~*~SEBASTIAN'S POV~*~

I stood in the room staring at Avril. Her master's order... My brothers demand for her.

'Take care of our little puppy Avril. You know the drill,"

Was what he said to her. I was afraid, because Avril looked really sad. Sad and empty. Like she was forcing everything dealing with emotion, down into a box.

"Avril, what did he mean?"I asked warily.

Her mouth formed a tight line. This was bad. Very bad.

"I'm sorry Sebastian," was all she said.

Suddenly my world went blank.

I awoke in a dark room. I was chained up, naked, by my ankles and wrists in a cellar. It was damp and cold down here. Interesting. Then I looked around. The room was dimly lit with a few candles. Tim saw a table with torture materials sitting on it. Next to said table was Avril who was wearing a long white coat over her dress. She had no light in her face. She looked cold and cruel. Almost like she was Raphael's doll. Made to the point of perfection.

"Avril, please don't do this. Your brother needs me," I said, trying to make her avoid the order.

She didn't respond. She only grabbed a whip and I thought I saw some regret and fear in her eyes, when she looked at the whip.

She let the whip unfold and on the floor there was a soft 'clink' and I saw it was a blade at the tip of the whip. She raised the whip and struck me multiple times. I held my ground, refusing to show weakness in front of her, knowing my brother was watching through her eyes. She looked so dead, it made my heart hurt. I cared about her too much. That's probably why Raphael was making her do it. Because he knows I care for her. Plus she let me get in to the room when she should have been guarding the door. This was punishment for both of us.

Avril stopped hitting me with the whip after a while and let my wounds heal. Then she took out a bottle, wearing gloves, and poured it on me.

It burned. She poured holy water on me. Mixed with dogwood. This time I had to force back a scream. It was dreadfully painful. Especially since she hadn't let my wounds heal all the way.

"Avril... I'm begging you...please don't do this. Fight him. Fight my brother. I know you can. Do it for me. Please. Don't you care about Ciel? Don't you think it will be harder for me to save him being half dead?"I begged, knowing that I sounded a little deceitful.

I needed Avril to try and stop. She let Ciel get taken by her master. Twice. I'm sure it was killing her. Now even if she didn't love me, I knew her brother should have been enough to get her to pause.

I was wrong.

She took a blade that had markings on it. They looked familiar. She drove it along my face and it burned.

"A holy sword. Clever. My brother never fails to let any toy go unused,"I said through my clenched teeth.

"No I don't brother. Isn't that right my little April Showers?"Raphael said with a smirk.

I snarled at him, watching Avril pale slightly. She hated to be called that. And it was unsuited to her. I hated that name as well.

"So, what's your plan with me brother?" I asked Raphael.

"Hmm...lemme think. Oh maybe I should spill some secrets. Where to start? Oh I have it. Did you know that Avril was actually the one who stole Ciel's soul from you? She also helped set up the institution to brainwash your little soul. She would've helped, but I wanted to be more trustworthy to Ciel. More fun that way,"Raphael said, grinning from ear to ear.

I felt my eyes widen, turning to Avril. She still looked so empty. Hollow. However there was a touch of guilt in her eyes and she looked down at the torture supplies. It was true. I felt my anger seep through.

"So...before, the night before you changed, Avril... Did that mean anything to you?" I asked, my voice cold, but curious.

I wanted to know if she was being ordered to do this, or if she was just trying to get at me for taking her brother away in the first place. I needed to know if our connection was real or just merely hormones and her deception.

Avril looked up at me, clearly caught off guard by the question, for she had surprise in her eyes. Then she hit her bottom lip for a moment, thinking. She closed her eyes and...

And the she smiled. It was a cold and evil smile. I never thought I could see that look on her face. But I did. Raphael was smirking.

"Honestly? It was more of you having your way with me because I was drugged on saliva and virgin blood. I became closer to my demonic self. That night was merely another night with a man who wanted me for intercourse. Why do you care Stefan? My are we feeling some emotion? Did you fall for me? How flattering,"Avril said, looking at me with hard and cruel eyes.

I shivered when she said my real name. I felt the strangest thing suddenly. It was hard to breathe. I wanted to tear my heart out, considering it felt like it was being squeezed repeatedly. I just looked at her. Avril. She was the first woman, no first anything, to ever make me feel...more. She made me feel like I had a soul. Like I was good. This couldn't be my Avril. Or was it? The words she had said still hurt. I looked at Avril again. She was so hard. Empty. This had to be a trick. I looked down, away from her cold gaze.

"Isn't she just the sweetest? You would know brother. She's wonderful in bed. Knows just what makes a man tick. That's what you used her for right? I mean just look at that sweet face?" Raphael said while holding my face up to look at her.

She wasn't looking at me. Her hair was in her face, and her hands were balled into tight fists. I was so confused. Raphael got annoyed.

"Avril, show my brother your pretty face. Now,"Raphael had ordered her.

