"This patient is fine! She doesn´t have any disease." one intern meant and Izzie shook her head.
"No! Patient X isn´t fine! She saw her dead fiancé, she could touch him! She is not fine!" Izzie explained. It´s been one week since the interns had to find out what´s wrong with patient X and they didn´t have any clue. Izzie was desperate. She was sick and didn´t know what she had and nobody could find out what it was and her baby was on the best way to loose it´s mother for sure.
"Doctor Stevens we are really sorry for this woman but we don´t know what she has. And we want to learn something. Something with patients which are really sick and not with a hypochondriac!" another intern explained.
"You want to learn something?" Izzie meant angrily "Then find out what she has! She is sick! She´s not a hypochondriac!" she was sure and leaned against the wall. "She is sick. She is sick. She is sick." Izzie whispered and the interns began to look at the scans again. Lexie noticed in which bad condition Izzie was and went to her. She asked her for some medical advice so they could leave the room.
"Is everything okay?" Lexie asked looking worried, after checking if nobody was listening.
"No nothing is fine! I am pregnant and sick and nobody knows what I have.." Izzie meant huskily and stopped her tears from streaming down her face. Lexie held Izzie´s arm and and looked her in the eyes.
"Have you told him already?" she asked and Izzie shook her head. She explained, that she didn´t know how she should tell Alex and that she didn´t want to tell him till she knew what was wrong with her. Lexie nodded and decided to look harder for Izzie´s disease.
"Hey Lex!" Mark said and came closer to his official girlfriend and kissed her. Lexie had to giggle and Mark stopped kissing her.
"Why are you laughing. Is there something between my teeth?" Mark asked and hold his hand in front of his mouth.
"No your teeth are beautiful! It´s just...amazing that we can kiss in public.."Lexie replied and kissed him again. Now he had to smile too and asked her if she would like to go into an empty on-call room.
"I would love to, but I have to do something for doctor Stevens.." Mark looked disappointed and Lexie tried to cheer him up with a little dirty talk about what she wanted to do when their home. Mark smiled again, kissed her and left her for an appointment with doctor Bailey because she wanted to examine his hand. Lexie loved the way he kissed her. His soft lips touching hers was the most exciting feeling and she never wanted to feel something else. Her hand touched her lips which still felt tingly. Then she reminded herself that she wanted to study in the library and went there.
As she entered it she could see that there was nobody. So she walked through the library and looked at some books when she suddenly saw two women kissing.
"Ahh!" Lexie screamed because she didn´t expected them. The women turned around and Lexie recognized Callie and a blond woman she didn´t know.
"Little Grey!" Callie shouted and the blond woman looked at them.
"Little Grey? So you are the girlfriend of Mark Sloan?" she asked and came closer. Lexie got goose bumps when she heard `Mark Sloan´s girlfriend´. "I´m Arizona Robbins, peds." she continued and reached out her hand. Lexie shook Arizona´s hand and looked back at Callie who didn´t move at all. Then she came closer and told Lexie that she wanted to talk to her alone and pulled her aside while Arizona Robbins looked through the books.
"Listen! I´m a newbie with this...well, you know...vagina-thing and I think that I like it and that I like her..I mean I also like penises, yeah really, I love penises but something about this woman over there gives me a feeling that I would never need a penis again.."Callie laughed and Lexie raised an eyebrow.
"Well, I don´t really want to know-"Lexie meant but Callie cut her off and Lexie bit on her lip.
"The point is: Don´t tell Mark! I want to tell him but not yet. I want to try out what I really feel at first okay?" Lexie nodded and both went back to Arizona who´s pager suddenly went off.
"Hum..e.r. I should go!" she meant and Callie decided to go with her, maybe they would need an ortho consult. Lexie went back to her work and searched for some interesting books till she found one that sounded like the solution.
"You should talk to him!" Meredith meant.
"I don´t know why I should!" Derek answered and walked away from the nurse´s desk.
"Because he´s your best friend!" she replied and followed him.
"Was! He was my best friend." he let her know and walked a little bit faster.
