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Nine Years
Jaxy,
Hey. I know this is a bit weird, but I wanted to say some things. And I feel like some things are easier written than, well, said. Please bear with me; it's been a long time since I've done this.
Nine years ago today, when you walked into my life, I had no idea what I was in for. You were wild, and very rebellious, and totally something new. I had never known someone could make me feel the way you did. I tried as hard as I could not to adknowledge it at first. It was a foreign feeling, and I guess I just... labeled it as wrong.
But it was absolutely, anything and everything but. You made me feel like my heart was beating again, when I'd felt so, for lack of better wording, normal. Remember what you told me 'E' said to you that night? When she told you that she felt alive for the first time in her, my, you know what I mean! When she said that she felt alive for the first time ever, that wasn't exclusive to her.
I was afraid of you, honestly. Not of you actually trying to hurt me, of your life being one that was going to chew me up and spit me out alive. Yet something about you just, drew me in. You were magnetic and I definitely knew it too.
You made me the person I am. We changed each other, for the best. And what came out it was magic. No pun intended. ;D
I am the luckiest woman alive for getting to make up in your arms every morning, even when it's because Feya decided to get up at six am and have a "barbie party in Mommy and Daddy's room". Ahh, toddlers. What can you do? Locking them in closets is illegal.
These have been the best years of my life, and I am so glad to say that I've been married to you for five of them. You have given me more than I could ever want, including our gorgeous baby girl. And the ability to learn volume control. ;)
Wow, that was sooo bad. I'm sorry, I had to.
I love you more than I think words can ever express. You turned my world upside down and honestly, I think I just got used to it. Happy nine years, Jaxy. I'm looking forward to many, many more.
Always yours,
Em