I think you will be pretty mad at me... But don't worry! It will all work out in the end I promise! Again I did this on my phone, my computer it down.

Song for this chapter: Marian hill - one time.

Idk why but I listened to this on repeat while I wrote this

Disclaimer: I own nothing but the plot.

RPOV

"Rose!" Lissa was waving a hand In front of my face, again. "Rose stop day dreaming!"

I blushed and pushed her hand away. "Liss I'm not daydreaming." I said rolling my eyes. When really, I was. I was thinking about Dimitri.

"Your thinking about him again aren't you!" She squealed.

I rolled my eyes again, "I am not."

She gave me one of her Lissa looks, "best friends can't lie to each other, I've known you too long."

I sighed, "sometimes I hate you." I rubbed my face and squeezed my eyes shut. "I think... Never mind."

"Rose look at me." Lissa demanded. I slowly raised my gaze to hers and immediately regretted it.

"Shit Lissa why do you have to know everything about me!"

She shook her head, eyes sad, "I didn't know..."

"Ya well I didn't know either! You should never have bought me-"

"Maybe this is a good thing Rose. Maybe you found him?"

I gasped and looked at Lissa. "You don't think I'm crazy?"

She chuckled, "yes I do, but your happy when your with him, and also when you apart, it's like he stays with you."

"No it's more like I'll l know he's all mine when I get home-" I cut myself off. I can't believe I just told her that. "Shit." I muttered.

"Oh Rose!" Lissa squealed and slapped my arm playfully. "Your so falling for him!"

I blushed and looked down, "it would never work." I muttered.

"Well aside from our little problem, I have one of my own."

I look up in surprise. "What?"

"Christians getting tired of looking at the same lace every night, so I was wondering..."

I rolled my eyes. Oh no.

"Shopping time!" We squealed together and then went into a fit of giggles.

"I want you to look your best Rose." She said winking.

When we arrived at the mall I did a quick look over for any signs of strigoi before linking my arms with liss. I still couldn't believe queen Tatiana let us go. Maybe liss was doing better in her classes than I thought.

"First stop?" I ask.

"Victoria Secrets!"

We giggle and went into the store. we head to the front desk and are greeted than. None other than Mia.

"Mia!" We call and bring her into a tight embrace.

"Okay you guys, easy on the boobs!"

We laughed and let go of her.

"What are you guys doing here?" Mia asked, "obviously just not paying me a visit..."

Lissa glanced over at me. "Rose is trying to impress a Certain someone."

"What! No Lissa said she was running out of-" oh no " you guys did not." I gulped realizing I was trapped. "You guys set me up!"

They had guilty looks on their faces but shrugged.

"I haven't seen you since the party and I called liss asking about... Well you know." She raised her eyebrows suggestively.

"I hate you!" I yelled and pouted turning my back but as I did, I found myself looking at a black lace bra with patching thong.

"Lissa I found what I want."

Lissa came by my shoulder and took a look.

"Make that two." She told Mia.

I glared at her. "It's not like dimitri will know I'm wearing the same thing!" She said defending herself. I rolled my eyes and smirked

"I guess best friends are supposed to get matching stuff right?"

We giggled and Mia continued to show us her personal favorites until we had at least 5 items each. We checked out and after saying goodbye to Mia, left the store."

"What's next?" I ask carrying my bag close to me. I couldn't wait to try them on with Dimitri.

"Food?"

I chuckled and agreed, linking our arms once again.

On the way there, I couldn't help but notice that we were about to pass a jewelry store. Lissa was pre occupied and looking at the book store across from it to realize that a certain someone was there.

While she wasn't looking, I said I was going to look at something and ran across to the store.

"Christian!" I hissed, making him jump. "What the fuck are you doing here!"

His eyes widened and he looked around. "Where's liss?" He asked

"Looking at books."

He relaxed and then grabbed my arm.

"Which one?" He asked and I could tell he was nervous and rushing me a bit.

I look down to see what he's talking about and gasp. They were diamond rings.

"Christian!" I squealed and pulled him into a tight hug. "Your finally going to marry her!" I squealed.

He pushed me away trying not to be mean, "she's going to notice I'm here!"

I nod in understanding trying to contain my excitement.

I look down at the rings and one of them stuck out to me as a Lissa ring. I pointed to it and he smiled.

"That's what I was thinking."

"Well you should have just followed your instincts." He nodded to the saleswoman and he took me by the arm out of the store.

"Where's your guardian?" I ask and look back.

"He's getting it."

We made our way quickly across The isle to Lissa.

"Hey look who I picked up!" I said loudly, people gave me odd looks but when Lissa turned around she gasped and pure happiness showed on her face.

"What are you doing here!" She asked after giving him a hug and a peck on the lips.

"Can a guy not shop without being questioned?"

