Weather:
M: Clear
T: Clear
W: Mostly clear
Th: Cloudy, no rain
F: Cloudy, no rain
S: Warm, Clear sky
Su: clear sky. Rather dry.
Mood:
M: Tired.
T: Curious.
W: Perplexed..
Th: A little unsure
F: Physically tired
S: Sleepy.
Su: content
Date: 07/23/18
Dear Diary.
It's been quite the long day. Training was as tough as usual, and to think I would have gotten uses to it by now.. not too much to say except that reporter girl visited again today. I think her name was Aya? She had to show up when I was looking after Flandre and in the middle of our sparring session. Flan practically turned all her Danmaku to the reporter girl and she basically left in a flash. Actually, the reporter girl visited my room like ten minutes ago and once again "interviewed" me. To be honest it felt more like a passionate interrogation. A bit too close for comfort if you ask me... She apparently saw me last week in the village. I wonder if she's spying on me... Questions for another time..
Date: 07/24/18
Dear Diary.
Huh.. I think words travel pretty fast around here. It was my village visit day and I decided to do a slow flight over to the village, fully geared up for any unwanted events of course. Now when I got to the village things got a bit more busy. People recognizing my face on a news paper and swarming me, asking me a million and a half questions. Not fun. I kept most of my answers ambiguous enough to not deliver too much details but just enough to keep the people satisfied. Glad that little question session ended short with a girl breaking up the party. She introduced herself as akyuu? And from what I get I think she's a daughter of some big wig family in the village. The girl and I talked about any things including the Shrine maiden of red and white. Apparently she is pretty much the unofficial authority figure around these parts. This much I figured off the get go, but I've never knew that she was the one that created the Danmaku system. She also broke the entire rule to kill a guy... Horrifying. Anyway I learned to really keep my distance from that girl. I have a lot to think about...
Date: 07/25/18
Dear Diary.
I'm still sort of worried about what I've learned about this maiden. And you know what, she's kind of a jerk. She creates a rule that everyone needs to abide but she completely disregards it when it's inconvenient to her? Another thing. Why did she kill that guy? I mean from what I hear this fortune teller guy didn't even sound that bad and she goes about and straight up murdering him because he was a step closer to becoming a Youkai from the power he got? I think that's a bit sexist. There's ton of other female Youkai running amok and she gives them a slap on the wrist? What's up with that? I told Flan about yesterday and Reimu after our sparring session, and she fought her before and lost. Is it just me or is she using the guise of "keep things balanced for everyone" for her own sake of not dying to Youkai? I mean technically Flan could literally just blow her up if the Danmaku rule didn't exist right? There's one thing that's been sort of bothering me today. It's actually about the deceased fortune-teller and well.. me... The guy and I have sort of a couple things in common. We're both guys and we have powers. Now I don't know the gap between me and the dead dude, but when he was close to becoming a Youkai he was mercilessly murdered. Would that happen to me? Another thing is the power itself.. I feel like the more I get stronger the less I feel human... I think on going to sleep on this thought...
Date: 07/26/18
Dear Diary.
Well I've slept on it and I don't have much choice. If I want to go home I'm going to have to follow through with the incident and if I want to survive, I'm going to need all the power I can get. I just don't know at what point can anyone or myself distinguish me between a Human and a Youkai... On another note I need to learn to fly better. Turns our that a Danmaku battle is often set in the sky. I still don't know how to fire a Danmaku of my own but I should at least learn to dodge in the air. Something for another time. Anyway there's something that I've never heard Flan say when I was looking after her today. She wanted to learn Magic like me. We were in luck since we were in the Library most of the Patchouli only half agreed to help her. Apparently this isn't the first time she wanted to learn Magic but she always bailed out when she got bored. I can sort of understand where she's coming from though, learning magic isn't as fantastic as people think they are to be.. tons of repetition and a lot of history lesson to understand the fundamentals. Anyway Patchouli was right. Half way through I can see Flan's face dull with boredom reading magic books. She didn't say anything about giving up though so maybe there's a chance? Today was a slow day but there's still a lot to think about. I'm still a little uncertain regarding power and humanity. I wish there was someone I can talk to. The Mansion crew won't help me. I think I need someone from the outside. Outside of the Mansion.
Date: 07/27/18
Dear Diary.
Boy and I beat today. Remember when I said I wanted to try dodging Danmaku while flying? Yeah... It's hard. Super hard... Adding another plane for me to consider is exponentially difficult. On top of that the Mansion had an "usual" intruder and I had to help catch. This was only because Flandre wanted me to catch that magician girl. She wasn't even scared of using Danmaku indoors too I had to pull all the stops to dodge and catch. In the end Sakuya caught the thief red handed good on her. And you know what now that I think about it when might have been the perfect person to ask about my dilemma. It'd a shame that I had to realize this now. Maybe I can ask the Mansion crew to learn her whereabouts? Tomorrow. I'm so sore from today. It's probably the most times I've gotten hit by Danmaku bullets today...
Date: 07/28/18
Dear Diary.
I slept like a log last night but I'm still tired... I guess I haven't been writing about me dreams huh, Doremy has been giving me rather pleasant dreams recently and we've been talking about a lot of things. Managing dreams must be tough. Sure the flow of time acts differently in the dream world but she still looks after pretty much everyone's dreams in both Gensokyo and the other side. Props to her for doing such an amazing job. Now talking about today. I asked around the Mansion and didn't get much answer. I guess it's only right to not hang out with a local thief. Patchouli sounded pretty miffed and was rambling on about getting all her stolen books back one of these days. But I have a feeling that she's not going to actually put the effort on going outside. That girl looks as flimsy as a stack paper in a tornado. Looking after Flan was a little rough too. I could barely stay awake and she didn't like that. Poking me with her slim finger and sometimes even jabbing me with her stick thing. I barely pulled the day through. Hopefully tomorrow is better..
Date: 07/29/18
Dear Diary.
You know what I noticed today? Gensokyo doesn't have coffee. It's been literal months and I just noticed that... Huh... Anyway I felt a lot better than yesterday. I took Flandre out to the Garden to hang out and enjoy the sun. Well in the little Vampire's case, the shade. Well she needs the fresh air anyway. She even helped me water the plants. It's been rather on the dry side. And the plants and flowers looked a little dry. There is one other event that I sort of expected but not really. Flan asked if I can take her to the village. I told her that I would ask her sister first but wasn't going to make promises. I think she knows what my boss and her sister is going to say and we were both right. I asked Remilia after work and it was pretty much immediately rejected saying that it was too risky and I'm not ready for such a thing. Maybe she might loosen up if I got a little stronger to show that I'm capable? Once again getting back to the whole power and humanity again... I think eventually she'll let me but now is not the time. Now I just have to let Flan down easy on the rejection thing.