"We´re here." Derek meant and pulled the parking brake. Izzie nodded. After Derek´s words she decided to get the treatment. So he drove her to the hospital that night, because she didn´t want that everybody knows about her illness. They went into the hospital to the oncology department. Izzie crossed her arms over her chest and started fighting her tears. Derek noticed it and laid his arm around her. As soon as she felt it she looked at him and smiled and he smiled back. They walked towards doctor Bailey and Webber who turned around and watched them coming. Izzie now looked confused and stopped walking.
"I told them." Derek admitted.
"Why?" Izzie asked shocked and mad.
"I´m the best neurosurgeon but you maybe also need the best general surgeons. Izzie you can´t win this battle alone! You have to accept help." he answered and offered her his hand. She looked at him still crossing her arms and fighting with tears. She nodded and took his hand and they went to Bailey and Webber. They took her to a patient room where she sat down on the bed and looked around.
"Okay so let´s talk about my options." Izzie sighed and looked at the three doctors.
"Doctor Stevens, maybe you want to rest first...we could also talk about this tomor-" Bailey started but Izzie cut her off.
"Izzie...call me Izzie...now where we have to spend a lot of time together. I couldn´t get rest since I saw Denny the first time. So please...tell me about my options."
"Okay..." Bailey meant and looked at Webber before she sat down next to her resident. "As you know it´s not advisable to do a chemo during pregnancy. But babys are survivable off the sixth month. So we thought we would do a c-section and then treat your cancer." Izzie looked down at her shoes.
"Of course we know that this isn´t the best way to give birth to your child...and..and the surviving chance would be better if we would wait till the seventh month...but...um..maybe you...won´t.." Webber continued.
"Maybe I won´t survive till then." Izzie finished his sentence and he looked down at his shoes nodding. "Well, I think this is the only way right? I mean Lexie Grey also thought that this would be the best idea. And I´m officially in the sixth month since yesterday. So when do we start?"
"Good morning!" Lexie greeted Mark when he came to the kitchen.
"Morning?" he yawned "It´s 3 am!"
"Sorry I woke you up. Izzie Stevens paged me. I should come to the hospital right now." Lexie said and pour some coffee into her cup.
"What is that between you and Izzie Stevens? You meet before your shift starts, you have to do `research´ for her, you and all the other interns worked for her for a whole week and nobody knows why. Are you two a secret lesbian couple?" Mark asked smirking. Lexie choked on her coffee and coughed.
"What?" she replied when she could breathe again. "No! It´s...personal stuff. She ...she needs a friend right now."
"She has Meredith and Christina and..and Alex he´s her boyfriend. Why you? Why does she need you all the time?" Mark asked mad because Lexie didn´t want to tell him what´s up.
"Damn it! Mark!" Lexie replied angrily and loud. "She´s sick! Really sick! She´s pregnant and has cancer! And I´m...I´m the one who found out!" Lexie started crying and Mark looked shocked.. "I´m the one who destroyed her life with one diagnose. I´m the only one who knows about it – so yeah she only has me to talk about it!" Mark nodded and came closer to his girlfriend and put his arm around her. She started crying and laid her head on his chest.
"It´s okay...Everything´s gonna be okay!" he tried to comfort her.
"I really need to go now." she said after finishing crying.
"You can´t drive in this condition. I´m going to drive you to the hospital." Mark meant and went to his closet to put on a pair of jeans and a shirt.
"No..You don´t have to do this! Your shift starts in a few hours. You should sleep!" Lexie tried to stop him but also was happy about his decision.
"I can sleep in the hospital too!" Mark said when he came into the living room again and put on his shoes.
"You will regret this when you wake up there with backache."
"I would regret it if you would have a car accident because you pay more attention on Stevens than on the street!" he explained and opened the door. He showed her with his hand to come and so she did and they drove to the hospital. Then they went in and to the oncology wing where Izzie wanted to meet Lexie.
"I think it´s better if you´re not coming with me." Lexie admitted and Mark nodded.
