Erin was walking around the kitchen as Jay made the call for take out. When he finished her complicated request, he smiled at her. "You always find ways to embarrass me!"

She widened her eyes and asked surprised. "Why?"

"With your way to complicate food requests."

"Pussy! It is just a simple request," she says shrinking.

"Watch it!" Jays reacted at the "pussy" comment and tried to grab her to kiss her neck. She tried to run from him and he noticed that she was not quiet as relaxed like she was supposed to be after their conversation early. He tilted her chin up making her look at him. "Hey! I thought we were good about this! What's wrong? Are there more things that bother you?"

She smiled and kissed him softly. "No, nothing is bothering me. I'm actually and surprisingly very happy and comfortable with this. Like I said."

Erin was feeling a little overwhelmed with all, she had to confess. But too, like she had said out loud, she was surprisingly comfortable and happy and totally relaxed about this new situation. All this was new but good new, not bad new and for the first time in a long, long time Erin felt comfortable with new. The security that Jay gave her was something that she felt with Hank, but in a father way, not in a partner for life way. She was for sure ready to share her life with this man, for many years, even more than the twenty that he mentioned early. When those words came out of his mouth she felt a shiver down the length of her spine. But it was not a bad thing, it was good, like she was thrilled for him to think of them like that, it was sweet and pleasant. And using his words, she could not be happier. He managed to bring her out of her thoughts by caressing her hair.

"So, what's in your head?" Jay asked.

"Did you mention something about my extra shifts to Ruzek?"

"What? No! Why?" He asked, furrowing his brow.

"Well Ruzek was teasing me about avoiding coming home to you, now that we live together." She finally revealed after a brief silence.

Jay shook his head and smiled at her. "Erin look... Ruzek doesn't really have a clue of what I think or what I feel and trust me I don't share this kind of thought with him or Kevin what so ever because they will be on my ass all the time if they knew and because this is our private life." He caressed her hair and kissed her forehead. "I for sure prefer that you come home to me after work. But I do understand that you want to pay the mortgage quickly, so no problem for me on that matter. Also remember that now we are two paying the mortgage so don't stress to much about money problems, Ok? It's our house now, our responsibility, right?"

She kept her gaze on his eyes. He for sure looked happy, and that bring her a good felling. She was kind of amazed how she was so comfortable about this, but she was and this was good and she hugged him tight feeling all of him, his well-trained body, his muscles, his heart beat, his breath, all of him. "I love you!"

He untwined the hug and looked straight in her eyes. "I love you too, very much! And I'm amazed how we got here!"

She laughed slightly like she usually did which made him smirk in return. She confessed. "Yeah me too!"

The bell rung and the food was there.

"Oh good, finally the food is here. I'm starving!" She said, going to open the door.

He laughed and went after her with the money. "Babe you're always starving!"

She punched him in the arm which made the delivery guy giggle at them. They payed him. "I'm sorry for my girlfriend's behavior, she is a bit violent when she's hungry." And with that she punch him again.

They were both in the bathroom brushing their teeth. Both teasing each other about the time of the task.

"You should brush for more time!" Erin said, between her action.

Jay was already washing his mouth and said. "I count to fifty and I think it's enough!"

"No, it's not" Erin teased.

He grabbed her chin and kissed her, first soft than deeply. When they separated she smiled. "Don't they feel clean to you?" he asked.

She didn't answer, just kissed him back quickly and came back to the room, directly to the closet and took all her pillows out.

She arranged them near her side of the bed and lay down on the two that she used for her head.

He saw and didn't comment but when he finally lay next to her, he supported himself on his elbow and asked. "Tell me something?"

She looked at him smiling already expecting some teasing about this subject. "What Jay?" She asked, condescending.

"We sleep together for how long? One year probably?" He asked.

"Yeah more or less." She said surprised that the pillows were out of the conversation. But they were not after all, because then he asked. "Why didn't you ever talk about or use these pillows before? I mean... We were in this same bedroom most of the time so..."

She shrugged and struggled to talk. "Well ... it's something very private and kind of silly. But I slept alone most of my life and I feel comfortable with the pillows so... I was shy basically."

"Off me?" He asked, almost offend by her words.

She shook her head. "I know it's silly but... I don't know maybe it was "the wall", you know, that I build around my self." She said using her hands to express the quote mark as she said wall. Shrugging she turned her gaze away from him.

He lifted her chin again and said in a soft tone. "No more wall ok? I'm here, we are here, this is good, we are fine and when something is up we just talk about it. I know I have my walls too but I promise that I'm letting my guard down."

She nodded and hugged him, whispering in his hear. "I feel so lucky for having you in my life."

He tightened the hug. "I'm the lucky one here Erin!"

This statement made her feel butterflies. When she was younger this kind of stuff made her laugh. For her these butterflies in the stomach and day dreaming about a guy was like something that would never happen to her. She had closed herself to that and now here she was saying "I love you" and all out loud like this. Erin knew she was in love with Jay for awhile now. She could even remember the day she realized that it was done deal.

They had slept together at his apartment but they took separate cars for work. On the way to work they were called out so they meet at the location. Erin saw him parking and leaving the car. The grin that he had in his face made her heart melt. He for sure was awesome and happy. Hank presented the case and distributed assignments, but out of the blue the perp came out of no where, driving a drift car and ran Jay over. She felt her heart shrivel and the panic took over her body. Seconds later he was up and apparently fine because he had jumped before the car caught him and they all entered their cars and chased the guy. She almost forgot how afraid of losing him she got when all that happen. It was just at the end of the day when she was heading back to his apartment that she realized that what she felt as much as it was concerned for her partner, was definitely something more. It took her a while to recognize what it was but that night they had one of their most passionate sex and the reason was she was in love. She knew it and she finally had given all she had to him. Even if she never told him this, Erin knew that he noticed the change and that he knew it too.

After a brief moment of silence and still hugging she thought if they were being honest maybe she should say it all. "So, twenty years?"

He laughed against her neck making her shiver. Kissing her forehead, he asked. "Did I scare you?"

"No, just never thought in those terms." She answered shyly. "Well I actually got surprise because that thought make me feel good and didn't scared me, and this is the most honest I can be."

He giggled at her words. This was amazing. "Well it's good that we are on the same page then."

"Do you think we will still be together in twenty years?" She asked seriously.

"Don't you want that?" He asked her back.

She stayed in silence for a moment making him reach for her hand. "Erin?"

Erin stared at him and finally spoke. "Yeah I want that. That it's really a good thought."

He smiled. "Ok then, so let's get some sleep."

She nodded in agreement and lay close to him cuddling in their strange spoon position, making him ask. "So, no pillows today then?" Although he had already seen the pillows pile on the ground on her side of the bed.

"Let me just feel you close to me first." She answered in her husky tone. He kissed the back of her head and smirked. "Good night babe!"

"Good night!" She whispered, already sleepy.