Chapter 4
Edward reluctantly pulled away from her and turned the system and TV off before coming back and taking her hand in his to lead her upstairs.
Kristen smiled as Edward took her hand, happy that he seemed to be confident enough now to initiate things with her. Perhaps it was because she now knew all the things he'd been afraid to tell her, and didn't have to worry anymore about whether that would come between him. Strangely, even though what he'd told her was still pretty overwhelming, and she couldn't help wondering whether he was right about not needing help… overall, she just felt closer to him now. Before, he'd been such a mystery, but now she felt a sense of trust between them that hadn't been there before. She kissed him on the cheek as they headed up the stairs.
Edward followed behind her, allowing her to go first, clicking off the light as he went upstairs.
Once they were back upstairs, Kristen turned around, putting her arms around Edward as she leaned up to kiss him.
Ed kissed her back as the back of her knees hit the bed. His hands roamed over her shirt, pulling the buttons loose and pulling it free from her skirt before tossing it to the floor.
Kristen loosened Edward's tie, pulling it off and letting it slide to the floor, before beginning to unbutton Edward's shirt, looking up at him questioningly, gauging his reaction to see whether he was comfortable with her taking it off this time, now that she'd seen the scars.
Edward didn't say anything as he pulled down the zipper on her skirt, his hands sliding under it on her hips before it slid to the floor. His hands roamed back up to her breasts. "You're so beautiful." He said quietly, his fingers moving over her nipples through the thin material of her bra.
She blushed at his words, not knowing what to say in response. She didn't really think she was that beautiful … but Edward certainly seemed to. She pressed forward slightly against his hands, her nipples hardening at his gentle touch. She leaned up and kissed him again, as she finished unbuttoning Edward's shirt. He didn't seem self-conscious about it now … If anything, he was being bolder than last time. She pulled the shirt down over his shoulders, her hands starting to roam over his chest, down his sides, across his back, enjoying the feeling of his body against her. Holding him just somehow felt different from anyone she'd been with before, as if she and Ed somehow just fit.
Edward's hands slid behind her back, his fingers trailing over her skin before he tried to open the clasp of her bra. He fought with it for a moment before he got it open and pulled her bra open, letting the material fall to the ground as her hands slipped under his undershirt, running over his back, testing to see whether he was comfortable with her touching his bare skin before she began to tug at the undershirt pulling it up.
He hesitated a moment before he helped her to remove his undershirt, tossing it onto the floor by her bra.
Kristen smiled up at him, before leaning up into a kiss, wrapping her arms around him and running her hands over his shoulders, her fingers brushing against the hateful scar, but she made no reaction to it, neither recoiling from it nor lingering over it as he leaned into the kiss, deepening it as he pushed her back on the bed and climbing on top of her. The bulge in his pants pressing down into her as he deepened the kiss.
She moaned low in her throat, her hands running through the back of Ed's hair as she pulled him closer to her, her hips moving forward so that Edward's cock rubbed against her through his pants.
Edward broke the kiss as he pulled away from her, standing up. His hands went to her hips as he pulled her panties down her legs before climbing back over her again.
She looked up at Edward, and wrapped her arms around him as he climbed back over her, her hands running over his back as she kissed down the side of his neck.
Edward moved his hands back to her breasts, lightly pinching her nipples as she kissed down her neck. He lowered himself onto her, his thick shaft rubbing up against her.
Kristen moaned softly as Edward pinched her nipples, and her hands went to the waist of Edward's pants, tugging them down over his hips, before going for his underwear, pulling them down out of the way, before stroking at his massive cock again. She still couldn't help marveling at the size of it … Though, given his height, perhaps it shouldn't have surprised her that much. But it was still a little intimidating.
Edward broke the kiss as he pulled away from her, standing up. His hands went to her hips as he pulled her panties down her legs before climbing back over her again, a look of pure lust in Kristen's eyes as she looked up at Edward, and wrapped her arms around him when he climbed back over her, her hands running over his back as she kissed down the side of his neck.
