Hello Lovelies. I know, too many days between updates but I hope I made it up to you and the next chapter will probably be longer. Hope you enjoy and as always please review. :)
Caleb knew Hanna's defiant stance when he saw it but he wasn't backing down. He would be damned if she went to another country with a man that has slept with her and definitely wanted a hell of a lot more from her than her fashion expertise. Hanna sits on the couch with her legs crossed and her hands clasped on her knee.
"So what you're telling me Caleb is that you don't trust me?" Hanna says as her eyes narrow.
"Do you really want me to answer that Hanna considering you just told me that you lost our kid a couple of days ago?" Caleb says. Caleb looks down and sighs as Hanna hears a knock on the door.
"Nice Caleb. I didn't remember you being such an asshole before. Then again when you left me you did find time to date and have sex with my best friend. Excuse me while I go get my dinner." Hanna says as she gets off the couch and walks to the door.
"Stop throwing that shit in my face Hanna. It happened get over it." Caleb says. Hanna rolls her eyes and laughs sarcastically.
"So you can throw low blows but I can't? Double standard Caleb." Hanna says before opening the door
After everything is laid out Hanna smiles. She grabs a pen ready to sign for the food when he turns her down.
"Mr. Harris has already taken care of it Miss Marin. If you need anything else please call downstairs and we will bring it up for you immediately." He says before he leaves Hanna's room.
"Thank you" Hanna calls out before he closes the door behind him. Hanna starts eating.
"What else does Mr. Harris take care of for you Hanna?" Caleb asks rudely.
"Well the tenseness in my neck for one and he does provide food when I'm hungry." Hanna says sarcastically.
"Don't be a smart ass Hanna. What else do you let him do?" Caleb asks borderline through clenched teeth.
"Wow and now a jealous Caleb to add to the asshole." Hanna says as she takes another bite. Hanna sighs and puts down her fork before looking at Caleb. "So with all that yelling you have done what you have told me is that you don't trust me and because you don't trust me you don't want me to go out of the country with Jordan and Liz." Hanna says.
"Sums it up perfectly." Caleb says.
"And if I go anyway?" Hanna asks before taking another bite of her pasta.
"I don't know Hanna." Caleb says. He didn't know. Caleb wasn't going to leave her again. He knew that. He made a promise and besides the promise he loved Hanna. His whole heart was hers but he couldn't deal with her going anywhere with that guy. Caleb didn't trust him not after that fucking talk they had.
"Then figure it out Caleb because I'm going." Hanna says. Caleb looks at her for a long time before he speaks.
"So you're putting your job before me again." Caleb says. Hanna rolls her eyes before she looks at Caleb straight.
"No Caleb. This time I am telling you that whatever commitments I make I follow through with them no matter what it costs me. You want me to stay home because of your ego and because you don't trust me. Why don't you trust me? Because I didn't tell you that I miscarried our child. News flash Caleb I didn't tell anyone but Emily. Not my mom, not Spence, not Aria and not Ali. Maybe if I had told Spencer she wouldn't have dated and had sex with you. I dealt with my losses Caleb, you and our child, and it took me a year and a half. I was sick, I couldn't eat, I couldn't sleep and I lost weight. I got better but you know who helped me other than Emily? Sybil . . . she helped me a lot. Even when I got better, that whole year and some months, I stayed true to you while you were fucking Spencer or Miranda or whoever else you wanted until finally I got myself to move on. I couldn't even give Travis all of me because I gave everything to you . . . everything! So excuse me if you telling me you don't trust me because I didn't tell you I was pregnant and that I miscarried doesn't make me want to tell Jordan and Liz that I'm not going out of the country. Frankly, if that's the only reason you don't trust me you can get the hell over it." Hanna says as she pushes her food away and gets up to pour herself a glass of wine.
Caleb comes up behind her hugging her to him. Toby was right and sometimes Caleb really hated when Toby was right. He didn't know what Hanna went through when he left. He assumed she would be just fine. That's a lie. Caleb knew better. If anyone loved him to the point that she would do anything to make sure he was safe it was Hanna. She loved Caleb as much as Caleb loved her and there was a small possibility that she might love him more considering she would sacrifice her own happiness for his in a heartbeat.