"Derek Christopher Shepherd don´t act like a child! Stay! De- Derek!" Meredith yelled and ran after him.
"Stop yelling at me!" Derek stopped walking and showed her with his hand not to come closer. "I´m an adult and Mark did so many things that weren´t right. I´m not ready yet!" Derek turned around and continued his way but this time Meredith didn´t follow.
"What´s going on?" Christina asked as she saw Meredith standing in the middle of the hallways.
"Nothing...nothing.." she replied and they both went to the cafeteria to eat something.
"Sadie! Sadie!" Lexie screamed and ran after her friend. "I´m glad I found you. Listen, I found something for Izzie´s patient X! Here look at this book!" she meant and handed out the big fat book she found.
"Melanoma – everything a doctor should know ? Why do you think she has cancer?" Sadie replied and raised her eyebrows.
"Because in the chapter about metastatic melanoma there are the results of tests listed and sometimes you can´t find something that seems wrong just some irregularities at the blood tests. I think that´s what patient X has!" Lexie explained and Sadie thought about it. Then she meant that Lexie should tell the other interns and that they should meet with Izzie Stevens to talk about that idea. So she did and one hour later everyone knew about Lexie´s idea and Izzie came into the room where her scans and so on were.
"Doctor stevens we might have found out what patient X´disease is." Sadie began and Izzie´s eyes went big. They found out what I have? Oh my god please just let it be something easy to cure..Izzie thought. She showed with her hand that they should continue.
"Well, we think that the patient has.."Lexie began but something stopped her from talking as she looked in Izzie´s big, brown, frightened eyes. As Sadie saw that Lexie couldn´t speak anymore she continued, "We think that she has stage IV metastatic melanoma which spread to her brain. That´s why she had these illusions."
The whole room was quite inclusive Izzie. She didn´t know what to say. She knew the interns had to be right because there was no other medical solution.
"So what´s the survival rate?" she asked quietly and Lexie´s eyes got wetter and wetter.
"Well, we think that there could be more metastases so I would say something about 5%. If I would be her I would go on a long and expensive trip." Steve meant and Izzie nodded. She told the interns that they could go and everyone left – besides Lexie.
"Are you okay?" she asked but immediately noticed that this question was totally unnecessary.
"You now who the patient is. What would you tell me if you were my doctor. You know what Steve said wasn´t helpful." Izzie asked and Lexie nodded.
"I would tell you that 5% aren´t really a good expectation but we have great doctors and there is the chemotherapy and other treatments and that-" Lexie started but Izzie interrupted her.
"No! You know patient X is me. What are you telling me to do after you gave me the diagnosis? You want me to just give up because these are the odds?"
"You know what? Screw the odds! People die of hiccups. My mother died of hiccups and the survival rate for that is what? 100%? The odds are that she should be alive right now. The odds are... The odds mean crap! People should face it and fight!" Lexie replied and Izzie started smiling. "Maybe I won´t say it completely like that-"
"No! No..that was good. Really good...I should tell Alex that I´m pregnant right?" Izzie asked and Lexie nodded.
"Thank you! I know you found it! I really want to thank you!" Izzie meant and hugged Lexie.
Mark heard foot steps outside on the hallway. He prepared the bed with some roses and a little box in which there was a present for Lexie. It was already 9 p.m. and he wanted to surprise her with this present and later they would have great sex. Well, that´s what he imagined. It knocked at the door and Mark opened it with a lovely smile.
"Hey beautiful.." he meant and kissed his girlfriend.
"Hey.." she replied smiling. Mark let her come in and she was suspicious since the first minute. There were candles everywhere and the smell of roses filled the air. But she shook her head softly because she was sure that she would imagine that.
"God I´m starving...Is there something of the pizza from yesterday left?" she meant tired and went to the fridge. Mark´s smile was gone because he didn´t expected her to be bored.
"Well actually I thought we would go somewhere to eat something. Maybe the Italian over the street?" Mark suggested and pointed on the door.
"That´s cute but I also like the pizza here and I really don´t want to put on something more suitable than these jeans and shirt. But I would like to put on something more comfortable.." Lexie meant and went towards the bedroom.
