Dream Your Little Dream of Me

CH 2

"I thought she would say something but she didn't," Alexa says sitting on the edge of her bed.

"Well, have you said anything to her?" her mother asks like it is the most obvious thing in the world.

Alexa thinks back on length of the day and lowers her head in defeat, "No, I . . ."

"Was scared," her mother finishes for her. "I get it. I dated one of my closest friends in high school. I went through alot of the same thoughts. Should we, could we, how would it survive if it ended. All thoughts that everyone has when they contimplate dating a close friend."

"Close friend," Alexa throws her hands up in frustration. "Katie and I are not just close friends," she jestures to the tree outside her closed window. "We are connected on every level."

"So why is that window closed, I have never seen it closed before bed time?" Her mom asks.

"Well, when I want to have a private conversation with my mom, about how in love I am with my best friend, I can't just have said best friend waltzing in through an open window," Alexa says waving her arms around like mad woman.

"Honey, I get that but you can't hope for her to be the one to jump through your hoops on her own. If she feels the same, she is probably hiding for the same reasons you are."

"Mom, I was practically throwing myself at her in the dressing room," Alexa says without prior thought.

"ALEXA," her mother starts to yell, "Uhmmm, your mother, thankful for your honesty, doesn't want to hear about you practically throwing anything at anyone."

"But if I can't tell you," Alexa looks at her mother with the same puppy dog eyes she uses on Katie, "Then who am supposed to talk to about this.

"Yes, yes, I am here for you. Just try less subty and more honesty with her. And save all that throwing for college .. . . " her mom says, then catches her own words. "I mean marriage, or even later than that."

"MOM," Alexa says with a smile that knows she has embarassed her mom completely. "What exactly comes after marriage, that I have to wait for?"

"Umm..." Her mom stumbles, "Old age, yes wait till you are much older and then you can maybe. . .," she stops and stands up, shaking her head to realease the evil thought. "Nope can't talk about my baby and that."

"Mom I am about to go to college, and .. ." Alexa tries to calm her mom.

"And you will always be my baby girl."

"You said open conversations," Alexa holds her moms hands. "I am open. I will one day do that, and right now I want it to one day include," she stumbles, " Maybe, Katie."

"You do realize you are leaving your brother to give me grandchildren!," her mom says with a hint of knowing behind it.

"He has Gwinny," Alexa shudders internally. "At least she has a great G P A, even if she is using it to date my brother."

"I will leave you to work out your own . . . stuff," her mom falters. "One way or anohter she needs to know, you can't keep it from her, and you can't keep it in forever."

Her mom leaves and she opens the window, looking over towards Katie's closed window. Guess we both needed a day to think. Then she remembers, 'Katie is at work, serving coffee and cappucinos to grubby handed boys who can't keep their eyes to themselves.' It is thoughts like that, she has to avoid. Jealousy is not what she wants to think about. She wants to think about how to tell her best friend she is in love with her.

Moving through the open window she makes her way to Katie's. She looks in at all Katie's stuff thrown around from her rush to go to work after school. She opens the window and slips inside. She looks over her desk and into her closet. 'I could leave her a note.' She thinks. Nothing alarming, just a 'was thinking about you,' friendly reminder. She picks up Katie's notebook and a pen and starts writing; tears it out and throws it away. Starts writing; tears it out and throws it away. Throwing her self back on Katie's bed in frustration she sighs out loud and kicks her feet. 'Why is this so damn hard?'

On a piece of paper, she finds:

Katie,

Was thinking about you and you being at work, and how much I just wish you were here so I could talk to my best friend. You might think it silly that I write to you, but I have been trying to tell you something for a long time.

That is where it stops. No explaination as to why there is a note to her, or why there is a sleeping best friend on her pillow. Katie thinking she is living a dream, slips onto the pillow next to Alexa and looks at the dark skin, and dark hair on her cheek. She brushes it over her ear with her hand and caresses the exposed cheek.

"I wish I could tell you, what I have been trying to tell you for a long time." Katie says in a low almost breathless whisper. "That you. . .Alexa. . . are who I dream about when I close my eyes." She breaths out a held breath. "That you are who I want to see first in the morning even before I brush my teeth and pick my head up from the very pillow that is holding you up. That you are the one person who I want to see as I hug that pillow to my head at night." She closes her eyes and then opens them again, " The one person I am too scared to say, I love. . . "

"Hey knock, knock, Katie you ready for supper," her mom says as she opens the door.

Katie jumps away from Alexa like she is on fire. She runs to the door, and looks at her mom, " Umm... yeah, just a sec."

"Is that Alexa, what are you gals up to?"

"Ooh, you know us girl, talk boys, school, dances, whatever. .. ." She trails off.

"Is she sleeping?" her mom asks with aww in her voice.

"Yeah, so.." Katie's voice drops to a hint of a whisper. "You don't wanna be busting in and waking her so . . ." she motions to the door, with a eyebrow raised.

"Got it, Mom go," her mom says then closes the door.

