Sorry it took me so long lovelies. I had a busy couple of days. Hopefully it won't take me so long to update. Side note. I was asked if Caleb was pissed at Hanna for going out with Miranda. Yes, but he got distracted by the term "lunner"
"So with the massage he pretty much touched you everywhere instead of actually touching your feminine attributes. You let him kiss you and then when I left he tried to force himself on you." Caleb says as he stares at Hanna. Caleb was happy he didn't make that promise for one reason, he was pissed.
"Yes and No" Hanna says. Caleb looks at her confused.
"For which part Hanna." Caleb asks. Hanna sighs.
"He didn't try to force himself on me." Hanna says. Caleb laughs but Hanna was fully aware that it wasn't the 'this is funny' laugh. This laugh was the 'you can't be serious' laugh.
"Really Hanna? So pushing you against the wall and working his way between your legs so access would be easier isn't forcing himself on you?" Caleb says.
"Well I was wearing pants so access wasn't easier for him . . . just to throw that out there. Other than that it was a mistake Caleb. I could see it in his eyes and he immediately apologized and left." Hanna says.
"Hanna I love you but sometimes you can be delusional. He apologized because he saw you weren't interested not because of what he did." Caleb says. Hanna rolls her eyes.
"Caleb that's beside the point." Hanna says.
"Is it Han? Can you honestly sit there and tell me that if you go to these different countries with him he won't try to have sex with you again?" Caleb says. Hanna looks away as Caleb's eyes narrow. "I thought so. You're not going Hanna." Caleb says as he gets another beer.
"What?" Hanna says as she looks at him.
"You're not going Hanna. Tell them you can't make it and some other crap came up that you have to take care of." Caleb says as he faces her and takes a sip.
"No" Hanna says. Caleb slams the beer bottle in his hand on the counter.
"No?" Caleb says through his teeth. Hanna's eyes narrow.
"No! I'm not a child Caleb." Hanna says.
"You could have fooled me Hanna since only a naïve child would think that Jordan wouldn't fuck you if given the opportunity." Caleb says as he drinks his beer.
"I didn't say that. I said he couldn't have forced himself on me unless he tried when I answered the door in my robe." Hanna rests the back of her head on the couch as she rubs her face. "And there I go fucking up again." Hanna says to herself as the room gets eerily quiet.
"You answered the door wearing a robe and then you changed your clothes with him waiting on you. Which would mean that you were naked, with him not even a full fifty feet away from you. What the fuck is wrong with you Hanna? Would you even know if he was watching you?" Caleb says as he walks towards her and crosses his arms in front of his chest. Hanna's eyes open as she looks at the ceiling.
"Caleb this conversation is over." Hanna says.
"Like hell it is Hanna! You keep shit from me, you meet with my ex fiancé without asking me how I would feel about it and then you keep dropping additional bombs. You were naked Hanna, a robe is easy to remove so I don't count that as proper clothing, and then you actually go to dinner with this guy? This shit is going to drive me insane if you go." Caleb says. Hanna rolls her eyes as she looks at him.
"Not if Caleb, when, and you need to get over this. Should I act like this every time you are around Spencer alone? I know how good you are and picturing you fucking her for two months over and over again is too much for me to think about. So should I spend every waking minute harping on that?"
"We weren't together then Hanna so you harping on something that happened over two years ago would be unreasonable. We are together now and I don't want you around a guy that you were fucking a couple of months ago." Caleb says as his volume increases.
"Does that also apply to your ex fiancé who you were fucking a couple of months ago? Or your ex-girlfriend who you were fucking for two months? Or any of the other females I may bump into because I'm involved with you again?" Caleb throws his hands up before he walks into his bedroom.
"This fucking conversation is pointless." Caleb says under his breath before slamming the door. Hanna puts her head back again looking at the ceiling. She can't not go no matter how Caleb feels about it. Hanna knew that and it's either Caleb got over it or maybe it was stupid of them to think they could be in a relationship again after all this time. Hanna looks at her phone before calling Spencer. It was time because now she knew, for a fact, she wasn't over it.
Spencer looks at her phone before she quickly answers.
"Han? What's wrong?" Spencer asks as Hanna sighs.
"I know you know I'm with Caleb again and he's not liking me going overseas with Jordan. I keep throwing you in his face and as much as you guys are over it I realize I'm not. I think I need to talk to Toby." Hanna says. Spencer sighs as she looks at Toby. It must be bad if Hanna is calling Toby… well Toby.
"Where are you?"
