It was rainy. In Seattle it was almost always raining. The rain drops hit against the windows of the Seattle Grace hospital. Some babies were crying and the parents carried them through the newborn ICU. Alex´ hand was placed on Lexie´s cheek and her eyes were opened wide. His lips were on hers and she could feel his tears streaming down his face. Lexie was totally overstrained and didn´t know what to do for a second. After some weird seconds she pushed him away.
"Alex!" she meant confused while her cheeks turned into a deep red. "I...I..I have a ..Mark he´s...he´s my...and you have Izzie.." she stuttered. But Alex didn´t say anything and leaned over to kiss her again but this time she could push him away before it happened a second time.
"Alex!" she said louder now and hold him away.
"I´m sorry...I just...I need...just one time..." Alex begged still crying. Lexie shook her head shocked and stood up.
"I..I´m sorry I have to go now." she explained quickly and left the ICU. She ran to the interns locker room and put her hands on the sink. She hold it as hard as she could and didn´t know what to do know. She took her toothbrush and brushed her teeth. After Lexie finished the first round she decided to do a second one. She felt dirty and guilty. It´s not my fault...I just wanted to comfort him...I didn´t want him to kiss me...Lexie thought and went to her locker to change into her normal clothes. Then she called a cab because Mark and she drove with the same car. Tears started to roll down her cheeks and she tried to not cry out as loud. Lexie thought about what she could tell Mark or if she should even tell him.
"We´re here." the cab driver said and Lexie nodded. She gave him the money and left the cab. Before she entered the house she took a deep breath and a few moments later she stood in the apartment. Quietly she sneaked through the apartment to the bedroom and opened the door as quiet as possible. She stepped in looking at her hot, sweet boyfriend lying the bed sleeping. She went a little bit closer and watched his chest going up and down when he was breathing. She closed her eyes and sighed. She was tired and exhausted and really wanted to sleep because she knew she would need power for Izzie but felt to guilty to sleep with him in a bed and also wanted to take a shower. Because she didn´t want to wake him she went to Callie´s and knocked a few times but nobody opened her. She decided to call her.
"Hello?"
"Callie? Good your awake. Could you please open me the door? I want to take a shower and Mark´s already sleeping."
"I would if I could but I´m not home!"
"Are you at the hospital? For how long? Please I need to get something off of me."
"Lexie...Before you called I was about to have hot sex with my girlfriend in a trailer..."
"I don´t want to know that..."
"The key is under the doormat."
"Thank you. Oh and have fun!"
"Lexie?"
"Mhm?"
"Don´t say that ever again!" Callie meant and hang up. Lexie looked under the doormat and took the key to enter the apartment and took a long hot shower. She let the water flow into her face and washed her hair. After a half hour she left the shower and hushed into her apartment and dressed into her sleeping clothes and laid down into the bed but on the edge with her face outside of it.
"Who was that?" Arizona asked when Callie entered the room again.
"Not important.." Callie explained and kneed on the bed and laid over Arizona and kissed her.
"Calliope.." she giggled. "Who was that?"
"Lexie Grey." Callie replied fast and kissed her again.
"What? Is something with Izzie´s baby?" Arizona asked worried.
"Izzie´s baby?" Callie asked confused and stopped trying to kiss Arizona. "She is pregnant?"
"Was. We delivered her baby today." Arizona answered.
"No Lexie called because she wanted to take a shower in my apartment." Callie explained and Arizona nodded.
"Then let´s not talk about the others!" she meant and pulled Callie on her again and kissed her passionate.
Christina and Owen laid in a bed of an on-call room and kissed each other real passionate. He laid on her and softly pulled off her clothes. Christina took his shirt and pulled it off of him while she spread her legs. His hand stroked her body up to her arm till he reached her hand where he crossed his fingers around hers. Owen started kissing her neck and Christina moaned quietly. Owen went down to her thigh kissing her body the whole way down. She started moaning as quietly as she could to not get attention from the people outside. He paid full attention in the area southern the equator while she stroke his ginger hair.
