Chapter 44: You're leaving me
Santana's POV
Monday 25th April 2022
I'm just in the kitchen making the children some breakfast right now. I can't exactly say I'm in the best of moods this morning so I don't know how I'm going to manage to work from home today. It's hard enough working with two small children to take care of at the same time but it's even harder when you have a lack of concentration too. Brittany dropped some news on me a few days ago and it's been playing on my mind ever since.
"Morning" I smile at Brittany as she walks into the kitchen.
"Morning" she smiles back while making her way over to me. "How are you?" she asks before pecking me on the lips.
"Hmm, let's see" I say pondering the thought. "Well my wife is leaving me so I'm not overly good if I'm honest" I say smirking at her.
"I'm not leaving you" Brittany says laughing. "I'm going away for a work thing for 2 days" she adds.
"I know but you still won't be here for 2 days and I'll be all alone" I reply.
"Aiden and Ella will be here babe" she points out.
"I know that but it's not the same" I sigh. I know Brittany needs to go to this work thing since it's compulsory but it doesn't make it any easier. I would have much preferred to go with her and take the kids like we did the last time I had to go away but we can't do that. I've only been back at work a few weeks so I can't leave again already and the children have just started at day-care at the hospital so I don't want to mess that routine up either.
"I know you said last night you wished you could come and I want that too, I do" Brittany assures me. "But there is really no way I can reschedule this seminar we have to go to because it's compulsory for my job. I've already rescheduled it because it clashed with the children starting at day-care so I really need to go to this one now" she states.
"I just don't like the thought of you going away on your own" I say. I mean I'm also apprehensive about looking after the kids all by myself for a couple of days but the main thing I'm worried about is Brittany going somewhere on her own. Its one thing to go away for the day herself or something but not on a plane to another state for 2 whole days where she knows no one.
"I'm not on my own babe" Brittany shakes her head. "Didn't I tell you a couple of us were going?" she says frowning in confusion.
"No you didn't" I reply.
"Well yeah there are 3 of us going plus Maxine's husband is coming" Brittany replies.
"So who is the third person?" I ask curiously.
"Martin" she shrugs.
"Is Martin's girlfriend going?" I ask.
"No she's heavily pregnant at the moment so they don't want her to fly" she replies. "It's just myself, Martin and Maxine that are going to the seminar and like I say Maxine's husband is tagging along with her and they might stay a few extra days and have a mini vacation."
"Ok" I nod.
"I doubt we'll see much of Maxine though. She and her husband got married not so long ago so they're still in a honeymoon sort of phase at the moment" Brittany laughs.
"So you'll probably hang around with Martin a lot then?" I say, beginning to become sceptical about this little trip.
"Yeah, probably" she smiles.
"So my wife is basically going on a trip with some random dude?" I say. I'm not sure how I feel about this because it's not just a work thing when you're going on aeroplanes and staying in fancy hotels.
"Santana, come on" Brittany says stepping closer to me. "You can 100% trust me, you know that" she says while wrapping her arms around my neck.
"I know but do I trust him is the question?" I state.
"He might not be married to Ashely but they are in a committed relationship and they are having a baby together. There is no reason to not trust either of us" she tells me.
"He and Ashley were having some problems though, weren't they?" I ask.
"Yes but that was to do with the pregnancy and all the worries they were having after Ashley miscarried during a previous pregnancy" Brittany replies. "Babe you and I have been through some stuff but it's never tore us apart so I'm sure Martin and Ashely will be just fine."
"He's a good looking young man and you know you're a very attractive woman so yeah it's concerning" I admit. I'm not proud of how I feel but I have always got a slight impression that Martin likes Brittany.
"This is strictly a work thing babe. The 4 of us will get the same flight and share the same hotel so it's not like it's just Martin and I going alone. I mean I'd imagine Maxine and her husband will share a room but I most certainly will have my own room as will Martin" she says trying to reassure me.
"Ok" I nod.
"Look I don't want to go as much as you don't want me to go but like I said, this is a compulsory seminar we need to go to" Brittany states. "I know you don't want to miss work either so I think this is the best way right now but I do promise to keep in contact as much as I can."
"I suppose" I sigh. It's not just about Brittany going somewhere with someone else, it's also the fact that this could have been an opportunity for us to have a small vacation together. I feel like it's been ages since we had the chance to relax and not worry about work or something.
"I need to get ready for work now but if you want we can talk more about this later" Brittany says pulling away from me.
"Yeah I should get the kids sorted out" I smile.
"Just don't stress yourself about this because it'll make you feel worse" she says while kissing my cheek before going to make herself some coffee. I suppose she does have a point because if I keep over thinking it then I am going to look for things that aren't there.
"Do you want me to make you something to eat and you can get showered?" I offer.
"Are you saying I smell Santana Lopez?" she asks while walking back over to me.
"Absolutely not" I shake my head. "I just thought you might want some help to get organised so I thought you could shower like you usually do while I make you breakfast."
"If you really want to help then I think I'd prefer you to help me in the shower rather than make me breakfast" she smirks while wrapping her arms around my waist.
"That is a very tempting offer…" I say with a smile while wrapping my arms around her neck.
"I feel a but is coming on" she smirks.
"There is one" I smile. "I need to get the children fed so I don't really have time to help you in the shower but I'm definitely happy for us to reschedule."
"I'm happy with that too" she smiles back.
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The whole time Brittany was at work and I was working from home, I couldn't concentrate one bit. The children weren't really any bother today which was good but it wasn't really them that was preoccupying my mind; it was Brittany. I'm still not sure how I feel about her going away for a few days. I know its work and she has to do it but we've never been apart like that since we got together and she's not exactly going with anyone she knows that well. I mean I know she can do what she wants because I don't want to sound like I'm controlling her but it's not just about that either. It might sound slightly selfish on my part but I'm actually concerned about being alone with the children for 2 whole days. I've never done that before and I know a lot of moms out there might have to but because I've always had Brittany to co-parent with me then it's making me nervous. How am I meant to cope with two small children on my own?
"Hi" Brittany says causing me to jump with fright. "I'm sorry" she says laughing slightly at my reaction as she wraps her arms around my waist from behind.
"I was so lost in my thoughts that I didn't even know you got home already" I smile while turning around in her arms.
"You are so cute when you get a fright" she smiles at me.
