Amar: "Guys, Kat doesn't own Divergent."

Me: "Thanks, Amar."

Amar: "No problem, now I gotta go save an initiate, cya!"

Me: "Good luck!"

A/N: I suggest you re-read chapters 1, 2, and 8, before reading this because I changed some stuff in chapter 1 that are crucial to bits in this chapter, and I edited chapter 2 cause I realized I didn't make it seem like she was afraid of heights one bit when she jumped off the train and off the roof, and in chapter 8 I just added another pair of people cause I felt like there were too few people in the initiation, but you don't have to read the chapter if you don't wanna. Anywayyyyyy, go re-read those chapters and then come back and read this one. On with the chapter!

Chapter 9

Why Me?

Six:

I nodded and sat there patiently as she wrapped my arm in a cast and instructed me on what to do so that nothing happens to it while it heals as we wait for the serum from Erudite.

"Six, wait up!" Someone called to me as I swiftly left the infirmary, my arm in a cast and hung around my neck. I turned around to see it was Lauren, trying to catch up to me with her bruised ribs. I stopped and waited for her to catch up, but didn't speak a word, waiting for her to say whatever it is she had to say to me. "Look, Six, I'm really sorry for not going with you after what Shauna said, but I could tell that she hasn't had any friends who enjoy shopping and fashion as much as she does, and I couldn't just leave her, standing there alone."

I looked at Lauren, my eyebrow raised as if asking, "seriously," before I actually spoke, "Well, at least Shauna has friends, and a boyfriend, meanwhile I didn't even know what it was like to be allowed to speak at a meal without being scolded, until I came here." I laughed humorlessly, "I've never had a friend, aside from my father's co-workers children, but I don't see them as friends. I doubt anyone even cares I left, that I'm gone, they probably only care about how devastated my father is now that his daughter left him for good, but, then again, he probably doesn't care either." I laughed at my crappy childhood and left Lauren, gapping at me. I swiftly made my way through the Dauntless who created a slight path out of respect, most likely having heard of my fight with Lauren earlier, but also probably due to me having only six fears and carrying the record for the least amount of fears that Dauntless has ever seen.

My head snapped back as I heard a slightly familiar, male voice call out to me from the other side of the hall. I looked over to see Zeke, Shauna, a boy that looks a lot like Zeke, a bald girl, and a girl with a very cheery smile looking at me. I swiftly made my way over to Zeke and analyzed the three new people. The boy that looks like Zeke was just slightly shorter but more muscular than Zeke, their cheeky and mischievous grins exactly alike. My gaze moved to the bald girl that seemed to also be studying me. She looked slightly like Shauna, but still very different. Her features were sharp and her brown eyes guarded. She was much taller than me, but everyone's taller than me. My gaze moved to the other girl with the cheery smile, she looked like she could pass as an Amity any day. Her hair was a vibrant blond that contrasted perfectly with her dark brown eyes. Her skin was tan, similar to Shauna's, and her eyes were filled with curiosity and possibly joy at meeting a new person.

My jaw was set and my eyes were guarded, my mouth set into a thin line as I waited for Zeke or someone to introduce me to who these three new people are, and finally, the bald girl spoke, her voice full of sarcasm as she asked, "Aren't you going to introduce us, Zeke?"

The corner of my lips curved slightly, forming a very hidden and guarded smile at the girl's sarcasm. "Right, right," Zeke began, "You already know Shauna, over here we have Lynn, Shauna's younger sister, Uriah, my little bro, and Marlene." He introduced, pointing to each person as they're introduced. Zeke leaned over and whispered directly into my ear, "We all know Mar likes Uri, and Uri likes Mar, but they're too blind to figure it out."

I snickered as Zeke straightened, "We're not actually supposed to be hanging out since it's initiation, but my bro over here is planning a party and needed us to ask me to ask Mom if she's fine with it since it'll have to be at her apartment." Uriah stated, his grin growing wider at the mention of a party, "It's gonna be amazing! Also, what happened to your arm?" He asked, still beaming at the possibility of a party.

"Lauren and I had to fight for training," I begin, "I hit a pressure point in her shoulder that made her arm go limp, and that set her off balance. She tried to kick me in the ribs, but because she was off balance she ended up hitting me directly in the back of my elbow and it broke." I explained nonchalantly as if it didn't matter to me that my elbow was broken.

