A/N hey. So. Ur. Gonna. Hate. Me. But only in the beginning.

BUT ILY. AND ILL FORGIVE U FOR KILLING ME.

There's a lemon in this one.

"I still don't understand why you changed your mind," Dimitri says staring at the road.

"I need to forget," I respond quietly.

"This won't help."

"Then turn around!" I snap and sit back in my chair. We were already 2 hours into the trip and he already had me going.

"Lissa paid me-"

"Oh shut the fuck up!" I shout suddenly.

We are quiet for a moment before I say, "I know you regret it."

He looks over at me curiously, "what do I regret?"

I roll my eye and put my head on the window and close my eyes.

This was a shitty idea.

DPOV

Not only did my gut clench from excitement, but also my heart. Except my heart clenched from sadness not excitement. Roza was only doing this because she wanted to forget. She only wanted this because she "almost died a virgin." At least that what she said to me.

What was I to expect? My heart was completely hers and yet, she didn't know.

RPOV

"Roza we are here." Someone said quietly shaking my shoulder.

I must have fallen asleep in the car. I opened my eyes slowly and stretched. It's dark outside, and all I can see is Dimitri's outline.

"Where are we?" I ask.

"You'll see." Dimitri laughs.

I groan and step out of the car. Dimitri is already carrying my bag so all I have to grab is my purse.

Dimitri leads me to a small cabin that sits right on the beach. I only know this because I hear it. On my way into the cabin, I trip over the front steps and curse. Dimitri turns on the lights and I can see the inside.

Let me just say, Christian did a good job.

When you first walked in there was a kitchen to the left, if you went straight you end up in a living room with a 60" Flat screen.

I set my purse on the ground by the couch and searched for Dimitri. I found him in the room next to the living room. I gasp at the sight of it. I'm the middle of a room was a king size bed with white sheets and a white overhang. In front of the bed was another flat screen TV. I walked into the bathroom and almost squeaked like a girl. There was a huge bathtub and shower. (Gotta love the bathtub right?)

"Roza come here for a minute?" I hear someone calls, breaking me out of my trance. I pouted as I walked over to Dimitri. I wanted to go try out the tub.

He laughs at me, seeing my face. "Don't worry; I'll make sure we have fun in there."

I feel the blood rush into my cheeks as I understand the meaning of his words.

"Unless you don't want to-"

"No, I do!" I say quickly blushing furiously again.

He laughs and picks up my bag, heading toward another room.

I was confused at first, I thought he was taking my bags to a different room but when I looked inside I almost jumped up and down.

A walk in closet.

"I love Christian," I say and begin running my hands over the drawers. At the end of the closet was a vanity, and I excitedly peered into the mirror. Behind me stood Dimitri, we met eyes in the mirror and I smiled. Whatever I was mad about was gone now.

I turn toward him and wrap my arms around his waist.

"I'm sorry," I whisper, as I feel his arms come around me.

"I forgive you Roza, always." He whispers back.

I smile up at him and lead him to the bed. He chuckles at my forwardness and slides his shoes off. I quickly do the same and jump on the bed. It literally felt like I was on a cloud.

Dimitri follows me and climbs until he's hovering over me. I wrap my arms around his neck and bring him closer to me, ready for whatever he has planned.

He stops me, however, and rolls off of me before I can plant my lips on his.

I start to protest but he stops me by giving me that look when someone's about to do something very important.

"I want to talk before we do anything," Dimitri says.

I groan and sit up on the bed, arranging the pillows so I had rest my back on the head board.

"Okay. I'm ready." I say, rolling my eyes.

"First of all," he starts, "there is nothing between me and Tasha."

I open my mouth to argue that I wasn't worried about that but he shuts me up with another look.

"She wants something I can never give." He says.

"What does she want?" I ask quietly.

He sighs, "She wants feelings from me, and I don't see her in that way. She doesn't even attract me, or tempt me."

On the inside, I was glowing, but I hid my grin, Hopi g he didn't see.

"Okay, what's second?" I ask.

"Second, we start the fun tomorrow."

"What!-"

"I don't want to count today as one of the three days, today is already almost over."

Dimitri looks at me, asking if this was okay. I nod my head.

"Three, your first time is going to hurt, a lot."

I felt blood rise into my cheeks again. I knew this; I just didn't want to talk about it.

"Don't look at me like that." He says and smirks.

"Look at you like what?" I ask innocently.

"If we decide to do this, we need to be open with each other. If it hurts too bad you need to tell me. Anything I do to you that hurts, you need to tell me. You understand?"

I swallow and nod. He really didn't want to hurt me, and I was grateful for that.

"Okay." He says relieved, "do you have anything?"

I think before I say anything, this was kind of embarrassing but I needed to tell him.

"I'm on pill." I say quickly. I fight off a blush and mentally pat myself on the back.

He smiles at me, "good."

"And when I want to kiss you, you have to kiss me back. I don't care if it's not the "right day" when I want you; you're going to give yourself to me." I say suddenly.

Dimitri stares at me, mouth slightly open, before nodding.

"Now that being said, get your butt over here and kiss me."

He moves over to me slowly, resuming the position we were in earlier. He drops to his forearms so we are chest to chest and drops his lips to mine.

I moan at the sudden warmth and he instantly pulls away.

"What?" I ask, opening my eyes.

I'm met with dark ones, filled with lust. "Try not to moan until tomorrow, or I'm not going to be able to stop myself from taking you right now on this bed."

"What's wrong with the bed?"

