A:N- hey guys thank you for leaving comments!! This is 100% a beca and Chloe end game, but don't worry Chloe's going to have her work cut out she's not going to win beca so easily.

Chapter 4- I only ever loved you.

It had been months since I'd seen Chloe, I had tried texting and calling her but she never replied, I couldn't understand what had happened she just abandoned me.

Nothing has really happened in the few months that had passed other than me having my exams and working on some new tracks. I had decided, I was going to make a cd about everything I'd ever felt about Chloe, it was a good excuse to make music and it was a better excuse to get all my thoughts and feeling out about her.

I sat at my desk looking at my desired track list, I needed to go to the radio station and borrow their studio to make a decent CD. I packed the stuff I needed and left to head to the station. When I finally reached it I booked my self in for a full day slot, I needed this time to really focus on what I was doing. I had to get it right, if this came out as good as I wanted it too I could use it as a demo for a record label maybe i could get in as a producer. I had high hopes and thought little about the what ifs.

I placed the headphones on and listened to the track I'd pre done, all I needed were vocals. I thought carefully about what song to use. I closed my eyes and thought about chloe, I was annoyed, she left me, she used me. It hit me hard but I got the song I needed I'd heard it on the radio Decline by RAYE it was playing in the car, it was perfect it flowed with my mix nicely.

" I was always there for you oh, I was always on time. An I gave you my all so now you call I decline"

I sat back in my chair and listened and mixed for hours, cutting and re creating tracks, finding the right mix to go with the songs. I personally thought I had some hard hitting lyrics in there.

"If tear drops could be bottled there'd be swimming pools filled by models"

"I can do just what I like, but I can't fall in love without you"

"Even though you're gone I'm going to pretend there's nothing wrong"

"This is my version of heartbreak and this is how I get over you I don't wanna feel"

I felt like I had created the perfect album, it was a heartbreak album, putting feelings into music is one of the best ways to create a good hit, if the record label hear this I might have a shot at becoming an apprentice record producer... I could one day be someone. I burned the demos off onto 2 CDs one for then and one for me. I was so excited to get this CD down to the studio. I jumped into my car and drove as quick as I could, everyone and everything was a blur I had one objective and I arrived quicker than I thought I would have. Jumping out of the car I looked around me, the city was huge, I'd been driving for over 2 hours to reach the office of Def Jam records, this is where the hiring and firing was done, the studio was deeper into the city at least another 2 hour drive. I was so nervous I could feel the sweat clamming my hands up, okay bec breathe, I walked into the office and headed straight for the reception.

"Hi my names Rebbeca Mitchel, I called eairler about an appointment?"

I smiled nervously as the woman looked up at me then back down to the computer. She looked back up and gestured towards a waiting room.

"You'll be seen to shortly, please take a seat"

I waited for about 20 minutes, every time someone opened the door I was ready to jump up, I'd seen so many people walk in and out those doors,most looking deeply unhappy, this was a tough game and you had to be the best to get in.

"Rebbeca Mitchel?"

I stood quickly walking over to the gentleman stood across from me, I reached out to shake his hand but he turned away and started to walk to his office.

Shit I knew, he didn't have the time for me. He just wanted to finish up so he could go home. I knew what would happen but I continued walking knowing every step closer to his office I got I was sealing my fate. Why did I keep walking. I really should have stopped.

We got inside his office and he pulled me a chair up, he scanned me head to toe, he was definitely judging me.

"You have a demo I believe?"

As he held his hand out waiting for me to pass it too him, I was nervous, but I handed it to him quickly and hoped for the best I had everything crossed. He inserted the CD and put his headphones on... it was just a waiting game now, there was no more I could do.

P.O.V change to chloe*

Saturdays were Bella rehearsals which were always challenging especially when Fat Amy didn't practice her routines. We had been dancing and singing for nearly 4 hours, I was exhausted.

"Okay girls lets grab a break, shall we head out for food??"

I've never heard the group of girls agree on anything so seriously than this before. In fact I don't actually think I'd seen Amy move so fast!! So we headed out to the nearest diner, I'd never wanted to eat something so bad in my life.

I was so lost in the menu I hadn't realised the girls were staring at me.

"What did I miss? I was lost in the world of food!"

Amy smirked and spoke 4 dangerous words

"We're getting drunk tonight"

I don't think I've ever seen anyone look so deep into my soul, thing was since I'd stopped talking to beca id stopped running and started going out drinking. However I was trying to tame it.

"You can count me out guys I'm exhausted I'm going home to get some rest"

You can imagine the response I got from that, they begged and pleaded, we ate our food and they begged some more until one small thing changed my mind.

phone buzzes*

Email from :- DJ.

Chloe cautiously unlocked her phone, she hadn't heard from beca in months.

When she clicked on the email, there was a small message and an attachment.

Subject:- you need this

hey Chloe,

you can delete this if you want but before you do. Please listen to it, I don't know where I went wrong but I made this album for you. Its called "I only ever loved you"

The reason it's called that is because you hurt me, you've always hurt me. I've only ever loved you. I've tried so hard and could never seem to get it right with us. I guess I just wasn't what you wanted. I suppose this was me holding on to something that wasn't there, so this is me letting us go.

Goodbye,

Rebbeca Mitchel.

1 attachment: album.

Chloe stared at the email and locked her phone before taking a deep breath. She faked her smile and looked up at the girls.

"Okay who's up for drinks tonight"