I'm the Mess That You Wanted Chapter 5: So It Goes, a game of thrones fanfic

Chapter 5

So It Goes...

So It Goes… by Taylor Swift

See you in the dark / All eyes on you, my magician / All eyes on us / You make everyone disappear, and / Cut me into pieces / Gold cage, hostage to my feelings / Back against the wall / Trippin', trip-trippin' when you're gone

'Cause we break down a little / But when you get me alone, it's so simple / 'Cause baby, I know what you know / We can feel it

And all the pieces fall / Right into place / Getting caught up in the moment / Lipstick on your face / So it goes / I'm yours to keep / And I'm yours to lose / You know I'm not a bad girl, but I / Do bad things with you / So it goes

Met you in a bar / All eyes on me, your illusionist / All eyes on us / I make all your grey days clear / And wear you like a necklace / I'm so chill, but you make me jealous / But I got your heart / Skippin', skip-skippin' when I'm gone

'Cause we break down a little / But when you get me alone, it's so simple / 'Cause baby, I know what you know / We can feel it

Come here, dressed in black now / So, so, so it goes / Scratches down your back now / So, so, so it goes

You did a number on me / But, honestly, baby, who's counting? / I did a number on you / But, honestly, baby, who's counting? / You did a number on me / But, honestly, baby, who's counting? / Who's counting? / 1, 2, 3

Come here, dressed in black now / So, so, so it goes / Scratches down your back now / So, so, so it goes / Come here, dressed in black now / So, so, so it goes / Scratches down your back now / So, so, so it goes

Sansa - June 2016

Sansa waited for Jon to come out of the airport. It had been a couple of weeks since they left Hawaii. During breakfast on their last morning there, they had a talk with Ned and Catelyn. Ned took it much better than either of them thought he would, he was actually happy about it. Catelyn was much more reluctant, even though she tried to hide it. After Hawaii, she called Sansa multiple times about it. "Are you sure you're ready?" she would ask. Sansa would insist that they would take it slow. "I know Jon is an honorable man, and I love him like one of my own. But you should be with someone a little higher up, you know. You deserve that, sweety." Sansa would point out Joffrey and Ramsey, two guys from two society families. After telling her mother that she deserves a guy who actually cares about her, no matter where he comes from, Catelyn finally understood. Ned arranged for Jon to take a position at the San Diego office and he would be staying in the La Jolla house until he found his own place.

"Hey you," Sansa said with a sly smile when he walked out, black shirt and black jeans not quite fitting the San Diego summer. But he looked damn sexy and the sexy smile he gave her made her melt as everyone else in the busy luggage claim seemed to disappear. He walked up to her, dropped his bags, wrapped his arms around her waist, and kissed her with abandon. "Mmmmm."

"Let's go, love," he whispered in her ear as he slid a hand into her back pocket. She felt a a tickle in her gut at the anticipation of what was coming. She drove him to La Jolla with his hand running up and down her thigh to the edges of her short denim shorts.

Once they pulled up to the house, Sansa jumped out, grabbed Jon's hand and rushed him in to the house. She pushed him down onto the couch and straddled him. She kissed his nose and then lightly licked his lip and smiled. He put his hand in her hair and pulled her lips to him for a kiss and lightly nipped her bottom lip, making her whimper.

"I'm so glad you're here, boyfriend," she said as she slipped his shirt over his head.

"Mmmm, I like hearing that," Jon said and began kissing her neck and nibbling her ear. His hand reached inside her top and started to grope her breast. He pinched her nipple and she arched her back with a sigh. He unbuttoned her shorts while kissing her neck and chest then grabbed her waist with both hands, picked her up and laid her on the couch in one quick movement as she let out a squeal. He grasped her shorts and pulled them down and off her long legs. "You're so wet, love," he said as he ran his fingers over her panties and making her moan. He gave it a long lick and sucked at her clit through the material. It made Sansa buck her hips towards his mouth and she grabbed the sides of her panties and whipped them down as fast as she could. He licked and sucked until she was screaming and spasming with an orgasm. He placed gentle kisses on her soft skin as he made his way up her body. She pulled his head to hers and tasted herself on his lips while she reached down and felt the hard bulge in his jeans. She undid his jeans and slowly pulled his cock out and started to slowly stroke him as he moaned into her mouth.