Lynn snickered at my nonchalance, "How are you gonna fight with a broken elbow?" She questioned, causing everyone else to look at her strangely like she doesn't normally talk or ask questions, let alone listen to the conversation.

I smirked, "I get tomorrow off from training, and by then the Erudite should have sent a serum to the infirmary that'll mend my elbow in time for my next fight."

Everyone around me nodded and we began walking towards the cafeteria, needing some food in our stomachs before we continue anything. "So, how are you liking Dauntless so far?" Zeke asks as we split up with Marlene, Uriah, and Lynn, and headed over to a different table.

"Aside from someone trying to change how I dress, it's great," I glare at Shauna as I sneer 'someone.'

Zeke sighed, "Shauna, we're talking about this later." His go-lucky joyful smile and joy-filled eyes are now full of seriousness. Zeke's voice showed no sign of a joke and neither did his expression.

Shauna sighed as Zeke looking ready to yell at her, and Shauna's eyes glistening with guilt as Lauren took her seat next to Shauna. Lauren noticed the tension around us and began to talk to Shauna about shopping, trying to distract her while Zeke and I sat there silently eating. I still haven't forgiven Lauren, especially not after her excuse as to why she left me for Shauna when she actually had friends and people who care about her. I doubt anyone will care about me, aside from Amar and Tori of course, but I want someone I see as a friend to care about me, not just the two people who I see as parent figures, though it is nice, really nice. As I'm thinking, I begin to poke the dauntless cake that lay in front of me with the fork in hand as my mind drifts to many places. My thoughts began to glide over to the dark depths of my mind as I began to think of my dead mother and abusive father, of the Prior boys who try so hard to help me, and of the many people who don't care.

I'm pulled out my thoughts by Zeke chuckling, "You know, Uri would be completely disgusted at what you did to that poor dauntless cake." I looked back at the cake that now looked like chocolate sludge and shrugged, finally beginning to eat it as Zeke chuckled beside me.

I don't know why, but I picked up a fork full of smushed dauntless cake and flung it at Zeke, laughing as he caught it in his mouth and smirked, eating the piece I flung at him. "It's so on, number gurlll!~" Zeke shrieked like a little girl as we began flinging food at each other, one by one catching the flying bits of food in our mouths and eating them.

"FOOD FIGHT!" Someone from a nearby table screamed as everyone began to throw their food at whoever they could see.

As I was logging a handful of mashed potato at Zeke, I suddenly spotted Amar and Tori and who had just joined everyone in the cafeteria. I smirked and motioned for Zeke to follow me towards the two who looked in shock at the sight in front of them. He looked at me curiously, but still followed, and we made our way through the field of flying food, throwing food at anyone we can see before we neared Tori and Amar who stood shocked in front of the cafeteria doors and pointed at them, motioning to Zeke to throw some food at Tori. I wound my good arm up and threw a fist full of dauntless cake into Amar's face, just as Zeke did the same to Tori. We cackled and ran before they could register what happened, but I know for sure that they knew I was one of the ones who had thrown the cake at them.

Out of nowhere, a loud shriek pierced the room and everyone instantly froze, turning their heads towards the cafeteria doors to see Jeanine Matthews, the Erudite leader, standing there, covered in all sorts of food, looking disgusted at us all. I couldn't help it and collapsed with laughter as my gaze wandered throughout the cafeteria to see almost every inch of it, almost every inch of every person in it, covered in different assortments of food. Slowly, every Dauntless in the room began to fall over with laughter at the sight in front of them, every bit of themselves and the cafeteria covered in food, an Erudite leader shrieking with disgust, and an initiate on the floor cackling with laughter at everything going on around them.

Jeanine stood in the doorway flicking her hands out in front of her so she could clean them as best as she could, fuming as all the Dauntless members, initiates, and the dependents collapsed on the ground, laughing. I have no idea when, but soon we all managed to calm down enough to stand up and others managed to calm down to the point they were only smiling. I looked around at everyone as they slowly stood back up, food plastered to their clothes and clinging to their hair.