"God Owen...I´ve missed you so much." she whispered with closed eyes.
"I was here the whole time." Owen meant confused but didn´t stop his work.
"Yeah but not like that." Christina giggled because she almost had an orgasm. "Okay stop it!"
"What...Wasn´t it good?" Owen asked when his head showed up under the blanket.
"No it was good...too good...we want to have some more fun than that right?" Christina smirked and Owen went up her body and kissed her as passionate as always. Their tongues started something like a fight and Christina put his pants off. The actions got hotter and hotter and then Owen entered her and Christina moaned louder than before. After twenty minutes full of fun they leaned back and breathed heavily. Christina looked at her watch when she saw that she was too late for the ward round. She stood up and put her clothes on again not reacting to Owen´s question where she would go.
"Christina!"
"I have to go and check Izzie." she meant while quickly giving him a kiss and leaving the room. She brushed through her hair with her fingers but it didn´t work and so she tied them up to a low ponytail. She stepped into Izzie´s room and went to the monitors when she noticed Izzie smiling and watching Christina.
"What?"
"You had sex."
"I don´t know what you´re talking about."
"You do. You´ve got the after-sex glow. And I could hear you. The on-call room is across my room. And...and I don´t know why you didn´t notice it yet but..you´re wearing navy blue pants. The resident´s pants are light blue." Izzie chuckled and Christina looked down her body.
"It was dark." she answered quickly and ashamed.
"It isn´t a shame. I also had sex. That´s why I got pregnant. And I´m bored. Tell me...is Owen a good kisser?"
"I´m not going to talk about my boyfriend and how his qualities in bed are. Where´s your boyfriend?"
"He´s with Denny. Lexie takes care of them and I told him that I want to get some rest and so he left. And now I´m bored."
"Okay...um...I´m not here for your entertainment and my hot, naked boyfriend is still over there so I will get your boyfriend and bring him to you that I can go to mine." Christina smiled and Izzie nodded so she left to get Alex. She went to the newborn ICU where she thought to see Lexie and him but there was nobody with the baby. So she went to the nurse´s desk and asked for Alex and the nurse told her that he ran crying to the toilets. She also went there and entered the men´s restroom where she found Alex standing by the sink and trying to calm down.
"Evil spawn! What are you doing here? Crying in a toilet? That´s a girl-thing!" she made fun of him but as soon as she noticed that he didn´t react she stopped and came closer. "Alex? What´s wrong?"
"I screwed up. I screwed up with Izzie and Lexie and Mark..and with everyone...I screwed up?" Alex cried and Christina came closer.
"What do you mean? What did happen?" she asked confused as she put her hand on his shoulder.
"I´m so screwed. Izzie will never forgive me." Alex explained but Christina didn´t understand.
"I can´t follow your words. What would Izzie never forgive you."
"I screwed up..I cheated on her.."
"You did what?!" Christina asked loud and pulled her hand back. "With whom?"
"Lexie." he meant huskily.
"Have you completely lost your mind?! They are like best friends! And Lexie has a boyfriend!" Christina meant loudly and slapped her friend.
"Ouch!" Alex meant and rubbed his cheek. "I didn´t want to. I was alone and terrified and...and Lexie was there and she hugged me...I didn´t think about it I just...I´m so sorry."
"Izzie just gave birth to your child! And she has cancer! How could you do this?" Christina wanted to know but Alex just shook his head.
"Okay I´m going to page Meredith. She has to choose what you´re going to do. I...I´m overstrained with this." Christina said and did it. A few minutes later Meredith found herself standing in the men´s restroom asking why she was her. Christina pointed on Alex but he didn´t say anything and Meredith switched gaze between them with an asking look.
"He cheated on Izzie." Christina said quickly.
"Christina!" Alex whispered mad.
"You did what? With whom?" Meredith asked confused and loud. Christina looked at Alex and waited for him to say it but he just crossed his arms over his chest.
"With your sister." Christina answered for him and again Alex looked at her mad and Meredith´s eyes opened wide.