"My turn, baby," she said and pushed him back so he was sitting on the couch. She knelt on the floor in between his knees and slowly took his dick in her mouth, inch by inch. She swirled her tongue around and bobbed up and down. When it seemed like he was getting close, she slid her mouth off and ran her tongue from the base to the tip and swirled her tongue around it. She looked up at him and liked that she could make him look so pleased, with his eyes closed and him whispering her name. He opened his eyes to find her blue ones looking up at him. He grabbed the back at her head and gently pushed her mouth back down on him as he came and she swallowed. "Welcome home," she said with a smile.

Jon - July 2016

Two weeks later, Robb and Margaery were stopping by on their way back to Washington from their honeymoon. Sansa had asked her parents to not say anything to Robb about her and Jon since Jon wanted to tell him first.

"You ready, babe?" Sansa asked as they walked through the Gaslamp Quarter of downtown San Diego.

"No. But have I told you how beautiful you look tonight?" he asked, looking over at the skin shown by the slit in her skirt. All eyes were on her as they walked to the restaurant.

"Multiple times, actually, yes," she smiled and took his hand in hers. "Don't be nervous. He's not going to kill you."

"Just beat me to a bloody pulp and then never talk to me again," Jon said sulkily. They dropped each others hand as they walked in and spotted the newlyweds at the bar. They got a round of drinks as they waited to be sat and they gushed about the honeymoon and the rest of the vacation in Kauai.

"I was surprised to hear that you actually moved down here," Robb said. "I can't believe you'd pick the beach over the mountains and the cold."

"I grew to like it down here actually," Jon said, trying to figure out how to say what he knew he needed to say.

"You wanna help me get another round of drinks, Marg?" Sansa suddenly said and gave Jon a meaningful look as they walked away to the bar.

Shit, okay, here it goes, Jon thought to himself.

"While I do like it down here, I have another reason to be here." Robb looked at him questioningly then it slowly dawned on him.

"My sister?" Robb asked blankly, Jon couldn't figure out what emotion he had.

"I really like her, Robb."

"My little sister?" Robb again said, eerily calm. "When did this start happening?"

"Um, things kind of started towards the end of our time here when you and I came down. And it's been slowly growing til now."

"So you were doing all of this behind my back?"

"We didn't like it, but yes. We were worried how you would take it. Now that things are a little more serious, we decided it was time to tell everyone."

"I just don't understand how this all happened. You guys never used to even really talk. I had to worry about Theon and other friends, but never you."

"I know, I'm sorry, I didn't want to do this to you, I tried not to. I just couldn't ignore my feelings for her anymore. I understand if you're mad at me just don't be mad at her, please."

"You really like her?"

"I'm in love with her."

Sansa

In love with me? Sansa and Margaery had snuck behind a big plant near where the guys stood so they could hear the conversation. Margaery looked at her with happy, wide eyes. Sansa smiled shyly.

"Wow. Alright. I'm not ecstatic about it but I don't hate it. I know you're a good guy, Jon. I know you'd take care of her," Robb said begrudgingly. "You're better than her past boyfriends and you're better than other guys who I've noticed had interest in her. Just don't hurt her."

"Thanks, man. You were the one I was worried about most. Not even your parents scared me as much."

"We've got more drinks!" Margaery said as they came out of their hiding spot.

"You knew didn't you?" Robb asked her.

"Knew what, honey?"

"About these two. Getting together and shit."

"I might have known a little. Someone had to help them find alone time!"

"You helped them?" Robb asked, shocked.

"Well yeah, I wanted them together, I knew they'd be good for each other!" Margaery said cheerfully.

"But you hid it from your own husband?"

"Lovey, I thought you were going to put your big brotherly foot down and forbid it if you knew. Plus, that was for Jon or Sansa to tell you."

"Well, I'll have you know I took it remarkably well."

"Thanks, Robb," Sansa said with a smile and she looked at Jon and he kissed her forehead.

