Hello my lovelies! I know this chapter has been a long wait but I had to focus on my summer classes and the papers I had to write. Regardless I am sorry that I took so long. Please leave me a review telling me if you love or hate it. Remember my lovelies this story is rated M for a reason. Enjoy :)
Hanna sighs before her eyes meet Caleb's again.
"Sex with Travis . . . He never performed oral on me. He said he wasn't a fan of it and I never forced him too. However, he did like when I sucked him off and to make him happy I did it for a time. When we did have sex at home he was very tender, very slow and very "loving"." Hanna says before she was interrupted by Caleb.
"Why the air quotes?" Caleb asks.
"Because his loving was different. His loving equaled kissing my neck, holding me close but he never kissed my lips when we had sex at home." Hanna says.
"Ok so if you weren't at home how was sex with Travis." Caleb asks realizing that Hanna was saying at home for a reason.
"Rougher, longer, more forceful. He always kissed me then and he was definitely a fan of any persona I thought up at the time. He truly got off on it. I never did and he never made me have an orgasm." Hanna says. Caleb searched Hanna's eyes.
"And you planned to marry this guy." Caleb says incredulously. Hanna smirks and shrugs.
"He was my, what, third sexual partner after you Caleb? So I thought that is how things were supposed to be. He was sweet, we laughed, we partied a lot and when he asked me to marry him I was fine with it. Was I happy? I was happy enough." Hanna says as she runs her fingers through Caleb's hair again.
"Jordan?" Caleb asks. Hanna smiles and Caleb looks away.
"Jordan was different . . . definitely different." Hanna says.
"Meaning" Caleb says the jealousy biting him in the ass.
"Jordan was loving in every capacity of the word. Bedroom wise he definitely knows what he is doing and I have definitely climaxed a few times with Jordan. Not every time but enough to make me happy. He is also adventurous, like Travis, but he just likes having sex with me in different places. He is also a watcher like you, he likes seeing me orgasm and knowing he is the one to bring me there." Hanna says her fingers never quickening or slowing down as she talked about Jordan. It didn't matter to Caleb. He disliked hearing about Travis but Jordan . . . he hated hearing about Jordan and hearing that Hanna actually enjoyed being with him in every capacity of the word.
"But" Caleb asks hoping there was something wrong with him. Maybe Jordan made strange noises or he farted. Caleb wanted to hear anything that made him sound less perfect for Hanna.
"No buts Caleb. Jordan is great. A good size, a great lover, and our interactions were different but fun and exactly what I needed at the time." Hanna says feeling Caleb's arms tighten on her. Hanna knew Caleb was jealous. She could sense the difference in his mood the minute she started talking about Jordan but she needed to be honest. Jordan was a great guy. He wasn't Caleb by any means but if Caleb didn't come back into her life she would have been happy with Jordan. Happier then she would have been with Travis. Caleb gets off the bed and immediately walks downstairs. He couldn't lay on her because now when he closed his eyes he saw Jordan inside her laying exactly where he just was. Hanna gets off her bed and walks to the railing. Hanna sees Caleb walk into the kitchen. Her head tilts as he grasps the counter top before opening the fridge, slamming it forcefully before opening his beer and taking a swig. Caleb downs it and immediately throws it in the recycle bin. Hanna hears the bottle break in the trash can before she shakes her head. Hanna walks down the stairs and walks into the kitchen. She comes up behind Caleb and smooths her hands over his back before her hands rest on his stomach and her cheek rests on his back.
"Why are you mad?" Hanna asks.
"I'm not mad?" Caleb says knowing the bullshit he just spewed was just that, bullshit. Hanna lifts her cheek from his back before she turns him so he faced her. She looked up at him under her lashes and Caleb's jaw clenched.
"Why are you mad?" Hanna asked again this time her hand sliding down his chest to rest on his stomach.
"You were happy with him. If I never came back into your life you would be with him." Caleb says as he watches Hanna's hand slide down his chest to his groin.
"Maybe" Hanna says as she grips his length. Caleb's abs clench at the feel of Hanna's hand on his cock.
"How can I compete with that?" Caleb says as his head falls back as Hanna's hand begins jacking him off.
"There is no competition." Hanna says her mouth opening slightly at the effect she was having on Caleb.
"He is perfect for you." Caleb hisses out as Hanna's lips touch his chest.
"You're perfect for me." Hanna whispers putting open mouthed kisses on his chest as her other hand ran her fingers across his abdomen making Caleb's penis twitch in her hand. Hanna smirks. Her lips descending from Caleb's chest to his stomach before she squats down.
"Hanna . . ." His words die in his throat as the tip of his penis enters the warmth of Hanna's mouth. Caleb's head falls back as he grips the counter behind him.
"Hanna . . ." Caleb's nearly loses his grip on the counter when Hanna answered him.