"No!" Me and Lissa said at the same time.

"What if I wanted new shoes?"

We giggled and rolled our eyes, of course me, trying not to burst out and ask Lissa if I was going to be her maid of honor.

Suddenly concern filled Lissas features. "Where's your guardian?"

He shrugged, "he was off for the day."

She smacked his arm... Hard. "What is your problem Christian don't you realize what danger you could have been in!-"

"Chill woman! I have a replacement!"

Christian said and raised his hands in defense.

"Who-" she cut off and looked over our shoulders.

Her face lit up, not in a good way... I could see the evil thoughts practically jumping out of her head.

I turned around and stopped.

"Oh. It's you." I said gulping and taking Lissas arm and walking 5 paces, "well Christian me and liss are going to finish shopping! See ya-"

"Don't even think your getting out of this!" Lissa whispered in my ear and disentangled herself from me, skipping back over to Christian.

I groaned and turned around. "I am going to kill you." I muttered and walked back to them.

"Hello Dimitri." Lissa said politely.

he nodded in return, "princess vasilissa," and then a slight hesitation before he said, "guardian Hathaway,"

I nodded in return, feeling a little disappointed, not only did he have on his guardian mask but also he didn't look at me. maybe it was because i walked away? or how I left him this morning with no note? I sneak a glance in his direction to find his full attention with lissa. my chest began to burn and I couldn't help but feel the jealousy making its way to my heart. i turned away and walked with Christian .

"someones pouty," he remarked.

i stuck my tongue out

He chuckled, "Lissa told me about him you know."

I froze, "she what!" I yelled.

Lissa looked over to me with a questioning glance.

"You are going to get it later!" I snap and give her my death glare.

Lissa's face paled, "Christian!" She hissed, "you WERNT supposed to tell her!"

Christian threw his hands in the air, "I do nothing right do I?"

She shook her head and grabbed his arm and started a hushed conversation. All I got out was "kill." "Die." And possibly "shoot you."

I was totally in on all of those words if it meant that I could beat Christian to the pulp, after I gave Lissa a little talk.

While the two were talking Dimitri had sneaked up on me.

"What's in the bag?" He asked.

I looked over to see his face full of emotion, and his stupid guardian mask wasn't on and he was smiling and he was actually making a conversation with me! = sarcastic

"I thought you were mad at me." I said and let my own guardian mask slide into place.

"Very funny Roza." He said rolling his eyes. "Actually I just don't want anyone noticing. If a guardian passed by and saw us... Well it would give him the wrong impression."

I clenched my fists. "You don't want anyone thinking We're together?"

He shrugged, "it would be a lie."

"Wouldn't it be easier though? I mean instead of explaining to them?"

His jaw clenched, "no."

I looked straight ahead. Of course... What was I thinking? That's the problem, I wasn't thinking. Only about my feelings.

"Your right," I lied, "it wouldn't be easier."

We walked in silence for a while and I noticed that Lissa a Christian were turning towards ULTA. Liss was leading him by the hand, practically dragging him. He looked back at me and mouthed "help me"

I shook my head and flipped him the bird.

"That wasn't nice," Dimitri said looking at Christian and mouthing "good luck"

"Ya well he isn't very nice either." I grumbled.

"What'd he say?"

"Nothing."

He raised one eyebrow. Damn why couldn't I do that!

"Dimitri just stop okay you've done enough." And I walked toward Lissa and Christian leaving him a few steps behind.

"What do you mean Roza?" He asked from behind.

I shook my head and said sighed. How was I supposed to explain when I don't even know what I mean? Ugh! This is why I leave love for Lissa.

Wait... Did l... Just say- NO!-

"Roza you look like your about to have a panic attack. What's going on in there?" He asked smirking and tapping my head.

"You know for someone who doesn't want anyone to think that we're together your doing an awful job. And I'm not having a panic attack." I snap.

He looks at me out of the corner of his eye and studies me.

"Are you on your period?"

I laugh at that, "no comrade I'm not."

"Your awfully moody" he grumbles.

"Why does every one say that?!"

He shakes his head in exasperation and sighs.

I scowl.

"Roza you are-"

"Dimitri?"

I snap my head up. Who said Dimitri?

Dimitri looks around and then finally spots Christians aunt. Tasha.

"Wow Dimka. I haven't seen u in forever!"

I watch as they embrace, her hands going around his neck leaving Dimitri no other place to grab but her hips. That was a little much for just friendship? I look between the two and try to figure out what I was actually seeing.

"Tasha you know Rose?"

She looks over at me without letting go of Dimitri. Or should I say "Dimka"

"Rose! How are you?"

"Fine thanks," I manage.

"Dimka we should Catch up soon." Tasha says smiling finally letting go of Dimitri. Thank god.

"Um Tasha I don't know I'm kinda busy-"

"Dimka I'll ask Christian he should be fine with it."