"It's not a cute feeling. My heart is racing babe" I reply as I wrap my arms around her neck.
"That's usually a good sign when I make your heart race" she smirks at me before winking.
"That's true" I laugh. There's a comfortable silence that fills the room for a few minutes as we just make the most of the peace and quiet, staring lovingly into each other's eyes.
"Stop, please" Brittany says softly, breaking the silence.
"Stop what" I frown in confusion.
"Worrying about me going away" she states.
"How did you…"
"I can tell when there's something up babe" she replies. "I know you've been worrying about it all day but I don't want you to be."
"I've never looked after the children for 2 whole days all by myself so I don't know how easy it's going to be" I say with a sigh.
"I feel so bad for leaving, I really do Santana" she says honestly. "If there was any way to take you all then I would but I don't think there is."
"Yeah I know" I nod.
"Can't we ask your mom to come and stay?" she suggests. "She could help out with the kids and you wouldn't feel as alone. I mean she has 4 children herself so she'll know how to handle this" she smiles.
"I did think of that but I think I need to try on my own even though I'm not looking forward to it" I admit. I'm never going to learn if I don't try so maybe this is what I need to do.
"You're a great mother Santana so be confident about that" Brittany says smiling. "I know you're going to be fine because you look after the children yourself most days of the week so there isn't anything to worry about" she says before kissing the top of my head.
"I hope so" I nod. My only concern is that Aiden and Ella will sense something is wrong since Brittany isn't there so they might get unsettled.
After having dinner together with Aiden and Ella, we spent some time with them before bathing them and putting them to bed. Ella went to sleep quite quickly but Aiden was awake for longer so Brittany and I spent some extra time with him reading a book until he fell asleep. I'm now just lying in bed keeping one eye on the TV and the other eye on Brittany who is at her closet going through some of the things she needs to take with her on her work trip.
"Hey, come here for a second" I say walking over to Brittany.
"I'm busy right now" she smiles at me.
"It's just for a second, come on" I say while pulling on her arm pulling her away from the suitcase.
"Ok but just for a few seconds because I'm in the middle of packing and I won't have much time to do it tomorrow" she tells me. We walk over to the bed and I lie down, pulling Brittany with me and wrapping my arms tightly around her. "What are you watching on TV?" she asks.
"I wasn't really paying attention to it to be honest but I think it's some gameshow or something" I shrug.
"It doesn't look all that good actually" Brittany laughs.
"It probably isn't. I just put any old channel on to pass the time while you were busy" I say.
"Speaking of busy, I should really finish what I was doing" she replies.
"Spend a few more minutes with me, please" I smile at her.
"Ok fine but only because you're making that cute face and I can never refuse that" Brittany smiles back.
"Good" I smile again. We fall into a bit of silence for the next few minutes, just enjoying being together in each other's arms.
"Roll any closer to me and you'll be on top of me" Brittany laughs.
"Sort of the point babe" I smirk.
"Honey I really do need to pack" she says, knowing now what my intentions were.
"The kids are asleep and we're alone, in bed together. Are you sure you would really rather pack than have sex with me?" I ask.
"No I wouldn't rather that. I just think I should get organised because I am working tomorrow so I don't have a lot of time tomorrow night to get organised. I don't want to leave everything until the last minute and get stressed" Brittany replies.
"I'll help you pack tomorrow, I promise" I say smiling while moving slightly to take my shirt off. I then lean down and kiss Brittany.
"There's no point in trying to fight this is there?" she asks.
"Not really because I'll win anyways" I smirk.
"Fine" she playfully sighs. "Just undress me then Lopez" she smirks.
"With pleasure" I smile brightly. I then slowly start undressing us both while kissing Brittany every now and again. As soon as I'm done, I pull Brittany onto my lap and reach up to kiss her. I slowly caress her back as I leave kisses down her cheek to her neck and across her collarbone. I'm just getting into a nice rhythm, when suddenly a phone rings.
"Oh that's me" Brittany says leaning over and picking up her phone.
"Ignore it" I say as I continue kissing a trail down her neck.
"It might be important though" she points out.
"Then they'll leave a message" I state. I'm in no mood for being interrupted now. I've just got Brittany naked so I'm not about to stop.
"It's my sister, I probably should get it. I haven't spoke to her in a while" she replies.
"Babe, come on" I shake my head while trying to take the phone from her.
"Sorry" she apologises before answering the phone. "Hey honey, what's up?" she asks Emma.
"What's up? I'm up" I whisper in her ear as I grind upwards towards her causing my hard-on to press against her centre. She just shakes her head at me in response.
"Did you tell him that and explain?" Brittany asks as she continues to talk to Emma. She might want to talk to her sister but that doesn't mean I want to stop so I continue my assault on her neck with my kisses. She tilts her head back slightly to give me more space but she doesn't stop talking to Emma. After a few moments though I've had enough so I take the phone from her.
"We're naked right now so it's really not a good time Emma" I say before hanging up the phone. I then throw it to the bottom of the bed and turn my attention to my very naked and very sexy wife.
"You're bad, very bad" Brittany smirks.
"I know but you're going away on Wednesday so I'd rather you spent the time before with me instead of your annoying sister" I state.
"She's going through some stuff babe, she needs me" Brittany smiles.
"I need you" I say. "Now to be precise" I add.
"Yeah I gathered that" she laughs.
"I don't want to have to beg but…"
"I like it when you beg" she teases. "You're very sexy when you want something really badly" she says.
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Wednesday 27th April 2022
Aiden, Ella and I are all at the airport with Brittany. I know she needs to go away but I just really don't want her to. I don't know if it's just because I'll miss her and we're never really apart or if it's because I'm going to be on my own with the children. It's hard sometimes just parenting them during the day on my own when Brittany is at work so goodness knows how it's going to go with 2 whole days.
"Ok well this is as far as you can all go" Brittany says while turning around to look at me.
"I guess we need to say goodbye then" I say.
"Yeah" she nods before kneeling down to the kids. "I love you both so much" she tells Aiden and Ella.
"Mommy, no" Aiden says tearfully.
"You have mom and your sister there to keep you company when I'm gone. It really won't feel like long buddy" Brittany says trying to reassure him.
"I want to go" Aiden states as a few tears run down his cheeks.
"It's a grown up work trip for mommy, you can't go sweetheart" Brittany says while hugging him.
