After the drink she kept staring at the glass. Jay almost could read the memories passing through her head, she was miles away now. For Jay, Erin's past was a big interrogation point. He knew she had a lot of baggage and so did he, but sometimes he felt like she thought he would never get it, what she's been through and that's the reason that she doesn't talk to him about it.

He reached for her hand and gave her a gentle squeeze, she raised her head and looked at him. Her eyes were filled with tears, he took his thumb to her face to catch a tear that was falling.

"We don't have to talk about this, and sorry for making you relive this hard memory." He said in a low and soft tone. She could hear regret in his voice. Nodding in agreement she keep quiet for a little longer, when she finally spoke her voice sounded sore. "It's OK I want to be able to talk to you about my shifty past, but sometimes it's to damn hard and… I really never had anyone in my life that…". She became mute and started to role the glass around.

Jay gave her time, he knew how it was. He knew that he too owes her some stories about his past and he knew how hard it was to talk about them with anyone. The past cases unfortunately make him travel back to the army days, even Mouse wanted to talk to him about it. Mouse knew him too well and knew that some situations could wake his buried fears but these days he was feeling so good with Erin that he didn't want to go back to that place, those memories, those fears. He looked at her and could see that she was trying to get it out, he just squeezed her hand again, grabbed her chin with the other hand and make her look him in his eyes."It's ok, we don't..."

But she cut him off. "No, I can tell you. I was telling you that I never had someone in my life that I could trust enough to show how I really was in the past, other than Voight of course. The guys that I had been with are like… If I tell something like that I'm sure that they run away the next minute. What I mean is…"

"Hey you guys!" Will said, putting his arms around the shoulders of the two off them.

Jay just looked at his brother with a killer look that made Will back off a little. Erin smiled at Jay trying to calm him down. "Perfect timing. So what's up with you?" Erin asked gently, disguising her discomfort.

"Sorry, did I interrupt something?" Will asked.

"It's ok we can finish latter, can't we Jay?" Erin said, putting her hand on Jay's leg. Jay looked at her, all smiles and he suddenly felt better, she seems happy so... They could have this conversation any time now. He gave a handshake to Will. "Aren't you supposed to be working?"

"No I caught a double shift because Nat was feeling to tired so I covered for her. I'm off finally."

"Hum you covered for her?" Jay teased him. "You mean you two spent the night together, wore her out and than you had to go to work for her…"

Will just looked at Erin and smiled shyly. "That would be a wonderful thought, too explicit for me because Erin is here and I don't kiss and tell because I'm a gentleman and not a dog like you." Jay opened his mouth to protest but Will cut him off. "But we don't have anything going on really, just friends."

Erin just sat there listen the two brothers teasing each other, with a smile on her face, those two managed to get her from that strange dream of the past that she was on.

Jay laid his head to the side and said. "And what about the kiss? You said you would talk to her, didn't you?"

"Yes I did and she said that she needed me but that she wasn't in that place yet so I'm here for her… waiting." Will said.

"Man she got you, you are hooked, really bad." Jay said with a smirk. He offered Will a beer and toasted with him.

"It's ok, you got hooked too and that seems to be making you really happy, so." Will said and looked at Erin winking the eye at her.

"Thank you Will!" Jay just said and looked at his bottle. What was he afraid of? Erin knew how he felt about her, he shouldn't hide.

"You know what? Yes I'm hooked and I'm in love so what? I'm happy, she seems happy too." Jay added looking at Erin. She got a little flushed and looked at her glass again. "I'm no dog as you said so nothing to hide here. Hope you and Nat get on the same page soon, you two seem good for each other. There. I said it." And he grabbed Erin's hand and kissed the back of it.

A big smile spread across Will's face and he toasted with Jay again. "Well my brother, you really look happy I can't deny that. And you know that I'm happy for you too. But when I get here it seems that I interrupted something so I let you two alone." Will said trying to leave them alone.

"Hey don't leave because of us." Erin said smiling still holding Jay's hand without noticing that.

"No it's ok, I should head home anyway. I'm beat and should get some sleep, but after a double shift I always feel too awake to sleep, that's why I came by, just to grab a beer and chill until the weariness take over me." He said goodbye to Erin and gave Jay a hug and went to say hi to some friends on the other side of Molly's.