"What? If you´re not talking?" Christina explained to Alex and he concentrated on her and didn´t see Meredith coming closer and slapping him.
"Ouch!" he meant and rubbed his cheek again.
"How could you dare to sleep with Lexie? She´s with Mark!" Meredith asked furious.
"I didn´t sleep with her!" Alex admitted.
"He just kissed her." Christina meant with an sarcastic undertone.
"I think now it´s enough!" Alex meant and looked at Christina with mad eyes.
"That´s not better!" Meredith shouted. "How could you do this to Lexie? She´s to emotional for this. Oh my god..Izzie! How could you do this to her?"
"I didn´t want to!" Alex tried to make it better but it didn´t work.
"God! And now? Should we tell her?" Meredith asked the two.
"We don´t do anything. It´s his fault." Christina meant and pointed on Alex who gave her a mad look again. "Shit I told Izzie I would bring you to her. And Owen – he´s still waiting for me."
"It´s okay you can go. I will do this." Meredith explained and Christina nodded and went to the door.
"You were right evil spawn." she said when she turned around and looked at Alex "You screwed up."
"Screw you!" he yelled after her.
"Hey! It´s not her fault that you can´t let your tongue in one girl´s mouth! God Alex! Why? And why my little sis?" Meredith asked with a tortured gaze.
"I don´t know why or why her. I was alone and she was there...Mer I´m so sorry.." Alex tried to excuse his acting but knew that it didn´t help.
"Okay...I...I don´t know what to do but you should tell Izzie soon...maybe she´ll understand it." Meredith meant and also left. Alex splashed some cold water into his face and tried to look focused. Then he went to Izzie´s room but she already fell asleep and so he sat down in the bed next to her and also fell asleep soon.
Derek laid in his bed and slept when Meredith came home. She quietly stepped into the bed and put her arm around him. He woke up from this and turned around and looked his love in the eyes.
"Hey." he whispered. Meredith replied this with a smile.
"I love you." Derek smiled.
"I love you too." Meredith answered and kissed him.
"I want to spend the rest of my life with you and our three kids." Meredith pulled away and looked at him weird. "What?"
"Kids?" Meredith asked nervous.
"Yes. I would love to have your babies." Derek smiled.
"You don´t want to have my babies. They will have some malformations or Alzheimer like mother had." Meredith explained.
"Look at Izzie Stevens...Maybe she won´t survive this. I don´t want to wait till it´s too late. I want your crappy babies Meredith." Derek kissed her and she replied the kiss but was unsure if she really wanted it.
Lexie woke up by the sound of Mark cooking. She stretched her arms and legs and stood up smiling because it smelled like bacon and eggs. Memories of the night Mark slept at her place when she was still living with her father. She went to the door which was a little bit open and wanted to step into the living room when she remembered what happened last night. Lexie felt a huge wave of sorrow and went back. She sat down on the bed and buried her head in her hands.
"Lexie! Breakfast is ready." Mark called her from the kitchen but Lexie didn´t reply. "Lexie?" he asked again and she could hear his steps coming closer but still didn´t react. "Lex?" Mark asked when he entered the bedroom and saw her crying sitting on the bed. "What´s wrong?" Mark sat down next to his girlfriend and put his arm around her. He didn´t say anything and just looked at her and she started crying louder. He hugged her and she laid her head on his chest. After some minutes she stopped crying and put her head up and wiped away her tears. She stood up and ran through the room to pick out some clothes.
"I´m sorry...I...have to go to the hospital!" Lexie meant quickly and dressed herself up.
"We have our free day..we would you want to go to the hospital?" Mark chuckled but stopped as he noticed that she really wanted to go. "Lex..What´s wrong with you today?"
"I need to visit Izzie and I want to meet with my dad." Lexie explained dry.
"I thought we could eat some breakfast and then maybe we can visit the space needle." Mark meant. Lexie would have loved to but she couldn´t look him in the eyes because she felt ashamed.
