A couple of days later and I'm up and about. I know what happened to me. I know how Dimitri turned me into a human and that Lissa saw me. The only thing I don't know is why Dimitri is still here. When we woke up together 4 days ago I was in pure bliss. I still hadn't told him about how I felt about him, and he has been distant. Maybe it's Tasha.

Truth is I know all the details about what happened, I just don't understand what's up with Dimitri. At points, like when we eat lunch together, he pays attention to my every word, every movement, and every gesture. But any other day when I'm guarding Lissa and he is guarding Christian, he doesn't speak to me at all.

It's probably Tasha-

"Rose!"

I snap out of my thoughts and look at Liss. She's sitting on the couch with Christian while Dimitri is in the corner.

"Stop daydreaming! I need to talk to you in the other room." She says.

"Okay." I roll my eyes and head into the other room.

At first she's quiet and just thinks for a minute. Then finally, "I spoke with Dimitri."

I stiffen and look over her shoulder. She didn't know the awkwardness between us yet.

"He agreed that since you were otherwise occupied for the last three days of his contract that he would be willing to re-do those days." She said quickly.

I don't understand. "Lissa what are you talking about?"

She rolls her eyes, "he agreed to be your sex slave for three days of your choosing."

I look at her stunned. Why? We don't even talk. I hear her talking but I'm not listening, instead my mind is racing.

"Rose Please don't feel like you have to do this right now. I know it's only a couple of days since... but I think he could break you out of this depression thing you're having-"

"What depression thing?" I snap

"Ever since... you haven't been the same" she stuttered, it was a touchy subject to her.

"I need a break." I say and start walking back into the living room.

"Yes, and he could give it to you-"

"I don't want that Liss!"

"Why?" She asked surprised. "I thought you had feelings for him."

I shook my head to clear it, "I couldn't make him do that."

"He wants to!" She says

I shake my head again, "no. I don't want it."

I walk out into the living room and stand in my respected corner.

Dimitri looks at me for the first time, his glance questioning. I guess he knew what we talked about.

I stare at him blankly for a minute before shaking my head no.

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I needed a break. I couldn't do this anymore. I decided on visiting the one person that could maybe understand me. Maybe.

She opens the door without surprise, "took you long enough." She grunts out and steps out of the way so I can enter her room.

"Hello to you too Sonya." I say rolling my eyes.

She closes the door behind me and leads me toward the couch. As soon as I'm sitting, I'm crying.

Sonya just holds me for a while until my eyes are dry and I can speak again. She doesn't ask why, and I think it's because she already knows.

"Rose," she starts when she has my full attention. "Ignoring him doesn't help anything."

"But it's so hard!" I exclaim, "It's so hard to go back to the way things were. I tried to kill his friends, I would have killed him!"

She understands, I can see it in her eyes.

"Rose, I was a Strigoi for many more years then you. And the only thing Mikhail has done is help. He has forgiven me."

I look up at her, "but what if I can't forgive myself?" I ask.

She sighs and says, "Mikhail knows that I'll never be fully recovered again, but he can distract me."

I smirk at that, "oh really."

She blushes.

"Is he that good at distracting you?" I ask innocently, but on the inside I was smirking my ass off.

She rolls her eyes, "How would you know what good is? You're the virgin."

I gape at her and slap her arm, she slaps my hand back and says, "I thought you didn't want to die a virgin and that you lo9ved Dimitri, it's time for you to suck it up and tell him."

I'm stunned and surprised by her tone. It seemed as if she had experience with this kind of thing. And I wasn't going to let wise words just blow over my head.

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Lissa looks at me quizzically, "But I thought you said you didn't want him?"

I blush, and she squeals in delight.

"Do you still have that lingerie from the store?" she asks excitedly.

I roll my eyes and nod. Of course I did.

"Good. Cuz you're gonna need it!"

I blush even redder and nod my head a little bit. I can't believe I'm about to do this.

"You wait here and pack your sexy things, I'll get Dimitri and talk to him, and Christian will make the rental house reservation!"

She kisses my forehead, practically jumping up and down, "My Sista from another mister is about to get laid!"

"Lissa!" I shout, but she's already out the door.

God what had I gotten myself into.