I bent my head down and began to shake it like a dog, flinging pieces of food out of my very dirty, knotted blond hair, either onto the floor, walls, tables, or into the many assortments of people in the cafeteria who were standing around me. Once I finished, I looked up to see many of the Dauntless had followed in my footsteps and, the girls let their hair down and everyone began to shake out all the food, flinging it at each other and at the floors, walls, and tables.

"Everyone clear out the cafeteria, we got some cleaning to do! Go take a shower and initiates get ready for training!" A loud voice boomed over the cafeteria and everyone looked up to see Max standing on the balcony with bits of food clinging to him. "Now!" He screamed, getting everyone to move in as orderly as a line the Dauntless could get into.

I walked beside Zeke with Shauna and Lauren on his other side, laughing quietly at what we had started, as we made our way to our dorms. "That was the best thing I've ever seen happen here in Dauntless, ever!" Zeke laughed as we waved goodbye, splitting up, Lauren and I going to the transfer dorms and Zeke and Shauna towards the Dauntless-born dorms.

Lauren and I drifted into the transfer dorms, towards our beds. I grabbed a black shirt with a sweetheart neckline, black sweatpants with the Dauntless Symbol down the side, my undergarments, and a vest before silently making my way to the infirmary so I could get help from the nurses with taking a shower with my cast on. "Ah, Six! Showers, correct?" A chirpy receptionist asked as I entered the infirmary, nodding, "Alright! Oh and Six, that serum for your arm came much faster than we expected so you'll have to stay the night!" She informed as she called for another nurse to help me with the shower.

\An hour later/

I sighed and laid in the cot as one of the nurses worked on getting my arm ready for the serum from Erudite. I didn't pay attention to what she was doing, I just let my mind wander to what I'll be doing tomorrow and what I should practice on, as well as who I'll be fighting next. I was pulled out of my thoughts by the incessant tapping of the Nurse as she tried to get my attention.

I looked at her and she stated, "This'll take about eight hours to heal your elbow and another hour for the pain to die down to a dull ache."

I nodded and let my mind drift off again until I felt the slight pinch of a needle as the nurse injected the healing serum into my arm. The serum slowly made me drowsy and I drifted off into a dreamless sleep.

\Nine Hours Later/

(A/N: I'm not writing about nine hours of Six being in excruciating pain + medication induced sleep while her bone gets fixed with a serum that's as painful as the bone regrowth potion in Harry Potter)

I sighed in relief as the excruciating pain finally subsided to a dull ache in my arm. I called for one of the nurses, it was already late so the night-shift had started, as I was instructed to do once the pain receded. The nurse unwrapped the cast from my arm and checked it to make sure nothing else was wrong with my arm and that nothing else happened to it while it spent six hours healing with the help of a serum from Erudite. I sighed in content as the nurse finally left after stating that nothing else was wrong with my arm and that I'd be able to go back to training in the morning.

I sat there, thinking for another hour before grumbling and getting up, unable to sleep for the next, maybe eight hours, I have left before I have to get up for training. I sighed and carefully pushed myself up and out of the cot, stretching my left arm that had just recently been freed from the confinements of the restricting cast. I carefully stretched until the tension was released from my shoulders, my left arm, and my legs, causing me to sigh in content at the feeling of my relaxed muscles. I slowly, gingerly, and silently made my way through the infirmary until I spotted a receptionist on the night shift sat at her desk, quietly snoring with her head resting on the messy, file covered desk that also held a single computer.

I finally took a look around the infirmary, spotting many chairs alongside the walls, as well as multiple counters where you could sign into the infirmary from. Each counter was cluttered with files and computers that were most likely filled with all the infirmary visits of the Dauntless, as well as other medical files to deal with their health. Hanging on the walls were many posters that held Dauntless phrases and pictures of previous Dauntless prodigies. The walls were also painted with the Dauntless symbol and the words, "Be Brave."

