Date: 05/20/18
Weather: Sunny, Warm.
Mood: Mixed.
Dear diary.
Well it's been officially over a month since I was spooky doored and gotten myself a job in a spooky red mansion, and to be honest I've gotten quite used to the living here. Most of my electronics died and the only thing I have left still with power is my Kindle, still going strong. I've also made some daily routines that help me more or less sane. No video games and no music is almost torture for me after all.
My day starts with waking up at 0500 to get freshened up with light stretches mixed in. Around 0600 I do some exercise with Meiling at the front gate. She was kind enough to teach me some martial art stuff too! This keeps my body up limber and fit. 0730 I get breakfast with tea. It's usually a toss up between eastern and western style breakfast, but I'm not a picky eater. 0800 I wash off all the sweat that I worked up during my work out session with Meiling, and ready myself mentally for my job at 0900.
Speaking of my job. Today I've seen Flandre angry.. well angry isn't the right word, irritated would be more accurate. No.. it was definitely anger.. I still don't have enough trust from Remilia to bring her sister outside, but I did manage to get the green light to get her to the library. I think this is a huge step up from just walking down the hall. I was hanging out with the library crew and Flandre. Sipping tea, reading books, and generally having a good time. And then, She came and crashed the peaceful party. She introduced her as a humble Tengu newspaper reporter. I think her name was Shamblingaru Maya? Something like that. Okay before I continue I gotta throw a little rant here.. what with these people's name? I get that it's a magic fantasy world set in an old time-y Japan, but some of them have either ridiculous or long names. It doesn't even help the fact that I'm the worst with people's names in the history of remembering names! Okay.. getting back to today..
She apparently caught wind of some human baby sitting Flandre and wanted to interview that said human. Apparently that's me. The girl was sure excited to ask a million and a half questions, jotting them down as if it was the scoop of the century.. I answered them the best I can but Flandre every time I looked at Flandre I could tell her patience was getting thin.. I had to stop the interview short and tell the reporter that she had to leave. The girl did look sad but I think she got the message. Something tells me this won't be the last time I see her.. anyway.. the look in Flan's eyes were.. frightening. like over 500 years worth of pent up anger ready to burst out of that small frame.. I felt my flight or flight response kick in and urge me to get out of dodge... The Library crew caught that too and helped me out. All jokes aside if it wasn't for the Library crew, I probably would have died..
Now normally I would have continued the rest of the day as it was normal. 1630 help out Sakuya and her work around the Mansion which served a double purpose. First is increase my rapport with the rest of the Mansion Crew, the second is recon. Knowing everything about my work place and coworkers is just the beginning to the grander picture. What, you thought this was still about baby sitting Flandre? It's only a part of the greater picture! To pull off the incident that will top all incidents! The Mansion is just the start. I need to figure out the rest of Gensokyo! But I'm not going to get too ahead of myself here. I've already scoped out the majority of the mansion and I even know where Sakuya keeps her time stopping pocket watch. It's only a matter time till I advance to the next phase. The rest of the day involves eating supper and spending my time in the Library, increasing my magical fortitude before bed.
Now that's what I would have done on any other day.. but I took the rest of today reflecting on today's events.. I saw death and I flinched.. Now I don't know what to think.. no matter how strong I get physically and mentally, there are forces that can end me in an instant... There was always this creeping thought of "Any time of day might be my literal last." Now the creeping thought is more of an aggressive walk.. Seeing Flandre angry was something that I sort of wanted to see and now is something that I regret.. okay.. I'm getting sidetracked.. I think the important thing is to accept the fact that I can die at any time while I'm in Gensokyo. I also need to continue building a positive relationship with the rest of the crew and figure out a back up plan on not dying to Flandre in case she gets angry at me. I'm not a personal fan on planning for failure, but I need to make an exception. I need more time to think about this.. and I have to stop my still shaking hands from shaking.. I'll talk to you at another time my Dear Diary..