" I smile back. "Did you have a good practice?" I ask while getting some plates out for dinner.
"Really good actually" he nods. "We look to be in a good position going into our game on Monday so I'm hopeful we can win."
"That's good then" I smile. "I'm sorry I'm going to have to miss it though" I say honestly. I wanted to go to his game and support him but I've got a dental appointment that I've already rescheduled twice so I can't really change it again for a third time.
"Don't worry about it" Dylan waves it off like it's no big deal. "You guys don't need to come to my games because between basketball and soccer then there's too many games to be able to attend them all."
"We want to go and support you though" I tell him. "I think Santana might still be able to go on Monday because I can take Ella to the dentist with me and Aiden might just go to the game too" I say.
"Ok" he smiles. We then fall into a silence for a moment as I tidy up a bit and Dylan puts the washing machine on a cycle to wash his basketball kit.
"Are you ok?" I ask. He is unusually quiet at the moment because normally we would talk away to each other if we were in the same room.
"I know it's not really my place and tell me to mind my own business but I just wanted to ask how you and Santana were because I've been worried the last few days" Dylan says quietly.
"You don't need to be worried" I reassure him. "Santana and I are always going to be together so you really don't need to be concerned. Sometimes we have differences of opinions because we both view things very differently but at the bottom of it all, we're still very much in love."
"My relationship with my parents is weird as you know so I was never worried about them but you and Santana mean a lot to me and I know you're perfect for each other so it's worrying when I know something has happened" he replies.
"Honestly, Santana and I are good. Really good actually because we had a bit of a talk earlier and we've worked out a few things" I smile. "Relationships are never plain sailing though so don't be worried if we disagree. Chances are we'll have made up within the hour" I shrug.
"Ok, good" Dylan says relieved.
"Anyway, let's not dwell on the past. Everything is good now so why don't we decide what we want to eat. I'm thinking pizza but if you prefer a different kind of takeout then just say" I smile.
"Pizza is good for me" Dylan smiles back. "Anyway I'm just going to change before we have dinner" he says and I nod. He then goes upstairs to get sorted.
"Mommy!" Aiden screams while running into the kitchen.
"Hi buddy" I say lifting him up.
"Mom's mad" Aiden whispers in my ear while wrapping his arms around my neck.
"What happened?" I ask but Aiden just shrugs his shoulders.
"Aiden Lopez, where are you" Santana says seriously while walking into the kitchen carrying Ella in her car seat. "There you are" she says just noticing him in my arms.
"What's going on?" I ask.
"He ran onto the road again. He promised he would walk to the car nicely while my mom helped me outside to the car with Ella and all her stuff" Santana states unamused.
"That's not nice Aiden" I tell him.
"Sorry" Aiden mumbles into my neck.
"I think mom needs the apology more than me sweetheart" I tell him.
"Sorry" Aiden says looking at Santana.
"Why did you run like that" I ask him.
"My side" he states.
"Oh I see" Santana nods in understanding. "The way I was parked meant the side he was to sit at in the car was at the road whereas the side I was putting Ella in at was at the pavement."
"Makes sense" I nod.
"I suppose he didn't walk right out to the road, he just walked onto the road behind the car so maybe I got too panicked" Santana replies.
"Even still he knows he shouldn't even do that. He's not to the leave the pavement until one of us is with him so whether he looked or not wouldn't make a difference" I assure Santana.
"Do you understand you wait for us Aiden?" Santana asks him and he nods. "Good boy" she smiles before kissing his head.
"Hey, you're back" Dylan says walking back into the room.
"Dylan" Aiden squeals excitedly as soon as he sees him.
"Careful Aid, you're going to kick mommy" I say laughing as he wriggles about in my arms trying to get to Dylan. I then place him on the ground and he runs over to Dylan.
"We got new basketball shirts for our next game, do you want to see mine?" Dylan asks Aiden and he nods his head excitedly. "Come on, let's go" he says while taking Aiden upstairs.
"Aiden is hungry so we should think about dinner soon" Santana says while heading for the bathroom to get Ella's diaper changed.
"Dylan and I decided on pizza, is that good for you?" I ask following her.
"I can eat anything" she smiles while looking at me momentarily before going back to tending to Ella.
"Oh anything?" I smirk.
"Yes" she laughs.
"So you liked the picture then?" I ask.
"Of course I did but it did feel weird looking at it when my mom was in mid conversation with me and Aiden was staring at me because I stole a candy from my dad and was eating it" she states.
"Sorry" I apologise.
"I think we established you weren't sorry" she smiles.
"Yeah I don't know why I keep saying that" I say laughing. "Anyway let's sort dinner. You finish up here and I'll order the pizza" I say before leaving the room. As soon as it's ordered we all do what we need to do just before the pizza is delivered. We're now all sitting down together eating.
"Can I go out tonight?" Dylan asks.
"You can if you want" Santana smiles. "I need to know where you're going though" she adds.
"It's a party" he says nervously.
"I'm going to let you go but you have to promise me you'll behave" Santana says after a second. "We were all 16 once but don't take advantage of me for letting you go. You can have a few drinks but please don't let things get out of hand. Don't let anyone encourage you to do something you don't want to and come home as soon as you've had enough. Don't just stay because you think you should since your friends are staying" she tells him.
"My friends and I aren't really like that anyway" Dylan nods.
"We trust you, ok?" I say.
"I won't let either of you down, well I might let you down Brittany because I don't want to lose my shirt tonight" he teases.
"Ok, I deserved that" I laugh.
"That was good" Santana laughs while high fiving Dylan. I am so glad we can all laugh about it now because I really didn't mean it to go that far at the weekend.