"Caleb's"
"He'll be over to pick you up in a little bit."
"Ok, sorry Spence." Hanna says before hanging up. Toby looks at Spencer.
"What's up?" Toby asks as he continues massaging her feet.
"Hanna just admitted she's not over it." Toby's hands still on her feet momentarily. Hanna was being an adult about a lot of things but if anyone understood what she was going through it was Toby.
"What told her she's not over it." Toby asks as Spencer moves her feet from his hands just as the massage was starting to tickle.
"She told me she keeps throwing me and our relationship in his face when they have an argument about Jordan." Spencer says as she stands. Toby stands too as he walks to the closet and grabs his coat.
"That doesn't surprise me." Toby says as Spencer crosses her arms but still looks at him questioningly.
"Why not? Hanna doesn't throw him in my face so it seems like she just does that when he acts like an alpha male." Spencer says. Toby smiles.
"It doesn't surprise me because Caleb and I actually fought when you guys ended things, I ended things with Yvonne and we were in a relationship again." Toby says as Spencer looks at him.
"What" Spencer says as her arms drop from in front of her. This was the first time she was hearing this.
"Caleb and I fought." Toby says as he looks for his keys.
"Why?" Spencer says as she follows him. Toby sighs before turning to look at Spencer.
"Because Spence he shouldn't have gone there. I get why he was attracted to you. Jesus! I mean look at you and let's not forget you speak fluent French and are one hell of a defense attorney." Toby says as Spencer blushes before clearing her throat and crossing her arms again.
"Ok, and"
"And no matter how attractive Hanna is I knew not to go there just like Hanna wouldn't have come to me." Toby says. Spencer couldn't deny that. Hanna was actually attracted to Wren and she never went there.
"Why is that?" Spencer asks just needing to confirm her thoughts.
"Because Hanna is more loyal when it comes to certain things. Just like you put your family before yourself. Hanna's friends are her family and she puts you guys before herself whether big or small. As bad as this sounds babe you and Aria have a tendency to be selfish and feel that the things you do to protect people you love are justified but when Hanna does it she is turning her back on the friendship or overstepping boundaries. Hanna and Emily have always been different." Toby says. Spencer's eyes narrow.
"That's not true." Spencer says while Toby just stares at her waiting for her to defend herself. Spencer realized she couldn't. Every situation she understood what Toby meant. The biggest time was when they were trying to figure out who -A was; Hanna didn't want Caleb involved but she and the girls involved him anyway. They gave her shit, at first, for drinking when Ali came back knowing the reason was because Alison was taking over again. They didn't fully believe her when she said Zack was hitting on her. Sometimes Spencer really hated when Toby was right. Toby smiles again.
"Spence, it's not a bad trait to have. Sometimes you have to be selfish for your own sanity but Melissa has done a lot of shit to you and you always protected her. You have also never had sex with her ex's because she is your sister. A kiss yes but never sex. Can you say the same about your best friend's ex?" Toby says. Spencer just looks at Toby. She was amazed that he loved her anyway. "I love you and I'll be back soon." Toby says as he kisses Spencer and leaves. Spencer sits on the couch and folds her feet under her. Spencer couldn't wrap her head around Toby and Caleb fighting yet still remaining friends. Then again maybe she could. Spencer loved Toby and if any friend of hers had sex with him Spencer knew she would become exceptionally petty. Eventually she would get over it but it wouldn't be fast. Damn, now she really understood Hanna's problem.
Spencer didn't regret being with Caleb. She couldn't say she was always attracted to him because she didn't see him as anything more until she was no longer with Toby and they spent that time together in Spain. After Spain she thought about Caleb. Spencer thought about what could have been if he wasn't with Hanna still and that scared her. When Hanna and Caleb broke up Hanna kept to herself a lot and didn't want to talk about him. Spencer had to admit that year for Hanna was bad. When Hanna did come to D.C to shop, take out and add new suits, dresses and evening gowns to Spencer's closet; Spencer noticed how thin she had gotten. She thankfully gained the weight back after that year but Spencer still thought about Caleb even then.
Then, with one of her cases, Spencer needed a hacker to follow the trail of information the prosecutor was using and see if that same trail belonged to the person framing her client. No better person to use then Caleb Rivers who she happened to bump into that afternoon during her lunch break. Caleb agreed to meet Spencer in her office and they worked on that case going late into the night. Spencer couldn't remember who initiated contact in her office, whether it was her or Caleb. What she did remember was how good Caleb made her feel as he thrusted into her bringing her to orgasm. She also remembered how shitty she felt when they parted ways later that morning and she saw a picture of her and Hanna.
