She left the bar by herself. Olivia was right she needed time…

Jay text her, if she wants him to come by her home, he didn't call or insisted with her, when she said no… God, he knows her to well. She need to deal with all that rage and guilt and sadness by herself, like always… all she need was a hot bath and curl up in her bed for a while, trying to hide from the world for a while, she need that…

After she spends like an hour in the shower, she picks up something to wear, she found Jay sweater and put it on… oh she loves that smell. And just like that Olivia words came to her head:
- I'm still trying… but you know, my phone is always on… always …
– Thank you… - You know that you have a family that you can relay on… all intelligence unit, they give his life for you. And Hank, well Hank love you… and he it's afraid that you go down to the rabbit hole again… so reach for someone if you need it, please don't close in your shell again… and this time you have Jay…

Erin's face freeze, she is always forgetting that they are not hiding anymore.

- Yes I do know about Jay and I think it's a very good thing, and I'm very happy for you bought – Olivia said with a big smile on her face.
– Jay is there for you, you know, he spends all day worrying about you, did you see his face? You need to let him reach you, let people that love you, help you… It took me a while to figure out that my people were there for me, but it's good when you realize that they can help. – Olivia hold her hand for a while – Let them in Erin…

Erin lay down on her bed, turn around for a while and started to picture Yates there, inside her house, in her sofa, in her kitchen, going through her stuff… and started to feel the tears falling down… she can't be on her own house alone… she felt the fear taking over her… she doesn't want to feel like that again… she picks up her phone…

- Hello? Erin are you OK? – Olivia asks with a concerned voice.
- Hi… I just… Well I… I just can't sleep… I keep imagine him inside my house… it's terrifying – Erin said with a raspy voice.
- It's Erin – Olivia answers to some male voice.
- Oh sorry, you're not alone – Erin said with a tone of surprise in her voice - I thought that you were in the hotel, sorry I call you tomorrow.
- No it's OK, don't hang up, I tell you that I will be here for you and I am… actually is Hank.
- What?
- I'm at Hank's… so… it's OK. – Olivia said.

Erin notices a little hesitation in her voice.

- Hank? OK. Don't ask, don't tell – Erin said with a giggle on her voice. And just like that she feels a little better.
- Hey it's nothing like that… we are just friends and like I said to you, we should relay on our friends when things got messed up. – Olivia said. Erin notice she was smiling by the tone of her voice – OK - Erin said in a vague tone.
- Jay called Hank – Olivia said.
- Oh, and?
- He wanted to know if you have reached out. – Olive answer with a sad voice – Hank told him no and for him to wait for you to do it.
– You should call him Erin, it will be good for you and he is so worried.
- I don't know… I just feel like… I want to be brave, but… I don't want him to see me like this. - Erin said with his raspy voice again.
- You want me to come to your house? If you want, I can stay with you… - Olivia suggest. – Hank is saying that you can come over to his place and stay here too.
- No, I don't want to chaperon – Erin said smiling.
- Hey I already tell you… just friends remember?
- Yes, me and Jay wore just friends too, you know?
- Well anyway, what do you want to do? – Olivia said giggling and changing the subject.
- I … never mind… I will be here… or maybe I call Jay…
- What you think it's better for you Erin.
- Olivia? - Yes? - Thank you.
- Always Erin, like I told you.
- OK. Bye.

Erin hangs up and stays with the phone in her hand, she goes to speed dial and look at Jay's name…

Fifteen minutes later she was in front of Jay's apartment. She should have called first, but she thought if she does that and he not answers she will start to fall on the fear hole again… She knocks on the door… silence… maybe he wasn't home… she knocks again just for sure.

Before he opens the door he already knew that was her, he was surprised but it's got to be her.
- Erin?! – Jay look at her, dark circles around her eyes, pale skin, her girl was a mess…
- Sorry, but I cannot stay in my house, I feel Yates everywhere – Erin said with her raspy voice.
- Hey it's ok. Come here – Jay said offering her a hug. Finally, she's letting him in.
– Come on in and tell me what you need.
- I just… - she seats on the couch and hold her legs up.
– Can I just stay here for a couple of days? … Just until this cloud of craziness disappear.
- Of course. – Jay said with a little smile on his lips.

God she loves his smile… and it feels good to be there near him, it feels safe.

- Can you hold me please? … For a while – Erin asks. Jay put his arms around her and holder for some time, she didn't know how much, when she started to fell numb she tries to seat better and look up to him.
- This is good you know – Erin said with a smile. – You and me… Thank you for being here.
- Thank you for let me in – Jay said.

He was happy. Erin can notice.

– What made you came here? You tell me that you want to be alone, it hurts me and I get more worried than ever but I try to keep it down.
- I know you call Hank, Olivia told me.
- I was worried about… Wait, what? Olivia? – Jay asks with a question written in his face.
- Yes apparently she was in his house, they are just friends you know – Erin said smiling.
- Well that's something I would like to see… Hank and Olivia being just friends – Jay teased.
- Yes, would be fun to tease Voight with that – Erin said giggling.
- You do that … I… I like to keep all the parts of my body… I just… Well I think I'm not allowed to tease Voight… but you do that, it will be fun to watch – Jay said with a big smile on his face. Erin was laughing and that was good.
- That's my sweater – Jay said pointing to her – I thought that Ruzek had stolen from me, after all, it was you – Jay said giggling.
- Well it feels good on me and you left it in my house so I'm allowed to use it – Erin said doing that eye thing that he love.
-It looks good on you – Jay teased – You can have it. – Jay said hugging her and kissing her on the forehead.

For a while they just stay there, his arms around her, without saying a word.

- I think I need to sleep – Erin said finally. – Maybe we can go to bed, what you think?
- Yes, of course.

They just lay on the bed, his arms holding her, his fingers going through her hair, her hand resting in his legs. And subtlety she started to cry, she just keeps crying, her body shaking from time to time. She cries for a while until she fells a sleep.
He knows she need it that, he had been in that dark place and crying helped for sure, more than he wanted to admit. He shifted his body to make her more comfortable and whispers in her hear:
- Tomorrow will be better, you will see
- Thank you Jay – she mumbles in her sleep.