Sorry its been a while guys! I've been so so busy. But I have not forgotten about this. I promise.

As the movie plays James and I become closer and closer. He is leaning back against the wall with his arm wrapped around my shoulder and my head resting on his chest. I close my eyes and listen to the beating of his heart. I smile as the movie reaches a particularly suspenseful part and his heart quickens. I close my eyes just focusing on this moment. Does this count as me making a move? Probably not since he is the one who put his arm around me first. But I didn't ignore him. I leaned into him. Encouraging him.

A thought crosses my mind and I move my hand from its spot on the mattress between us and rest it on his stomach. I freeze for a moment and when he doesn't do anything, I gently run it up to his chest and rest it there. I glance at the movie, taking a moment to pay attention to a girl trying to escape a man who wants to kidnap her.

I push myself up slightly so that I am looking at James. I stare right into his hazel eyes, pupils blown from being in the dark room. I scan his face, and he does the same. I stare at his lips, taking in how pink they are and how they are slightly parted. I feel him lean in slightly and my eyes go back to his. My heart is pounding and my breath is stuck in my throat. I want him so bad. For a moment Logan and Carlos flash through my mind. I don't know how much control I will have once I kiss him. This has been building up for so long.

I broken out of my thoughts when James whispers, his breath hitting my lips, "Are you sure?"

I look at his lips again before I nod. That was all he needed. His lips are on mine in a flash and I feel as though I was hit by a truck with the force he puts into it. I bring my hand to his cheek trying to hold him close. He must have the same idea as he slinks his arm around my waist pulling me into his chest more, and I'm practically on top of him. The taste of him is nothing that I thought it would be. It's sweet, but a sweet I can't even begin to describe.

I pull back to catch my breath but it's shortly taken away again when he leans forward this time bringing his lips back to mine. This time its slightly more gentle and all I focus on is how his lips feel agains mine. Soft, though I can feel that they are slightly chapped. I then feel his hand wrap around my hip. Pulling me closer, and his body hovering over mine. I feel myself falling until I'm on my back and his body pushed against mine. He pushes his hips into mine and I let out a moan.

"Kendall!"

James leaps off of me to the other side of the bed and even through my embarrassment I miss his body against mine immediately. The cold able to get to me. I stare at Carlos wide eyed not even sure what to say. What can I say? Sorry I forgot you were there I got caught up in the moment? No. That's not right. So I just stick with a simple "What?"

"Don't what me. Have a little respect." He turns back towards the movie. Logan rolls his eyes first before turning back as well and Carlos rests his head on Logan's shoulder.

James leans back against the wall and I curl up next to him. I get the courage to look up at James and all he does is smile back down at me before pulling me closer. I will my body to call down so I can focus on the rest of the movie. Though, it's hard to do when your mind is racing 100 miles per hour.

IT WILL PASS

That night after a few hours of video games and ordering take out Chinese, that I choked down, we headed back to Carlos'.

"God damn it Carlos." I yelled as I slammed the door to his room.

He sighs and turns around, "What? You got him to kiss you! That's awesome. More than what I got."

"Yeah, but…what..ugh!" I stammer trying to find the right words. He stares at me and raises a brow waiting for me to get my shit together. "Carlos, am I easy?"

His eye brows shoot up in a look of disbelief. He shakes his head and turns to turn on the TV and takes off his shirt, "I don't know, I've never tried."

I feel a little anger swell in my chest, now is not a time for joking! "Well, your so incredibly helpful."

He grabs the remote to the TV and begins flipping through channels looking for something to watch, "Kendall, I'm not joking. I haven't ever tried. Though, I will say that your not a slut because you don't throw yourself at everything that moves." He sets the remote down on the bedside table when he lands on the hockey game and turns towards me, "Does that help."

I flop down on his bed, "Yeah, I guess."