To be with Caleb, Spencer hid every picture of her and Hanna so the guilt wouldn't eat at her but even then the guilt was still there. If Spencer was honest she would have to admit that she was lonely and Caleb filled that loneliness for a short while. The sex was good but sex with Toby was great because she was with someone she truly loved. Spencer knew Caleb felt the same way. How he was with Hanna he was never like that with Spencer. They joked and had fun together but it was always incomplete between them. When he moved on to Miranda she wasn't happy about it but she understood. When Toby broke up with Yvonne and got back together with her Spencer realized her and Caleb had been faking it. Not the sex, no they both enjoyed that, but a relationship. Spencer felt complete with Toby. The good, the bad, the happy and the sad Spencer knew she just wanted Toby. She was happiest when she was with her cop carpenter.
Spencer had to, again, admit that Toby was right. Hanna was her best friend and even as her best friend she kissed and had sex with Caleb. Spencer would have never done that to Melissa. Yes, she kissed Ian and yes she definitely thought about having sex with Wren whether drunk or sober but she knew she wouldn't have gone there. She felt she always had to protect Melissa but why? Why does Melissa need more protection then her best friend who constantly sacrificed her happiness for everyone else? No matter how tired Hanna was she did what her friends wanted when they wanted it.
"Great. I'm like the worst best friend ever. Just put me up there with Mona Vanderwall." Spencer says as she groans and gets up. She locks the door of the condo before looking at the time. "I need a shower and after my shower I am setting up a spa day for me and Hanna. We have a lot to talk about." Spencer says as she walks in the bathroom and closes the door behind her.
Toby waits by the curb and watches Hanna as she walks outside in jeans, boots, a t-shirt, jacket and beanie. Hanna gets in and buckles her seatbelt.
"Hey Toby" Hanna says. Toby stops the car abruptly and looks at Hanna. He places the back of his hand on her forehead. "What the hell are you doing?" Hanna asks.
"I'm making sure you aren't sick Hanna. You called me Toby. The last time you called me Toby we were in high school." Toby says. Hanna looks at him and then laughs. Toby smiles and drives off.
Hanna watches the scenery zip by. Hanna didn't say anything to Caleb as she put on clothes but she also knew when he came out of the shower he wouldn't be happy not seeing her. But, if Caleb actually paid attention he would notice her stuff was still there which would mean Hanna was coming back.
"How did you get over it." Hanna asks before looking at Toby,
"Honestly Hanna, it took me a while. Keep in mind I was still with Yvonne then but when Caleb told me I felt like I was sucker punched in the gut." Toby says as he keeps driving. "I felt like I was in a movie, a part of some cosmic joke, where my best friend and ex-girlfriend had sex and there was nothing I could do to stop it. Being with Yvonne made it easier but eventually I had to set her free." Toby says as he pulls up to a diner. They both get out, enter and sit at a booth.
"What do you mean you had to set her free?" Hanna asks as she looks at the menu knowing she was ordering fries and possibly a burger.
"Han, if Spencer being with Caleb bothered me, that told me I wasn't over her. I couldn't be with Yvonne while still thinking about, and loving, Spencer." Toby says as the waitress came over and took their order.
"What should I do?" Hanna asks. Toby smiles at her softly.
"Hanna, Spencer keeping that information away from you wasn't fair so you never had time to get over it. Everything between you and Caleb is happening so fast that you don't even have time to process how seeing them together makes you feel. You are going to have to make a choice. Is Caleb more important than his short relationship with Spencer."
"It's not that easy." Hanna says as she drinks her tea.
"How about this. How about you tell me why you aren't throwing Caleb in Spencer's face?" Toby says as he drinks his coffee.
"What?" Hanna says as Toby looks at her.
"You heard me Han. Why aren't you pissed at Spencer and throwing Caleb in her face?" Toby says.
"Because" Hanna says.
"Because what?" Toby says. Hanna sighs.
"I don't know Toby. . . I honestly should be throwing Caleb in Spencer's face but I can't. It's like my brain blocks me from being a bitch to her and that honestly sucks." Hanna says honestly. Toby laughs.
"I know what you mean Han. As pissed as I was at Caleb I wasn't pissed as much at Spencer. I should have been but I couldn't stay mad at her."
"It's the doe like brown eyes isn't it." Hanna says amused as their food arrives. Toby laughs.
"That could be it." Hanna and Toby laugh together as they begin eating their food.