Hello my lovelies. I know, I know! It has been forever since I updated. College and life have been kicking my butt and with all the papers and essays I had to write I had to put this on hold. However, now I have an updated chapter for you. Thank you for your patience and I hope you enjoy. Please leave comments to let me know what you think. Later lovelies.
Hanna opened her store briefly, deactivated the alarm, put a sign in her window about the change of business hours before setting the alarm and locking up. She walked to Caleb's jeep and got in before sending a text message to Morgan letting her know what time the store will open and if she was ok with coming in later. If not Hanna knew Cecile wouldn't mind. They just talked about Cecile possibly getting more hours and Hanna was happy to oblige her.
Caleb watched Hanna text away before he smirked and drove to the house he bought for them. Hanna put her phone back in her pocket as she looked at Caleb and the tenseness she could see right under the surface. Something told Hanna Caleb's first time wasn't like her first time with him. If it was romantic, and loving, he would have told Hanna at the loft. Hanna knew that. Caleb wanting to go to the house meant that this story had pain surrounding it.
Caleb parks in the driveway, gets out and immediately grabs Hanna's bag before he walks to the front door and unlocks the door. Hanna follows him inside and closes the door behind them. She walks away but then returns to the door to lock it.
"We didn't stop at your apartment to get you clothes." Hanna says as she follows Caleb upstairs.
"I already have clothes here Han. The only person that doesn't is you." Caleb says slightly amused as he walks into their bedroom. Hanna rolls her eyes before immediately walking to the fireplace and turning it on.
"Is this why you chose this place? Because there is a fireplace in our bedroom?" Hanna asks as she takes off her jeans and wedged sneakers.
"Probably" Caleb says as he watched her.
"Do you have sheets or comforters here?" Hanna asks as she begins looking.
"Yes they're all in the guest room." Caleb says as he changes and then walks away to go get them. Caleb brings them inside the bedroom blind. Hanna laughs as she takes them from him and spreads them out in front of the fireplace. Hanna sits down and pats the spot beside her. Caleb sits beside her. Hanna looks at Caleb screws up her face before moving to sit in between his legs. Caleb laughs as he pulls her back into his chest wrapping his arms around her stomach. Hanna rested her hands on Caleb's hands encouraging him to speak. She had no intention of forcing him to say anything. Hanna knew, when he was ready, he would tell her.
"I lost my virginity at fourteen when I lived at one of the worst foster homes I've ever been to. They were abusive at that one. Remember when I told you Janet was better than other homes where drink, snap, slap was common? That foster home was a drink, snap, slap." Caleb said. Caleb's arms tighten around Hanna as they both look at the fire.
"Kids were being molested in that house. Sarah liked younger boys. I protected the younger ones and found ways for them to be removed before she could touch them. John, especially when he was drunk, liked teenage girls. When he was sober he never went near them but when he was drunk . . . he would do unspeakable shit. It was easier to get the boys out of that house but harder for me to get the girls out so I protected them. John beat with his fists, beer bottles and belts. I got glasses thrown at me and I nearly got strangled a few times protecting every female that entered that house. I couldn't help all of them and he did manage to have his way with a few by locking me in my room. Those girls, thankfully, weren't virgins. Not that it meant anything considering that they were still raped but none of them had to remember John as being their first." Caleb said sounding far off. Hanna couldn't imagine the hell Caleb described and she hated the fact that he had to endure so much pain to protect others.
"Were they ever found out?" Hanna asked softly.
"Yes and social services started to remove everyone from the house slowly. There was one girl though, a virgin, that they sent in as they were moving the others out. They didn't want Sarah and John to get suspicious so they had to send someone. They sent the wrong person Han. Her name was Emma. She had red hair and freckles. She was pretty but you could see her innocence when you looked at her. John wanted her from the moment he saw her and this time it wasn't while he was drunk. I knew I would die before I let him have her. She must have had a crush on me because wherever I went she was there. I woke up a couple of times with her in bed with me but I let it go. If she stayed in her bed John would have gotten her. Eventually she told me the other girls told her about John and what he does. She also told me if she had to lose her virginity to someone she wanted it to be me. We were the last two left in the house. My social worker was supposed to remove me the previous day but she didn't come through. I wasn't surprised. I was used to being disappointed by my social workers. I went to sleep that night and woke up when I heard my door open. Emma closed and locked the door behind her before she came to me."
"Were you attracted to Emma?" Hanna asked. Caleb thinks about Emma.
"There may have been some attraction but not much. None of the girls there I ever considered as a romantic interest. I honestly saw them as sisters who I had to protect but Emma didn't want that title. She wanted more." Caleb said.
"What happened." Hanna asked softly.
