01/14/19
Dear Diary.
Been practicing my specialized Magic. For the most part of the day. And this stuff is tough as balls... I gotta say who's the wise guy that separates the Arcane fundamental into five parts? On top of it being difficult to learn I noticed that as soon as I'm a bit more adept in one aspect lets say Protection, I get more inept in other aspect like Sacrifice and Chaos, but it isn't all too bad, because as one aspect pushes other aspect away it also pulls other aspect empowering them. Still.. talk about a juggling job... It does sort of make sense though. Some aspect compliment each other while it contrasts other aspects. I got a long way to go... I'm glad the library crew was at least willing to help out. Flan on the other hand was once again bored. I swear I remember when she was into magic for like a week. Now she thinks its boring. I guess being human would I would be attracted to these unnatural power.
01/15/19
Dear Diary.
Been a long time since I've talked about my dreams. Well I didn't talk about them because they've been more or less a bit well... Boring? But the dream that I had last night was something else... It was like a vision, but I was there like a spectator... I saw me standing on top of a defeated Red and white, and then Me that was standing on top of the shrine maiden reached out to me.. Something was off though. I didn't look like me. I looked like a monster. Was I Youkai? Is that my future? Do I need to become a Youkai to get this incident done? Or is this path an inevitability? Oh speaking of Youkai, what's with pretty much all female Youkai being a bunch of cute girls while male youkai look like they're out of a super cheesy 70's horror movie? Like I can't be the only one that noticed that. Heck I asked around town, and the answers were surprisingly unexpected? Most of the villagers apparently don't know the gender til they can actually visually see that they are in fact cute girls. So does that mean that there are actually "Female" Youkai that look more like a monster and less like a cute girl? Questions for another time I guess.
01/16/19
Dear Diary.
Has the same dream as last night. It felt more vivid. I even saw the Youkai me try and tell me something, but I woke up before I can actually decipher what I told me... I'm a bit concerned regarding this little repeating dream that I had. Other than that my day was pretty quiet. Sparring with Flan and doing some reading up in the Library. Still trying to figure out how to optimize my Magical specialization. I think the most optimal way for me to do this is to master two or three complimenting aspect and work from there.
01/17/19
Dear Diary.
Decided to focus and started working on three aspect of this arcane style. Control, Sacrifice, and Chaos. They sort of balance each other out. While Control and Chaos clash with each other, Sacrifice surprisingly compliment and empower both of the other aspects. Plus I think they give me enough option when I have to fight. Growth and Protection is nice and they do empower each other but both seems very static. A lot of the spells based on Growth and protection focuses on powering me up and that's about it.. So yeah, Control, Sacrifice, and Chaos. Now for my days it was pretty alright. Day have been getting colder. Flan seemed pretty grumpy about the whole thing, I mean the whole mansion is pretty well insulated withe magic and what not but I did feel a bit of a draft... she tried to take a bite out of me saying something like my blood "looking" warm. Hey her words not mine. Can she see my blood stream? Is that like a permanent thing or like a different filter she can apply on herself? Should have asked her. Oh I also visited that Antique shop again. Seems like there's new items in stock. Nothing too interesting though. Some instruction books here and there. The guy seemed pretty hyped about these books. Telling me that they're like some sort of spell books. I didn't have it in me to correct him. All in all a pretty good day. Oh also I didn't have those weird dreams... Is that a good thing?
01/18/19
Dear Diary.
Spoke too soon I think. Just had another dream and it felt sort of like the "Next Episode." My Youkai self in the dream was actually talking to me. I don't think my Youkai self was speaking any known language but I think I more or less understood what I said. It was something in the lines of "Currently, this is your future." I tried asking some question to my Youkai self but I didn't respond and I just woke up. Getting back to the rest of my day, studied more of my selected aspects and more or less hear Flan complain about the cold. Even the library crew wasn't too happy about this cold. Apparently this is one of the rare winter where it dipped pretty low. Even Meiling who's more or less a pretty happy girl looked pretty miserable. That Ice fairy seemed pretty stoked though. I actually had to actively avoid her. On top of the cold that I had to deal with the Fairy actually looked intimidating... Seeing those icicles flying around.. Quite intimidating... Not going to lie... I sort of miss the super calm and even milder weather in the Nether... Quickly getting back to the aspect.. I think these aspect are sort of starting to effect me.. I can feel and definitely tell that how I answer and respond to people have sort of changed... Sometimes I catch myself sort of respond without thinking? Almost chaotic while other times I feel like I take forever to form an answer... It did weird some of my co-workers out but for the most part they seemed rather understanding of my little predicament. I'm glad.
01/19/19
Dear Diary.
Boy was I glad to work at the Nether today. I think Konpaku caught that too she tried to ask me again to join her boss's crew. What can I say? Escaping the looming cold was quite the delight, but I'm on a mission. I did thank her and did tell her that I might join her boss's crew in the future, so I might have to live up to that, maybe when I follow through and succeed with my little incident... which is in like 3 months? I feel like time isn't really on my side.. Not much else. Getting back to the mansion though, was a bit miserable.. The cold, the wind, the dark... Scary.. I'm surprised that Youkai and Fairies didn't bother me or anything like that. Do Youkai hibernate? Huh..
01/20/19
Dear Diary.
Umm... BigBoss came to my room right before I was about to start writing my entry. Had to wait for her to leave. She came to apparently have small talks, but I think she was more focused on my other job at the Nether. She asked if I liked the other job more than looking after her sister. I don't know if it was her charisma or her blood red eyes that pierced my soul or my altered speech via aspect studies that made me answer truthfully. I basically told her that I do like working at the Nether with Konpaku but the Mansion crew and the job was what I really liked. Not sure if she liked my response or not. She did seem amused by it and left. I sort of wish I had more time to give an honest response though. Regarding my aspect studying. I can really feel them sort of pulling and twisting me around. I feel like I see the world a bit differently. I feel like I'm constantly struggling to either blurt out the first thing I think about, or take like five minutes to give an answer via Chaos and Control respectively, and the Aspect of sacrifice amplifying it in between. It's a struggle, and I think the Library crew is slowly getting effected by how I behave, Flan the most. I do actually feel stronger, I've learned many spells, but this might get out of hand if I don't learn to control this...