Edward moved his hands back to her breasts, lightly pinching her nipples as he kissed down her neck. He lowered himself onto her, his thick shaft rubbing up against her making her moan softly as Edward pinched her nipples, and her hands went to the waist of Edward's pants, tugging them down over his hips, before going for his underwear, pulling them down out of the way, before stroking at his massive cock again. Edward moaned as she took his cock in her hand. It didn't matter to him that she couldn't fit it all the way around, it still felt amazing. "That feels good." Edward whispered.
Kristen smirked up at him as she continued to stroke his cock, her thumb brushing lightly over the tip. "That's the idea… Though I think I can do a little better than this." She pushed gently at his chest with her free hand. "Can you lay down on your back? I want to try something."
Edward looked at her confused as she pushed him back. "Um …. Sure." He said moving on the bed next to her until he was laying on his back, his head resting on the pillow.
Kristen moved down over Edward's hips, smiling slightly at the look of confusion on his face. It was kind of adorable, really. She then took his shaft gently in her hand and leaned down, taking the tip of his cock into her mouth, her tongue running over it lightly as she sucked. She glanced up at his face, watching for his reaction.
Edward took a quick intake of breath in surprise as her lips wrapped around his thick shaft. He'd never had a woman try that on him before. His ex's always thought he was either too big, or they didn't care enough to want to. It had always been about them, not him. "What are you …" He paused not sure what to say. "You don't have to-" but God did he want her to continue.
Kristen paused, confused. She'd never been with a man who didn't like getting head. If anything, her ex's had tended to be overly demanding about it, even if they could never be bothered to give oral themselves. It hadn't really occurred to her that Ed might not like it … but why else would he react so hesitantly?
"Is this okay?" she asked, looking back at him. "I guess I should have asked first…"
"No it's … It's great. But … You don't … I don't …." He licked his lips as he tried to make sense of his thoughts. "I don't expect you to …. To do that. If that's why-"
'Oh my God Ed … Stop talking. Go with it!' Edward ignored the voice that filtered into his head, ignored the hallucination that was whispering in his ear. 'She wants to suck your cock, let her!'
"Mhmm …" Edward moaned in agreement, though it could have passed off as a moan.
Kristen looked back at Edward in surprise for a moment, touched that he was just concerned on her behalf. Certainly none of her ex's would have bothered with that … but he clearly enjoyed what she'd been doing.
"I want to," she said quietly, before taking the tip back into her mouth, before slowly beginning to take in more, her tongue caressing the underside of his cock as she sucked.
Edward moaned, surprised she was able to even fit him in her mouth. "That feels so good." Edward said feeling a bit like a broken record but it was true. She was so good at making him feel amazing.
Kristen continued to move her mouth up and down Edward's cock, gradually taking more of him in as she sucked, her hand moving over the lower part of the shaft. She didn't expect to be able to fit him all in, certainly not this time, but she was confident that she'd be able to take enough of him in to make him glad she'd tried … Already, he seemed to be thoroughly enjoying what she was doing.
Edward looked down at her, watching her suck on the tip, taking the first few inches in. He doubted she'd ever be able to take much in her mouth, but the fact that she was even trying … It was such a turn on.
Kristen took more and more of Edward's shaft into her mouth, until she felt it hitting the back of her throat, her tongue running over his cock as she did. She didn't think she could take him in much further, but Edward didn't seem to mind.
Edward moved his hands down to her head, his fingers brushing her bangs out of her face as he felt the tip hit the back of her throat. "Keep this up Miss. Kringle …" He panted. "And I'm not going to last very long."
Kristen looked up at him, her glasses slightly askew, her mouth still around his cock, blushing slightly, happy with his reaction. She very slowly moved her mouth back up his shaft, still sucking as she went back to the tip, finally withdrawing from his cock with a soft popping sound. "Do you want me to stop, then?" she asked playfully.
He looked down at her a moment. "No." He said quietly. "Please don't …"
Kristen nodded, before immediately going down on him again, her tongue continually caressing the underside of his shaft as she worked her way further down more quickly than she had the first time, though still careful not to take too much in at once, her mouth moving steadily up and down his thick shaft. Of course, she realized this probably meant her needs would go unmet tonight, but she wanted so badly to meet his, to do something nice for him, and she enjoyed hearing his reactions so much, and he was just being so much more considerate about it than she was used to … That she found she didn't really mind.