"She took off her clothes by the door and walked towards me. We kissed and she moved my sheet off of me to straddle my lap. I flipped her but I knew I couldn't get an erection with her if I didn't try so I had to jack off until I was hard enough."
"Who were you thinking about?" Hanna asked.
"Carmen Electra in a red swimsuit." Caleb said. Silence ensued between them before they both started laughing.
"Really Caleb out of all the celebrities in the world you thought about Carmen Electra." Hanna says amused Caleb shrugs before silence falls between them again.
"I got hard enough and took my pajama bottoms off fully before I wedged myself between her legs. I entered her slowly and she cried as did I. I was doing this for her but I didn't want to be inside a girl I had no interest in for my first time. But I had sex with Emma and I was her first like she was mine. I'm not sure if I was any good but when we were done she wasn't a virgin anymore and neither was I. She fell asleep beside me but I couldn't sleep. It took John two hours to find Emma not ever thinking she would be with me. He broke down my bedroom door and when he saw Emma naked beside me he lost it. I fought John that night. I definitely had broken ribs and two black eyes when we were done but Emma was smart enough to call 911. She told them everything about John and Sarah while I was taken to the hospital. John and Sarah were arrested."
"O my god Caleb." Hanna says sadly.
"Honestly Han when I think of my true first time there are no good memories surrounding it. I lost my virginity to a girl I wasn't interested in and then almost got beat to death because of it just to protect her. Not even times after that, when I slept with other girls, I enjoyed sex as much as I do now. Some of them were older which is why I got better but I didn't care about any of them. That is until I met you. You aggravated me when we first met Han but I still wanted you. I have never wanted a girl as much as I wanted you when I first saw you with Sean. Then you were so argumentative especially after I fixed Emily's phone. You told me something stupid then too. You told me that I didn't know the first thing about you even though you were pretty easy to read." Caleb said. Hanna always wanted to know what he meant by that statement. Hanna did feel that Caleb knew her pretty well but she didn't understand what his first assumption was.
"What did you read?" Hanna asked.
"That you were a sexually frustrated girl obsessed with fashion trying to fill the role of queen bitch when you were never that person. You cared about your friends, and them being taken for granted, too much to ever be considered queen bitch. I could see you were insecure but couldn't understand why. You were hot, you could dress your ass off and the way you acted made people want to hate you but still be just like you. Then I realized that person who you made yourself into wasn't who you were. I was nobody to you other than this sketchy kid who could hack and fix phones so they were better. I did one favor for you which you paid back but you still invited me to stay at your house. That threw me Han. That also made me think that maybe there was a lot more to you then what I could first see." Caleb said. Hanna turns briefly in his arms to look at his face. Caleb's eyes meet Hanna's as she touches his cheek.
"I'm sorry your first time wasn't with someone you loved." Hanna says. Caleb smiled.
"But yours was Han and the love you gave me all those years was worth it for me to have you. I wouldn't change anything if that meant never meeting you." Caleb said.
"I don't know Caleb. You wouldn't change being beaten by belts and bottles and being almost beaten to death?" Hanna said.
"Not if it meant I would never be with you." Caleb said as his lips find Hanna's. Hanna smiles into their kiss as she turns her body fully so her arms could circle Caleb's neck. Caleb moved them so he could be on top of her and wedged between her legs.
Hanna moves her lips from Caleb's and looks at him.
"I'm happy I made it better." Hanna says as her hand rests on Caleb's neck. Caleb looks into Hanna's blue eyes and smiles.
"You're my light Han. Never forget that." Caleb says. Hanna's smile widens.
"That's an awesome title. Caleb's light." Hanna says as she briefly looks at the ceiling before looking back at Caleb. Caleb looks at Hanna before laughing and kissing her again.
"So when are you going to furnish this place?" Caleb asks. Hanna kisses him again.
"This week." Hanna said before looking around the dimly lit master bedroom. "Matter of fact I need another tour." Hanna said.
"I can definitely oblige that Han." Caleb said before getting off of Hanna and then pulling her up.
Hanna looked at Caleb beside her as they flew to California. She crossed her legs and leaned into him as she ran her finger down the bridge of his nose. Caleb opens his eyes before looking at her.
"You always do that" Caleb says amused even though he was exhausted.
"How do you know I always do that if you're supposed to be asleep?" Hanna says as Caleb laughs.
"Who says I'm always asleep?" Caleb said. Hanna thought about that and smirked.
"Valid point. Are you still driving to see Claudia while I'm visiting my clients?" Hanna asks.
