Previously: "Does it hurt?" Mira asked softy still cleaning the same glass never looking away from the cylinder.
"hmm?" Torine questions in return. "Does it hurt, seeing Erza every day," Mira adds finally looking up from the glass.
Torine looks down at the bolt sitting alone in the glass, "Sometimes, though most of the time its not that bad since their personalities are so different. But when she laughs.. When she laughs its like Rosa is there, like she was never gone. Until I remember she is gone and its Erza who is laughing not her, then it hurts."
There's another silence before Mira reaches across the bar and touches Torine's hand, "I'm sure she's out there somewhere, you will find her." Torine softly smiles, "thank you Mira, you're a good friend."
Later in the day Torine is laying down upstairs trying to get some sleep hoping the loudness of the guild will help drown the nightmares out. In the centuries Torine had been traveling she never missed Rosa so much. When she was traveling she didn't feel the need to tell people about her past. She didn't have to worry about keeping secrets like she did when she was around people for a long time. It was easier to listen to someone else's secrets and warm their bed never having to speak to the person again.
Even when she was modeling she didn't have to care, while yes she was around those people for a long time But they didn't care about her past they just loved her abilities it made it easier on photographers to get the model they wanted. Like when a model was sick they would call her and she'd use her abilities to become the sick model. They didn't care about her life outside the modeling they wanted her in for the shoot and out as soon as it was done. She had gotten to know some other models though most were just quick hookups so she never had to know more about them. Though in rare situations she would befriend some of them, the friendship not lasting longer than a day or two. With Mirajane she had been the first person in a long time that Torine really stayed friends with along with sharing the secrets of her past with.
The friendship would have never lasted as long as it did if Mira hadn't been around when one of Torine's nightmare episodes happened. Mira being the concerned (and slightly terrifying) person she is, coaxed Torine into admitting her past along with her faults.
Here in the guild, being apart of this.. this family, these people that barely know her yet already care so much, she felt somewhat comfortable sharing her past
. Yes, she still had things she felt she had to keep hidden. Not for her own sake but for two people in particular, Rosa and Erza. She knew of things that Erza would not be ready to hear and the things should be heard from Rosa, not herself.
Her thoughts of Rosa and the things she kept quiet for her, even though she was not around, dredged up the nightmares, pain from her past and pain that will never cease until she was reunited with her love.
Tired of her own thoughts, Torine decided to focus on the things around her: conversations, the clinking of glass as Mira and Kinana carry drinks to each table as called for, the laughter, and the fights.