"Mom go" Aiden says causing me to laugh.
"No mom can't go instead of mommy" I reply. "It's very charming though knowing you would rather I left than mommy" I tease.
"Mommy" Aiden says in tears as he clings onto Brittany tightly.
"We'll all miss mommy but like she said it really won't be long. The 3 of us can have fun and we could even make mommy a little surprise for coming home" I tell Aiden.
"No" Aiden states firmly.
"I can't do this Santana" Brittany says looking at me with tears in her eyes. "I'll just need to phone my manager and tell her that I can't go."
"You're getting on that plane Brittany" I tell her. I know I said I don't want her to go but she does have to because she's put it off a couple of times before.
"But…"
"Aiden will be fine, I promise" I tell her. "He's just upset right now but he'll be fine in 10 minutes" I say. I hate seeing him upset but he was like this the first day of day-care and he's great now. It's just what happens and we need to deal with it as much as it pains us.
"Ok" she smiles slightly while standing up with Aiden in her arms. "I promise I'll be home before you know it" she says while sitting Aiden into the double stroller.
"Ok" Aiden says sadly.
"I'm only going away for two days but this is so hard" Brittany says turning to look at me and laughing slightly. By the way we're reacting you would think she's going away for months.
"I know" I say pulling her into a hug.
"I love you so much" she says while holding me tightly.
"Yeah I know" I reply. After a few seconds she pulls out of the hug and gives me a questioning look. "What?" I ask.
"Wouldn't you like to say something back?" she asks.
"Thank you" I shrug.
"You're supposed to say you love me so much too" she tells me.
"I know" I laugh. "If I don't joke around and laugh right now then I'm going to cry and I don't want to do that right now" I add.
"Ok" she laughs.
"I do love you so much though" I say genuinely. "Come here" I say pulling her back to me before kissing her.
"We're going to scar the children but I don't care" she says while letting the kiss last a little longer before we pull away.
"Call me when you land, ok?" I tell her worriedly.
"Yes Santana, I'll call you" she says smiling at me. "Just stop worrying, everything will be fine" she adds.
"We're never that far away from each other so it worries me that something could happen and I'm miles away from you" I reply.
"We can do this, it's only 2 days" she smiles.
"Talk to you soon" I say.
"Yeah" she smiles. "Bye Aiden, bye Ella" she says before quickly kissing them and then leaving. We watch her walk away before I turn around with the children and head to the exit when Brittany is out of sight.
"Just the 3 of us now" I tell them.
Brittany's POV
Thursday 28th April 2022
My colleagues and I are finally leaving our last seminar of the day. Not only did the day drag on because I missed Santana and the kids but it also felt so long because each seminar we went to was so boring.
"That was a long and boring day today" I say to Martin as we make our way upstairs to our hotel rooms.
"Tell me about it" Martin laughs.
"I am so glad it's over but also dreading tomorrow if it's going to be like this again" I point out.
"I feel the same" Martin nods in agreement. "I am so hungry right now. I don't think I've went that long without eating before" he says.
"Yeah I can't wait to get some food" I reply. We barely got any time on our breaks to eat because the hall where the seminars were held was nowhere near any food areas.
"I don't want to leave you on your own to get dinner but I was thinking of just going back to my room and ordering room service and calling Ashely" Martin says.
"Funny you say that actually, I was just going to say I was thinking the same thing because I promised to facetime Santana" I say laughing. I am so glad Martin and I are on the same page here and have the same ideas because I have been slightly worried about how things would play out. I of course don't want Santana to get worried but I don't want to leave Martin on his own either.
"I'll come by your room in the morning then and we can get breakfast together before going to the last seminar" he suggests.
"Sounds good" I smile. We then go to our separate rooms. As soon as I get into mine, I throw my stuff to the floor and order room service. I love Santana a lot obviously but right now I love food just that little bit more so I need to order my food before calling her. As soon as the food is ordered, I sit on the bed and facetime Santana. It really doesn't take her long to answer.
"Hey babe" she smiles brightly.
"Hey you" I smile back.
"You're just in time because I'm about to put the kids to bed. Well Ella is actually already sleeping but Aiden is just about to go to bed" she says while walking into Ella's room. "Do you want to whisper goodnight to Ella?"
"Yes please" I reply. Santana moves the phone so I can see Ella. "Goodnight sweetheart" I whisper to her. "Can you kiss her for me?" I ask Santana.
"Yeah" she turns the phone to herself and smiles at me before tuning the phone back to Ella. "This is from mommy" she whispers while leaning down before kissing Ella's head.
"She's so cute" I say in awe of her. I mean I didn't expect her not to be cute since Santana is cute and she's her daughter but still.
"I need to leave the room now because I can hear Aiden and as soon as he sees you he will scream and I don't want Ella to get woken up" Santana says while exiting the room.
"That's fine" I nod.
"Aiden come and see this" Santana says while sitting down on the chair in his room.
"No, cars" Aiden states. I'm assuming he's in the middle of playing with his cars so he doesn't want to be interrupted right now.
"I promise you'll like what I'm about to show you so come over here buddy" Santana says.
"Ok mom" Aiden says and as soon as I see him look into the phone he screams in delight. "Mommy!" he says jumping up and down.
"Hi buddy" I smile at him. "Were you having fun playing with your cars?" I ask.
"Yes" he replies.
"You're just about to go to bed now though aren't you" Santana says.
"Yes" Aiden replies with a sigh.
"Come on, let's go" Santana says while picking up Aiden and carrying him to his bed.
"I'll stay on the phone until you're asleep" I tell him.
"Ok" Aiden nods.
"Goodnight sweetheart" I say.
"Night mommy" he says waving at me. Santana begins to read him a story but she doesn't get past a couple of pages because he falls asleep quickly. She slowly leaves the room and goes to our bedroom.
"Just you and me" Santana says smiling.
"Yeah…oh hold that thought, my food is here" I say just as there's a knock at the door. "I'm going to sit my phone down for 2 seconds but I'll be back" I smile.
"Ok" Santana nods. I get my food sorted out and then go back to the bed and pick up my phone.
"Ok I'm back. You will have to put up with me eating though because I'm so hungry" I tell her.
"It's fine" she smiles.
"So what's going on with you?" I ask as I begin eating. "Are you managing ok on your own?" I ask.