"Seriously though, I won't let you down" Dylan states. Once we're all finished, we get cleared up and then Dylan gets ready to go out. Santana and I play with the kids for a while before getting them bathed and putting them to bed. Dylan has just left now so it's just Santana and I sitting in the living room together.
"Dylan is out now and the kids are asleep so do you want to do something together?" Santana asks. "We could watch a movie" she suggests.
"Or we could pick up where we left off this afternoon" I smirk.
"I think I like your idea better" she nods.
"Good" I say while pulling her down towards me so she falls onto the couch next to me. I then lean in and kiss her.
Santana's POV
Monday 14th February 2022
I'm currently on the phone catching up with Quinn. We haven't had a chance to talk in a while because we've just been so busy with our own stuff. The kids are taking up most of our time so it's nice to sit down and catch up over the phone every once in a while.
"Are you serious?" I ask Quinn excitedly.
"What's going on babe?" Brittany whispers as she sits down next to me and wraps my free arm around her.
"I'll tell you in a second" I whisper back before going to talk to Quinn again.
"So are you doing anything special tonight since its valentine's day?" I ask. "Yeah we're not really doing anything that much either since the kids are here… Anyway Britt's home now so I better go, I'll talk to again sometime" I say before hanging up.
"So what's going on with Quinn?" Brittany asks curiously.
"Jason proposed this morning" I tell her.
"That's so cute" she smiles.
"They've had a complicated relationship so I'm glad they're finally settling down and are happy" I say honestly.
"I'm happy for them too" Brittany smiles.
"Happy Valentine's Day by the way" I say leaning over to kiss her. "I'm sorry I haven't said it sooner but I was half asleep this morning when you left for work."
"Don't worry about it" she smiles. "I know you were up half the night with Ella so I'm not bothered about it."
"Ok, good" I smile.
"So I know we said we weren't going to make a big deal about Valentine's Day but I did get you a card" she smiles while handing me the envelope.
"Funny you say that actually because I got you one too" I laugh while leaning over the couch to get the card I had hidden for Brittany at the side. "There you go" I say handing her the card. We both then open our cards.
"Why don't I put them up somewhere" Brittany says while taking my card and standing up. She then looks around the room for a moment before finding a good spot to put both of the cards up. "I actually have something else for you" she says before disappearing out the room to only come back in a second or two later. She then pulls out a large bunch of roses from behind her back.
"Britt, they're beautiful" I say smiling.
"Not as beautiful as you but yeah they're nice flowers" she shrugs.
"Come here" I say and she steps closer so I can kiss her. "Now I didn't get you a present but I am making you a special dinner tonight. Aiden and Ella have already eaten so I think our dinner will be ready just in time for them going to bed."
"Sounds good" she smiles.
"Dylan ate with some friends after basketball practice so he's upstairs doing homework now so it'll just be the two of us" I tell her.
"Have I got some time to go and change and spend some time with the kids before dinner then?" she asks.
"Yeah of course. Go and do what you need to do and I'll let you know when dinner is ready" I tell her and she nods before leaving. I then put the flowers in some water and go and see what else needs done for dinner.
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"What's happened to the mashed potatoes?" Brittany asks walking into the kitchen.
"Nothing, why don't they look good?" I frown in confusion.
"They just look a little lumpy, that's all" Brittany shrugs.
"You'll look a little lumpy in a minute" I tease.
"Put your hands on me all you want. You know I love it whenever your hands on me, no matter which way or why" she smirks.
"Ok that's not how it's supposed to go" I shake my head with a smile. "You're supposed to say you're sorry because you don't want us to fight and I'll say it's ok so you're forgiven, then we'll kiss and make up."
"We could still do that anyways" she smiles.
"I suppose" I smile back.
"So do you need any help with dinner then?" she asks while sitting down at the table.
"No I'm good thank you" I smile again and she nods.
"Drink?" I ask while holding up the bottle of wine.
"No I better not" Brittany shakes her head.
"Honey, you don't need to stay away from alcohol" I tell her. "You got drunk one time, that happens to everyone at some point or another."
"Yes but I got drunk and disrespected you. That is not a chance I want to take again" she states.
"Honey it's just one drink to have with dinner since its Valentine's Day" I say. I mean she doesn't need to drink if she doesn't want to but I want to make sure it's because she just doesn't want to and it's not because she's still feeling bad about a few weeks ago.
"Honestly, I don't want one" she shrugs.
"Ok babe" I smile while putting the wine back down.
"You have some though" she tells me.
"No I'm ok without" I smile. "Seriously though babe, don't be not drinking because of me. I was way too hard you on Brittany" I say shaking my head.
"I know we've sorted things out so let's leave what happened in the past" she smiles. "I think you were fair enough with me so don't you be worried either, ok?"
"Ok" I smile.
"I just don't really feel like drinking since I'm working tomorrow but all I'm saying is if I do have a drink again then I'll be more careful. I won't let things get out of hand" she says while walking over to me.
"Let's both agree to communicate better in the future" I smile.
"Yes" she smiles back before wrapping her arms around my neck. "Did I tell you how hot you looked tonight?" she asks.
"I don't think so but I'm not surprised because I'm dressed in sweatpants. They're not exactly the sexiest of clothing" I say.
"Ok but the girl in the sweatpants is the sexiest girl alive" she smiles. I'm literally melting inside with happiness. I am so happy Brittany and I are in a good place again because when we're good we're really good if that makes sense.
"I don't know if I can agree with that because I kinda like to think you're the hottest girl around here" I smile.
"Let's say we're both the hottest shall we" she laughs.
"I can go with that" I say before leaning up to kiss her.