I casually strode out of the infirmary, not wanting to stay in the silent room any longer. My guard was up as I slowly walked through the compound, tense with the odd feeling of something bad that was going to happen soon. I walked at a slow, leisure pace, thinking about the Priors and how they're doing and how well the boys would have matured by now. I can only imagine how tall Tobias is by now, probably a head taller than me, even when I am two years older. I have a feeling he'll choose Dauntless. He may be smart, he may be selfless, and he may be honest and a little bit kind when he needs to be, but I've seen how insanely brave he is, and how free he wants to be. I sigh, thinking, I've had to hide for years, but hiding ends now. I'm going to show Dauntless what I'm made of. Except if they find out I'm divergent, well rip me, another thought interrupted me and I sighed once again, realizing how much danger I will be in if someone ever found out I'm divergent. Though I doubt anyone suspects much, I've only shown bravery, and selflessness throughout the days I've been here already. Brave for standing up to Eric and winning my fight. Brave for facing my Androphobia, as well as my fear of heights. Brave for defying Marcus - though others would think it's cowardice, I believe it's bravery because cowardice would mean I forever let him dictate my life, and I will never let that happen. Brave for teaching Eric a lesson. Selfless for helping Amar. Selfless for… well… I haven't shown much selflessness… I'm more selfish than anything, but hey, you can't blame me, especially with my crappy childhood. I sighed, lost in my thoughts as I lent against the railing of the chasm, not even realizing until now that I had arrived here.

Suddenly, I heard whispered voices of… two men and a woman…? As they neared towards where I stood. I tensed up, body on high alert and waiting for whatever could be happening. Soon, I felt a hand tightly grip my shoulder and I spun around, instantly flinging a fist into the temple of my attacker, causing them to release a slight groan as they toppled over. Every bit of my body was high on alert, full of adrenaline as two more figures appeared, one much shorter than the other, but slightly taller than myself. I instantly recognized them. Amy and Eric. They saw the body crumpled on the floor in front of me and their eyes widened with shock, but they quickly recovered. The two quickly ran towards me, but I was already ready for their attack. Each step they took, each move they made, were the telltale signs of what they would do next, and how they would attack. Amy took quick, but short steps forward, slowly crouching at each step she took, indicating that she was going to try to sweep my feet out from under me. Eric took slow, but large steps forward, indicating that he was going to punch me when he gets close enough.

I didn't let either of them make a move, quick as fox, before anyone could think, I lunged towards Amy, the one closer to me and punched her directly in the nose with as much strength as I could muster, hearing the sickening crack and shriek of pain that escaped her as she clutched her now broken nose. I could feel Eric behind me, and as he reached his arm out to punch me, I ducked, dodging his failed attempt to hit my temple, and grabbed his arm, flipping him over me with the help of his momentum and my adrenalin rush. Eric landed with a loud thud, but before I could react to the new presence behind me, I felt someone grab my arms and cover my mouth with one hand. I ignored the thoughts in my mind, screaming at me about this being very unhygienic as I bit down hard on the hand clenched around my mouth.

I didn't let go of the hand in my mouth until the metallic taste of blood filled my tastes and a scream of pain emitted from my new attacker as he/she ripped their hand away from my mouth. The person behind me had a tight grip around my wrists, keeping them behind my back, but now that my mouth was free from the newly bleeding hand of my attacker, I let out a sharp scream as to alert any nearby Dauntless, in search for help as I watched the figure of Eric slowly stand up from his place lying on the floor of the bridge above the chasm.

"You just had to make this difficult, didn't you, Stiff?" He asked, practically growling at me as he rubbed near his temple, probably relieving the pain from when I had punched him.

I snickered, "Of course I did, I never make anything easy for anyone I despise!" I answered with an amused smirk. I started to hear multiple pairs footsteps, light, but fast, as they sprinted towards where I was. "You see, you're a real idiot for an Erudite," I stated as I bent forward, using the unsteady weight of the other man who stood behind me, clasping my arms behind my back, and flung him over, slamming him into Eric.

I stretched out my wrists as the footfalls came louder and louder as whoever was rushing over, came closer. Eric groaned from where he lay underneath the now unconscious body that I threw at him. I snickered as three figures finally appeared at the end of the hallway. One of them started to clap in astonishment as they noticed that there were four figures on the bridge, three of which were unconscious or unable to get up, while I stood there, smirking above them.

"Yo, Six! What happened?" The clapping figure called out and I instantly recognized it as Amar. The three figures moved forward, and I finally was able to see that the three people were Max, Amar, and Tori.

