A/N: Okay folks. This is where the M rating comes into play. Please forgive me if it sounds weird. I don't normally write this type of stuff for others to read. Anything in Italics is signed.

Walking through the trees with her hand firmly in his, Jasper led Bella far away from his family, wanting to talk to her about so many different things. He watched her expression as she looked at everything through her new vampire eyes.

He understood that vampires saw things so much differently that humans did. So much more detail. So many more colors. Sometimes the sensations overwhelmed a newborn and drove them mad. It wasn't common but it did happen sometimes.

He was glad that it didn't seem to be happening to Bella. He would have destroyed anyone who even attempted to take her from him.

"Bella?"

'Yes?'

"I know that some things about this relationship worry you. I expect that. Especially after what you've been through. I just want you to know that while I do want to be with you on every level, I understand that it will take some time to get to some of those levels. I don't want you to feel bad if we can't just jump into some aspects of the relationship between mates. Mates means that you don't push each other into things you aren't ready for. You tell me when you're ready for physical intimacy. Until then, I'm content to just sit and hold you or walk in the woods with you or whatever you feel comfortable with doing. As long as we're together."

'Thank you, Jasper. I really appreciate your understanding.'

"I do understand. And if, at some point, we try anything and it makes you uncomfortable in the slightest, I want you to make sure I know and we'll stop. I promise you that."

Jasper wanted her so badly that he could taste it but he would never push her. Not after finding out what Mike Newton had done to her during the years that they had been gone.

She could have died in that house and no one would have been the wiser. Jasper had never thanked God enough for giving Alice the gift of foresight. It saved Bella's life. In a manner of speaking. She was safe now. Safer than she ever was as a human.

Mike couldn't touch her because he'd gone to prison for a very long stretch. And not just any prison. He went to a state mental facility because he started talking about vampires and werewolves and how he had to kill the vampires that took his wife and would kill her if he didn't save her.

Jasper hadn't told Bella about that because he knew that she would have felt bad for Mike. She would have blamed herself for not being a better wife, citing that as the reason he went around the bend. He didn't want her to feel that way. That wasn't good for her and he wouldn't put that on her shoulders if he could help it.

When Jasper felt like the two of them had gotten far enough away from the house, he gestured to her to have a seat on a fallen log. He sat down next to her and just held her hand for the longest time.

When they had sat there comfortably talking to each other for some time, he turned to her and pulled her in close. Very gently and slowly, giving her the chance to stop him, he leaned in and kissed her. Really kissed her. Tongue and all.

Bella gasped when she first felt Jasper's lips against hers. She gasped again when his tongue entered her mouth. She leaned further into the kiss and felt his hands pull her into his lap. One hand held her firmly on his lap while the other slid up under her shirt and touched her gently but firmly. She threw her head back and Jasper licked her neck as his hand massaged her breast, not hurting just arousing her every sense.

She felt her mouth moving, begging Jasper for more. She thrust her chest toward him, encouraging him to explore more. He smiled as he obliged her.

She felt his other hand slide into her pants to help hold her on his lap even better. She could feel the smile on his face as he pressed his lips against the skin of her neck. His teeth lightly grazed over the scars where he'd bitten her to change her.

Jasper helped her to stand up and then stood up himself. Slowly, he peeled the shirt from her body, admiring her as he went. The next step was that he pulled off his own shirt, exposing her to the scars again. She started tracing the scars that covered his chest and arms, no fear present in her emotions. Just love for him and the wish that she could have been there to protect him when the newborns went after him.

"Bella, they don't hurt. I consider them a badge of honor. Most of the vampires of the Southern Wars didn't survive as long as I did. I consider it an honor that I survived to find you after all this time. And for me to have such a beautiful mate is a miracle in and of itself."

'I have scars too.'

"Your scars are also badges of honor. You survived everything Mike threw at you and still came out stronger on the other side. You survived when so many others would have given up and taken themselves out of this life in order to escape it." He kissed one of the scars she had spoken of. "Your scars are beautiful. Mine are a warning to those who don't know me. A warning that I am dangerous."

'Maybe to others. Not to me. Or those you care for.'

"True. True. I could never be dangerous to you. You have been entrusted to me for all time. I will never let you go." He sucked in a breath when she ran her tongue over one of the scars on his back. "Bella, you're playin' with fire, darlin'. I don't think you realize what you do to me."

Bella walked back around to his front and smiled at him. 'Why don't you tell me what I do to you?'

"I'll show you instead." He took her hand and placed it over the hardened rod of flesh inside his jeans. She shyly started stroking the rod under her hand, feeling it get harder and longer. "That feels good, darlin'. Real good." He inhaled deeply. "I think you could finish me off without even taking it out of my jeans. You are so beautiful." He leaned in and kissed her again. This time, she matched him stroke for stroke with her tongue.

He pulled her in close to him and she felt his bare chest against hers. She reveled in the feeling.

It was so different than when it had been forced on her as a human. Panic started rising in her chest but she buried her face in Jasper's neck and inhaled deeply. Jasper. Safety. Love. Gentleness. Kindness. Strength but controlled. The panic faded out.