"I´m in the on-call room over there if you need me." Mark kissed his girlfriend softly and went into the room to get some sleep. Lexie went into the patient room Izzie sent her and was shocked by what she saw.
"Holy Shit! Izzie?" she asked unable to believe what she saw. Izzie was lying in the bed in the patient´s clothes. "You decided to fight?"
"Well, it kinda looks like that right?" she replied. Lexie nodded and came closer.
"So why did you page me?"
"I want you to promise me that you will assist in every operation and that you will take care of Alex. He will be tired and sad and...and terrified. I know he has Meredith but she doesn´t know about...this yet. So please will you promise me that?" Izzie wanted to know and Lexie nodded again. "Okay." she whispered.
"So what´s the plan?" Lexie asked when she finally stood by her bed.
"Well, tomorrow I will get a c-section and then I will get some rest and two days later we start with the treatment and operation." Izzie explained.
"Are you scared?..I mean of course you´re scared but...you know...are you afraid of dying?" Lexie stuttered.
"Yes."
"Alex!" Meredith yelled upstairs. "We need to go to the hospital!"
"What? It´s my free day today! And it´s 6 am! I want to sleep!" he replied shouting.
"It´s about Izzie! Come!" Now Alex noticed that Izzie wasn´t lying beside him. He ran down the stairs where Meredith was already waiting.
"Did something happen? Where is she?" he asked shocked.
"Just put on some clothes and then let´s go!" Meredith ordered and so they did. After a few minutes they arrived in the hospital where Derek was already waiting.
"Where is she?" Alex asked out of breath.
"Follow me!"he answered and they went to the oncology wing. Alex ran into Izzie´s room and woke her up.
"Iz! Izzie!" he cried and she woke up shocked.
"Why are you screaming? And why are you crying?" she asked confused and tired.
"I thought you died! I thought something terrible happened." Alex explained and hugged her.
"No! I´m fine. Well, kinda.." she meant and Alex calmed down and sat down next to her.
"What are you doing here?" Meredith asked finally because nobody told her yet.
"Let´s go outside." Derek said and they left Alex and Izzie.
"Izzie is sick. She has metastatic melanoma which spread to her brain and maybe other organs too. We´re going to do some tests after we delivered her baby. Lexie will assist on every operation and I´m going to be in the o.r. the whole time." Derek explained and Meredith looked shocked.
"What?" she asked quietly and stared at her fiancé. "But she never told-"
"She wanted to keep it a secret. To give birth to her child and not fight. I changed her mind." Derek meant and laid his hand on Meredith´s cheek. "She´ll survive this. We are going to save her." she nodded.
"They are going to do a c-section today." Izzie meant looking at her hands and playing with her fingers nervously.
"So I become a father today.." Alex noticed and also looked on her hands. Izzie nodded.
"You have to take care of our little boy...and if I won´t make it-"
"Stop! You are going to survive this! There´s no excuse!"
"Alex.."
"No!" he shouted and took her hands. "You´re not going to die. You will fight the cancer and we will be the best parents ever!" Izzie smiled and put her hand on his cheek.
"I love you!" she meant and kissed him soft.
"Hey guys." Lexie meant when she came in and interrupted their kiss. "I´m sorry...I have to check your vitals."
"You are checking them every thirty minutes. Don´t you want to get some sleep?" Izzie asked giggling.
"I want to be sure if everything´s fine." she replied smiling and yawned.
"You won´t get to operate if you´re not going to sleep. Alex is a doctor too. He can check my vitals and you...go get some sleep!" Izzie order and Lexie chuckled.
"Okay.." she meant and went to the on-call room Mark was sleeping. She laid down beside him and he woke up.
"Hello stranger.." he yawned smiling and put the blanket over her. "Ready with stalking Stevens?" Lexie laughed.
"She sent me to get some sleep. So I´m here." she meant putting her head on his naked chest. Mark smirked.
"Then good night.." he meant and kissed her head before falling asleep again.
"Owen?" Meredith asked when he walk by.
"Oh hi Mer." he replied.
"How´s your hand?"
"Um...okay..yeah it hurts sometimes but it´s okay."