Edward moaned as he closed his eyes, enjoying the feeling of her mouth moving up and down his shaft. He could feel his orgasm building, his legs moving slightly as she sat between them giving her better access to him. "I'm so close …." Edward whispered.
Kristen picked up the pace, moving up and down his cock faster, her tongue still working over his shaft as she sucked. Ed's shaft was so wide that her jaw started to ache slightly, but she didn't slow down. She loved seeing the look of pleasure on his face when she glanced up, hearing the need in his voice… She just really enjoyed making him feel good.
"I'm going to cum." Edward moaned as he let go of her hair, giving her the chance to back away.
Kristen nodded slightly, indicating that she'd heard him. She appreciated the warning, especially after too many times where she'd gotten no warning at all … But she continued sucking, not pausing as her mouth moved up and down his cock.
Edward was surprised when she didn't pull away. Perhaps she didn't hear him. "Kristen I-" but he couldn't hold it any longer as he felt himself tense with pleasure, cum shooting into her mouth as he came with a loud groan.
Kristen still remained where she was, waiting it out as cum spilled into her mouth. She'd never been overly fond of the taste, but she'd gotten used to it, learning to see it as confirmation of a job well done. And she loved hearing Ed groan, feeling him tense against her, knowing he enjoyed what she was doing … That made it all worth it.
Edward relaxed against the bed trying to calm his breathing, his hand moving back to her head before he carefully pulled the ponytail loose.
As Edward calmed under her, Kristen carefully withdrew from his cock, looking down as she swallowed so that he couldn't see the face she made. Ed might not be the demanding type, but she knew it was still possible that he'd feel insulted if she didn't. She wiped her mouth with the back of her hand, before looking back at him, smiling slightly at how relaxed he looked.
Edward reached down to her, silently asking her to come back up to him as he finally calmed down, his body entirely relaxed. "That was amazing."
"I'm glad," she smiled softly as she went over to lay by Edward's side, cuddling up against him and laying a hand against his chest. She was starting to feel a little frustrated herself, but that was okay. She'd been the one who had wanted to do it this way. And right now, if Ed would just hold her for a little while, she could be content with that.
Edward turned to lay on his side next to her, his finger running down her cheek before he leaned in and kissed her gently.
He pulled back a moment to look at her before he gently pushed her onto her back, his lips coming down onto hers again as he climbed on top of her, straddling her hips.
Kristen lay there in surprise for a moment as Edward kissed her, surprised that he wanted to after she'd just gone down on him. And then he was on top of her … Why? He'd already gotten off, so why was he … She decided to stop questioning it, and started kissing him back, wrapping her arms around him.
Edward broke the kiss, but his lips didn't stay off of her for long. He moved to her neck, sucking on the soft flesh, nipping it between his teeth before sucking on it again. He knew it would leave a mark and he smirked slightly as he ran his hands down her sides. He shifted slightly, moving her legs so that he was in between them and lowered himself back down onto her, his mouth coming to her breast to suck on her pert nipple.
Kristen moaned as Edward toyed with her nipple, her hands running through the back of Edward's hair.
Edward didn't look up at her as he kissed his way down her stomach, his eyes closed as he moved down past her belly button. He moved his hand to her pussy, his fingers moving over her clit as he kissed further down.
"Oh," Kristen gasped when she realized what he was doing. That surprised her. Guys she'd dated in the past didn't usually tend to bother with that once they'd gotten what they wanted. "Y-you don't have to …" she murmured. But God, his fingers felt amazing on her, and her hips moved forward a little instinctively, so that her clit rubbed against his fingers.
"Are you imitating me, Miss. Kringle?" He asked pressing a single finger into her gently up to the second knuckle. "I have to say … I'm not a fan of copy cats." He said before delving his tongue down onto her clit, licking the soft nub.
Kristen squirmed slightly as Ed's finger pushed inside her, encouraging him to press a little further in, a soft, surprised moan escaping her when he licked her clit. How long had it been since anyone had done this for her? "Sorry," she stammered. "It's just …" Already, she was struggling to keep a coherent sentence together. "Earlier, I was trying to do something for you, and … I … You don't have to feel obligated just because …" She trailed off, losing track of where that sentence had been going.