Katie rests her head on the door and her heart begins beating again. 'Wait, when did it stop? Oh, yeah the second she almost got caught touching Alexa in her bed, by her own mom.' Breathing slowly she makes her way back to the bed. Easing in next to Alexa she timidly reaches out and grabs her hand.

"Katie.. . . umm. . . . kiss me. . .. "

CRASH, BOOM, CAPLOUY . . .. . . . world ended. Goodnight everyone and thanks for coming!

Did she hear what she thought she heard? There is no way that was a real thing. Alexa just asked her to kiss her. BOOM, BOOM, BOOM, her heartbeat is thunderous in her ears. So much that she is panicking, she can't hear anything else. What if Alexa says something else, she wouldn't be able to hear it over the sounds. But then. . ..

"Umm m m.. . that's nice.. . . Kiss me agian."

'Holy shit, you are dreaming! Holier shit, you are dreaming about ME!' Katie's brain is in overdrive. 'Why are you dreaming about me, and more Holy Shit, you said Kiss me again!' Alexa is laying on her bed, having a dream about kissing her, right now, here today! 'What now, do I wake her? Do I leave and pretend I just came in. . .. . . Loudly? She is up pacing back and forth across the foot of her bed... . . A bed might she remind herself, 'Alexa is sleeping in, dreaming about kissing her'. She stops and throws a fist bump into the air, and pumps it enthusiastically several times, then begins some kind of victory dance at the foot of her bed.

"Katie," the sound stops her completely. "What are you doing?"

'That is Alexa's voice! She wasn't even sure she heard it with the thumping in her ears. Not until she spins awkwardly around to see Alexa rubbing her eyes and looking her direction.

"Umm..." she stumbles on something and falls to the floor. "Nothing just really glad to be off work. .. . today... Now.." Mentally kicking herself for pointing out she is happy to be the one to find Alexa here. .. like this. . .. today.. . .now.

"Umm. . " Alexa realizing she fell asleep on Katie's bed and was just discovered, sleeping on said bed with half a love note written in front of her. Jumps up to sit by the headboard with Katie's pillow hugged to her chest. "Hey, ummm I wasn't drooling or anything embarassing like that, was I?"

"Umm... ." Katie rubs at the back over her head really fast, as she thinks about how this beautiful dream of a girl was just dreaming of kissing her. She has to think and throws her hands to her sides. "No, umm, you were sleeping, really hard. I didn't mean to wake you, mom came in and said supper is ready, and I kinda yelled whispered at her to leave so you could sleep. Then I was . . going to wait. .. I guess for you to not be sleeping."

"Wake up. .. " Alexa helps.

"Right, that." Katie finishes. "Then um . .. I got up to . . .."

"Dance in place to no music," Alexa helps again.

"Right," Katie fills in. "Cause who doen't love some good old fashioned no music dancing, while people are sleeping?" Even in her own head she is not buying that one. So she spins to go to put her shoes in the closet and catch her breath. BOOM,BOOM, BOOM, that damn heartbeat ear thing is back, and at a volume that may do permanent damage this time.

"Well, I umm.. .. " Alexa is the one stammering now. "I came over to leave you a note so you could read it when you got back from work."

"About what," Katie says popping out of the closet like it is on fire. "For me? From you?"

"Yeah," Alexa shakes her head, "I was worried about how your night was going, but I didn't want to bother you at work. So I came over..."

"To my empty bedroom," Katie helps.

"Right," Alexa doesn't find it funny that it is getting flipped on her, but she rolls with it. "Cause this is where you would be later."

"In my bed?" Katie ever the helpful one.

"Right.. .." Alexa starts digging her way out. "With a notebook I found on the desk. But I couldn't find the right thing to say."

"That you missed me and wanted me to know you were worried about me," Katie so helpfull.

"Right. And we had such a long day with school, and . .. "

"Everything going on this week," Katie, oh so helpfull.

"Right. With the shopping and. .. " her brain goes back to the dressing room and Katie near bare in front of her. How her pink panties were half scrunched up because of her jeans, leaving most of her exposed to the air and Alexa's eyes.

"Those amazing dresses," Katie, thank god for her help.

"Right, yes, and all that going on, I was worried you were nervous." She says as she hops up out of the bed, that is Katie's; that she was sleeping on; that she was caught on; just now. "You know how I worry about my girl."

"Your. .. "

'I swear to everything holy in this world if she helps like that one more time, I . . . . I . . . will . . .. ' the thoughts after her flub just now, and Katie's continued help make her stutter even in her own mind. "I um .. .. . "

"It is ok, Alexa," Katie says as she pulls at her friends hands to calm her down. "I get it, and you are my girl, and I wouldn't have it any other way." 'Except maybe, one way. But there is always tomorrow, and she is embarassed enough.'

"Your mom said something about supper?" Alexa grabs for the only life line she can find.

"Right, sleeping princess is starving," Katie smiles, her mind involutarily going back to Alexa and her dreams.