I greeted the tattoo artist, trainer, and leader, as they come over to see the bruised bodies of Amy, Eric, and who I could now tell, was Alex, "Well, I was just thinking and these three decided to try to ambush me. They're complete idiots, I heard them coming before they even arrived." I laughed, "They tried a sneak attack me, but I could hear them from a mile away."

Amar snickered, "Looks like your training paid off. Any of them still awake?" Amar asked as a groan emitted from both Eric and Alex as Alex woke up and tried to get up, accidentally hitting a bruise on Eric and disrupting a bruise of his own. "Well, that answers that. What about her?" He asked, turning towards the still crumpled body of Amy.

"Knocked her out with one hit, but those two didn't want to stay down." I waved my hand towards Amy's body and then towards Alex and Eric, tangled atop each other. The three nodded, accepting what I said as the hard, cold truth.

Max sighed, "Well, we'll have to put them under truth serum to find out what they planned to do and why." He stated and then ordered everyone, "Amar come help me with these two, Six, help Tori get Amy to the infirmary, we also gotta get you checked out too."

We all nodded and Amar moved towards Max, lifting Alex's body off Eric's and Max picking up Eric's body as the initiate tried to struggle, but they were much weaker than the leader and trainer. I moved towards Tori and helped her gently pick up Amy's unconscious body and we all moved towards the infirmary where I had originally come from. We walked in relative silence that was occasionally filled with the pained groans and grunts from Eric and Alex as the bruises on their bodies were disrupted as the leader and instructor carried them away.

Once again, I entered the infirmary and split off from Tori as she dropped Amy onto a cot while Amar and Max did the same with the boys. I moved towards the Dauntless woman who still sat, asleep at her desk and slammed my hands onto it, causing a loud thump to reverberate through the room and startle the receptionist awake. "Huh? Wha-?" She stuttered before noticing me, and as she looked at me, I gestured towards the three adults standing above two bruised initiates and one unconscious initiate, glaring at the two awake ones.

She stared for a second before calling two nurses on their night-shift and standing up. I followed her back towards Tori, Max, and Amar, but noticed Tori motioning for me to go over to her, so I did. "Are you okay?" Was the first thing she asked me when I stepped up beside her. I nodded, and she continued, "What about your back?" She asked that one much more quietly than she had asked the other one.

"Oh, I didn't even think about my back. I didn't feel anything at all while I fought them," I answered thoughtfully, not feeling any pain while I moved and not recalling any pain at all.

Tori nodded, "Let's go to a different room and get that checked out." I nodded in agreement and we snuck away from the boys and nurses and slowly made our way towards the room I had woken up in.

I sat down on the cot and turned around, carefully pulling my shirt off after taking off the vest. I also pulled off my sports bra and sat there as Tori carefully unwrapped my back.

She gasped, "Wow, you're back is full of scars of course, but everything's healed. I think the serum sped up the healing process for every injury you had…" She whispered in astonishment. "I still have to take out the stitches, so wait here, I'm going to get the stuff I need." She continued before leaving. I pulled on my bra and a vest while I waited for her, just in case someone came inside.

Not even two minutes later, did someone enter the room, and I turned around and sighed with relief to see that it was just Amar. "I'm guessing Tori's checking out your back?" He asked as he came in. I nodded, "How is it?"

"Completely healed. The serum helped everything heal, though I still have the scars. Tori just went to get some stuff to take out the previous stitches she had put in." I explained, watching as Amar closed the door and made his way over to the bed.

Amar nodded, "Well when she gets back, I'll leave, but I do have a question." Amar paused and looked at me, I nodded, indicating for him to keep going, "Why did those three attack you at the chasm?" He finally asked.

I shrugged, "Jealousy maybe? Fear? They saw what I did to Lauren's arm with just one hit, they're probably afraid of what I could do to them and jealous they don't know how to do it." I answered, allowing the Erudite in my brain to take over as I explained what I believed.

He nodded in understanding, "That's true, I also have another question. What were your aptitudes?" He asked, "I know you're… that… Tori told me. I'm going to protect you, but I need to know your aptitudes."

I sighed, "Abnegation, Dauntless, Erudite, Amity, and Candor. " I answered softly, causing him to gape at me in shock.