"I don't feel obligated." He said sounding a bit offended she thought that was why he was doing this. "If you want me to stop …"
Kristen shook her head. "No," she said quietly, hoping she hadn't upset him. "I don't want you to stop."
Edward moved his mouth back onto her, pressing his finger deeper into her before pushing a second finger into her, moving them inside of her as he moved his tongue around her clit in a circular motion.
Kristen moaned as Edward pushed a second finger inside her, her hips moving slightly forward as she felt Edward's tongue move over her clit. Ed really knew what he was doing.
Edward kept moving his tongue over her, adding a third finger and curling his fingers inside of her.
Kristen reached down and ran a hand through Edward's hair, moaning and clutching the sheets with her free hand as Edward's fingers curled inside her.
Edward felt his cock starting to harden once again as Kristen moaned, her hand threading through his hair. He moved his fingers faster trying to bring her to orgasm.
Kristen moved against Edward in time to the motion of his fingers, her eyes closing as she moaned with pleasure.
Edward looked up at her as he continued to pleasure her, keeping the same motion she seemed to like. It surprised him how easy it was to please her.
The sensation grew more and more intense as Edward's fingers moved inside her, and her breathing quickened as she moved against him, trembling slightly. "God, Ed," she whispered, her fingers running lightly through Edward's hair. She bit her lip as another moan escaped her, trying to keep some degree of control over herself.
Edward moved his mouth off of her, using his thumb against her clit as he moved up over her to kiss her. He kept moving his fingers inside of her. He loved how he could make her react like this …
Kristen moaned as Edward's thumb rubbed against her clit, while his fingers still moved inside her. He was far more adept at this than she would have imagined … She embraced him as he moved over her, running her hands over his back, moaning softly into the kiss, her hips moving rhythmically against him.
Edward moaned into the kiss as his cock hardened. He broke the kiss a moment, looking down at her. He was still learning what she liked, did she like dirty talking? His cheeks tinted red at that thought as he pushed harder into her. "Cum for me Kristen." He whispered, his face turning a deeper shade of red.
Kristen blushed slightly, looking up at him in surprise, gasping as his fingers pushed harder inside her. She hadn't really expected an attempt at dirty talking from him … He seemed a little bashful about it, but that was somehow just all the more endearing. She nodded, pushing back against him. At the rate he was going, his demand seemed very doable. "Just don't stop," she murmured breathlessly.
Edward nodded, he hadn't planned on stopping. That would just be mean. And to be honest, after having it done to him so many times he was in no hurry to do it to someone else. He kept moving at the pace he seemed to get the most reaction out of her, in the back of his mind wondering if and how he could do better, but she seemed to be enjoying it.
Kristen kissed him again, moaning, her fingers running through the back of his hair, loving what he was doing to her. She was close now, the sensation of Edward's fingers inside her and on her clit growing more and more intense as he continued.
Edward moved his fingers faster, breaking the kiss as he looked down at his hand, focusing on what he was doing.
Kristen continued to move her hips forward faster to keep up with the pace of Edward's fingers as they moved in and out of her. She kissed down the side of his neck, the sensation of his fingers on her now an almost unbearably intense pleasure.
He tilted his head as she kissed his neck, rubbing himself up against her leg awkwardly as his cock begged for attention. He moaned as she reached his collarbone and moved his hips against her.
Kristen felt Edward's cock rubbing against her leg, surprised that it was hard again so soon. She moaned as she reached a hand down to stroke it for him, imagining it inside her, even though it had kind of hurt last time; it was just so much bigger than she was used to … "Ed…" she murmured, kissing at his collarbone feverishly. She gasped, a moan escaping her as her back arched, her inner walls clenched around Edward's talented fingers, and her whole body tensed, waves of pleasure running through her.
Edward pulled up, looking down at her as she came, his fingers still moving inside of her riding out her orgasm. Once she relaxed he kissed her gently, pulling his hand away from her and wiped his hand on the blanket before kissing her again and moving off of her to lay beside her.
