Chapter 3

"Ciara, wh- what are you doing here," Ben stammered and then closed the door.

Ciara walked toward Ben and placed her hands on his chest. "I came here to be with you Ben. I know you care about me and I know you want to be with me too. I'm not going to let you throw this away when we were just starting to make sense of what is going on between us." Ciara wrapped her arms around Ben as tightly as she could and pressed her forehead against his chest.

Ben couldn't believe that Ciara had come to him. He thought for sure that he would never see her again. It had broken his heart to leave her the first time, he didn't know if he had enough strength to do it again. As a reflex he wrapped his arms around her waist and sighed.

"You're right Ciara, I do care about you. I do want to be with you…but I'm not good for you. There is a darkness in me, and it scares me. Because of it I almost killed my sister and I love her. What if I were to one day do the same to you? I would never forgive myself for hurting you. I just want what is best for you."

Ciara huffed and pushed away from Ben. "I am so sick of people telling me what is best for me. I am an adult, and I think that I am perfectly capable of making my own choices and deciding what is best for me," Ciara stated and started to pace the room. This was not going the way she had been hoping; she thought Ben wanted her in his life.

"I know that you are," Ben said. God she was feisty. That was one of the many things that he loved about her.

Ciara walked back over to Ben and took one of his hands and placed it against her heart. "Ben, I need you to look me in the eye and tell me that you honestly don't want me in your life. Tell me that you don't want to touch me and kiss me." Ciara took a finger to lift Ben's chin so that he would lift his head from looking at their clasped hands. "Look me in the eye and tell me that you don't think about the two of us making love when you are lying alone in that bed, and I will walk out of this room and you will never have to see me again."

Ben quickly crushed his lips against Ciara's kissing her with everything that he had to give. He couldn't look into those gorgeous green eyes and lie. He would rather die than lie to her or break her heart. He ran his tongue along her bottom lip before using it to explore the inside of her mouth. He kissed her cheek and down her neck breathing in her scent while doing so. "I can't tell you that I don't want you in my life and I can't tell that I don't want to touch you or kiss you. I promised you that I would never lie to you and I would be lying if I said I didn't want those things," Ben admitted.

Ciara smiled relishing the feel of his lips against her skin. The stubble from his five o'clock shadow was sending what felt like sparks of electricity down her spine. She ran her fingers through his thick dark hair, pulling his head closer to her. "What about the last part?" Ciara questioned.

"Hmmm…" Ben said.

"What about the last part?" Ciara repeated.

Ben lifted his head from Ciara's neck and grinned, "I thought that was obvious…" Ben kissed her forehead and each of her eyelids. "Yeah, I think about us making love together. I think about it all the time," Ben stated cupping her breasts in his hands and then running them down her sides to rest at her hips. "I think about ridding you of all of your clothes and then kissing and tasting every inch of your body. I think about burying myself so deep inside of you that you couldn't tell where I end and you begin," Ben confessed."

"I want that too Ben, I want that so much," Ciara said, rising up on her toes to scatter kisses along his jaw. "Ben, I want you to make love to me right now," Ciara sighed.

Ben pulled Ciara flush against his body. "Are you sure, Ciara?"

Ciara could feel Ben's manhood pressing into her abdomen through his jeans. Ciara took her hands and placed one on each side of his face, looking deeply into his eyes. "I'm sure Ben. I want this, I want you more than I've wanted anything. Ben, please, make love to me," Ciara begged.

Ben gently shoved Ciara against the wall and thrust his hips against hers. "That's good, because I want that too," Ben said before crushing his lips to hers again.