He Growls and puts his lips back to mine, this time hard and passionate. He moves his mouth along mine and sweeps his tongue over my lip, biting my bottom lip as he pulls away slowly. I could help but moan softly. He begins working on my neck, running his tongue over every curve and crevice. I moan again as he finds that sweet spot.

"I won't tell Lissa if you don't." I gasp out.

"Tell her what?" He whispers against my skin.

"That we started early. She won't mind." I gasp and moan again as he starts moving his hands underneath my shirt.

This is all I have wanted since I first saw him. This was all I wanted since I first realized that I loved him. Hell, I wanted to do this in the hospital.

Dimitri removes my shirt in one swift motion to reveal my pink laced bra. I mentally cursed myself for not wearing my black set that I bought with Lissa.

"You're so beautiful." He whispers in my ear, before attaching his mouth just above my breast. He moves his mouth lower so his mouth halfway rests on my breast and the other half on the thin pink fabric.

I moan softly and tangle my hands in his hair, pulling him closer to me.

"God Dimitri." I moan as he massages my other breast with his hand.

"Roza," he whispers against my skin and travels down to my shorts with his mouth.

"Dimitri," I gasp as he removes my shorts to reveal my white lace panties.

He attaches his mouth the top of my panties and pulls them halfway down with his teeth, so they were only covering my entrance.

I moan suddenly as I feel Warmth on my core. I look down, and there is Dimitri, sucking on me softly through my underwear.

"Oh god." I gasp and spread my legs wider. His hands go to my hips and grip them tightly, enough to probably leave light bruises tomorrow.

He detaches his mouth and uses his first finger to softly rub my clit.

I moan out loud as he teases me.

"Dimitri, please."

"What do you want?" He asks, looking me in the eye.

"I don't know-" I was cut off by another moan when he tore off my panties and started rubbing.

"What do you want?" He asks again.

My eyes squeeze tight against the feeling starting to build up in my core.

"Just," I pant, "make me come please."

I feel his warmth again and can feel his tongue swirling around my clit. While his first finger enters me.

"Fuck," I moan and tangle my hands in his hair again, pulling him closer.

He adds another finger, pumping a little faster. I can feel myself coming undone, but I needed just a little more to push me off the edge.

"Please, more." I moan and close my eyes tight.

He adds a third finger and pumps even faster, as he sucks and licks on my clit.

Fuck. I could feel myself being pulled over the edge as Dimitri curled his fingers inside of me.

"Dimitri!" I shout and curl my fingers I to the sheets.

He fingers leave me and his tongue detached from my sore clit. He moves his mouth over my stomach and onto my breast again, my bra still in place.

He attaches his lips one last time to mine and he sits up. I open my eyes slowly, my body still in pure ecstasy.

I look him up and down. "You did that all with a shorts and pants on!"

He smirks at me, his eyes widening as I attack him. He falls on his back with me straddling him.

For a moment he just stares at me, his hands grabbing onto my hips.

"What?" I ask.

He looks at me with something I've never seen before, "you are so fucking beautiful."

I blush a flip my hair over my shoulder flirtatiously.

He growls and pushes my hips further into his.

"Wait, did you just curse?" I ask, realizing that he didn't do it very often.

He rolled his eyes and smirked up at me. "Ya. I did."

I laugh and kiss him on the mouth.

"Why did you leave my bra on?" I ask, resting my forehead on his.

"One, it's pretty," he says, making me laugh, "two, I wouldn't be able to hold back if I had you completely naked underneath me."

"I wouldn't have minded," I say.

He grins, "I know, but then we would have had to tell Lissa about tonight."

I roll my eyes, and start unbuttoning his shirt, and then his jeans.

"What are you doing Roza?"

"I can feel you, comrade. You're hard as a rock under there."

"Roza," he warns, as I slide his pants down.

I take his blue boxers off, pretending I didn't hear him.

I never forgot how big he was, but seeing him again for the second time was a little nerve racking. I hope I still remembered how to do this.

I placed my hand over him a squeezing softly before moving up and down his length.

"Roza you don't have to do this." He says, holding in a groan.

I raise my eyes to his, "oh really?"

I take my hand off.

His mouth opens and then closes. I don't put my hand back.

I can see I'm torturing him, and I smile.

"What do you want Dimitri?"

He squeezes his eyes shut and opens them, not uttering a word.

"What do you want?"

Our gazes meet, and I can see it's killing him to stay quiet.

"Oh baby," I sigh, "do you not want me to touch you?"

I move so I'm straddling his thighs, my uncovered core dripping against his legs.

"Roza, if you get any closer I will slam into you."

I shudder but hold myself still enough that he can't see it.

"I'm ready now-"

"Roza," he gasps and grabs my hips. At first, I think he's going to drop me on top of him, but then I see he's holding me in place so I can't move.

"I won't take you tonight." He swears.

I grin, he was so strong, and yet I made him so weak. If I really wanted him to take me now I could easily make it happen. But I settled for just pleasuring him.

I grasped his cock in my hand and began rubbing up and down his length fast.

"Roza-" he moans and bucks his hips into my hand. At least I knew I was doing something right.

I decided he had enough teasing and let my mouth do the work for him. My hands and mouth worked simultaneously with each other on his cock until he exploded in my mouth. I swallowed it all.

We sit quietly for a moment before he moves me off of his legs and into the sheets. I take my bra off and pull on one of his t-shirts while he finds some clean boxers. It felt normal between us. In between our preparations we stole kisses and glances.

I just hope I had the guts to tell him the truth.

A/n

So when should rose admit she loves him? Before or after sex?

Review, please!

Sry for grammar. I'm doing this off my phone yet again. Will prob fix it this week?