He turned his mouth to her ear. "Good. Good. I felt the panic start and then you nuzzled my neck and it faded away, didn't it?" She nodded, glad that he hadn't stopped just because she felt that fear starting up. "I would have if you hadn't done what you did and allowed me to feel how it changed. I don't ever want you to be afraid of what we have together. It will be intense sometimes. There is just no way around that. But know this, I will keep my urges under control if you get scared. I won't die just because we have to stop during something if you get that scared. I promise. You just have to let me know when you feel too scared to continue. Don't hide it from me. I can't help you if I don't know what's going on."

She continued stroking the length of him inside his jeans. 'I want him to have his fun. That's what I want.'

"Bella, sweetheart, don't make me waste this. I want to show you...AAaahhh!" Bella felt the moisture soaking through his jeans and smiled up at him. "I think it's time for a little payback for that one." He smiled at her to let her know that she had nothing to fear.

Focusing everything he knew about emotions and the effects they could and would have on the physical body, Jasper opened up and let his ability flow. Bella started trembling. She was feeling it. She wasn't sure if there was a word for it that she would be comfortable using but she was definitely feeling it.

She felt the warmth flood her panties and her knees buckled. She would forever thank God for Jasper's vampiric reflexes. Otherwise, she would have hit her head on the ground and while it wouldn't have done any true damage, it would have seriously ruined the mood. She snuggled into his arms as he pulled her into his lap, nestling her head on his shoulder.

"I think I could fall asleep quite easily like this. If we could sleep," Jasper whispered into her ear.

She lifted her head enough to look him in the eyes. "So could I."

Her voice was harsh from disuse. But it was the song of an angel to Jasper. The smile that spread across his face was a ray of sunshine on a cloudy day. She lifted her head to look Jasper in the eyes. "Say something else, darlin'. Anything. Just say something."

"I love you, Jasper. You're my Sweet Southern Comfort." She heard her own voice. It was a miracle. The change had fixed her larynx. Carlisle had been right. It had just taken a little extra time. She smiled at Jasper and kissed his lips. "Carlisle was right. He was right. It just took a little more time for the change to fix my larynx." She kissed him again.

Bella felt a heat spread over her and she stood up, pulling Jasper with her. She leaned in and kissed him with every bit of feeling she had for him.

When she let him go, she stepped back and reached for her waistband. She looked up at him and he nodded. "If it feels good to you, darlin', you do whatever you feel like doing."

She undid the jeans that Alice had given her to put on after the change finished before her first hunt. Sliding them down her legs along with her panties that Alice had handed her, she watched Jasper watch her most appreciatively. She noticed that the length in his jeans was growing again. She looked at it intently and licked her lips. She wanted that and Jasper could feel it.

"You can have whatever you want from me, Bella. Just come and get it. Don't think about it. Just do it and enjoy the feelings. I don't mind."

When Bella was totally naked, she walked toward Jasper with a bit of a sway to her hips that made him just want to reach out, grab her and bend her over the log they'd been sitting on before slamming home into her and showing her just how intensely he loved her.

He managed to keep control of himself though. He wanted this one to be all about her. He watched as she reached out a hand and then pulled it back as if she were embarrassed by her forward actions. "You can do this, darlin'. There is nothing to be afraid of. I told you to take the lead. You do whatever feels good to you."

She reached out her hand again and rubbed over the rod in his jeans, watching as he flung his head back and moaned in pleasure.

She smiled as she rubbed a little harder, feeling the flesh grow and harden. She put both hands on the button of his jeans and then looked up at him, chewing on her bottom lip. He smiled and nodded at her. She undid his jeans and began sliding them down his legs.

When she looked back up at him, there was a long, hard shaft in the way of her seeing his face. She cupped it with both hands. "It's so big," she gasped.

"It's not so bad, darlin'. It'll fit. You stretch." He smiled at her. "And the best part is we'll have to play around and stretch you each time."

"Are you sure?"

He nodded. "You'll always feel nice and tight around me. It'll feel real good for both of us."

She started stroking him gently gradually tightening her grip as he moaned in pleasure. "Should I take that as an invitation to continue, Jasper?"

"Darlin', if you stop now, I will have to punish you."

She smiled up at him. "Punish me? Are you sure you want to go there, Jasper?"

Jasper was truly surprised. Bella hadn't taken his words wrong. The memories of Mike punishing her didn't even raise their head. He knew they would eventually and he had to keep his head in the game to help her through those times. He couldn't afford to lose himself in the moment. To do so meant that he might not be able to help her. It would be a long hard battle but he was certain that in the end they would win. He wouldn't accept anything less than a victory in that arena. He would see Bella through the troubles and watch her bloom into the woman she was always meant to be.

Bella stroked him again. Then, he watched as she bent her head and kissed the tip of him ever so gently. "May I?"

"Do you want to?"

"I'd like to try."

"By all means. I would like to see you try."