"No!" Mark screamed but it was too late and Lexie stood in the bedroom full with flowers and candles and a little black box in the middle of the bed. Lexie´s eyes went big and she opened her mouth. Was this just a dream? Oh my god does he want to propose? We don´t know each other so good to get married...and I´m not ready yet! She thought and turned around. Mark stood there and didn´t know what to say.
"I´m sorry Mark I think I...I have to go.." Lexie meant and walked to the door.
"Wait, what?" he replied "It´s not how it seems it shouldn´t be a...where do you want to go.."
"I´m so sorry I love you but this is going too fast for me...I´m at Mer´s." she said and left Mark behind. He didn´t understand the world. Why won´t she let him talk and why was she so afraid of his present though she didn´t even know what it was. Like Lexie said she drove to her sister´s house. She began crying in her car. It hurt her so much that she hurt Mark and that she left him alone but she was so shocked and this was the first thing her brain thought about – run away!
When she arrived at the house she knocked a few times at the door and a little bit later Alex Karev opened her.
"Little Grey? What are you doing here?" he asked and looked at her red eyes.
"Is my sister here?" she cried. "Is Meredith there?" Alex nodded and let her in. She stepped into the living room where Izzie was sitting and looked confused as she saw Lexie. Over telepathic conversation Lexie asked her if she already told him and Izzie shook her head softly. Then Alex told their guest that Meredith would be in the kitchen with Derek and Lexie immediately went there.
"Hey!" she said when she entered the kitchen. Derek, who was sitting by the table turned around and Meredith put her wine glass on the table.
"What are you doing here?" Meredith asked and Lexie fought with her tears again.
"I´m...He...I...Can I stay here tonight?" she asked and Derek looked at Meredith. His face expression went from confused to suspicious. Did he beat her? Did they have a fight? Did he break up with her? he fought and Lexie continued like she could read his mind.
"He did nothing wrong I...I left. It´s...complicated.."
"We are masters in complicated. Of course you can stay here. Since Izzie and Alex are a couple there is a room left. Lexie nodded and Meredith brought her to the bedroom. Lexie put off her jeans and laid down on the bed. But she couldn´t fall asleep. She had to think about Mark and the little black box the whole time. The last time she looked at the clock before she finally fell asleep it was something about 3 am.
"What are you doing?" Derek asked suspicious as he went to the kitchen the next morning.
"I´m cooking." Meredith meant and threw away some egg shells.
"You? You are cooking? Why?" he laughed and Mer looked at him angrily.
"Lexie had a hard night. I want to be a good sister, that´s why I´m cooking." she replied and chopped some pepper. Derek was really surprised. Meredith never cooked besides thanksgiving or other holidays. So he sat down by the table and started a conversation.
Alex turned around and saw Izzie sitting in the bed and starring at the wall.
"Good morning!" he said and kissed her on the cheek. Izzie nodded and stared on the wall. Should I tell him? Or should I do something romantic? I mean I´m close to death I...I..I don´t know..Izzie thought. Alex raised an eyebrow but didn´t react to his vacantly girlfriend.
"What do you think about children?" she asked as he stood up.
"Children? Well, they are loud, they put everything in their mouth and when they get older the problems get bigger. But they are sweet. Till they poop in their pants.." Alex laughed but Izzie didn´t. As soon as he noticed it he continued, "But our kids won´t be like that because they will have a great mother, who will teach them the difference between right and wrong." and went to the bathroom. Izzie smiled but then she remembered that she probably won´t be alive when their baby will be born. So she stood up and went to her boyfriend into the bathroom.
"And when our hypothetical baby will be born then you will take care of it and you will also learn him the difference between right and wrong, right?" she asked and Alex looked at her.
"I totally would." he answered and kissed her on the forehead. "Want to do it in the shower? Nothing says good morning like a hot quickie." he smirked. Izzie shook her head and left the bathroom and so Alex showered alone.
After he finished he got dressed in sweatpants and tank top and opened the door. But as soon as he stepped on the corridor he ran back to his room.
