Strong feelings:
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Hange looked up at Erwin with a serious face.
"How is she doing?" Erwin looked back at her.
"Stable for now. Her heart beats as it should and her pulse is working just fine" Hange gave him a happy smile.
"Good. And I could not find any bite marks on her as well. She is safe. The only thing we need to do is tend to her head wound, letting her rest for a couple of days and she should be as good as new"
Hange felt happy that she could give Levi good news instead of bad once.
After washing of the blood in the shower, and drinking one of the bottles of blood Hange had provided him Levi felt back in control once again. He left the office to look for Hange, whom he found pretty fast.
"How's Ayano?" Was the first thing he asked her.
"She is just fine. No bite marks at all. The only bad thing is that head wound. But she will just need to rest for some days and it won't be a problem. She should soon regain her consciousness if you want to see her"
Levi drew a sigh of relief.
"That's good. At least I know that she is fine then. I should head back to work. By the way, no one saw me like that, did they?" Hange shook her head.
"No. Some of the cadets came to ask if you had been bitten, since you where is such a bad shape. But I told them that you where fine and just needed some rest after fighting the vampire. Oh, and Erwin wanted to meet you. Had something he wanted to talk about"
He thanked her for covering for him and then went to Erwins office.
Erwin met him with a small smile once he came inside the commanders well kept room. He was studying a map he had put on the table.
"Glad to see you're feeling better Levi. I wanted to talk to you. We are going to conduct an outside the wall mission in three days. Think you can get your squad to head to the dining hall later this evening so that I can go through the plan with you all?"
Levi nodded.
"Of course. I'll make sure my squad and I will be there. Anything else?"
"No, that was all for now"
He surely didn't feel like leaving outside the wall at the moment. But he would never disobey Erwin as long as there was no good reason to. And the missions where after all in favour for humanity, even if it could, and definitely would lead to many casualties, it was worth it in the end. At least he hoped it would be.
About two hours later Hange came to get Levi. She told him that Ayano was finally awake, and she wanted to see him. Levi quickly made his way to the room where she was resting. He wasn't sure why she had called for him, but he hoped it was nothing bad. Maybe she wanted to ask him about the attack. Words mush have gotten to her that he had been there when it happened.
When he entered the room is smelled like her. Like lavender and vanilla. It was a smell he had come to love. Not that he ever would admit it.
The gauze bandage still didn't manage to erase all the blood smell coming from her head, but it was definitely more bearable for him to be around her then before. It was wrapped tight, and no blood had leaked through it yet. Hange sure did her job well.
"You called for me?" He asked and sat down on a wooden chair beside her bed. She gave him a small smile.
"Yes. I remembered that you who saved me back there, and I wanted to say thank you. I surely was stupid. I should not have left without a silver dagger or something of that sort at least" She blushed and looked down.
He couldn't blame her. Usually people where safe from vampires as long as they stayed with the crowd and didn't go to isolated parts of town. That's when they where easy pray, since vampires usually didn't like to show themselves around too many people.
"It's fine. I'm just happy you didn't get bitten. And it was a very good thing I had some errands in town. Otherwise things could have ended badly. Anyway, you don't need to thank me. Anyone here would have done the same. You just relax, and once we've come back from the mission I'm sure you'll feel much better"
Ayano gave him a worried look.
"Mission? Are you going outside the wall" He gave her a nod.
"Yes, In three days. Erwin will talk about it later this evening"
"Then let me come as well! I'll also go outside!" She tried to get up. Levi gave her a stern look.
"Like that? Then we might as well feed you to the titans right now and get it over with" It was really stupid of her to even think about such a thing in that condition. She clearly was still pale and in pain. What she needed was a very good and long rest.
"But I don't want to lay here all useless while you and the others are risking your lives!"
It was a bit funny seeing her worry so much about his life. He was safer then any other going outside the wall because of him being a vampire. It would take quite much before he would go down. Especially by a stupid titan. Humans would be much more of a threat.
"You absolutely don't have to worry about me. And the others know what they get themselves into. Everyone here does, so I don't think you should worry your head about stuff like that. And with Eren who can shift to a titan at will and fight for humanity, we can finally maybe get somewhere. We can't waste such an opportunity. You would anyway be of no help at all like this. Or do you want me having to save your ass again?"