"I don't want you to worry but I'm not going to lie, it has been really tough" Santana admits. I do feel really bad but I didn't know what else to do. "Aiden definitely isn't upset anymore which is good. I think he's just taking advantage of you not being here because you're still more authoritative than me and he knows that."
"It's only one more day to go babe so just hang in there" I tell her.
"I will" she smiles. "Emma was actually really helpful this morning" she tells me.
"Emma as in my sister Emma?" I say surprised. Like I've said many times before, Santana and my sister have a weird relationship.
"Yeah I was a little surprised too but I really was grateful though because Ella had a bad night last night and Aiden wouldn't get dressed so I was exhausted" she replies.
"So did she just come over this morning?" I ask curiously.
"Yeah she did and she helped me get them ready for the day. She did offer to take them to day-care so I could get to work but I thought I better do it because the staff there only really know you and me at the moment so I didn't want someone they didn't know there in case the kids didn't settle" Santana replies. It makes sense because sometimes it takes me a bit of time to get them settled in day-care because it's still really new to them.
"Did she have the day off then?" I ask.
"She did and she said she might come over again tomorrow and maybe go to the day-care with me so in future she can take them to day-care and the staff will know her
"That's cool" I nod.
"Anyway enough about my issues, how are you?" she asks.
"I'm good. A little exhausted but good" I smile. "It's like being back at college being stuck in lectures all day so it's mentally draining."
"I can imagine" she nods in agreement. "So how's your food?" she asks.
"Surprisingly quite nice but I've had enough now" I say while putting my food to the side. "Speaking of food, have you been doing ok making dinner by yourself because we all know I'm the better of the two of us at cooking?"
"Nice joke babe" Santana laughs. "You know I'm a really good cook and sometimes you love my food more than you love me" she smiles.
"I wouldn't quite go that far but yes I do really like your cooking" I smile back.
"Are you ok, you seem a bit unsettled?" Santana asks as she notices me moving around a lot.
"Yeah but it's just this shirt has been annoying me all day. It's so uncomfortable to wear so I don't even know why I took it with me" I say while starting to take my shirt off.
"Honey don't change in front of the phone" Santana sighs.
"Would you rather I changed in front of Martin then?" I tease.
"Certainly not" she says rolling her eyes at me. "I miss you enough as it is so I don't want to then see you shirtless and miss you even more."
"I know a way to make you feel better" I tell her.
"I don't know that you do because the only way to make me feel better is to have you in bed next to me before going on to have amazing sex" she smiles.
"That can somewhat be arranged" I smirk. "I need you to lie down for me" I tell her.
"What?" Santana asks confused.
"I've got an idea so just lie down for me" I smile. She nods before lying down on the bed.
"What are we doing?" she asks curiously.
"We're going to try and get each other off" I smile.
"Oh, wow" she says surprised. "I didn't think you would say that but I'm not complaining" she smirks.
"If I hold the phone like this, can you see me ok?" I ask while holding the phone away from myself and slightly raised in the air.
"Yeah" she nods.
"Are you comfortable?" I ask.
"As comfortable as I can be in a bed on my own" Santana sighs.
"Please don't have a negative attitude like that or this really won't work" I tell her.
"I'm sorry" she smiles.
"Ok, take your shirt off" I say.
"I don't want to" she replies shaking her head.
"I think being undressed will help the situation because we're normally without clothes" I reason.
"Yeah I still don't want to" she states.
"Why not?" I ask confused. It's just a damn shirt after all.
"Because it's your shirt and it smells like you" she says embarrassingly.
"Do you know I thought it looked slightly familiar" I chuckle.
Santana's POV
Friday 29th April 2022
I'm in the kitchen trying to get the kids breakfast but it's really not going as I planned it to. Aiden won't sit still to eat his and Ella just won't take her bottle. She takes a small sip and then turns her head away. I don't know how many ways I've tried to feed her and none of them seem to be working.
"Aiden keep your socks on please" I say starting to get frustrated.
"No" Aiden shakes his head at me and starts to take his sock off.
"Aiden I won't tell you again" I say seriously. "If you don't put your sock back on then we're not playing with your cars when I get home from work."
"Fine" he says looking at me and shrugging like he doesn't care about that. I don't know where my little sweet and innocent baby has gone.
"I'm serious Aiden" I tell him, giving him a warning look. He stares at me for a second and just as I think he's taking me seriously he begins laughing. I just shake my head before paying attention to Ella again in the hope I can at least get one child sorted for the day.
I've finally just got Ella to take her bottle when my phone starts ringing. As soon as I see its Brittany, I get excited. She is coming home today but it's later tonight since she has one more seminar to go to so it still feels like a while away. It'll especially feel like a while away when I have to get through a full day at work first.
"It's mommy" Aiden says excitedly.
"I wonder…" I can't finish my sentence because Aiden is snatching the phone from me and answering it.
"Mommy!" Aiden answers the phone. He begins to talk to Brittany so I continue feeding Ella. "Yes I've been good mommy" he says and I look over at him in surprise. I'm assuming Brittany has asked him if he's been a good boy which hasn't actually been the case. The next few sentences are inaudible to me so I once again go back to feeding Ella.
"Is mom there?" I hear Brittany ask through the phone after a few minutes.
"Yes" Aiden replies.
"I'm going to speak to her now but I'll see you in a little while, ok" Brittany says.
"Ok, bye mommy" Aiden replies.
"See you later buddy" Brittany tells him.
"Bye" Aiden says again before handing me the phone.
"Hey babe so I thought…hello?" I pull away from the phone and notice Aiden hung it up before giving me it. "Aiden did you hang up on mommy?" I ask.
"She had to go" Aiden shrugs.
"No she was saying bye to you but she wanted to speak to me" I say but he just shrugs at me like he doesn't care. "I'm going to call her back now but I want you to finish eating breakfast please" I say while calling Brittany back.
"No mom" Aiden smiles at me.
"I'm calling mommy right now and I'm going to tell her" I state seriously. "I will put her back on the phone to you and she'll tell you to eat, do you want that?" I ask.
"No" Aiden sighs before sitting back down and eating. As soon as he does that, Brittany answers.
"Hey" I say while sighing in exhaustion.