"Hmm" Hanna's says her mouth vibrating around the tip of Caleb's penis which nearly had him lose his shit. He looked down at her and knew he needed to have her now. Caleb forcefully moves Hanna off of him before he picks her up placing her on the counter. Caleb sits her higher above the counter where the bar stools sat opening Hanna to him. Caleb's mouth immediately licks Hanna's outer lips before moving to her clit which he sucked making Hanna cry out in ecstasy. Caleb continued licking and sucking Hanna's clit even sticking his tongue in the heat he always craved and loved. Hanna grasped the counter tightly as her head fell back. Hanna's eyes rolled to the back of her head as she moaned and screamed. Caleb's onslaught continued. She felt her toes curl as the pressure increased until she came around Caleb's mouth. Caleb pulled Hanna down feeling the heaviness of his cock the more Hanna moaned and screamed. Caleb put Hanna's knee on the counter while he placed her other leg on the floor before he entered her. Hanna's back arched and the pitch of her gasp increased the more Caleb filled her. Caleb went deep inside Hanna and stayed there. He felt Hanna tremble around him at the feel of him deep within her and he held her tightly against him.
"We are one Han. You're it for me and I hope to God I'm it for you because if not I may ruin you for anyone else." Caleb says beginning his thrusts within her. Each thrust Caleb made he made sure he went deep and Hanna cried, moaned, gasped and held the counter top at the sensations Caleb was making her body feel and the overpowering feelings she had whenever Caleb was within her.
Caleb held a naked and sleeping Hanna against him while he smiled contentedly. After they had sex in the kitchen neither of them could move. When Caleb's legs gave out and he fell to the floor Hanna came with him. They sat there on the floor with Caleb in Hanna. She held onto him and his arms stayed around her as his back rested against the lower cabinets. When Caleb found strength, not really sure from where he found it, he managed to lift Hanna so his penis could leave the warm depths that were made for him. He carried her upstairs and when he got on the bed Hanna curled into him. Her left arm laid across his chest while her left leg rested between his legs. One of Caleb's arms hugged her to him tighter while his other arm laid beside him. He laid there, now with his hand under his head while the other arm stayed around Hanna, and thought about what she said.
"Both Travis and Jordan always used condoms. I never allowed anyone to put semen inside me but you. The only person's child I will carry is yours and if by some cruel cosmic joke, you don't want me, my husbands but I will always love you Caleb. I am yours and have been yours since I was sixteen years old. There is no competition between you and Jordan because I will choose you. I may love him but I am in love with you Caleb and nothing is going to change that."
After Hanna said those words she fell asleep, naked, against him and Caleb kept the smile on his face. Caleb's eyes closed and he dozed off with Hanna in his arms.
Hanna's eyes open slowly and she moans. It was dark in the loft. For the most part she was warm but she needed to go under her comforter. Hanna lifts her chin and sees a sleeping Caleb. His face faced Hanna's but his eyes were closed. His eye lashes ghosted his cheekbones. Hanna smiled softly as she moved her leg slightly. She heard Caleb moan but his eyes remained closed. Hanna straddled his lap slowly and moved slightly on his lap. Caleb moaned again but refused to wake. Hanna's smile remained as she lifted her hands above her head and continued slowly grinding on Caleb's lap until his hands grasped Hanna's hips and his eyes opened.
"Bad girl" Caleb said as he sat up immediately opening his mouth to suck on Hanna's nipples. Her hand touches the back of his head as her head falls back when he bites her nipple before moving to the next one to do the same. Caleb's hands move to Hanna's butt lifting her so his now erect penis can stand at attention. He slowly puts Hanna down until he filled her completely before she began moving. Their eye contact didn't shift from each other's as Hanna's slow pace continued until Caleb couldn't take anymore and took charge.
After Hanna and Caleb took a shower Caleb put on pajama pants while Hanna just wore a t-shirt. They sat on the couch with Hanna's feet in Caleb's lap while he typed away on his computer. Hanna chose to watch The Bachelor. Caleb smirked and shook his head as Hanna exclaimed again about a specific guy being a douche. He found her amusing. She awed when the bachelorette interacted with who Hanna liked and she booed when the bachelorette spent alone time with someone she hated.
"Would you do the bachelorette Han?" Caleb asked.
"Why? I already have my mister I don't need to go searching for someone that will never compare to you." Hanna says without skipping a beat right before she started calling another guy a douche. Caleb continues working with the same smile he had been wearing since earlier.
"Han" Caleb says as he looks at Hanna.
"Hmm" Hanna says not moving her eyes from the TV.
"Do you remember our first time?" Caleb asks. Hanna's eyes finally move from the TV and looks into Caleb's.
"Vividly." Hanna says as Caleb smirks.
"How vivid?" Caleb asks.
"Very vivid." Hanna says. Caleb moves his laptop and puts it on the table before starting to massage Hanna's feet.
"Tell me from the moment we went into the tent." Caleb says. Hanna's eyes close as she goes back and remembers her first time while Caleb massaged her feet.
"It was actually cold that night but I was so hot and nervous. We entered the tent to finally go to sleep after our make-out session by the fire. I took off your shirt and you took off mine. I sat on my feet and you did the same as I just watched you."
"What were you thinking?" Caleb asked as he watched her.
"Other then what if someone stumbled across us? How I felt every time I was alone with you. I was excited but scared. I didn't know what picture you had of me in your mind and I didn't want to disappoint you but I knew when we crawled into that tent that I wanted you to be my first. I loved you and if I was going to sleep with anyone it was going to be you. Plus you were hot. You just got hotter as we got older."