He squeezes on the bed with me and I scoot over until i'm almost against the wall. I'm on my back with my ankles crossed and he is on his stomach, supporting himself on his elbows. He gives me a big smile, "So, how was it?"

A smile comes to my face as I think about the kiss James and I shared, "It was amazing!" I remember the way his lips fit with mine. The way he pushed against me and took my breath away.

I look back at him pushing the thoughts away before I started to get turned on. He wore a teasing look, "Yeah? Better than me?"

Really? Does he really have to go there? I would have never compared them. I had actually pretty much forgotten about Carlos kissing me this morning in his car. Having me up against the door. I don't even know how to respond. After he bitched me out I didn't think about it if it were good or not. But I definitely didn't not like it. Carlos is an amazing kisser. But I have so many feelings for James. I've liked James for so long how can I not love it when he kisses me. "That is not a fair question!"

He rolls his eyes, "Oh come on Kendall, I'm sure he was one hundred times better than me."

I don't say anything. I just sit up and pull Carlos' sweatshirt from over my head. He let me wear his on the way home since he drenched mine in pop. I lay back in nothing but James' gym shorts. Wow, I've kissed two men and I'm wearing their clothes at the same time. Maybe Carlos is lying. Maybe I am a slut. No, this is not normal. Normally my days aren't like this. I have only been thinking about James for a year. No one else. Carlos is my best friend. It's different. He was trying to do me a favor when he kissed me. Trying to prove a point.

Carlos jumps up from the bed and turns off the lights. He comes back and pulls down the blankets on the side he was just laying on and slides under, "Your not gonna make a bed on the floor?" I ask him confused.

"Nah, I'm tired, lets just sleep here tonight." He lays on his side, his back towards me, so he can comfortably watch the game he had turned on.

I slowly shimmy the blankets down from under me and slide under. Laying on my side facing Carlos and the TV. I have my knees drawn up so that I'm almost in a ball. I can see the tv over Carlos' shoulder as I'm propped up on my elbow. Though, I'm not watching the TV at all. I'm watching Carlos, and how the muscles in his back move with every breath. How the muscles thicken his shoulders and biceps. I want to reach out and touch him. Just feel him.

I shake my head, go to sleep Kendall, your just tired. You miss James.

"Good night buddy. I'm tired too." I roll over so that I'm facing the wall.

"Alright buddy, sleep good." I hear him say over his shoulder. And then he yawns and I know that he wont be awake much longer either.

IT WILL PASS

I wake up in a jolt and I don't even remember the dream I was having that scared me. I look around the room and last night comes flooding back. I'm in Carlos' bed. He wanted to sleep in bed. I settle back down against the mattress pulling the warm blankets up around my shoulders. I can feel my heart pounding in my chest.

I look over and he is passed out flat on his back and an arm over his eyes, the other resting across his stomach. The blankets are low on his abdomen and I take in all his features in the dim light of the room. The TV must have been on sleep mode because I know that Carlos never shuts it off before he goes to sleep.

I don't know what I'm doing or thinking. I'm not thinking, but I roll onto my side, right next to him and rest my head on his shoulder. I put my hand flat against his heart and I can feel it beating through his chest. I've never heart his heart beat before. It's soft and slow.

I feel my own heart skip a beat when he wraps his arm around my shoulders and holds me closer to him. My body tight against his side. I settle after he doesn't move for a few minutes and close my eyes. Enjoying the feeling of being close to him, and him keeping me warm.

I know this is wrong and I urge myself to pretend that he is James. But this is Carlos and I know it. And in a way, i'm glad it's him.

I'm so fucked…

Alrighty! I know this is a little bit shorter than normal but next chapter is Carlos and Logans date! And a few other things will happen in that one. I'm hoping that this story picks up a little after that. Tell me what you think. Obviously it could still go either way with James or Carlos so let me know now that you have another chapter to think about it. I know you said stick with James but I want a few more opinions! Thanks so much! I hope you enjoyed!