"Does Christina already know that you are hurt so bad?"
"No...she...she doesn´t need to know that...she will say it was her fault and it wasn´t. I could have be more careful." Meredith nodded.
"Should I check if it´s really healing?"
"No thank you. I have to go to the e.r. now. Bye!" he answered quick and left her behind.
Mark´s pager went on and he tried to stand up and leave to room without waking his girlfriend. He made it and left the room and went to the e.r.
"You paged me?" he asked Owen when he entered the room.
"Yeah it´s a 16 – year old boy with inner bleeding and second and third degree incineration. Did someone page peds?" Owen explained stressed.
"Okay I will take a look." Mark said and looked at the burned parts of the boy´s body.
"Okay what´s the matter?" Callie asked when she entered the room.
"Oh I´m sorry...we wanted doctor Robbins to come." Owen meant confused and Mark looked at her.
"Yeah she´s...she doesn´t have time right now...I´m here and I´m going to tell her what the problem is." Callie lied because she knew that Arizona wasn´t able yet to operate another kid after she lost Abby.
"What?" Owen asked still confused. "Um...okay...Just examine him."
"And? What was the problem?" Arizona asked while she cleaned the room.
"It´s a sixteen year old boy with inner bleeding and incineration." Callie explained while going down the hallway.
"Okay...Miller can operate him." Arizona meant and went to the kitchen.
"Are you serious? You lost a patient. Everybody does. Just come to work again. I´m sick of calling you and tell you about every patient to hear that you won´t help them." Callie explained mad.
"I can´t...that girl...it was too much for me...just tell Miller he has to do it." Arizona said still sad and opened the fridge.
"Arizona! I´m not going to do this anymore!" Callie whispered angrily into her phone.
"Calliope I have to hang up."
"Arizona! Ari-" Callie meant but she already hang up. Callie put her phone into her bag and went to Miller to tell him that he has to do it. Arizona took a bottle of water and drank from it. She stayed at Callie´s after they lost Abby and didn´t want to go to work. Callie called her the whole day and told her the vitals of her patient´s and when someone wanted her for an consult she also called and every time Arizona said no. Arizona sat down on the couch and switched on the TV and watched the last nights episode of `American Bake-of´.
"Okay guys we should operate him now! His abdomen is full with blood from his damaged portal vein." Owen said when he did an ultra sound.
"Okay page me when you finished then I will take care of his incineration." Mark meant and stood up putting off his gloves and leaving the room after Owen nodded. He gave Miller the chart and he and some residents went to the o.r.
"Doctor Hunt? Are you coming?" Miller asked.
"Oh I think you can handle this alone. Page me if you need something." Owen explained because he wasn´t allowed to operate and the team left the room. Owen stayed and cleaned the room a bit till Christina came in.
"Hello?" she asked confused as she saw Owen cleaning up and not going with the team to scrub in. "What are you doing here?"
"I´m cleaning the room."
"I noticed that...but why are you here and not in the o.r.?" Christina asked pointing on the door.
"Oh I didn´t want to.." Owen lied.
"You didn´t want to? Are you kidding me?" Christina asked sarcastically.
"Yeah I want to take a break. Just for a week or so." Owen lied and it really hurt him that he did this. Christina nodded suspicious.
"Are you hiding something from me?"
"No!" she nodded again when her pager went on.
"Okay I have to go...Izzie needs my help." she meant and looked at Owen still not believing that he´s telling her the truth before she left.
"You paged me?" Christina asked entering the patient´s room Izzie was and looking on her pager. "What do you – oh my god Izzie? You fight?"
"Why is everyone so surprised about that?" Izzie asked acting like she would be mad. Christina started smiling and blinking because she couldn´t believe it.
"That´s great! So how´s the plan?" Christina asked.
"Well, today I´m going to have a c-section and then in a few days we start the treatment so, scans, operations, chemo or something like that. I´m going to have a nice chat with the head of oncology in twenty minutes. I paged you because I wanted to thank you for helping me and I want you to be the smart one of all my friends." Izzie explained.
