I placed a stone above Alois' head and brushed the dirt off my dress. He wasn't happy at the manor so why on Earth would I bury him in a place where he was unhappy? I was covered in his blood and soil. I felt anger surge through me. This was the last straw, the last time, I stand around and let everything I care for, wither away at the hands of my master.

'Master, you have taken from me for the last time. Now it is my turn to take from you.'

I wiped away the last of my tears, feeling the wetness smudge on my face. I knew what I had to do. I closed my eyes for a moment. Over the last year or so, I had learned to block out my master, and used it while he was having his way with me. He didn't mind so I kept doing it. I shut my master out and walked out of the woods and looked around. I needed to go and warn Sebastian. He needed to protect Ciel because I couldn't. I didn't know how to save him without Sebastian's help. It was time to say sorry and make amends.

I ran as fast as I could to the manor and went around the back. I was greeted by Sebastian who probably heard me coming a mile away.

He pinned me down against the wall, demon be eyes glowing.

"What the hell are you doing here, harlot? I believe you were to stay away from my young master. So...you have five seconds to tell me why you are here before I rip your pathetic throat out," Sebastian growled, threatening.

I held my ground, looking at him blank faced.

"I am here to apologize. And to warn you about Claude's plans," I said bluntly.

Sebastian looked at me with a confused look on his face. He couldn't figure out what I meant.

"What on earth are you talking about? Explain," he demanded.

"I only had five seconds. Not like I could say everything," I said, slightly irritated.

"O.K how's this, you explain yourself now. Time limit removed," Sebastian said, also irritated.

"I assume the only part of any value to you is the part where I tell you how I can help you, so I will begin there. Claude is planning to use Alois' soul in order to obtain Ciel's soul. The two of them have very similar past's so mixing the souls would be no trouble at all would it?" I said, raising an eyebrow, hoping he would get it.

Seeing the clarity in his face I could tell he knew what I knew. Or some of it. I could only tell him so much without jeopardizing my own well being.

"Why? Why are you helping me and not trying to help your master any?" Sebastian said, confused.

I sighed and kneed him, getting him off of me and walked a few steps away from him. I hugged my arms together and didn't look at Sebastian.

'This will probably hurt more tonight but he needs to know.'

"Just because I'm a slut, damned for eternity, doesn't mean I fall willingly down to me knees just to serve my master. I didn't want Ciel's soul to be taken, from you or least of all my master. It killed me inside. Which brings me to the first part," I said bitterly, turning to face him, trying hard now to maintain my poker face," I apologize deeply Sebastian for going and acting on my master's orders. I apologize for all the trouble I have caused, all the pain you have had to endure, and all the frustrations that you have dealt with because of my masters orders. I wish I never had to carry them out at all, but I had to and I did. I understand if you wish to kill me, but at least have some decency to wait until I know my brother is in your care, that you have taken his soul and not 'Claude',"

Sebastian the surprised me with the next thing he did.

"I understand Avril. However, as angry as I am with you, I cou-"he paused, clearing his throat," wouldn't kill you. You were only acting on orders,"

His voice was kind and gentle. I forced down a shiver, remembering our night together. I missed him so much. It had been too long of a year. I remembered all those fantasies I had, about Sebastian and I being together, without any complications. Just two humans in love. I felt a twinge in mg heart and looked away from him.

He took my face in between his hands and for a moment, I saw some of the love I saw that night. His eyes told me he still cared, still loved me.

That was what I was afraid of.

"Avril...I-I-well... damnit all Avril, you're leaving me flustered. We are supposed to be enemies. Curse it all. Just...take care of yourself Avril," he said, suddenly pulling me into a tight hug.

I stood still, feeling my eyes widen in shock. I started to hug him back when he kissed me. I stood for a moment, frozen in shock, before I pushed him away, backing up and looking around nervously.

"I... I-I sh-should go now. Goodbye Sebastian. Take care of Ciel please," I said, stunned, then ran.

Once I returned to the manor I went to my room and undressed myself, fighting back tears. Between everything that happened, Alois ' death, new orders, and the thing with Sebastian. Also, blocking my master put, though a perfected skill, took out quiet a bit of energy from me. I sat down on the bed in my slip and held my head in my hands. I was trembling but I wouldn't let myself cry. It felt hard to breathe even. I heard a creak in the floor board and my head shot up. In the doorway my master stood, looking at me.

"We have business now my dear," he said shutting the door behind him.

I sighed, knowing what was coming. I walked up to him.

"How might I assist you my lord?" I asked him.

"Tell me one thing before you show me a good time. Why did you shut me out?" He asked me, looking slightly angry.

"I wanted a moment of peace, after having to bury our late Lord Trancy. I don't want to show any weakness in front of you master," I said, mustering innocence into my voice.

He nodded.

"Alright I will accept that answer. Now...do your best my dear," he purred.

I nodded and lead him down to my bed. I unbuttoned his shirt and his pants, stripping him and then myself. I laid him down and sat on top of him. I bit my wrist and tilted his head up to taste and lick. I felt his unmentionables harden and knew I hooked him.

As I kissed him softly, I felt myself empty more and more, like I normally did during this time. If I didn't become empty, I'm sure I would lose my mind. I wanted so badly to be free from this. It was to never be though. So I did what I was meant to do and never shed a single tear for it.