A/N:- hi guys sorry that some of you feel the story isn't flowing the way you want it too. I need you to know that this story is mostly fictional but based off things that I need to let go of in my past. I would like you to understand that I'm struggling at the moment with my writing as I'm trying to input some painful memories into this. Please don't hate on me for it not being the way you want, please understand and respect how difficult it is for me.

TRIGGER WARNING! REFRENCES TO SELF HARM! And HOMOPHOBIA!

Detail is not given to self harm it only hints to it!

Chapter 7:- coming out.

Things were going good for me. Chloe was amazing, we had been together for nearly 2 months (still taking things slow may I add) she had been really cute I would come home to flowers and candles lit a blanket and our favourite tv shows lined up on the T.V. She was literally everything I had ever imagined us to be.

My job was going great and I was getting my own sister label, so I was currently in the process of finding a location for my new studio.

I had only one problem, that was my family. I had been good at keeping a safe distance for them to know what I wanted them to know about my life, but the time had come where I was ready to tell them, tell them about me being gay, tell them about Chloe. I had to. I needed too.

Beca grabbed her phone and began typing out, the text that would start to ball rolling on this chapter in her life.

Beca: hey dad! Would you and mum like to meet for dinner one night this week? It's on me ;) x

Dad: sounds good, is Thursday good for you?

Shit Thursday, that was 2 days away and I had a viewing for a studio that day... but I guess it was now or never. I had to do it.

Beca: Thursday evening okay? Around 7?

Dad: 7pm it is... quick question, what's wrong? You never offer to pay let alone take us to dinner?

Beca: nothings wrong! Just wanted a catch up!

Dad: okay see you Thursday.

I stared at my phone as the fear slowly started creeping over me. I jumped slightly as it started to ring. All my fear sweapt away as I saw Chloe's name appear on my phone... shit Chloe!! I was supposed to have picked her up from work!

Hi babe sorry I'm on my way!!

Is everything okay bec?

Yeah just had to sort something out I'll be 15 minutes

Drive safely baby

Always

I hung up and grabbed the first set of keys I could get my hands on and ran to the garage. Pressing the button to find the car I'd chosen, I must admit I was proud I'd picked up the Audi R8 keys, my new addition to my small collection of cars.

I pulled up outside Chloe's work to see her waiting with a few colleagues, this was the first time Chloe had seen my new car. Her face lit up when she saw me pull up, she was honestly so beautiful. I on the other hand was just plain lucky.

"Baby! Look at your new car!! I love it!!"

Chloe screamed in excitement as she climbed in.

"You like huh? I bought it as a treat"

Beca smiled to herself as she looked at the inside of the car.

"Bec baby a treat is buying yourself a chocolate bar when you're on a diet or like a new outfit for a night out because you can!"

Chloe giggled as she gave beca a pure look of innocence.

"Yeah well I work hard so I play hard, therefore a car is a treat... wait no don't do that, why are you looking at me like that? No no oh no you're so not driving this"

Chloe smiled sweetly and gave her big blue eyes that she knew always worked on beca

"Baby pleaseeee". She paused and smirked as she spoke "I bet I could drive it better than you"

Beca gasped at the comment. She had to admit she liked when Chloe surprised her because it taught her there's never an end to knowing someone.

She sighed and rolled her eyes as she stepped out.

"Fine, but DONT crash it... it's my baby"

Chloe gracefully brushed past her

"Actually, I am."

Beca lost her breath as Chloe made her remark, she smiled as she watched Chloe get into the car. They quickly sped off, she'd done a pretty good job of proving beca wrong. She loved driving, she especially loved driving fast cars, it made her feel like she had full control in life, she felt powerful. She also enjoyed impressing beca and proving her wrong.

Beca was thinking about how Chloe looked whilst she was driving just knowing that Chloe was the most beautiful woman ever. Something about the way Chloe's blue eyes and ginger hair connected with the sunlight and the way she drove. God the way she drove, beca was well and truly head over heels.

"I love you Chloe, you're honestly so beautiful"

Beca stared intensely at her, noticing Chloe blush as she kept her eyes forward on the road.

"I love you too bec"

2 days later*

Bec why are you so stressed?

I'm fine. Just nervous

Chloe held becas hand as she walked her to the front door. Before beca left Chloe turned her around and gave her a gentle kiss on the cheek

I love you, you'll be fine this studio will be perfect for you I can feel it!

Chlo... it's not the studio I'm worried about, there's something I've not told you. I'm meeting my family tonight and I'm going to tell them about me being gay, as well as about us.

Beca! Why didn't you say? Let me come with you?

I couldn't ask you to do that, it wouldn't be fair chlo, my family aren't the nicest of people when they find things out they don't like. I don't want them to upset you.

Chloe pulled beca into a cuddle and held her tightly she kissed the smaller girls head.

Beca, nothing that you ask would ever be unfair, I will always love you and support you. If you want me to come I will, but if you need this time with your family then I'll totes respect that.