"The smart one?" Christina raised an eyebrow while asking.
"Yeah,...Alex will freak out and Lexie promised me to take care of him but she is really emotional and Meredith will also be super sensible. You´re not...you´re tough. Please take care of all of the. And you have to be the one who knows when the time is to let go." Izzie said and Christina came closer.
"Are you asking me to be the one who stops life support?" Christina wanted to know and Izzie nodded.
"I already signed the papers. When something happens I don´t want to have life-sustaining measures. But I need a doctor to sign it too. I don´t want to ask Bailey or Webber. I want to ask you."Izzie meant and hold the papers towards Christina. But she shook her head.
"No Izzie! You can´t be serious...You don´t want this...this is just nervousness speaking out of you...You not really want to-"
"I want...I thought about it since the day I found out about this. I thought about my options and I don´t want to lie here and not to be able to do something, to communicate or breathe on my own. If I have a heart attack, or if I´m gonna fall into coma or something, I want that you stop the life supporting machines!" Izzie explained still holding the papers towards Christina who felt the tears coming up into her eyes. She took them and read it.
"You really want this?" she asked again and Izzie nodded. Christina sighed and took a pen and signed it. "Here." she said and gave it to Izzie who smiled weakly.
"Okay Izzie...we need to prepare you for the c-section now. Doctor Yang if you would leave us now please?" a nurse meant and lead her to the door. Christina looked at Izzie with questioning eyes and she nodded so Christina left.
Lexie woke up after hours when she suddenly didn´t feel Mark´s arm around her. She looked around and after a look at her watch she saw that it was nearly 3 pm – Izzie´s operation started soon. She jumped out of the bed and ran to Izzie´s room but she was already in the o.r. So Lexie ran to the o.r. wing and saw that the gynecologist who operated Izzie just finished getting sterile. She entered the room with the sink and the gyn asked her where she has been.
"I´m sorry I...I...I´m sorry but now I´m here. Is she still awake?" Lexie excused herself and the gyn nodded annoyed. Lexie went into the o.r. where Izzie was already lying and getting nervous.
"Hey.." she said as she saw Lexie who came closer and took her hand.
"Ready?" she asked and Izzie smiled.
"Now that I know you´re here yes." Lexie had to smile too.
"Doctor Grey! If you don´t mind please scrub in that we can start." the gyn meant mad and Lexie looked at Izzie and told her that everything will be fine and left her again to scrub in.
Two hours later Izzie woke up surrounded by her friends.
"Hey.." she said huskily and Alex who sat on her bed started crying. "How´s it going?" Everybody laughed.
"Everything was fine. We welcomed a healthy little boy at 3.45 pm. He´s strong for what he made through. He was not able to breathe alone so we had to do an intubation, but he´s stable for now and we are looking forward that he´ll breathe on his own soon." Lexie explained and Izzie smiled.
"Could you see him yet?" she asked Alex and he nodded.
"Yeah...he´s beautiful. He got your eyes." Alex smiled while crying and Izzie put a hand on his cheek.
"Do you already know how you want to call him?" Meredith asked snoopy.
"I thought about Denny." Izzie meant and everybody got quiet.
"Denny?" Christina asked.
"Are you sure?" Meredith wanted to know.
"I think Denny is a great name." Lexie meant but nobody respond to her and she didn´t understand why everybody was shocked. "Um...I´m sorry but have I missed something?"
"Are you sure you want to call our son after you dead fiancé?" Alex asked confused and Lexie looked at her sister as she heard that who looked at her too and told her that she would tell her later.
"Without him I wouldn´t lie in this bed. I would still sit at home on the couch drinking beer, while having headache and thinking about how I gained these pounds. I want to keep him and what he did for me...for us in honor." Izzie explained and Alex nodded.
"Okay.." he agreed and turned around to Meredith. "Could you tell the ped nurses that our child´s name is Denny?" She nodded and took Lexie with her and on their way she told her the story of Denny Duquette and Izzie Stevens. Christina also left to give them a little bit time together and went to the nurse´s desk to do the charts.