I saw Avril tense up then she looked up at me, the cold face still there. Only her body was telling me differently. She was tense and very stiff. Almost like she didn't want to do this. I was kidding myself though. I tried to turn and look away from her face but Raphael held me still.

"Come here my dear April Showers," Raphael said to her, sounding happy with himself.

Avril walked over and Raphael wrapped his free arm around her waist and kissed her Faustian mark. It glowed brightly and her mouth formed a bit of a tight smile.

"Now Avril...do what you think would break my brother, just a little though. I want to keep him around for a bit,"Raphael ordered, sneering.

Avril went over to me and I felt myself shiver. She gently touched my bare chest and then she dug her nails into it. I flinched slightly then felt burning. I looked down at her hands, they were red.

"Dogwood and holy water hurts don't they, Sebastian?"she asked me coldly.

I cringed. Though not for myself. She had put it on her hands. That must have hurt something awful.

'Stupid. You are a stupid idiot. How do humans survive with these damned emotions?'

Avril took her hand out slowly then kissed me. It was a forced kiss. She injected some of her saliva into my system, the wouldn't stop. She pulled away finally when the world was spinning. Then she bit into her wrist, letting the blood flow for a minute. I wanted to make it stop. I forced myself to not show any emotion, which was hard considering that I couldn't see straight. Avril then let the blood flow into my mouth until I couldn't help but swallow. I tensed up, closing my eyes. Her soul...it was something else entirely. It was the best soul I had ever tasted. I wanted to have her for myself there. Just to taste her soul again. Hell I would have been happy just seeing it.

"It's wonderful isn't it Stefan? Do you want more?" Avril asked me sweetly.

I was about to say yes before I regained my composure. I shook my head quickly. I wouldn't take advantage of Avril that way. I wasn't going to let myself.

I opened my eyes and saw Avril look slightly surprised. Raphael however frowned.

"Avril, come with me outside for a moment. I wish to discuss something with you,"he said stiffly.

"Don't you...Don't you dare hurt her. I'll... I'll k-kill you," I protested feebly, still really out of it because of Avril's saliva.

Raphael laughed at me coldly. He took Avril out of the room. I waited in silence for a few moments. I tried to shake the affect Avril's soul had on me.

After what felt like years, Avril walked back in, only in her maid outfit, with my brother following closely behind her. She looked much paler and a bit stiff. She didn't have that cold look on her face anymore. She was almost scared. Suddenly Raphael roughly grabbed her and chained her up on the wall next to me. She was shaking slightly. Raphael grabbed on of the bottles of holy water and the demon knife and walked back to her. He turned and smirked at me.

"What do you think brother? A torture suitable enough for a slut?"he asked me, smiling.

He then dug the knife into her shoulder and poured the holy water on it. She tensed up and whimpered slightly. I felt angry. Though I shouldn't have. Avril didn't care about me. She deserved what ever was coming to her I'm sure. I was wrong though. Raphael was only doing this to hurt me. He knew my weakness was Avril. He knew. I turned away from the scene, trying to keep a poker face on.

"What's the matter brother? What the torture to tame? Alrighty then. Lets bump it up a notch,"Raphael said before he proceeded to make me sit and endure hours of torture.

He made me watch as Avril bled, screamed, begged, and even cried. Raphael only continued to hurt her more and more. I forced back all my emotions though, knowing that they would only kindle his eagerness to torture poor Avril.

Finally he unchained Avril and threw her out. He turned to me smiling.

"How does it feel to loose again brother? I have everything you wanted now. Your precious soul, your little whore that you fancy so much, and what else? Oh that's right, there is nothing else because I have already taken then all away from you! Well I do feel a little sorry for you. I mean to have nothing? So why don't I let you go? Oh but first..."Raphael said as he gloated,pausing.

He picked up a bottle of the dogwood holy water and the demon knife and stabbed me very close to the heart and made sure every drop of that burning liquid, was inside my body, through the already burning wound. I gasped in pain and had to bite my lip before letting a scream escaped my lips. Then Raphael let me out of the chains and threw my clothes at me. He reached down and forced me to look at him. I glared.

"Now remember this little lesson Stefan. Just stick to average. Because I'll know if you have something good. And I'll steal it from you. Oh and stay away from my precious little April Showers. She's mine. If you two are near each other, with out my permission, then Avril will have to pay the price for the both of you. Am I clear?"Raphael threatened, grinning, though his eyes told me he was serious.

I wriggled out of his grip and looked at him in the eyes.

"Crystal,"was all I said.

He smirked then left me there, the door open. I sighed, still trying to keep a calm facade, and got dressed. mince my clothes were properly on, I ran clumsily out of the house and to my small house I had on Earth. I entered the small little living room, my cat scurrying away. I shut the door and let myself break down, for the first time in...almost forever.

'What a stupid fool you are Stefan. You honestly believed he would let you win? Idiot. Now Avril will forever be out of your grasps. Both the Phantomhives that I cared for were just too far out of my reach now. And it would always be that way,'