"I know you miss me and you're pissed I'm not there but there was no need to childishly hang up on me. You could have just said you didn't want to talk" Brittany teases.
"That was our son that did that" I state.
"Baby don't bring our child into it and blame him" Brittany replies.
"I don't want to joke right now, I want to speak to my wife and get her support" I say. I'm not in the mood to be cute right now even though I know it's not Brittany's fault.
"I'm sorry" she says genuinely. "Aiden says he's been a good boy but judging by your tone I'm thinking that's not the case" she says.
"He has been playing up quite a bit" I sigh. "I think he knows because you're not here then he can try and get away with things since it's just me here."
"I'll have words with him when I get home" Brittany tells me.
"I am doing better, right?" I ask.
"Of course you are. You're handling it all excellently babe and if the shoe was on the other foot then I think Aiden would do the same to me" she replies.
"Thank you" I say. Brittany always knows how to make me feel better.
"If we finish at a reasonable time then Martin and I were thinking about trying to get an earlier flight. It might cost a little extra but is that ok?" she says.
"It's more than ok. If I can get you home sooner then I'll pay for your flights" I smile. The thought of Brittany getting home earlier has really made me perk up a bit.
"I'm going to have to go now but I love you and I'll be home as soon as I can be" Brittany replies.
"I love you too" I say smiling slightly, even though she can't see me.
"See you soon" she says.
"Bye honey" I say and then we both hang up. I'm no sooner off the phone when I hear the front door open and then footsteps walk towards the kitchen.
"Morning" Emma smiles as she walks into the kitchen.
"Hi" I say in an annoyed tone. I know it's not Emma's fault but I am getting frustrated so I can't help feeling the way I do.
"I thought I could lend a hand again this morning" she says while walking over to me and taking Ella from me and finishing giving her her bottle. "You look pissed and worn out if you don't mind me saying."
"I am" I sigh. "Aiden wasn't behaving this morning and Ella had a rough night again so we are all tired and then to top everything off Britt just called. I mean I miss her so much so I'm glad she called but at the same time, it's got Aiden excited so now he's even worse than he was earlier."
"Aiden are you not behaving?" Emma asks him.
"I'm good boy" Aiden smiles brightly at Emma. "Mommy said I was too" he adds before leaving the room to go somewhere for some odd reason even though he's supposed to be finishing eating.
"What mommy actually said was 'are you being a good boy for mom?' to which he replied yes when we all know it is a big fat no" I say rolling my eyes before going off to find my son. As soon as I find him, I manage to persuade him back to the kitchen to finish his breakfast.
"Look" Aiden says gleefully to Emma as he flicks some cereal across the table.
"Aiden, cereal is for your mouth not the floor" I say with a sigh.
"Your mom is right Aiden" Emma tells him.
"I just don't get this. I'm the one who took extra maternity leave and stayed at home with the children all day so I don't understand why this is so different" I say shaking my head. If no one knew me and walked in then they'd assume this was my first time alone with them which it clearly isn't.
"They probably just miss Britt" Emma points out.
"Brittany" I say teasingly correcting her. Britt is my name for her, not Emma's.
"Seriously Santana?" Emma laughs. "I have called her Britt for a lot longer than you" she adds.
"I like the name Britt though because everyone else would say Brittany so I like having a name I can just call her" I reply.
"Go with babe or something then" Emma shrugs.
"No, that's so overused for us" I shake my head.
"Seriously though, I think Aiden and Ella just miss their mommy and know she isn't here at the moment so they feel out of sorts" she replies. "At least she is coming home today and everything should be back to normal."
"That's true" I nod.
"So have you got a romantic night planned for her coming home?" Emma asks curiously as she starts to burp Ella.
"Honestly, no" I shake my head.
"I thought you would be dying to have a nice night together" she replies.
"Don't get me wrong, I have missed her like crazy but I am just so exhausted. I think I just want to cuddle on the sofa with her or something else low key" I admit. "I really hope she doesn't mind" I say as an afterthought.
"I really don't think she'll be too bothered what you do" Emma smiles. "I was only asking because it's something you usually do but I doubt Brittany will be concerned either way."
"What about you and Artie?" I ask. "Are you two doing ok?"
"Of course" Emma smiles before quickly frowning. "He didn't say something did he?" she asks worriedly.
"No not at all. I was just being nosy because I haven't seen you at the office for a while and you used to come over sometimes" I point out.
"No everything is fine. We've both been quite busy at work so it's easier to just meet at one of our apartments or something" she shrugs.
"That's probably partly my fault since I've been on maternity leave but I'm back to work now so Artie won't be as busy as he was" I smile.
XXX
Aiden, Ella and I are all heading into the airport to wait on Brittany getting off her flight. It has felt like a long day but now that Brittany's almost here then it seems like it's went by in a flash. I don't know if I'm more excited to see her because I missed her or because the kids can finally behave.
"Aiden who's that over there?" I say while kneeling down to his level. He just shrugs at me. "Over there sweetheart by the doors, who's that?" I ask. He stares at me for a moment before looking over and suddenly screaming in delight.
"Mommy! Mommy! Mommy!" Aiden screams while running over to where Brittany is. It's so sweet but also a little embarrassing at the same time as all the other moms look at me with disgust as my son pushes people out of the way.
"Hi buddy" Brittany says while stopping to pick Aiden up. She hugs him tightly before sitting him onto her case and wheeling him over to Ella and me. "Did you miss me?" she asks Aiden.
"Yes" Aiden nods.
"Did you miss me Ella?" she asks while leaning down to kiss Ella.
"They both missed you a lot" I smile at her.
"I missed you both too" Brittany says while looking at Aiden and Ella. "You ok?" she asks me while standing back up and placing her hand on my cheek comfortingly.
"I am now" I nod.
"I am so proud of you" she says before kissing me gently on the lips. "I couldn't do what you've just done. You're a superstar babe" she smiles.
"Thanks" I smile again. That is definitely the reaction I needed to hear.
"Come on, let's get home" she says while pulling her case with Aiden still on it to the exit. I follow behind with Ella. We get the kids and Brittany's luggage into the car and I drive off.
"I missed you so much. I mean like I say the kids have missed you too but I missed you the most" I tell her while casually glancing in her direction.
"What did you miss the most about me?" Brittany asks curiously.