She couldn't help but chuckled.
"I guess not"
Levi sighed and tried to hide a smile. He looked at her and felt something he almost had forgotten how it felt like. She was beautiful. Even in this beaten up state. Her tanned skin, and her big amber coloured eyes, and that black hair framing her pretty heart shaped face.
He knew that it was no chance he would ever be able to tell her that, even if he had wanted to.
She was painfully aware how Levi's grey eyes was looking at her. She tried to meet them with her amber once, but ended up looking down or at something else once she felt it too hard to continue looking at him. Her heart was beating fast again. He was perfect in every way. His flawless skin, his black hair styled in an undercut, yes everything. For the day he was dressed in only a white shirt and black pains, which only made him look even hotter.
"Well, I guess I should go. I have some work to take care of before talking with Erwin. Call me if you need anything" He was about to leave, but without thinking, she gripped his hand. He turned around with a confused and surprised look.
"P…Please. Don't go Levi. I...I..." She blushed, and this time she couldn't hide her face well. She felt such an urge to tell him how she felt. If the mission would end bad, and he would die, she would never be able to live with herself knowing that she never even tried to take the chance to open up her heart to him.
If Levi would have had a working heart, he was sure it would beat like crazy. He knew what would come, and he didn't like it. He could tell by how her heart was beating harder and faster then ever. He would hate to turn her down, especially since he, If truth be told, liked her really much as well. But ever since he turned into a vampire, he had known that love would never be something for him. He would never be so selfish and risk someone else life. Even if he could control himself most of the time, there was a part of him that he could never trust. A part that scared him.
"I need to go Ayano. Can it wait till later?"
She shook her head and he knew he was trapped. There was no way he could escape this.
She took a deep breath.
"Listen. There is something I wanted to tell you" There was that deep breath again. He could tell it was hard for her, but it was also hard for him. He wanted her to just say it and get it over with. He didn't want to drag out the unavoidable.
"Yes?" He said, hoping that it would give her the courage to just say it.
"I love you Levi"
He was silent for a while, not knowing what was the best way to turn her down would be. She was looking nervous, waiting for his answer.
The wait felt like hours. Every second was a pain. Maybe it had been stupid of her to actually tell him. After all, he was known to have turned down every girl who ever had gotten close to him. But she hoped with all her heart that she would be an exception. After all she had never seen him smile to any other then her, and that should be a good sign. At least she hoped it was.
"Ayano… There are many others out there who would be much better suited for you. Don't waste time on someone like me. After all, I am your superior, and that's where the line should be drawn" She felt her heart sink. Could he really mean that?
"I don't care about that. I can still love you. And I think I should be the one to decide who is best suited for me"
She couldn't help but notice that he hadn't really said a clear no. Maybe if she tried a little bit harder.
"Well I do care. You should just forget about me okay? I'm no good for you anyway, trust me"
She felt her heart rise again and she lifted herself up to his level, placed a hand on his cheek and leaned into a kiss.
Her heart fluttered as their lips met. His was cold, but soft. His chin was cold as well, but that only felt good against her fever hot skin.
The surprise caught him of guard. He had not expected her to do something that bold. He could feel her soft and warm lips against his. When his mind could comprehend what was happening, he quickly backed away, eyes wide.
"Levi, I...I'm sorry"
Ayano gave him a worried look, afraid that she had taken it too far.
"Why…?" was all he could say before turning around and quickly leave the room. This was all too much for him to take in. Why did she have to make things so hard? Why couldn't she just have accepted what he had said?
His mind was filled with the sweet kiss, and the thought of how much he had wanted to answer it, how much he had wanted to hold her close in his arms. But there was also the other part of him. The part that had heard the fast heartbeat, and the pulse, taunting him with every beat. The pulse he wanted to sink his teeth into, and drain from all the warm red blood. The part which was the cause he would never be able to answer her feelings. He couldn't allow her to break the walls he had build around himself. He needed those walls to protect himself and others.
"Don't forget what you are" He whispered to himself as Levi made his way back to the office. Surely he would not be able to focus on work, or what Erwin would be saying about the mission later on.
He closed the door after him, sat down on the chair and tilted his head backwards with a deep sigh. After sitting like that for a while, he decided to do some training outside. Training was a good way to keep his mind sharp, and for a while forget things.