Thank you, but this is something I need to do on my own.

Okay bec, well I'm going to probably go out with some friends for a few drinks tonight, if you need me promise you'll call?

I promise!

Beca took a deep breath as she left her condo, she had picked out her mustang to take.. it was her dads favourite she was hoping it would keep him sweet for when she told him her news.

The drive to the restaurant had gone well becas dad was in awe of the car and the conversation flowed nicely. They were about 20 minutes into the meal when becas mum broke the comfortable silence.

So Rebbeca, how's the love life going? Any boyfriends we need to meet?

She smiled sweetly as she looked at beca, causing her heart rate to soar, this was it, now or never. Beca took a deep breath and spoke softly.

No, I erm don't have a boyfriend. I actually have a girlfriend.

Becas mums mouth dropped and then closed as beca continued speaking.

Yes mum before you ask I am gay.

Beca kept her eyes down trying to avoid her parents reactions. As she glanced up she saw her dad staring coldly at her, she noticed that his whole demeanour had changed as he had become tense and hard.

Rebbaca Mitchel I cannot believe you would joke about being one of them! What on earth is wrong with you?

His words caused a thick atmosphere and tension that you could cut with a knife, beca felt like she had her heart ripped out. She knew how they would feel but she never anticipated them to be so in-denial.

Becas mum looked at her with a sympathetic look, she knew beca wasn't lying but couldn't bring herself to stand up and say anything. So she changed the conversation.

So how are you settling into your new condo? We've not seen it since you moved in?

Ahhh yes mum! I've been so busy with work I completely forgot to invite you round! How about I take you down there tonight?

Sounds delightful. honey what do you think?

Becas mum turned to her dad to encourage him to become involved, it seemed to work as he slowly began to become at ease.

Yes sounds good, it will be interesting to see where you're living!!

Beca had paid for the meal and drove her family back to her condo, they had been at the house for around an hour and were in an easy flow of conversation. Becas dad had seemed to have forgotten what had happened earlier and was strangely laughing and joking with beca. Until Chloe walked through the door.

Hey beautiful I'm home! You back yet?? This gingers had her jiggle juice and is totes ready for a snuggle and a film!

Chloe!!!

Oh sorry didn't realise we had company! I'm assuming it went well?? Hello! You must be becas family!! I'm Chloe her—-

Best friend

Awww babes sweet! Of course I'm your best friend I mean as well as girlfriend!

Dude seriously?!?

Becas dad stood up and straightened out his suit. He looked at his wife who slowly followed his movements. As he turned his back to his wife to face beca, his wife gave Chloe a smile and an small awkward wave.

Rebbeca I've heard enough of this nonsense today, I'm not sitting around here with a queer! You know how I feel about it all.

Dad please let me —

I told you I've heard enough! In my eyes all gays need to be lined up and shot! Simple as!

In the heat of the moment and most likely the alcohol telling her to do it Chloe stepped forward and came face to face with becas dad.

Aca-scuse me? The fuck did you just say? All lined up and shot? EVEN YOUR OWN DAUGHTER?

You heard me! INCLUDING MY OWN DAUGHTER! I'm not having her being one of them! It's discusting and vile! Why on earth would you want to be a faggot!

You fucking breeder! Stuck in your stupid black and white world!! Get a grip and grow the fuck up! Your daughter is incredible, she has been through hell and back to accept who she is! She loves me and cares for me, she makes so happy and I've never EVER loved anyone as much as I do beca!

What did you call me? If you love my daughter so much you would understand she's not gay and let her go!

He takes a step closer to Chloe and becas mum rushes to his side to move him away. Beca moves beside Chloe and holds her hand.

Actually dad I am gay, and Chloe makes me happy! Why can't you just accept that?

Becas dad begins to move before turning to beca and throwing her to the floor.

A Fucking Faggot for a daughter great! *spits*

Becas mums screams at her husband and drags him out of the door, as she turns to leave she looks at beca with an apologetic look and her face and mouths "I love you" to beca, and then she leaves.

Beca remains on the floor in a ball, crying with Chloe running to be by her side.

Thank you for sticking up for me chlo. You didn't have to.

You're right I didn't, but I wanted to. I'm sorry I was so hurtful to your dad, he just needed to hear the truth.

I understand... I'm going to go for a shower then head to bed I think.

Want me to come with you?

No, I need to be alone.

Beca heads upstairs and turns the shower on, as she walks over to the sink and looks into the mirror. Her eyes are red and sore from crying and the pain in her chest won't leave. She can feel herself slipping to a place she's not been for a long time, as she stares at the reflections she becomes unable to see herself through the tears. Beca begins to think about what's happened and starts to realise she dosent think she knows who she is anymore, why would chloe love her? Why is she gay? Will her dad hate her forever? She begins to remember how she copes before and it's too late to stop herself as she opens the cupboard door and grabs a blade. She cries as she watches the blood dip into the sink...