"I didn't think it was possible to have an aptitude for all five… the largest aptitude we've ever seen was two…" Amar whispered, "This is gonna be hard to hide, but we'll make do. I promise you, Six, that Tori and I will do everything we can to protect you."

I nodded and watched Amar as he thought, though we were both interrupted by the door opening. We each sighed in relief when we saw that it was just Tori coming back with the things she needed to pull out my stitches. Amar silently got up and left as Tori made her way over, and once he was out of the room I pulled off the vest and my bra, allowing Tori to have full access to the scars on my back. We didn't talk, she just worked, numbing my back first before carefully pulling out the stitches. It took about half an hour to pull out all the stitches and then I got dressed once again.

"You know, in the morning, if you're feeling up to it, we could get to work on that tattoo of yours." She stated as she cleaned up the tools used to pull out my stitches. I nodded, wanting to get to work on the tattoo as quickly as possible. "Alright, let's go back out and see what Max has planned for those initiates who decided it was a good idea to attack you."

I nodded and we left the room together, making our way towards Amar and Max who stood above the three initiates who were now all unconscious, arguing. "She can't stay in the dorms, not with them there anyway. I know you want to publicly shame them, but leaving Six in that room with them for the remainder of initiation?! Are you insane!?" We could hear Amar yell, and if it was any leader aside from Max, well Amar would probably be factionless by now.

"What are you planning, Max?" Tori called out, cutting into the argument before it could get any worse than yelling. We had made our way to stand right in front of the two men. I kept my distance from Max and stayed close to Tori. Max may have been one of the people to have saved me, but it doesn't mean I'll be able to completely trust him, and I may trust Amar, but I trust Tori more than anything.

Max sighed, "Publicly shame the three, after initiation, and then kick them out of Dauntless. Make them factionless even if they made it through initiation. Make them think they got away with what they did, and then shame them in front of everyone. No one will respect them, no matter their ranking. They deserve it. It's uncalled for, attacking another initiate just 'cause they're better than you. I proposed that Six stays in the dorms with them, but Amar doesn't agree."

Amar growled, "I'm not letting her stay with those damn initiates, especially if this isn't all they're capable of. I'm not risking her getting hurt again."

Tori nodded in agreement, "I'm with Amar on this, she's not staying in the dorms with them anymore. She may be strong, but what if they try something while she sleeps?" Tori questioned.

Max finally relented, "Then she's staying with you, Amar." He stated, but I shrunk back, further into Tori's side, and both Amar and Tori noticed.

"She's staying with Tori," Amar stated, finality in his voice, and I relaxed slightly, still wary of how to act around Max, and even Amar, slightly.

Max growled, "And why can't she stay with you?" Clearly, getting annoyed that Amar was constantly defying him at the moment.

I finally spoke up, "I have Androphobia, a fear of men, though, for me, it's just older men. It may be better when I'm around Amar, and I may trust him, but that doesn't mean my fear is any less severe." I explained as best as I could, "And I know for a fact that after what they did -" I motioned towards the sleeping boys on the cot, "- my fear's definitely going to be worse than it was last time, and I don't think either of us thought that would happen." I said, speaking much more than I normally do, and causing the three adults to look at me in shock, not having heard me speak very much in the past few days I've been here.

Max groaned and finally conceded, seeing reasoning as to why I shouldn't stay in the dorms and can't stay with Amar. "Fine, fine, why do you go and pack your stuff, I'll get you a spare key to Tori's apartment in the meantime. Also, the nurses and receptionists on duty right now, know to make sure these three don't leave." He informs and orders as we all get up to leave, Tori and I walking side by side as we move to the dorms and Max and Amar splitting off from us, Max heading up to his office or to get a key to Tori's apartment and Amar, most likely heading to his own apartment to sleep.

As we walked, I began to think, finally noticing how whenever I'm in the dorm rooms, I haven't had a single nightmare, but the one time I fell asleep at Amar's apartment, I had a nightmare. I think it may be my subconscious trying to keep my nightmares under control, trying to keep my secret a secret for as long as I possibly can. I think my subconscious knows who I can and can't trust, so it blocks out my nightmares around those who I can't trust, but seems to let loose around those I can. It is possible that my subconscious is choosing people to trust, and Amar and Tori are those people it has chosen.

