Erin heard a knock on the door, she wasn't expecting anyone. Jay said that he was going to that kid's house. He thought that he needed some closure and he said that after that he was going home. He was to tired to do anything, as much as she wanted him to come to her for comfort.

Erin was a little preoccupied with him, this case fell on him like a canon. She could read the pain on his face and in his stiff posture. She was a little surprised by his confession, that he was that kid once. Once again, it made her realize how much she didn't know about him, about his life and about his past. As much as she wanted to know, she knew how he was like her, how he didn't like to talk about the past, how he preferred to leave all that behind him. Seeing him so affected by cases like this one made her want to know because she would like to help him get through stuff like this. But she knows... she just knows...

She heard another knock, she almost forgot that there was someone at the door. She looked into the peep hole and saw Jay. She opened up the door.

"I thought you were going home?" she moved out of the way so he could enter and closed the door behind him.

He hugged her tight, she was caught by surprise and almost lost her balance with the strength of the hug. She just hugged him back and stayed there as long as he needed her.

"I'm sorry I... Today was rough and that kid..."

"Hey it's ok." She grabbed his hand and took him to the couch. "I know it was rough."

"I … well that kind of stuff with kids just gets to me... I don't know... I... anyway I just needed some comfort and I know I said I was heading home, but after I left that kids house I just got an urge to punch that teacher until I knocked him down and I realized that it was better that I don't be alone tonight so... You got me right?"

"Of course Jay... Look... Even if we weren't together like we are now, before we were anything that we are right now, we are partners and I'm always here for you."

He hugged her again. "Thank you Erin."

She smiled at him and kissed him softly on his lips.

"I like your definition of our relationship status." He added with a smirk.

"What? I really don't know what we are..."

"Well for me you are my girlfriend. You don't see me as your boyfriend?"

Her face lit up in a smile. She gazed at him, studying his face. She read a little doubt in his eyes, he fidgeted on the couch. Waiting for her confirmation was making him uncomfortable.

"Well?" He was definitely waiting for an answer from her.

"Yes, I guess you are my boyfriend... if you wanted that of course..."

"Come on Erin, don't be silly." Jay knew how Erin could run from this kind of commitment but he loved her. That he was sure about. He wasn't going to put that out there right now but he didn't want to be some casual guy for her. He wanted it all. He wanted her for real. So although he knew she could slip through his fingers, he needed to show her that he was totally on board for this. For him they were a couple and that's all there was to it.

She was smiling like she was going to tease him. He fixed his gaze on her. She was too beautiful and he was too lucky to have her, he thought to himself.

"Come on boyfriend, let's go to bed, you look like you've been hit by a truck."

A big smile spreads across his face. It felt good to hear her call him boyfriend. "Thank you that's all I wanted to hear right now."

"What part? The boyfriend part? Or the look like shit part?"

"You're funny... But I confess... It felt good to hear you calling me boyfriend, and yes I know I look like a kid with that stuff, but you are always so slippery with that kind of stuff so that seems like a big thing to me."

"Well it is a big thing to me too... I'm not use to having someone like this in my life so I need your patience and your understanding on this, ok? I need to adjust."

"Hey, it's me Erin... I know you and you know me and we are good together and that's all that matters, don't you think?"

She just nodded in agreement. They both stayed in silence for a minute, just processing all that represents.

But she needed to know what he meant with 'I use to be that kid' stuff.

"I want to ask you one thing and you can talk about it or not, it's ok."

He looked at her and waited for her to continue.

"What did you mean by 'I use to be that kid'?"

He looked down and she almost could see him closing up. She grabbed his hand and kissed the back of it. "It´s ok if you don't want to talk about it."

He shook his head no. He needed to talk to her about it if he wanted her to be open about her stuff, her past, her ghosts. He needed to do the same with her. He needed to let her know how fucked up his teen years were, he just need that. But it was so hard to go back there.

He looked her straight in the eyes, losing himself in her, she gave him so much strength.