"I missed everything about you really badly but I guess it would be sleeping alone. I have gotten so used to being in bed with you every night that I can't sleep alone anymore" I admit.
"That's cute" she smiles at me. "It's not quite as cute as you though" she adds while reaching over to take my free hand in hers.
"You're kinda cute too" I tell her and she smiles. We sit in silence for a few minutes as I drive us home, just enjoying finally being together again.
"Hey, I will have a talk with you know who at some point about his behaviour but not tonight. I'm just glad we're all back as a little family and I want us to have a relaxing night" Brittany says breaking the silence.
"It's fine, you don't need to talk to him. I'm just glad you're home now" I say honestly.
"No his behaviour wasn't appropriate so I will have a gentle conversation but don't worry, I'm not going to be hard on him. I just want him to know that we don't treat you like that" she smiles.
"Thank you" I smile. I would talk to him myself but I don't know that he'll listen.
Once we get home, we all have dinner together and spent some time with the kids before putting them to bed. Aiden was a little reluctant to go to sleep because he just wanted to be with Brittany since he missed her but eventually he got tired and fell asleep. I'm now in the kitchen having some wine when Brittany walks in.
"You ok?" I ask with a smile.
"Upstairs, right now!" Brittany says while taking my wine from me and placing it on the counter.
"Why?" I ask, feeling slightly rebellious right now.
"Because we have some business to take care of in the bedroom and it most certainly can't wait" she states while grabbing my hand.
"But maybe I don't…" I can't even finish my sentence because Brittany is pulling me to her and kissing me passionately.
"Oh you want this babe" she smirks at me as she pulls away slightly. "I know you want this because I want this so fucking bad right now" she adds. I've got to say, when she swears like that it does kinda turn me on.
"What are we waiting for then" I smirk.
"Let's do this" she says while slapping me on the butt before pulling me upstairs with her. I know she missed me because I missed her too but I feel better about Brittany suggesting it rather than me tonight. Sometimes I feel like I'm always pestering her for sex so it's nice to know once in a while that she feels exactly the same.
As soon as we get upstairs, Brittany kicks the door shut and leads me over to the bed. I slowly climb on, on top of the covers and Brittany joins me. She moves closer to me and leans in towards me and kisses me softly. We want to make the most of being together again so neither of us feel the need to rush this since we have all night so we just start off kissing one another for a little bit. However, after a while I seem to be letting my thoughts take over because I feel Brittany stop kissing me.
"Whoa, hold on" Brittany says pulling away. "Santana are you crying?" she asks concerned.
"Of course I'm not" I shake my head.
"So why are there tears rolling down your cheeks?" she asks.
"There isn't" I shrug while trying to lean in and kiss her again.
"Santana, please" she says softly. I'm trying to be brave here and denying I'm upset but Brittany knows me too well so who am I kidding. "Is this about me being away and you here yourself?" she asks.
"It was so hard" I say bursting into tears. I know it was only two days and I should get a grip but it was one of the hardest experiences I've ever had.
"Oh honey, come here" Brittany says while pulling me into a hug and holding me tightly.
"It was like I got a taste of what life would be like without you and I don't ever want that to happen" I say. "I know I'm an ok mom but I think I really failed the last two days."
"No you most certainly did not fail" she shakes her head. "I mean I know I wasn't here and I don't know what it's like on my own for two days but I certainly wouldn't say you failed."
"Ella cried the whole time no matter what I did and Aiden didn't do anything I told him too. It was so mentally and physically draining. They never did that when I was a stay at home mom and you went to work so it really got to me these past couple of days" I admit.
"I guarantee you they would have been the same with me. I think they sensed something was wrong since I wasn't here so they were really unsettled" Brittany replies. "Please don't think you're not a good mom though because you are. You're amazing" she says while kissing the top of my head.
"Ok" I nod.
"I mean did you see Aiden tonight. He couldn't get enough of you babe" she smiles.
"No he couldn't get enough of you tonight. He didn't want to go to sleep because he wanted to play cars with you" I tell her.
"Ok I admit at bedtime he wanted to stay awake longer and play with me but I'm talking about when we were having dinner. All he wanted to do was sit with you and do what you were doing. He was even trying to eat left handed tonight because you were doing it. There's no doubt he missed me but I think it's clear at the end of the day that he's the toddler version of you" she replies.
"I guess you have a point" I say.
"Don't take things too personally about the last few days because it really wasn't a reflection on how you parent. The children were clearly just out of sorts because they're used to having the two of us there and I wasn't here" she says while wiping my tear stained cheeks with her thumb.
"Thank you" I smile at her before kissing her cheek.
"For what?" Brittany asks slightly confused.
"For making me feel better. You always know the right things to say" I smile.
"I'm just glad it's not the other way around and it's me having another meltdown because I'm insecure again about something so you need to be there for me" she jokes.
"I'll always be here for you" I tell her. I know sometimes Brittany has these moments of self-doubt but I'm always going to be there to help her through it.
"Likewise" she says before pecking me on the lips.
"Ok so I better get cleaned up now because this is possibly the least sexy thing I could have done tonight" I say while getting off the bed and heading to the bathroom.
"Santana, it's fine" Brittany says while following me into the bathroom.
"No I ruined things and I'm sorry" I say while wiping my face. All that crying has really messed up my make-up and it's not a great look. "There's nothing less sexy than crying in bed" I shake my head.
"You're being way too hard on yourself" Brittany says while pulling me towards her. "You got a little emotional honey, it happens" she smiles.
"Yes but right before sex is not a great look" I state.
"I don't care about that. I'm just glad you're ok now and I've managed to boost your spirits a little" she smiles again.
"I know but you were so up for having sex tonight and I've ruined it" I say. I am slightly pissed at myself because I didn't want to unleash my emotions like that especially not before we were about to have sex.
"If you think you're going to get away with just going to sleep then you're wrong. I'm nowhere near finished with you tonight" Brittany smirks as she grabs the bottom of my shirt and pulls it over my head.
"Aren't you a little weirded out though because what if I start crying again? It's not the sexiest thing to do in bed" I say.
"If you do then we'll just need to be a little wetter than usual" she laughs.
"Don't say I didn't warn you then" I smile while unbuttoning her jeans.
"I won't" she smiles back while taking her shirt off over her head. "Now come here" she says while pulling me into a passionate kiss. We then slowly make our way back to the bed while undressing at the same time. I get under the covers and Brittany straddles my lap before beginning to kiss down my body.
