He tried her phone again but she didn't answer and suddenly he had a "deja vu" sensation and Erin shutting down and hiding from him and all the "sabbatical time" that she took came to his mind. His heart started to race and he knew that he needed to find her. He would not let her dig that hole again.

"Hi, Antonio? I have to leave man. Can you cover for me?"

"Yeah, of course, it's nothing here any way you can go. But what's up?"

Jay hesitated between tell him or not but he ended up confessing his concerns. "Erin is not picking up and all of this with Justin... they were like siblings and now if Voight did something... you know... wrong... I'm already seeing Erin running again and... well I think I have to go..."

"Go, man. It's ok here."

Jay nodded in agreement and turned his back on the team. When he was almost at the door Al reached for him. "Hey man if you need something... some help just call me ok?"

Jay looked at Al and thought how this man had a big heart. He put a hand on Al's shoulder and thank him for his gesture. "Thank you, man! Really!"

He drove to Erin's house without noticing the time it took or the route that he followed, basically, he drove in auto pilot mode. He was just picturing scenarios that he didn't want to picture. He remembered how he felt when she started to shut him down and it was not a good sensation. He could not lose her again and not like this.

Jay got to her apartment at an almost nonhuman speed and as he always did, knocked first.

She heard the knock on the door but she didn't even bother to get up from the bed. She felt overwhelmed and completely broken. She didn't know what to do, what to feel or what to think. How things were going to go from here was her main thought. Hank had killed that guy. What know? What about their unit, the unit that was her family, what about now? She was completely lost. When she heard the shot something broke inside her. Hank's position on the force was gone that's for sure.

She heard the knock again and then she heard the door opening and him calling her name.

"Erin? Are you home?"

She heard him dropping his keys on the kitchen counter and his footsteps through the room. She felt conflicted. She really needed him, needed his hug, his touch, and his presence. But she didn't want him to see her like this, totally broken and devastated. She had been crying for she didn't know how long and her face must be a mess.

She heard him enter the room trying to not make noise.

"Erin? Are you ok?"

All he heard was her sobs. He noticed that she closed herself more in a fetal position. He stayed there thinking what to do. Should he go to her or should he leave her alone? He couldn't leave her like that crying alone in the dark.

Carefully he sat on the bed and waited for her reaction. She didn't move but the sobs kept going. A while later he lay next to her. He felt her reaction. She adjusted her position and lay her body closer to him. He put his arms around her hugging her from behind. Her hands looked for his hands, intertwining their fingers. Her sobs started to calm down. Minutes later he noticed that her breathing was calm and quiet. She fell asleep. Apparently, he managed to calm her down.

He heard his phone ringing in the living room and fought with himself about getting up from the bed or not. Eventually, he decided to get up. When he got to the living room the ringing had stopped and he picked it up the phone to check who it was and when he saw Antonio's name on the caller ID. He returned the call.

Antonio picked up on the first ring. "Hey, man so how is she?"

"Finally asleep"

"What did she tell you?"

"Nothing really and I didn't ask either. She was completely devastated and I didn't have the courage to ask her anything."

"Do you think he killed him?"

"Oh man, I really don't know. I think yes. I have been fighting with myself about if I would do it or not if it was me. It's hard man."

"You know that he protected us right? By telling me to stay in the precinct when you were after the half-brother and when he sent us to the wrong address. We are off the hook. But if he killed him… well, he just ruined his life."

"What do you think will happen with the unit?"

"Who knows… Let's just sleep and tomorrow we will try to find out what to do. Take care of Erin… See you, man."

"Yeah see you tomorrow!"

He went back to the bedroom and lay on the bed next to her again. But she was awake and moved herself to sit on the bed. She rearranged her hair making a ponytail, rubbed her face and asked him. "Who was it on the phone?"

"Antonio."

She nodded. "And?"

Jay picked a tress of her hair that had fallen from the ponytail and arranged it behind her ear. She could read his concern for her written on his face. "He just wanted to know how you were."

"What did you tell him?"

"I just told him that you were asleep."

She laid down again covering her eyes with her hands. "What's going to happen now, Jay? What about the unit?"