They were completely oblivious of me and I started slowly walking away. They were too into themselves.

I felt tears spring up into my eyes and I started walking at a faster pace toward ULTA. Toward the safety of liss and Christian. I know I was just about to kill them but...

My throat itched and I felt a single tear fall down my cheek. I quickly wiped it away and sniffed, trying to clear everything. I shook my head at how silly I was being. I was stupid to think...

"Roza!" I heard behind me, I didn't look back as I found liss.

"Lissa we have to go," I said pulling her arm away from Christian.

"Rose!- oh" she stopped when she saw my face.

"Roza!"

Lissa looked back "Did he hurt-"

"I promise I will tell you but can we just go someplace private!" I said with Earnesty.

"Babe what wrong?" Christian said coming up our isle.

"Nothing, but I t-think I actually should get going-"

I didn't let her finish and we were already in the car driving back to court.

About halfway there Lissa asked the big question.

"Rose... What's wrong?"

That's when I broke down crying.

"Liss I'm so stupid I'm so stupid. I can't do this! I thought that maybe I could live with myself and NOT feel anything. Maybe I could deceive MYSELF?"

I had pulled off to the side of the road and Lissa was holding me. Thank god she was still my friend and I didn't have to give her a talk now.

"So Rose," Lissa started carefully, "your saying you have feelings for him?"

I nodded my head miserably. She already new that this morning didn't she?

Then for the most oddest reasons Lissa started laughing quietly. I gave her a questioning glare.

"I am the Ultimate match maker." She explained before the smile faded from her face.

"Lissa it's not going to work out."

"Why not?" She asked throwing her hand in the air and flicked like the problem was in the air and she could usher it away.

"He's a male Escort." I said, like it was that simple. And it was. Plus he was in love or something with Tasha Ozera.

She smiled sadly, "Christian said Tasha and him were together."

I gulped, "more reason."

"Were, rose, they Were."

I shook my head. "That's not what it looked like." I said bitterly.

"He doesn't... You know... Have feelings for me. I mean he told me himself that he didn't want anyone thinking we were together or anything."

Lissa scowled, "he told you that!"

I nodded miserably.

"He is so gonna get it from me-"

"Lissa no! It's fine." Even if I was grateful for her I would do the easiest thing.

"Rose? What r u thinking?"

"I'm just gonna say I'm done." I said slowly.

Her eyes widened a little before she gave me small sad smile. "I also think you should get away Rose. Go to my cabin or something?"

I lifted my gaze to hers and smiled. That was the most fucking perfect idea that I have ever heard.

"Just like a day away? Because then I need you here with me because I still need you."

I rolled my eyes, "more like you don't want your special place with Christian to be ruined."

She giggled and blushed. "Whatever lets get back to court?"

I nodded and drove the rest of the way to court.

When I was done packing my bags and waited an extra 20 minutes Dimitri still hadn't returned from Christians shopping trip. I didn't want to just leave. I felt like that would be just like a breakup over a text message.

After 30 minutes I was done waiting, I needed to get on the road. I got a Piece of paper from my notebook and grabbed a pen before I sat down to write.

Dimitri,

I took a deep breath and decided to just go big or go home.

I'm leaving for a little mini vacation.

I snorted at myself. Mini vacation?

Okay so it's not really a vacation, it's time away from you. You cloud my brain, every move you make, even a small gesture sends me into confusion. I think we should end this.

I was such a jerk. But...

You say things to me with you eyes and then you say things with your body language. Which one it true? Should I believe the things you say to me? The way you act?

I looked over my note and snorted, it looked like the babbling of a lovesick teenager.

I won't be back for a couple of days which means your free to move out of my room since our contract ends in a couple of days and I won't be here.

I'm sorry I couldn't explain to you in person, I did wait I promise.

Better end this soon before I freaking kill myself.

Thanks Dimitri for everything. You mean a lot of the world to me.

Ending right now... Wait? Ugh I hate myself. I'm leaving! But I couldn't help but leave a side note.

Don't come looking for me... You know in case your mad or something. You can keep all the money liss gave you.

I picked up my bags then. Damn this looked like a psychopaths letter.

I made it to the parking lot. My car now had a friend parked on the passenger side. Christian Ozeras car. Shit. Fuck. I didn't stop, I couldn't. Now or never right? Right Rose? Yup this is it. I shouldn't feel guilty should I? I already made the note.

I made it to my car seconds before Dimitri, Christian, and Tasha opened the car doors.

Holy mother fucking shit mother of-

"Rose! Where are you going." Christian had to ask when I was at the hood of my car.

"I'll be back later," I lied before stopping politely in front of the car.

"Oh-"

"Dimitri!" I don't want to mention the bitch that stole my man... Wait did u just say that? Funny I don't even regret it.