"Oh that feels good" I say through a moan.
"Tonight is all about you so just relax and enjoy" she smiles. She then slowly moves her hands to my breasts and caresses them while continuing to kiss downwards. The further down she goes, the more turned on I get. I can't help but tug on her hair as she flicks her tongue out over my member. "What part of me do you want down there?" she asks suggestively and I swear I almost cum right then and there.
"You decide" I reply.
"Ok" she smiles before moving upwards and kissing me on the lips. After kissing for a moment or two, she slowly sinks down onto my member.
"Shit" I say at the feeling. We have sex all the time but each time it always surprises me. I hold onto her hips tightly and we build up a steady rhythm together. "I don't think I can wait much longer" I admit embarrassingly after a bit of time has passed.
"It's ok, I'm almost there" she moans. After a few moments, we cum together. I pull Brittany down so she's lying flush on me and I kiss her.
"I love you" Brittany says breathlessly.
"I love you too" I smile while holding her tight.
Brittany's POV
Saturday 11th June 2022
It's Quinn's bachelorette party tonight so my parents are looking after Aiden and Ella. We're all going away for the wedding in a few weeks so Quinn decided to just have a low key party here instead of going away for a trip. She didn't want everyone having to take time away from work or their families when we're all already taking time off for a small vacation during the wedding. Santana being the matron of honour decided to organise the whole party so we're staying at a hotel and will spend the night there after. We're all in our hotel rooms just now getting ready for the party.
"You look smoking" Santana says smirking at me as she walks out of the bathroom.
"And you're tipsy" I laugh.
"No I'm not, I had one drink as I was changing" Santana states. "I'm serious, you look hot as hell babe" she says walking over to me.
"Thank you" I say blushing slightly. I know it seems odd that after 6 and a half years together Santana can still make me blush but she does. I really don't know how I got so lucky but at the same time I'm past caring now because Santana's all mine.
"Anyway, are we ready to go?" she asks.
"Yes" I smile.
"Good" she says while kissing my cheek before taking my hand and leading us towards the door. She grabs her purse and then we head downstairs to meet the others.
"So what is the plan?" Tina asks.
"I was thinking we can go to a few bars and get warmed up and then come back here to the hotel and party. I've managed to book us a private section for when we get back so we'll be able to have fun" Santana says.
"Sounds good" Quinn smiles. We all head out to the first bar of the night. Mercedes and I get everyone some drinks while the others find us a table.
"Here we go ladies" I say while sitting the tray of drinks on the table.
"We also got some shots to mix things up a bit" Mercedes states.
"Sounds good" Quinn smiles.
"First though, I think we should all raise our glasses to the bride-to-be" Santana says while taking a seat and pulling me onto her lap. "I just want to say we're all really happy for you and Jason and we wish you both all the best. So here's to you Quinn and a fun filled night" she says and we all raise our classes and clink them together.
"Thanks Santana and thanks for organising this whole thing" Quinn smiles at her.
"You're welcome" Santana smiles back.
"So are there going to be any strippers?" Tina asks curiously.
"Um excuse me, do you know a Mike Chang?" Santana states.
"Yes I know I'm with Mike, I was only asking because it is common to have strippers at a bachelorette party" Tina replies.
"Tina is right" Mercedes adds.
"No I made sure Santana didn't throw that kind of party for me. The only naked man I want to see is Jason" Quinn says smiling.
"Oh my goodness, some awful images just came floating by" Santana says in disgust.
"I hear you" Eva says, feeling disgusted too.
"Girls give it a rest. Yes I am marrying your brother but I'm not about to keep how much I love him to myself when it is my night after all. I can do and say what I want tonight" Quinn tells Santana and Eva.
"Yes I think we all need to calm down a little because we're all slightly connected in different ways so it's always going to happen that a conversation we don't like will occur" I say. I mean Santana's two brothers are with two of her best friends and her sister is with my brother. Then we have Artie, her business partner dating my sister so someone is always going to find certain topics unpleasant.
"Brittany is right" Kitty nods agreeing with me.
"Yes so let's move on" I say and everyone agrees.
"Hey let's talk about our first impressions of Quinn" Santana states.
"Sounds interesting, let's do it" Quinn smiles. A few of the others start their stories first but now it's my time to tell mine.
"I actually found you really intimidating Quinn" I say honestly.
"You did?" Quinn asks surprised.
"Yeah because when I first met you, you were the number one girl in Santana's life" I shrug.
"That's right" Santana nods.
"Oh really?" Eva asks. "Was I as your sister not qualified enough?" she teases Santana.
"Yes or Kitty and me considering we are your best friends too" Tina adds.
"You were all my number one girls. It's just we're talking about Quinn right now" Santana smiles at her friends.
"Nice save" Emma smirks.
"There's one girl there though that'll never be my number one" Santana smirks at Emma.
"I wouldn't want to be" Emma smirks back at Santana.
"Yes neither would I" Rachel chimes in.
"Watch it Berry, I could un-invite you because you were lucky to be invited tonight in the first place" Santana states.
"Don't start, this is Quinn's night" I sigh. I wanted a night off from mom mode but I feel exactly like a mom right now telling them off.
"Brittany is right so let's all have fun because I think we all know deep down that everyone here likes one another. Perhaps in their own way but the bottom line is let's all have fun together" Eva says.
"Exactly" Quinn smiles. "So back to me. What did everyone think of me when they first met me?"
"Like I say I did find you intimidating but at the same time I really liked how you always had Santana's back. However I didn't like it when you called me 14 when I was almost 17 and said you knew there was no way Santana would like me because I was too young" I reply.
"Santana!" Quinn shrieks in embarrassment. "You told her?"
"I tell Brittany everything" Santana shrugs.
"You didn't need to tell her something that could offend her. I said that before I even knew her and you know I think you two are perfect together" Quinn shakes her head at Santana. "Honestly Brittany, I didn't mean that. We were all just teasing Santana that she went to the coffee shop for you and not the coffee and she got embarrassed. I don't think I had even spoke to you before so I was just making a guess that you were 14, I didn't think you were though after I met you" she tells me.
"It's fine" I smile. "What I find most amusing about the story is that Santana denied liking me when it's clear she did because no one likes coffee that much."