"Only for a day Han. I already let you talk me into seeing her before I'm ready. Don't push me farther." Caleb said. Hanna raises her hands. Hanna still didn't like Claudia but the woman must have been desperate when she called Hanna of all people to ask about Caleb. Hanna gave her limited information and since she knew she had to go to California to rework Jordan and Liz's closets Caleb could come as well. Hanna also needed to add more suits to Miranda's wardrobe. Did Hanna mention she was still helping with her client, Anita's, wedding. Hanna actually had good news to tell her like the fact she finally found a venue which she needed to run past her. Hanna was definitely busy but she was happy that Caleb could come with her. She also made sure Jordan didn't pay for her stay this time. Caleb wanted to so she let him but she did rent the car they would need. For the most part Hanna knew Jordan's driver would take her to his house and Liz's house but she would need a car to go to Miranda's and Anita's.
Jordan looked out his office window as he thought about his brother. Tristan had been very quiet and a quiet Tristan created a nervous Jordan. He knew what his brother was capable of and he had a feeling that Trista ensuring Hanna was his meant that Caleb was in danger. Jordan wasn't sure he wanted to be the cause of Hanna's pain. Frankly, anything happening to Caleb would cause Hanna's pain. No, Jordan wouldn't be the cause of Hanna hurting. He would rather be alone, knowing that she was happy, then forcing her into a situation she didn't deserve. Jordan walks to his phone ready to call Tristan when his phone rings. Jordan's hand still on the phone before he picks it up.
"Jordan . . . it's been awhile." Tristan says on the line.
"It has . . . look Tristan. I've changed my mind. I don't want Hanna anymore." Tristan laughs.
"That isn't true little brother. I know you want Hanna still but what has changed your mind."
"Hurting Caleb is hurting her and I don't want that to happen. I lo . . ."
"Yes I know. You love her. But things have already been put into motion that I have no intention of reversing. So you should either deal with the benefits or leave Hanna alone."
"I'm going to tell her the truth." Tristan pauses before he laughs.
"Go ahead but if you do before my plan for Rivers comes to completion I'll kill Hanna myself and she truly is one of my favorites." Tristan says before hanging up. Jordan grasps the receiver tightly in his hand before hanging up.
"What the fuck have I done?" Jordan says softly to himself.
Hanna showers, dries off and then lays on the bed. Caleb had already left but Hanna was still sore from their last lovemaking session in the living room before he left. She hoped he would be alright but she also knew that last meeting between him and Claudia truly strained their relationship.
"Hopefully they'll be able to work it out." Hanna says as she turns to her side and falls asleep.
Caleb continued his drive but nothing could keep the smile off of his face. Those last couple of hours with Hanna gave him exactly what he needed to deal with Claudia for the next three days. He missed Hanna already but he understood why he needed to talk to Claudia. Her calling Hanna was epic since Claudia made it quite clear how she felt about Hanna during their last minute.
"Maybe now she would change her mind." Caleb said to himself before turning when he saw the sign that said Montecito. Caleb turned up his music as he continued the drive to his mother's house. He knew this drive well. He had done it too many times to count.
Claudia was happy to have spent so much time with her son. She may not have fully warmed up to Hanna but she appreciated her more than she could ever know.
"Thank you Liza" Claudia says as Liza brings out a tray filled with breakfast items to the terrace where Claudia and Caleb sat. Caleb read the paper with a peaceful look on his face while Claudia smiled at him. The other men in her life went on a father son trip to Seattle. Why anyone wanted to go to Seattle Claudia didn't know but she remembered her husband saying something about fishing. She never pushed him on it.
"I'm happy you came Caleb." Claudia says as she hands Caleb his cup of coffee.
"I'm happy too mom and I know you're not fully sold on Hanna but know and understand that she is it for me. She will always do whatever she needs to do to keep me safe and I will do the same for her." Caleb says before their interrupted by Liza's scream and then Liza running out towards them.
"Mrs. Dawson . . . these men." Liza says before she is pushed out of the way as they continue walking towards Caleb. They stand near the table as Claudia face turns pale.
"We are here for him, come with me Mr. Rivers or I will use force." He tall and muscled built man says. He smiles and Caleb's jaws clench as his eyes narrow.
"What is this about?" Caleb asked no inflection in his voice.
"This is about someone you crossed long ago and he is here to collect something that is his." The man beside him with the scar on his cheek states.
"I don't owe anyone anything . . ." The rest of Caleb's words get trapped in his throat at the force of the punch to his abdomen.
"CALEB!" Claudia screams as she tries to get to her son but a third man appears.
"That won't be necessary Mrs. Dawson. We came to get one person and now we will be on our way." He says forcing Claudia to sit down. Caleb situates himself and stands tall before he looks at Claudia.
"Call Hanna mom and if she doesn't answer call Spencer and Toby and tell them what happened. Don't leave out anything." Caleb said before he feels an electric shock up his spine and the grass meets his face. The last thing Caleb heard before he felt the shocks two more times was his mother crying. The last person he thought about before he blacked out was Hanna.