I looked over at Tasha and saw her hand clutching Dimitri's. I swill owed the lump in my throat and decided it was time to leave.

"Hey Christian can you go ahead with Tasha? I have to talk to Rose real quick."

Tasha looked beyond unhappy but Christian looked to me before dragging her toward the castle.

When they were out of ear shot he turned to me, "where are you going?" It almost came out like a growl.

I shrugged, "somewhere obviously."

"Okay smart ass," he really did growl this time, "you have a bag packed with clothes. Your leaving."

"Not exactly, I'll be back later-"

"Dammit Roza stop lying to me!" He snapped.

"I'm not technically lying to you-"

He came over to me and shook my shoulders and little bit. He was holding in something.

"What- where-" he shook his head in frustration. "Let me get some clothes and come with you." He begged. Holy mother of hell he actually was begging.

"This a stupid conversation." I say and push him away from me, no matter what kind of butterflies I felt between my legs.

He was going to say something but I cut him off.

"Look if you really want to know the queen is sending me off on some kind of 'mission' or whatever you call it. You can ask Lissa if you want, I'm not lying. The queen wants me to go alone though, and she said not to tell anyone."

He looked at me quizzically, "you expect me to believe that?"

What was his problem! Why were we going in circles! Why couldn't I just leave!

I shrugged my shoulders, "fine, believe whatever you think."

There was a moment of silence before he took both of my hands in his and leaned his for head against mine. "Let me come with you," he whispered softly, "wait, wait here while I get my clothes, please."

He wasn't getting it was he?

"Dimitri I'm leaving," I snap and push him away from me before opening my car door and sliding in the drivers seat.

He grasped my arm before I could get fully seated though, he pulled me to him and pushed me against the car, both his hands lying beside my head. His body was right up against mine and he dropped one of his hands to cup my cheek before leaning down to kiss me. His mouth opened as soon as we made contact and slipped his tongue over my bottom lip before nudging the upper lip, asking me to open. I did. Above all the screaming on my head to stop him. His tongue caressed mine and he let his hands go to my hips. I was surprised when he dug his fingers in and pulled my hips to his, creating a friction there I hadn't felt before. I kissed him harder, regardless of my inner thoughts. "Roza," he moaned softly as he ground our hips together again.

He leaned back after that so we could both breath before moving his hands to my waist.

"Let me get my clothes, so I can come with you. Please?" He begged against my lips.

I nodded my head, "don't take too long," I whispered back.

He knew that I was wrapped around his finger. He knew he could convince me with a touch. Now I was mad. He got halfway through the parking lot when he looked over his shoulder.

By that time, I was in my car and headed on to the interstate.

Goodbye Dimitri. I couldn't help but remember the helpless shouts as he tried to run after me. But I hate to brake it to people, that cars are faster. No pun intended.

My phone went off about a hundred times. He was calling, texting, calling again. I didn't answer to any of them. I only said something of my own.

"When you get back I'm sure Tasha will be happy. Give her a kiss for me why don't ya."

I cried after that. I didn't sob but I still felt the same amount of pain in my chest.

Why the hell did I just do that?

Dimitri texted me again. I reached down to get my phone, but all of a sudden something scrambled into the road.

Strigoi.

I tried to swerve around it but I ended up slamming on my brakes and jumping out of the car ready to fight.

Lissas pov

I was talking to Dimitri. Well more like yelling. He told me Rose had left and I had corrected him that she would be back in a couple of days.

"Lissa I have to find her I have to tell her something." He slid to the floor in a heap and out his head in his hands.

"You could have told her you know. Before you practically let Tasha jump all over you."

He looked up. "Is that why she's mad?"

"She's not mad Dimitri she's-"

I gasped. I was in a car and then I was out of it. I saw Rose. She was fighting for her life against 6 strigoi. I saw her trying to keep them all in view before one jumped her and-...

Rose lay in a heap on the ground. Her neck was bleeding her lips were red with blood. And I realized what they were doing to her. They were turning her.

"Vasillissa!" Dimitri was shaking me.

"What did you see?"

I was in shock, Dimitri kept shaking me and then finally decided to get Christian.

"Baby- what's wrong?" He whispered.

"Rose." I whisper. "Rose."

"What do you mean love?" He asked softly.

Dimitri was close by listening to ever word I said.

"She was ambushed- she's-" I choked out the last part. "She's gone."

Christian froze. Dimitris knees gave out.

"Liss do you mean dead? Or lost? Or..."

I shook my head, "she's strigoi."

I head some animal sound from Dimitri and a quick gasp from Christian.

Why did the bond reverse? Or was it only the one time?

I finally realized what I had said, and broke down into Christians chest.

Sry this is like really bad chap. I'm doing it off of a phone and so it doesn't have anything. My computers been down so I'm getting a new one yay!