Kristen looked over at Ed, still breathing hard, surprised when he pulled off of her. She kissed him on the cheek, looking down at his partially erect cock. "Don't you want me to take care of that for you?" Sure she'd gotten him off once, but after he'd just made her feel so amazing, it was the least she could do.
"It's fine. It'll go away." He said leaning forward to kiss her again before moving his thumb over her cheek.
Kristen leaned into Edward's kiss, still surprised by how … how undemanding he was. It was extraordinarily endearing. She'd never met anyone so sweet. She cuddled up close to Edward, putting an arm around him, running a hand lightly down his back, enjoying just the feeling of closeness with him.
"Can I …" Ed paused. "Can I ask you something?" He asked.
Kristen looked back at him for a moment, then nodded. "Of course," she said. Though she wondered what else he'd feel self conscious about saying to her after everything else he'd told her.
"Well …. It's something I've been curious about. Your opinion I mean … But …. Do you …." Why did she always manage to turn his brain into mush? "Do you believe in love at first sight?"
Kristen stared for a moment, unsure what to say. "I … I don't know," she said quietly, choosing not to dwell right now on why Edward might be asking her this. She thought about it for a moment. Of course she'd grown up believing in love at first sight, the way it happened in fairy tales, but … in her experience it didn't work that way. It had gotten hard to keep believing in love at all. But she guessed she couldn't rule out that maybe some people really fell in love that way. "I guess … maybe love at first sight is possible. But even when it happens, I don't think you can know at first sight whether it's really love or not … I think you have to get to know a person at their best and worst to be sure."
Edward nodded. "That makes sense. I believe in it … Well I didn't before … But …" Edward paused awkwardly, looking down at the sheets that he'd pulled over top of them. "But when I saw you … When you first got hired there …. I knew. It didn't matter that I didn't know you, I felt a sudden connection with you. It was like … something was just compelling me towards you and I didn't know how to express how I felt. And then the more we talked, no matter how brief our conversations were, the more I knew. You say you have to know someone at their worst to know if you love them, but I don't see anything changing how I feel."
"Edward …" Kristen said, touched but taken aback. She wasn't even completely sure how she felt about Edward, except that so far she was happy with him, and he was unlike anyone she'd been with before. She smoothed back Edward's hair. "I … had no idea." No wonder he had been so awkward around her for so long … And she'd misread those signs pretty drastically. "You mean a lot to me, and I'd given up thinking anyone would make me this happy, but … I don't think either of us has really seen each other at their worst."
"That's okay. You'd never scare me off. And I don't expect you to say it back, in fact … If you did I probably wouldn't believe you. I'd feel like you'd be saying it because you feel obligated … But I couldn't be more sure now that I've gotten to know you, at least a little bit …." He paused and brushed her bangs out of her face. "You deserve to be loved Kristen … I want to give you everything you deserve to have … And more. And you deserve to feel safe …. I'd do anything in my power to keep you safe … Even if that meant having to do something …." Ed paused his finger moving down her face. "I'm sorry … I'm … I'm rambling now …."
Kristen was speechless for a moment, tears inexplicably pricking at her eyes. "Ed," she whispered, touching a hand to his cheek. No one had ever spoken to her like that, not with this level of sincerity, anyway. She couldn't doubt the honesty in his voice, though a more cautious part of her mind, the part that had been hurt so many times before, wanted to. Admittedly, coming from anyone else, Edward's words would have sounded melodramatic, but from him… "I … I believe that you mean that. That you really feel that way, and I feel safer with you than I've ever felt before, and … and I want things to work out like that, but … How much time have we really spent together? How can you be so sure?"
And what would happen if things didn't work out? If she wasn't all Edward wanted her to be? How could she live up to his grand romantic expectations? And given what she knew now about Ed's painful history with relationships, and his mental health … what would it do to him if things fell apart?
"I wouldn't have gotten into a relationship with you if I wasn't sure. Believe me …. I am sure." He said leaning forward to kiss her.
Kristen leaned into his kiss and wrapped her arms around him, as if just holding him to her tight enough would make everything turn out alright. As if love could ever be that easy. As if she wasn't going to inevitably mess things up again. As if she could ever really deserve someone as sweet as Ed. But she really, truly hoped that just this once, things could work out. That this time she could finally manage to get it right.