Erin looked at Jay still holding his hand and said. "Maybe we should go home too. What you think?"

"Yeah you seem tired and it was a hard day for you, we should go. But we got two cars again." Jay said with a grin.

"No we don't…"She said grinning back to him.

"No? How did you come here then?" Jay asked, curious.

"If you weren't in such a big hurry I would have come with you. But you left the district almost running from me." She said in a questioning tone.

"I… I left to prepare you dinner, like a surprise but then you text me to meet you here that you had something to do with Kim… so I ate some take out and came here instead."

"Oh so cute you were going to make a surprise…" Erin used the mocking tone in her voice but she was flattered by his intentions. "Yeah I figure that you needed some cheering up because of today's madness but then…"

"The intention was good and I came with Kim because she needed me to pass by her house, and then she left me here, so just your car. Can we go now?" Erin asked.

Jay nodded and got up. "How much do I own you Herman?"

"No sweat it is on Dr. Rhodes' tap." Herman informed them.

Jay smiled at Herman and said good night. He helped Erin with her jacket and they left the bar, heading to the car. He drove them home almost in silence, the conversation from earlier was weighing on them and he was sure that she was thinking about his love declaration too. But he would understand if she didn't want to talk more about the shelter and he would not pressure her about it. She would talk when she needed it.

Like always they crashed on the couch and she put her legs on his lap. "So about our talk…"

Jay looked at her, she really seems tired. "It's ok Erin you don't need to talk about that anymore if you don't want."

"I just want to say that I heard what you said to your brother and I… I just want to be able to talk to you about all the stuff that hurt me in the past and that makes me close up in my shell sometimes and for the first time I feel safe about exposing me like that to someone. You make me fell safe and don't judge me for my past and that is the best thing that you can do for me right now and…" She sat up on the couch, taking her legs off his lap and got close to him.

He reached for a strand of her hair and put it behind her ear. With his thumb he drew a path across her face from her eyebrow to the corner of her mouth but she grabbed his hand, "For a while I thought that we were never going to get back to the trust that we had in each other before I left but I think today we are better than we have ever been. You and me… We are good Jay. And you can talk to me about all that you had to do and see in the war when you need and when you want."

"Yes we are Erin, we are good together and we are good for each other and I have my demons too. You know that and when I'm ready I will share them with you." He grabbed her face with both of his hands and kisses her deeply. She opened her mouth to allowed his tongue to get in and two minutes later they were in the bedroom, naked, their clothes on the ground marking they path to the bed.

"Can you please get me a bottle of water from the fridge?" She asked awhile later.

He got up and go get the water, picking up their clothes from the ground on the way. He came back to the room in boxers and threw her the water. He started to fold the clothes and put them on the dresser.

"Give me that shirt." She demanded.

"Yours?"

"No yours." She said with a smirk.

"Why do you want my shirt?" Jay asked, raising his eyebrow.

"To sleep in."

"Why? This is a good shirt." He said in disagreement and kept folding the shirt.

"Yes but it has your scent on it so… Give me, it's comfy." She added shyly.

"Erin I'm sleeping next to you, you don't need more of my scent." Jay said a bit lost.

"Yes I do and don't be mean." She said, grabbing the shirt form his hands and putting it on. He just shook his head and tried to find some sweat pants for sleeping in, from the dresser. He lay in bed and hugged her from behind, she was already sleepy all wrapped up in a shell form like she usually slept. He kissed the back off her head. "Good night babe."

She just mumbled something in her sleep and intertwined her fingers with his. He could feel her body relaxing from all the tension of the day and with that feeling of relief he fell asleep too.

Erin woke up in the middle of the night, she was dreaming about the time that she was in the shelter. Siting up on the bed she ran her hands through her hair. She looked to her side and saw him lying on his back sleeping quietly. She drank some water and lay down again and putting her head on his chest, hugging his body and tangling her leg with his. She stayed like this for a minute or two just listening to his heart beat. That was what she needed. His strong heart beat always calmed her down. She could stay like this forever.

She placed a kiss on his cheek and whispered, "And I'm in love with you too, you dummy."