"I'm sorry about ignoring you I didn't know how to react. We wouldn't have become my parents Hanna if you would have just told me you were pregnant. I told you why I left. I told you that I felt we weren't a team like we were in Rosewood and that was true. But I would have come back for you Han. All I needed, all I wanted was for you to tell me you still needed me." Caleb says as Hanna shakes her head.
"That's the problem Caleb I shouldn't have needed to tell you something that you should have known." Hanna turns in his arms so her back was to the counter. Hanna looks up at Caleb. "When you needed me I was there without you having to ask or tell me. Why did you need assurance for something that should have been common sense Caleb?" Hanna says as she searches his eyes. She moves from his arms and grabs her glass of wine.
"I realize that I always had a problem. I thought our relationship was perfect. Yes we would argue, we would fight and then we would make-up. You know about things that not even all of my best friends know about but did we ever truly talk through our serious issues or did we just move past them?" Hanna asks as she sits on the couch sitting on her feet.
"You mean when we actually got into an argument if we actually solved what we were arguing about?" Caleb asks as he sits on the other couch facing her.
"Exactly. Can you honestly name a time that we argued and solved our problem not counting your dad?" Hanna asks as she moves her feet and crosses her legs. Caleb thinks about it as Hanna drinks her wine. He and Hanna have been through a lot but she didn't tell him about visiting Mona at Radley or truly explaining why she felt she had to help Mona. They didn't talk about him bringing the gun anyway and later getting shot by the psycho who killed Maya. They didn't talk about why Hanna and he felt they had to push each other away when shit got hard; and frankly Caleb was fully aware that he did most of the pushing away. There was a lot that wasn't truly solved. They chip at the surface but don't go deep into the water to demolish the rest of the iceberg.
"You're right. We run or put a Band-Aid over an open wound that needs stitches." Caleb says as Hanna nods.
"We aren't perfect Caleb. We make mistakes and we have made a lot but if we don't grow from our mistakes we won't last. Remember when I told you that I didn't come this far to not have a happy ending when you came back from California that final time?" Hanna says.
"Yea . . . I do." Caleb says.
"That was naïve of me because happy endings are not like fairy tales. Happy endings take a lot of work. But what I meant then I mean even now. I will fight for you Caleb, always, but you have to trust me and you have to put just as much fight into us as I do or we will fail. In New York you gave up on us and I let you. Are you ready to do that?" Hanna asks as she looks at Caleb. Caleb searches Hanna's eyes for any uncertainty. All Caleb sees is fierce determination in their blue depths. They weren't teenagers anymore. They didn't need to pretend an argument didn't occur to save their relationship. Caleb knew Hanna was it for him. Caleb knew that no one came close to filling any void that Hanna left. Caleb knew, beyond a shadow of a doubt, that he was going to marry Hanna. There was no one like her.
"I'm ready if you're willing to have me and deal with my jealousy." Caleb says. Hanna smirks.
"Since when do you get jealous?" Hanna asks.
"I've always been jealous Han but I wasn't threatened by anyone at Rosewood High School once we became a couple. The only person that made me jealous was that doctor at Radley, Wren." Caleb says. Hanna laughs.
"Why Wren?"
"Because you listened to him. What he said you ate up and then it was the way he looked at you." Caleb says. Hanna's smirk widens as her eyes narrow.
"Which I assume is the same way you look at me." Hanna says. Caleb looks over Hanna, gets to her feet and ascends up her body slowly before reaching her eyes.
"Something like it." Caleb says as he smirks. Hanna sighs before she stands and puts her glass beside the somewhat empty bottle. She grasps the counter before she turns her head to look at him.
"Caleb I'm going on this trip. It pays well, really well, and Jordan will be busy the entire time. I have to get him and Liz ready in the morning and then at night for client dinners. Other than that my days and weekends are mine. You have to be able to trust me and deal with the fact that this is my life. I will be going out of the country with clients. I will be away from Philly sometimes a lot and sometimes not at all. And Jordan will be around me because he and Liz are now clients. I don't want anyone else but you so you have no reason to feel threatened by him." Hanna says as Caleb stands and crosses his arms in front of his chest.
"That won't stop him from wanting you Han and doing all in his power to get you." Caleb says as Hanna continues staring at him.
"I love you Caleb. There is nothing Jordan could do or give me to make me stop loving you or make me choose him over you." Hanna says.