I pulled out of my thoughts by Tori's hand as she set it down on my shoulder. We had reached the dorms and both of us had just realized how late it was. "Stay quiet and move quickly, we'll get everything packed and you'll be moved into my apartment before anyone here realizes a thing." She suggested, and that's exactly what we did.

We snuck into the dorms and gathered my few things into two boxes and a couple bags that had been thrown under my bed. We quickly folded my black clothes and I made sure I still had my mother's necklace around my neck and sighed with relief when I noticed I still had it on even after the fight over the chasm. Tori and I gingerly made our way out of the dorms, each carrying a box and one, large bag, and made our way to Tori's apartment.

We quickly made it to the apartment and entered, no longer bothering to be quiet seeing as most of the members around here are still awake and quite loud. We made our way into the guest room of Tori's apartment that will, for the time being, be my room, and dropped the boxes and bags inside.

"Hey, Tori?" I called out to Tori as we began to unpack my clothes, receiving a grunt in reply, so I continued, "Do you like Amar?" I asked, my voice sounding innocent, but if she could see me right now, she'd see a mischievous glint in my eyes.

I heard a choked noise coming from across the room where Tori was, as she spluttered in chock to my question. She finally answered, her voice soft and laced with a bit of sadness as she said, "It wouldn't matter if I did."

"What do you mean?" I asked curiously, peeking my head out of the drawer I had been organizing. The sight I saw on the other side of the room was something I definitely didn't expect. Tori had pulled herself from the closet she had been putting some of my shoes into and now sat on the bed, her face sullen and caked with a layer of sadness. I stood up from the drawer and made my way over, sitting next to her. I hesitantly wrapped one arm around her waist in a half hug and waited for her to speak.

"He likes guys… Plus, I'm more of a sister to him…" She finally said, her voice cracking as she spoke, "He dated my brother anyway, and Georgie may be dead, but Amar hasn't gotten over him… I can see it in his eyes…" Tori's eyes filled with tears as she spoke of her dead brother.

I sighed and full on hugged Tori. It broke me to see her break and I feel so bad for bringing up the topic of her liking Amar. "I'm sorry I said anything…" I whispered softly into her ear as we held each other like sisters would when they need one another, like a mother and a daughter would when they needed each other… Like I would hold my mother and my mother would hold me… This thought caused tears to spring to my eyes, and I quickly wiped them away, not wanting Tori to see me cry.

"Let's just… got to sleep," Tori finally suggested after a few more minutes, as we untangled ourselves from each other's embrace, both our eyes now dry and showed no trace of having been full of tears just minutes ago.

I nodded and we bid each other goodnight as Tori made her way to her room and I pushed the empty bags and boxes off my new bed and pulled myself under the covers. Allowing myself to fall into the warm embrace of the sheets covering me and the mattress cradling me as I drifted off to sleep, thinking of Amar and Tori and how amazing they've been to me through these past few days of being here.

A/N: I'm sorry? I know I had said that I'd upload randomly and that I'd always have at least 5 chapters done before I uploaded a new one, but that kinda got thrown out the window. I'm really sorry this took so long to get out, it's just been a strange week. I had to write an essay for school and then in gym we did volleyball and I kept getting hit by the ball (Fuck my luck) and there's also the fact that whenever I was motivated to write I couldn't write. Like, I was motivated to write in school, but I couldn't write in school because like, it's school and I doubt they'd very much like me ignoring the lesson in favor of writing a fanfic, and I also get motivated to write when I'm comfortable and I'm always comfortable in bed, but I'm too lazy to go to bed until it's too late for me to write, and then I also get motivated at weird places where I don't have the tools to write, so like I'm really sorry this didn't come out any earlier. I kept getting motivated in strange places where I didn't even have wifi or my chromebook ;-; Again, I'm sorry, and please don't expect chapters at certain times, I hate putting down set times I need to have things done cause I just disappoint myself by either not getting it done or getting it done and it ending up being crap, so I'd rather have a good and done chapter instead of a crappy chapter that's not even done being uploaded. Anyway, have a great day!