Jay turned his face to the wall, he couldn't face her. He really didn't know how he felt right now. He was mad at Voight but he couldn't say that he thought that Voight was wrong. He felt very conflicted with all this and didn't really know how to face Erin in all of this. "Did you know what happened? Did he do it?" He asked.

She sat on the bed rubbing her face again. "I assume he did. I heard a shot so..."

Jay kept quiet and passed his index finger across his forehead like he usually did when he is preoccupied.

"Don't judge him, Jay!" She said, snapping on him.

"Hey I'm not judging ok, I'm just... I spend all this case putting myself in his shoes and... I really don't know what I would have done if it was with me and... I don't know Erin... you know that I don't agree with his methods..."

"That guy left his son, my foster brother, to die in that trunk Jay!" She said almost yelling and cutting him off.

He grabbed her hand. "Erin calm down you didn't let me finish... I was saying that I usually don't agree with his methods and these days were crazy, we definitely crossed all the barriers that we could cross but it was his son. I get it... I don't approve but I get it. That's why I was with him every step of the way, at least every step that he let us be with him."

They both stayed in silence for a while. They both felt lost now. Hank Voight was the commander of their ship and now they lost him for sure. They didn't know if they even have a ship anymore.

She finally broke off their awkward silence. "What did Antonio say about all this mess?"

"He didn't know if Voight had killed the guy or not and he said that Voight had protected us from all of this by sending us to the wrong address so we are all off the hook about this situation."

"Maybe he could take the lead of the unit now?"

He looked at her. She looked a little more relaxed now. "Yeah maybe... We should get some sleep don't you think? Tomorrow we will try to figure out what to do. Maybe we should talk to Al, he is always wise in these situations."

She nodded in agreement and lay on the bed.

"Don't you prefer to change into something more comfortable than jeans?" He asked to remind her that she was still in her street clothes and boots on the bed.

"You are right." She said getting up and picking up some sweat pants, then she opened the drawer that was designated for his clothes and picked one of his police academy t-shirts. He had gone to the bathroom during her process of picking and changing clothes and when he came back he noticed her choice.

"Is there a special reason for that t-shirt?" He asked with a grin on his face.

"I like it... it's cozy." She said smiling and turned her head to the side.

"Ok if it makes you feel good, you can use it all the time." He said hugging her and kissing the top of her head. "Let's go to sleep?"

"Yes, I really need to rest. Tomorrow I need to try to see Hank... He... I'm the only... Justin was like my brother, I grew up with him, we took care of each other...He already lost so much Jay," She said starting to cry again.

He sat her on the bed and hugged her. "Shhh Shhh... It's ok Erin we will figure this out. We will be here for him. He still has you and his grandson. We will get through this. He will get through this."

"You know Justin never... he never was bad to me even if sometimes Hank was not fair to him about me. He never turned me down, he always defended me. I know he put Hank through a lot and he was on the wrong path for a while but he was such a good kid... he had a big heart Jay you didn't know him like I did and... he covered for me so much... we hid a lot from Hank and made Camile's life a living hell sometimes but he... oh Jay he was always good for me and he was a good son too..."

"I believe in you, Erin... I do and I feel your and Voight's lost. I just... I can't imagine what is like... " He shook his head trying to clear it because it was too painful to imagine losing someone like that, his brother for example, so he cleared his dark thoughts. "I'm here for you ok. Don't run this time..."

She just nodded and laid down on the bed and waited for him to lay down close to her and once back in his embrace she cried until she fell asleep.

Suddenly she woke up and sat on the bed. "Olive... Jay, I forgot about Olive!" She tried to get up but he stopped her. "It's taken care of Erin. Al called Sargent Platt to be with her at Voight."

"This unit really is a family..." She said more to herself than for him to her. "And Hank probably found a way to ruin it..."

"What do you mean?" Jay looked at her already knowing what she was talking about.

"If he really killed that scumbag... our unit... I really don't know what the Ivy tower is going to do with us..."

They both laid on the bed again hugging each other and thinking about what's next to come until they fell asleep.