"No matter how good his massages are?" Caleb asks lightening the mood slightly. Hanna looks at the ceiling before biting the side of her bottom lip.
"Ok his massages are pretty amazing. He really knows how to dig deep and . . ." Hanna squeals as Caleb picks her up.
"Enough about Jordan." Caleb says. Hanna smirks and grabs his face as their lips connect in a kiss that can only lead to being naked and vertical.
Hanna's eyes open to a bright morning in Los Angeles. Hanna tries to stretch but was obstructed by the naked body beside hers.
"You're in my way Caleb Rivers." Hanna says as Caleb's arms tighten around her.
"Don't really care Hanna Marin. We are staying in bed all day." Caleb says as he kisses her neck. Hanna sighs.
"No can do Caleb. I have a lunch meeting with a client." Caleb stiffens before letting Hanna go and turning on his back before putting his hands behind his head.
"Let me guess, with Mr. Harris." Caleb says as he looks at a very naked Hanna who, for a moment, was very distracting.
"The very same." Hanna says as she stands.
"Great" Caleb says as he puts his arm over his eyes. Hanna sighs before moving the comforter and straddling his lap. Caleb moves his arm and looks at Hanna straddling him.
"Who did I just make love with for most of the night till early this morning. I don't recall that being Jordan." Hanna says. Caleb's hand slides down Hanna's neck to her stomach. He holds her hips and sits up bringing her even closer to him. Hanna's mouth opens slightly at the friction as Caleb's arms tighten around her. She feels his hands on her back as she grabs his face and kisses him.
"Don't start stuff you don't have enough time for me to finish Hanna." Caleb says before breathing Hanna in as he continues to kiss her. Caleb feels Hanna's fingers in his hair before she breaks the kiss.
"You're right and you can't join me in the shower either." Hanna says as she gets off Caleb's lap leaving him with a semi hard on. Hanna looks back at Caleb and bites her bottom lip as she looks him over.
"You better not have ever looked at Jordan, Travis and whoever else you dated the way you just looked at me." Caleb says amused as he gets up and walks towards her. Hanna looks up at him as her hands slide up his forearms to his biceps before reaching his shoulders. Hanna lets one of her hands move from his shoulder sliding down his chest. She closes her hand slightly letting her nails scratch Caleb's abdomen lightly making him shiver slightly. Hanna smiles at the way Caleb was looking at her.
"Never Caleb and none of them made me scream out in continuous ecstasy over and over and over again like you." Hanna says seductively bringing Caleb's head down to hers. Caleb moans in their kiss making Hanna break away before that moan led to more moaning. Hanna runs into the bathroom and closes the door behind her.
"Did you just run from me?" Caleb asks amused.
"I had to or we would never leave this room." Hanna says as she turns on the water before stepping in and starting her shower.
Hanna puts on her make-up and fixes the waves in her hair before grabbing her jacket and stepping into her black spiked stilettos.
"Will you be here when I get back?" Hanna asks Caleb.
"No but I'll be in Philly when you get home. I found a place and I sign for it and get my keys later today." Caleb says as he buttons his striped shirt and puts on his jacket.
"Then see you when I get home." Hanna says as Caleb pulls her towards him by her jacket. They kiss before Hanna moves her lips. "I love you." Hanna says as Caleb smiles and kisses her again moving his hands from her jacket to cradle her jaw in his hands. Caleb moves his lips as he looks into Hanna's eyes.
"I love you too." Caleb says kissing Hanna again before resting his forehead on hers. Being with her again Caleb knew he made a mistake. How far could they have gotten if he stayed? He loved her, he really loved her, and what Caleb couldn't understand is when he got so lucky to have a girl like Hanna Marin love him back.
Hanna's phone rings. She sighs as she turns to look at it before looking at Caleb.
"Duty calls." Hanna says as Caleb smiles.
"It was only a matter of time babe. See you tomorrow." Caleb says. Hanna gives him a dimpled smile before grabbing her clutch and cell phone. Hanna walks to the door, opens it and turns to look at him.
"Thank you." Hanna says.
"For what Han?" Caleb asks. Hanna smiles, her dimples prominent.
"For coming back to me." Hanna says as she walks out having the door close behind her. Caleb looks at the door before he runs his hands through his hair and smiles. Smartest decision of his life was going to Eleven-05 that night. If he didn't go he would still be with Miranda in a relationship made up of lies.