"I am sorry to disappoint you Brittany but I didn't go in there with the intentions of wanting to bang the 16 year old waitress. I did go in for the coffee. It just happens I fell in love with her a little later down the line" Santana shrugs.
"How beautifully put Santana" Tina laughs.
"You can certainly bang this 24 year old though tonight" I smirk at Santana.
"That's correct and I will do just that" Santana says while turning her head to kiss me.
"Hello!" Quinn says loudly causing us all to look over at her. "Tonight is about me remember so let's get back to it."
"Ok well my first impression of you Quinn was actually quite good. You seemed really cool to hang out with and really lovely to talk to. I also liked that you didn't mind Santana's little sister tagging along with you guys" Eva says smiling at Quinn.
"That's really sweet" Quinn smiles at Eva.
"And also a tiny bit gay" Santana adds.
"Girls can be nice to each other and have a relationship without being gay. It's called a friendship" Emma points out.
XXX
"Hey Mercedes, 10 o'clock" Santana says while discreetly gesturing over to a man just left of the bar.
"Huh, he's nice" Mercedes says thinking about the man.
"Pretty hot too, right" Santana states.
"I thought he would be too masculine for you Santana" Quinn teases her.
"I might be gay but I know what a good looking person looks like" Santana replies. "I wouldn't say I find him attractive but he is good looking in general."
"You should speak to him Mercedes" I tell her.
"I don't know" Mercedes replies, unsure of whether to talk to him or not.
"What's the worst that can happen" Santana shrugs.
"Do you know what, I'm going to do it" Mercedes says while standing up. "Wish me luck" she says before leaving.
"Ok ladies, I'll get us another round of drinks while Mercedes is over there" Santana says while standing up from the table.
"I'll help you" I say.
"Ok" Santana smiles. We then make our way towards the bar but at the last minute I change my mind. "The bar is this way babe" she tells me.
"Yeah and I'm this way" I smirk.
"Oh I see" Santana nods. I pull her around the corner where it's empty and I lean in and kiss her.
"I have been dying to kiss you all night" I tell her.
"Well, be a good girl for the rest of the night and I might let you do more than kiss me later" she smirks.
"I think we've established that's happening anyway" I smirk back.
"Good, I'm glad we're on the same page then" she smiles.
After getting the drinks, we head back to the table. Mercedes is already back there because she wanted to have fun with us girls so didn't want to hang around with the man all night but did get his number so she might call him some other time. We're all now playing a game of never have I ever.
"Ok, never have I ever faked it in bed" Quinn states. A few of the others drink but the most surprising one to me that drinks is Santana.
"Was Brittany not doing it for you that night?" Santana's sister says teasing her.
"Oh no, Brittany always does it for me" Santana replies while throwing a smirk my way. "It was with my ex that I faked it with. I'm actually really surprised she bought it because I thought it would be obvious if I faked it or not."
"So you've never faked it with me?" I ask curiously.
"Definitely not" Santana says shaking her head.
"Good to know" I smile.
"Anyway, back to the game" Tina states. "It's my turn so never have I ever been married" she says so some of us drink.
"Come on Tina, that was a bit of a lame one was it not" Santana states.
"I was just trying to calm things down a bit because some of us here haven't been sitting with our tongues down our partners throats all night since our partners aren't here" Tina replies.
"Yes and I for one don't want to be talking about sex all night" Rachel adds.
"There is no point being boring though" Santana tells them.
"Honey maybe we should talk about less embarrassing things because not everyone here wants to talk about sex because it's private for a lot of people" I say.
"Ok fine" Santana nods. "I'll go next then and I promise I won't say another thing about sex" she assures us.
"Ok" I smile at her.
"Never have I ever had an ingrown toenail" Santana smirks.
"Oh that's disgusting" Quinn says repulsed by the thought.
"Yeah I've definitely had enough to eat now. It's put me right off the food" Emma says disgustedly.
"You all wanted me to talk about something that wasn't sex so that was definitely not a sexual thing I said so there you go. You all asked for it" Santana says smugly.
"Honey, behave" I say laughing. I do love it when she's in a good mood and making jokes but like I say many times, sometimes they border on offensive and other people don't like that.
"You could have went for something else instead of being such a smartass" Eva states.
"So is everyone not drinking because they've never had one" Santana asks.
"Let's move on please" I smile at her.
"Ok babe" she says before kissing me.
"I've got one, ok never have I ever been as whipped as Santana is in a relationship" Quinn says smugly.
"You think I'm whipped, you should see Brittany in bed because I whip the hell out of her. Isn't that right baby" she smirks at me.
"We're not supposed to be talking about sex" I say trying to not answer the question.
"You do like it when I take control though" she smirks at me.
"Yes but they don't need to know that" I whisper. I must admit I do like it when Santana bosses me around in bed, it's sexy.
XXX
"Tonight was fun. I had a really good time" I tell Santana as I walk over to her. We're all in our own hotel rooms now. "We don't often get nights out with our friends to celebrate something and just let our hair down."
"Yeah it was a good night" Santana agrees as she takes her jewellery off at the mirror.
"Hey, come here" I say while gently taking her hand and pulling her closer to me.
"I'm trying to take my earrings off babe" she smiles at me.
"You can do that in a second" I say while wrapping my arms around her. She places one of her earrings on the dresser and wraps her arms around my neck. "I forgot how good it feels to be young and have fun without worrying about things" I tell her. We're always in mom mode or have something going on so it was so good to finally be happy for once and not worry about things. Of course I miss the kids but I know my parents have them so I'm not concerned about just having fun tonight.
"As much as I was winding everyone up, I think we all had fun" she says.
"Yeah I don't think anyone was that bothered by it. You like to joke around and that's what everyone likes about you. It's all in good fun so no one does get offended really" I smile.
"Exactly" she smiles back.
"On a slightly serious note, I know you and I tease and joke around with each other a lot but I am serious when I say you make me the happiest person in the world" I tell her honestly. It's not like I hadn't believed it before; it's just tonight being with our friends having fun and seeing how happy Santana is makes me happy. It really reaffirmed how glad I am to be with Santana and how lucky I am to have her.
"I love you so much Brittany" she smiles.
"I love you too" I smile back. "I don't care what Quinn says, I definitely got the best Lopez" I add.
"I agree" she laughs.