"Christina?" Owen meant as he stood next to her and looked at her with his eyes full of sorrow. "I think you know it already but...I´m not operating because I want to take a break."
"Really? What a surprise!" Christina answered sarcastically and mad and gave the chart to the nurse and went away.
"Chris-...Christina!" Owen called her and ran after her. "I have a damaged nerve." he said when he grabbed her hand and stopped her from running away. She looked confused and switched gaze between his hand and face. "From the chicken you wanted to make. I put it out of the oven and burned my hand. Remember? Well, as it turned out it wasn´t just burned. It damaged a nerve. Nothing terrible. Meredith examined me and gave me some drugs and said I´m not allowed till it´s okay."
"Why didn´t you tell me?" Christina asked as she took his hand and looked at the place he had some burned skin.
"I didn´t want you to feel guilty. I made a mistake." Owen admitted and Christina looked at him.
"You didn´t do anything wrong. I thought I could cook." she meant.
"No it was my fault. If I wouldn´t have joined the army again, I wouldn´t have needed to do the therapy and you wouldn´t have cooked for me." Owen explained and Christina shook her head.
"Stop! It´s not your fault. It´s mine. You don´t have to excuse your acting." She meant and kissed him softly.
"Get up!" Callie said mad when she entered her apartment and saw Arizona sitting on the couch and watching TV.
"What?" Arizona asked confused about Callie´s tone.
"I said get up!" she repeated. "I don´t know what happened in your youth and I don´t know why you loved this patient so much but I know that this isn´t the right way to handle it. So get up. Now!" Arizona stood up a little bit afraid and Callie switched off the TV. "Now. Put on you boots and jacket!" she said.
"Calliope..-" Arizona meant confused but Callie showed her to shut up and pointed on her clothes. Arizona put them on and waited for another command.
"No come with me." Callie meant and left the apartment Arizona following her. They sat in Callie´s car and drove away.
"Where are we going?" Arizona asked but Callie didn´t answer. "Calliope!"
"Just wait for it!" Callie replied and concentrated on the streets. It was already dark and Arizona only saw the streetlights.
"Are you driving me into the wood? I hate camping!" Arizona meant but Callie didn´t reply. A few minutes later they stopped and Callie left the car and so did Arizona.
"What´s that?" Arizona asked and pointed on a trailer. "That´s Derek Sheperd´s trailer. I asked him if I could borrow it for tonight." Callie explained.
"Camping...great.." Arizona meant.
"Not really. But first you are going to process your grief." Callie ordered and pointed on a place where wood and a ax lay. Arizona looked at her and asked if it´s going to be what she thought and Callie nodded.
"Hey..."Mark meant when he went to the newborn ICU where Lexie was sitting by Izzie´s child. "He´s beautiful."
"Yeah he is" Lexie agreed and hold his little hand.
"Where´s Alex?" Mark asked still looking at Lexie and the newborn.
"His getting some coffee." Lexie replied looked to Mark.
"You want to drive home?" Mark asked and Lexie bit on her lip.
"Izzie asked me to take care of Alex and he´s overstrained with the whole situation." Lexie explained.
"It´s okay. I´ll be here tomorrow at 11 am. Call me if you need something and you´ve got a key so...see you later. Love you." Mark kissed his girlfriend and left again.
A few moments later Alex came with to cups of coffee and gave one to Lexie.
"Thank you." she said as he sat down next to her and they looked at the baby. They started talking about Izzie and what´s going to be next and the baby and suddenly Alex started crying.
"Oh no...I didn´t want to make cry.." Lexie tried to comfort him and put her arm around him.
"It´s okay...I just...I don´t know what I would do without her...she´s the best thing that´s every been mine...I can´t live without her..." Alex sobbed and Lexie nodded. "Thank you for being here for me.." he meant and looked at Lexie who still had her arm on his shoulder.
"No problem!" she answered and hugged him. Alex wasn´t really a fan of hugs but this one helped him. After a while they stopped it and Lexie pulled away. She looked at him with a comforting smile and suddenly Alex leaned over and kissed her.