Date: 06/03/18
Weather: Rainy. Chilly. Mood: Mostly frustrated.
Dear diary.
Okay. This has not been my week.. like at all.. On top of the constant visits from people of the Human village who are quite fearless I might add, I feel like I've been slowly losing my mind.. Either my eyes or my heads playing tricks on me or there's actually something or someone that's messing with me. Long story short, I feel like I've been seeing things.. sometimes at a corner of my eye or even in plain sight, but every time I see it I can't remember when or where I've seen it. I kept it to my self for a couple days, and when I did tell my coworkers and my boss about it, they said that I was just over worked and told me to take it slow. I don't know.. I feel like there's an outside force at play here.. someone that's messing with my head. Speaking of outside forces, my dream got all messed up. It's not the usual me telling myself on the steps to a successful incident no, it's warped with so some smug looking Santa girl taunting me.
And I thought that was the worst of it.. it's not. Just a couple days ago I've learned that even if I was to steal.. I mean borrow Sakuya's watch, I actually can't use it. The time stop power comes from her and the watch acts as a catalyst to her powers.. so it's basically a pocket watch with very minute magic powers.. not good at all..
But you know what? There are some silver lining to all of this.. actually no silver lining, just some "not bad" news that's for the most part irrelevant to my bad news. First and foremost my relationship with the entire mansion crew has been getting much better, especially with Flandre. I like to think that I was promoted from a Flandre and her play thing to a Flandre and her favourite play thing. Seeing that small the still sort of scary vampire girl's gave brighten up and give me a near bone crushing hug warms my heart! On a semi related note, my boss Remilia called me the other day and told me that if I keep up the good work I might even get a "Special Promotion" from her, personally I have no idea what she's talking about. Another thing is that I've been getting both stronger and "smarter" thanks to Meiling and the Library crew. I've even learned how to fly! First experience was terrifying but surprisingly liberating.
A little hard to explain but it's kind of like scuba diving with very little resistance. The thought that your body is no longer attached to the ground and at the moment the very little control I have on movement was quite scary indeed, but at the same time the fact that my option of movement expanding with the "Y" axis opening up was quite exhilarating. Oh also my eyes got watery from the wind in my face and that wasn't fun. I'm also slowly in the process of learning the ways of Danmaku! Also a terrifying first experience. Meiling throwing "Bullets" around everywhere and figuring out a way to dodge them was a difficult task. I mean the girl went easy on me and I started the training grounded but still.. getting hit by one of them hurt a lot.. I got my clothes wrecked..
There's a lot for me to do for me to follow through if I want to make this incident happen.. Getting more powerful is a given, but now I need to either learn some sort of time stopping magic or find a substitute. I also need to find out a way to clean up my other problems my dreams and my eyes playing tricks in me. All in all I feel like I took three steps forward but three and a half back. I made solid progress as a resident of this world but I know I still have much much much to learn. Hopefully the next week goes a little easier on me. Oh well.. I'll talk to you next time my Dear Diary.
P.S. Reminder to self. Go find a pair of goggles if I am to continue to fly. Watery eyes are the last thing I want. It should also fit over my glasses.