"Happy your first wasn't Sean?" Caleb says amused. Hanna's eyes opened as she smirked.
"Ecstatic."
"Tell me more."
"I had on the lacey camisole if I remember correctly. I ran my hand down your chest before you grabbed the back of my neck and kissed me. I kissed you back and when I held your neck you asked me if I was sure. I told you I was and when we got on our knees you held me against you. My heart was racing when you kissed me and your arms tightened around me."
"I never felt the way I felt that night with anyone else but you. All I kept thinking was how did I get so lucky and then I prayed that I didn't hurt you." Caleb says.
"You laid me back and slowly took off my pants and my camisole which just left . . ." Hanna said before she was interrupted by Caleb.
"Your lacy black bra and black thong with the bow on the front." Caleb said cutting Hanna off.
"I turned off the lamp before I unbuckled your belt and unbuttoned your pants. You took them off. I realized you went commando then and then I was really scared. I didn't believe it would fit." Hanna said as Caleb laughed.
"I had to get you wet enough so I wouldn't hurt you." Caleb said as he started remembering that night as vividly as Hanna claimed.
"Oh you definitely got me wet enough. When you took off my thong you immediately went down on me and fingered me. I came twice." Hanna said. Caleb smiled.
"You did and that's when I was sure I was in love with you." Caleb said honestly.
"You knew you were in love with me because I came?" Hanna asks amused.
"No I knew I was in love with you the minute you gave yourself to me without hesitation, fear or because you wanted me before someone else could get you. You gave yourself to me willingly because you loved me and that night taught me the difference between meaningless sex and making love." Caleb said as he kept massaging Hanna's feet. Hanna moaned as he got to the ball of her feet and then laughed when he tickled it slightly. "Keep going Han." Caleb said.
"You moved on top of me then and began kissing me as you stayed between my legs. My legs hugged your waist and you held my right thigh slightly in your hand as you continued kissing me. You broke our kiss then and put on a condom. You told me to look at you and not what you were doing. I held the sides of you neck lightly after moving your hair out of your face. I could feel you moistening your tip in my wetness. My back arched when your tip entered me. You kissed my chin and told me to relax." Hanna said as Caleb stopped massaging her feet and just watched Hanna as she spoke.
"I let you go then . . ." Hanna says. Caleb smiles.
"You did. You started clenching the sleeping bag but I had to get you to relax so I grabbed your hand and interlocked our fingers above your hand before I kissed you slowly." Caleb said as Hanna smiled.
"You did. I stopped clenching and started to relax when you did that. Our hands stayed held above our head but my other hand rested on the side of your neck. You pushed fully into me then . . ."
"I had to or it would have hurt more. You moved your lips from mine and cried out. I watched you as you arched into me and your eyes opened wide at me being inside you. I stayed still until you could tell me if you were alright." Caleb said.
"I had to get used to your size and the pain. I couldn't tell you anything until the discomfort eased a little. When it did I told you I was ok and you . . ." Hanna said before being interrupted by Caleb again.
"Wiped your tears away before I kissed you and started moving slowly." Caleb said. Hanna smiled and nodded.
"You didn't start moving faster until I moaned. You moved your hand from mine, got on your knees and brought me with you. I held onto you tightly because you were deeper inside me and I couldn't handle it. I came then." Hanna said as Caleb looked at her remembering how Hanna's tightness and her climaxing threw him over the edge forcing him to climax as well.
"I fell forward with you under me. When I pulled out, holding onto the condom, I saw the blood. I told you . . ." Caleb said this time Hanna cut him off.
"You told me you were sorry and I told you not to be. I told you that everything that happened between us was perfect. I almost told you I loved you that night." Hanna said. Caleb smirked.
"You almost told me and I actually told you when you fell asleep." Caleb said. Hanna looked at him sitting up properly.
"What did I say?" Hanna asks.
"Nothing but you smiled in your sleep and held onto me tighter. I didn't want to let you go and I wished that the morning never came. I wished that Jenna never existed and it was just me and you. I fell asleep hoping that you never found out about Jenna." Caleb said.
"I did but look at all that happened after that and how close we became after that. You never told me something Caleb and I never asked." Hanna said as she sits criss cross on her sofa.
"What Han?" Caleb says as he looks at her.
"What was you first time like?" Hanna asked. For a minute Caleb looked through her before Hanna touched his neck. "You don't have to tell me." Caleb moves Hanna's hand from her neck and kisses her palm.
"I was actually impressed that you never asked. If I wasn't your first I probably would have asked you by now. How about you put on pants while I put on a shirt and we go to our house." Caleb says as Hanna looks at her clock.
"Caleb it's three in the morning."
"Yep and we are going to our house so get what you need Han. This conversation is only happening at our house." Caleb said. Hanna smiles as she shakes her head.
"As you wish Caleb Rivers." Hanna says as she gets up and walks upstairs. Caleb watches her and closes his eyes briefly. He knew Hanna needed to change her hours for tomorrow because their conversation would be long and it was definitely long overdo.