She opened her mouth and wrapped her lips around him like she would a candy cane. His head dropped back and a gasp of sheer delight escaped him.

Bella pulled back suddenly, worried that she had hurt him. "Open your mind, Bella. You didn't hurt me. That gasp was me feeling good. I was enjoying that. You, my love, are very good at that."

"I didn't have a choice but to learn how. It was one of Mike's favorite ways to punish me. At least, it was until I learned how to pretend that I enjoyed it with him. Then he stopped. I guess he didn't want me to enjoy it."

"Probably not. But you are good at it and if you want to do that, I want you to. But only if you want to."

She rested her head against his leg and blinked back the tears of joy she felt welling up in her eyes at his understanding, even though she knew that vampires didn't produce tears.

"Are you okay, Bella?" he asked, concerned when she sniffled.

"I'll be fine. I'm just not used to being treated like this. It's going to take time for me to get used to it."

"All the time you need, you can have. I have nothing but time, darlin'. And now so do you." He smiled down at her and cupped one hand to her cheek. "We have all kinds of time to get used to having each other around and being free to love each other in whatever way we want to."

She smiled up at him and then licked his length like an ice cream cone. Jasper's head dipped forward and he closed his eyes, just enjoying the feeling of his woman loving him. He allowed the feelings he felt to flow out and wash over Bella so that she could enjoy it right along with him.

She shuddered with the feeling and once again wrapped her lips around the tip of him, suckling like a child with a lollipop. She felt the sensations building in him and had the sudden desire to see him reach the pinnacle and topple over it.

Jasper reached out one hand and threaded it through her hair. A slight tug was her only warning that he was getting close. He wanted so badly to stop her so that he could make her his in the ultimate way of their kind. But she was determined to finish him off with her mouth this time. He could feel her determination in her emotions.

"I'll let you have your way this time. But for the next round, I'm in charge," he growled as he felt the edge approaching at breakneck speed.

She pulled her mouth away and smiled up at him. "I think I could come to like it when you take charge like that, Major." He wanted to kiss that smirk right off her face.

"For now, finish your fun so that I can have mine afterwards."

She leaned back in and slid her mouth back over him, in awe of how easy everything was with him. How natural it all felt.

Jasper's head fell back and a roar left his mouth as his seed cascaded down Bella's throat just moments later.

When he finished up, she gently licked him clean and stayed at his feet, content with the way she felt for having done what she did.

He dropped to his knees beside her. "That, darlin', was possibly the finest lovin' anyone has ever given me. And it meant all the more to me for the fact that you did it after everything that's been done to you. Thank you." And he kissed her.

As they kissed, he gently lay her back in the grass. His lips trailed to her neck and she moved her head so that he could reach her entire neck.

He left a trail of kisses down her neck and across her chest until he reached her breasts and started suckling at them, making her squirm in the grass. He smiled up at her as he held one breast in his mouth and reached one hand down between them to touch her in her most private place. Bella felt her orgasm wash over her immediately.

Her back arched off the ground and she screamed in pleasure.

Jasper let go of her breast and sat up for a moment, letting Bella relax for a minute before starting in again. When she looked up at him from where she lay on the ground, he took his fingers from where they had been and licked each one clean as a whistle. "Tasty. I think I should have some more." He smiled at her again as he bent his head to the place his fingers had just been.

His tongue speared deep and Bella threw her head back with a gasp as she felt every bit of pleasure he could inflict on her.

Bella felt her next orgasm flood her system as she screamed again in pleasure, glad that as a vampire she no longer had to worry about going hoarse. She wanted everyone to know just how wonderful a lover Jasper was. That thought was promptly followed by a feeling of guilt for having taken Jasper from Alice.

"No guilt, Bella."

"But you and Alice were together for so long. I can't help feeling guilty for taking you from her."

"There is no need."

"But -"

Jasper put a finger over her lips. "I said there's no need. Alice and I have known for years that we aren't each other's true mate. But we stayed together in order to stave off the loneliness that was waiting if we had stayed single all this time. And my mental state was not exactly conducive to staying alone like that." Bella just looked at him as if she didn't understand. "You know a little of my story?"

Bella shook her head. "All Edward would ever tell me is that you were dangerous. That you were new to the vegetarian diet and were having a lot of trouble with it."

Jasper sat up and pulled her into his arms once they got dressed. "Let me tell you my story. Then, you'll understand why I say what I did. I know that you know about my military service when I was human." Bella nodded and Jasper proceeded to explain to her how he had become a vampire and what Maria had put him through for years after he was turned. He told her about Peter and Charlotte and how much they had helped him maintain his fragile grip on sanity.

He noticed the anger and hatred she felt toward Maria and the gratitude for Peter and Charlotte. He couldn't be happier that she didn't try to hide her feelings from him. She let him feel everything that she felt. It was so refreshing. Everyone else had always tried to protect him from the darker emotions they felt. He didn't want that. He wanted to be allowed to know all of it. It was the only way to know the truth.

The two of them sat together on the ground with their backs against a fallen tree for the longest time just talking about their pasts and the future they could have together.