"What´s wrong?" Izzie asked when she saw Alex making a face.
"It smells like someone died.." he admitted and Izzie went to the door.
"No don´t do that.." Alex said but Izzie opened the door and one second later she closed it again.
"Oh my god...that smells like sulfur." she said and both leaned against the door.
"I´m going down to check out who´s dying and you stay here. If I don´t come back...I love you" Alex joked and kissed Izzie who also laughed. A few moments later he returned and told her that Meredith was cooking for Lexie and that´s why it smelled.
"No. That´s not cooking. Cooking doesn´t smell like that." she explained but Alex told her again that Meredith was cooking.
"Breakfast is ready!" Meredith screamed from the kitchen and Izzie looked shocked.
"She cooked?!"
"I told you!"
They went down to the kitchen and Alex knocked at the room Lexie was sleeping to wake her up.
"Lexie! Wake up Meredith made breakfast!" he meant and went downstairs.
"She did what?" Lexie thought loud and stood up. When she entered the kitchen everyone was sitting by the table and starring at something that should be food.
"Good morning Lexie!" Meredith welcomed her and put a plate with this something and a glass orange juice in front of her.
"Good morning!" she meant and sat down, starring at the plate.
"Meredith made scrambled eggs for you.." Derek said and smiled.
"Eggs...?" she asked and Meredith looked confused.
"You don´t like eggs right?" she asked disappointed.
"No, no,..I love eggs...eggs are great..." Lexie lied and put up the fork. Mer smiled and turned around to make the dishes. Alex and Izzie looked at each other and then to Derek who tried the eggs with hopeful eyes. But as soon as he chew his face expression went from happy to awkward. Izzie, Alex and Lexie watched him how he nearly threw up but then finally gulped it. Lexie starred at the eggs and then at Meredith and decided to eat them because she didn´t want to hurt her feelings. Alex stood up, took Izzie´s and his plate and carried it to the sink.
"You didn´t eat one bite.." Meredith meant and Alex looked at the clock.
"We´re late.." he said quickly and he and Izzie left the room.
Lexie and Derek looked at each other with tortured eyes and ate everything that was on their plate just to make Meredith happy.
Later in the hospital Lexie felt the consequence of the eggs. She went to doctor Bailey, who checked some scans and asked for epinephrine. Bailey told her where it was and Lexie searched for it but couldn´t find it.
"Hey.." Mark said and Lexie looked up.
"Hi." she said quickly but didn´t turn around so he couldn´t see her face.
"I wanted to talk to you about yesterday..I...I didn´t..." he started but was distracted by her searching for something in the nurses car. "What are you doing?"
"I´m searching for epinephrine." she answered still not showing her face.
"Why would you search for epinep- ahh!" Mark screamed when she finally turned around and he saw the rash on her face. "What happened to you?!"
"I´m an adult child of an alcoholic that´s what happened to me. I have boundary issues. So when Meredith made me eggs this morning I could not not eat them. I had to pretend that I wasn´t allergic to eggs and now I have a rash covering my entire body!" she admitted and scratched her shoulder. Mark nodded.
"There is no epinephrine!" he said and grabbed her arm. "Come with me!" he continued and pulled her into the storage room.
"Sit down." he said and pushed a plastic box in her direction and she sat down. Then he took a sterile needle and shot, pulled up some epinephrine and injected it to Lexie.
"Ow...thank you.." she said and Mark smiled.
"You´re welcome. So you are allergic to eggs. I never knew that. I almost made you a sandwich with eggs"
"Yeah I don´t really want to boast about my special effects." she smiled and Mark laughed. For a few seconds it was silent.
"I missed you last night." he said and looked down at his shoes.
"I missed you too.." Lexie replied and Mark looked her in the eyes.
"I don´t want to propose, I never wanted. I mean someday yes sure, but yesterday I wanted to give you these." he explained and gave her the tiny black box. Lexie opened it and saw three keys.
"I thought you are living there for two weeks now and everytime you have to knock at the door. I love you and I want to live with you so one for the main entrance, one for the cellar and one...one for the door to my apartment. Our apartment."