"Ugh, this is going to take a lot to get used to," Robb said.

After dinner, Sansa and Jon went back to Sansa's apartment since Robb and Margaery would be staying at the La Jolla house for a few days. As they waited at the street corner to cross over to Sansa's apartment, she moved as if to whisper something in Jon's ear but instead took his lobe into her mouth, gave it a little suck and pulled it gently with her teeth.

"Bad girl," Jon quietly said.

"Hmmm, I'm not a bad girl. I just do bad things with you," she playfully said and bit her lip.

"Fuck, Sansa," he said under his breath.

They got into the elevator in her building and Sansa pulled Jon's collar until he was pressed up against her with her back to the wall of the elevator. His hand dragged up the bare skin at the slit of her dress, reached around and grabbed her ass. She lifted that leg and wrapped it behind him. The elevator ride was too quick though and they arrived at her floor. They untangled and walked to her door, Sansa's lipstick smeared all around Jon's mouth.

He's in love with me. The thought made her happy and nervous at the same time. She loved knowing he loves her but it made her feel like she was going to end up really hurting him. She chased out that negative thought from her mind. She wanted to enjoy this night with him and make him feel good.

Jon

Once in her apartment, Sansa took him by the hand and led him through to her bedroom. With all the lights off, the city lights shined through the floor-to-ceiling windows. Sansa stood in front of them, framed by the city lights and the stars of the night sky. She slowly undid her skirt and let it fall to the ground at her feet. Jon stood in the bedroom doorway and gazed at her with a lustful look in his eyes. Sansa slipped her top off so she was just wearing a thong and her heels. He moved to her, hooked his fingers into both sides of the thong, and gently brought them down her long legs to the floor. As he came back up, his fingers grazed over her soft skin.

"You're the most beautiful thing in the world, Sansa," he quietly said as he looked deeply in her eyes.

Sansa grabbed the back of Jon's head and brought his lips to hers. She kissed him hungrily and slid her tongue into his mouth as his hands roamed around on her lower back. She began undoing his jeans and he pulled his shirt off as she slid his pants down and he stepped out of them.

She leaned back and rested her body against the window and he pressed his body against hers as he kissed and nipped at her neck. His hands reached down and grabbed her ass and effortlessly lifted her while she wrapped both legs around his waist. He kissed her heavily while he pressed her back against the window, her nails dragging against his back, leaving long scratches. When she slightly shifted her pussy against his hard dick, he moaned into her mouth, pulled her away from the window, and laid her down on the bed.

Jon kissed and licked down Sansa's body, pausing at her breasts to take them in his mouth while she arched her back towards him. He made his way down and found her wet pussy, rubbing it with his fingers to make her moan. He lapped at it with his tongue in long strokes. Jon had come to learn everything he could about getting Sansa off with his mouth and fingers and once again, she was yelling and moaning his name until she came.

He kissed his way back up her body until she rolled him over onto his back and she straddled him. She slowly started to gyrate on him, his boxer briefs getting wet from her. She began to move faster, grinding on him harder when he began to moan and groan. Sansa raised her hands up to her breasts and began playing with them as she looked at him and bit her lip. His hands flew to her hips and he rocked her against his cock as she moaned. When she could tell he was getting close, she slowed down, kneeled between his legs, pulled his cock out and took as much of it as she could in her mouth. It wasn't long until he came.

They lay in bed, Jon on his back, half of Sansa's body draped on him. He gently ran his hand up and down the arm she had on his chest as he gazed out the windows at the night. Jon couldn't believe his luck; his body entangled with the beautiful girl he's wanted since he was young. He had never felt so content before, he felt as if they were puzzle pieces falling into place. "You make me so happy," he sleepily and quietly said.

"I'm yours to keep," she whispered back.

Sansa

I'm yours to lose, she thought and immediately tried to push back that negativity. What the hell is wrong with you? Why are you so scared? She was happy, Jon made her feel amazing, she really liked him, but she couldn't shake the feeling that she would hurt him. Am I actually ready for all of this?

She fell asleep in his arms, hoping sleep would chase away the completely confusing thoughts.