"My father wasn't the best father that a boy could have, and I was a not a rich and fancy kid in a big fancy school, so I became an angry kid and I messed around a lot. My brother Will was the role model that my father wanted and I was the punk that was giving him trouble, after trouble so... basically I was that angry kid for a while. But my mother was able to reach me and get me on track and then I decide pick a military career and all that change me and turned me into what I am today. What I am now. The good part I mean, I can't think of my father as a role model, but to my mother, she was the one that made me change and do something with my life. Luckily I didn't suffer anything compared with what we found out about Ethan, but I had a rough time when I was like fourteen, fifteen... It wasn't easy. "

She hugged him. "Thank you for sharing this with me... I know what it's like to have that kind of burden on you … and I'm sorry Jay..."

"It's good to trust someone who we can tell our dark pieces of life to."

He kissed her softly on her lips and added, "And as you said, I look like I was hit by a truck and really need to rest if I want to be functional tomorrow. Let's go to bed?"

"Yeah let's go..."

Her struggling with the pillow woke him up. He smiled watching her sleeping but fighting with the pillow. She looked really beautiful with the shadows of the Chicago lights streaming through the curtains of the bedroom. It was 5am. He struggled between going back to sleep or just watching her sleep. She looked relaxed but a little uncomfortable with the space that she had to herself, always readjusting her position. She was not used to having company to sleep all night, he knew that and for the past week they spend almost all their nights together. For him it was the best but he noticed that she was adapting to this new reality. The nights they spent at his house she just fell into bed and slept all night with almost no movement. But at her house she probably was use to having the bed all to herself so she was adjusting.

He found this funny, the effort that she was putting into them being something. He really loved her independent spirit. It was one of the first things that made her so interesting to him. But this stuff of being boyfriend and girlfriend was really new to them. They had something in the past but in that era they never discussed what they were, they were together when they could and that was all. He was never a fan of that kind of relationship, but she was always running from any serious conversation about what they were.

Now he was just happy for the conversation that they had earlier. He kissed her head and whisper "my girlfriend". He knew it was cheesy but after a day like the one they had it was the best conversation that they could have had.

He laid down closer to her and hugged her from behind, spooning her. She snuggled closer to him and grabbed his hand, intertwining her fingers with his, unconsciously, in her sleep and made him felt so cozy that seconds later he fell asleep.

She woke up with the alarm. She felt him moving to the other side of the bed, feeling the emptiness that his body had left. She opened her eyes. He was laying on his back, with one hand on his belly, sleeping really quietly. She observed him for a bit, his pretty face, those eyes always managed to get what he wanted from her. She moved close to him and laid her head on his chest. Feeling his heart beat was her new favorite thing. He kept sleeping without noticing her movements so she enjoyed the moment for a little longer.

The sun was up and they should be too, so she kissed him gently and waited for his response. He opened his eyes and smiles widely.

"Hey Good Morning, it seems you are in a good mood today." He used his arm to support his body, turning to her to be able to look at her directly.

"Are you saying that I'm not always in a good mood?"

"Yes I am," He said, giggling.

She punched him softly on the shoulder making him lose balance. She pretend to fall on him and they ended up making out in the bed, forgetting that they should be getting ready for work.

Minutes later the phone rang. They jumped almost at the same time trying to understand who's phone was it.

Jay picked his up from the night stand and looked at the caller id "It's Antonio." He told Erin. "Halstead," he answered.

"You want a ride? We were supposed to help Al get his stuff from his house, before work, remember?"

"Yeah man I remember… look I'll meet you there ok? I'll be there in 10."

"Ok see you there."

"I got to get ready; I promised Al that I'd help him take his stuff from his house, with Antonio's help."

"Ok go... Wait Al's stuff?"

"Yes, he is crashing at Ruzeck's didn't you know?"

"No... Why?"

"Something about a girl who is suppose to be his daughter."

"Ok, you fill me in later. Go, you're late."

He got up and grabbed his shirt and black hoodie. "Not without a kiss first" He said cupping her chin and kissing her deeply. "See you at work. Bye."

"Bye," She said smiling, still wrapped in the sheets and feeling lazy. This was good, she though to herself.

Hope you like it ;) Feel free to comment. I would love some feed back, good or bad ;)