"No sorry...Izzie needs me." Lexie lied because she was scared if Izzie hates her now.
"Um...okay...I...I will drive you." Mark meant and stood up.
"No!" Lexie meant loud and hold her hand out to stop him. "I will drive on my own. Bye." Lexie replied and left the apartment. Mark came one step closer to kiss her but she was already gone.
"Last night was...kinda amusing." Arizona giggled before entering Callie´s apartment.
"Just amusing?" Callie asked trying to hide nervousness that Arizona wasn´t happy coming up.
"No...it was amazing...I´m just not the type who..likes camping." Arizona whispered while coming closer to her girlfriend. Callie smiled and leaned ver to kiss her when she saw Lexie coming out of her apartment and running down the stairs. Callie looked after her and as soon as Arizona noticed that Callie didn´t look at her she turned her head towards the direction she was looking but couldn´t see anything because Lexie was fast.
"What are you looking at?" she asked and turned her girlfriend´s head softly back to her face.
"Nothing...it´s just...um...I should go to Mark. Only for a few minutes. Checking if everything´s alright." she meant and saw Arizona´s smile disappearing. "He´s my best friend." Arizona sighed and nodded.
"I´´m going to make breakfast. And I have to go to work in a half hour so...hurry up!" she smiled and opened the door to Callie´s apartment while she went to Mark´s and knocked at the door. A few seconds later he opened it and looked at her. He nodded and Callie stepped in and saw the beautiful decorated table and the scrambled eggs in the pan.
"What´s going on?" she asked and went through the living room.
"I..I don´t know...Lexie she..she just left...she didn´t even kiss me...I..I´m afraid she will break up with me..." Mark stuttered trying to ignore his tears that wanted to come out of his eyes.
"Mark...she won´t. That girl loves you!" Callie tried to comfort him.
"But what is it? Yesterday everything was perfect and now? What happened that she was so strange today?" he asked now letting his tears stream down his face.
"I...I don´t know. But Arizona is going to work today. I´ll ask her if she can find something out." Callie meant and hugged him. He nodded after pulling away and Callie went into her apartment. She sat down by the table where Arizona already set the table and put a cup of coffee next to Callie´s plate.
"Um..I wanted to ask you something..." Callie began and Arizona took a bite of her bread. "Could you ask Lexie Grey if something´s wrong with her? I think something happened last night." Arizona raised an eyebrow. "Just do it. For me." she nodded and after a look at her watch she stood up.
"I need to go. I have to be at Webber´s office before starting to work...because you know...I was sick." Arizona explained and gave Callie a kiss before leaving.
"I´m glad you´re back doctor Robbins." Webber meant and shook Arizona´s hand. "We´ve got some new patients. Doctor Alex Karev is on your service today."
"Great...could I please have Lexie Grey on my service too?"
"Today´s her free day."
"Really? Because I saw her going to the hospital this morning."
"Um..okay..of course if she´s here you can have her too."
"Great! Then I´m going to go back to work." Arizona meant and left the office and went to the pediatric station where Alex was already waiting.
"Good morning doctor Karev!" she said motivated when she saw him yawning. "Excited?"
"Excited for what?" he asked tired.
"The little humans? Peds?" she asked happily. "You shouldn´t be tired! Peds is hardcore." But Alex just laughed. "What?" Arizona asked sarcastically. "You don´t think peds is hardcore?" Alex bit on his lip to not say anything that would make Arizona mad at him. "We´ll see." she meant and took the charts of her patients and walked to the first room with Alex following her.
"Good morning Bryan!" she said smiling.
"Good Morning doctor Robbins!" the little boy shouted happily while throwing his hands in the air.
"You read the chart?" Arizona whispered to Alex and he nodded yawning. "Okay Bryan...Excited for your first operation?" she asked the boy again who nodded.
"Thank you doctor Robbins that you could arrange this for us." the mother, who sat in her son´s bed meant while stroking his hair.
"Amanda...I told you the first heart that fits will get to your son." she meant smiling before coming closer to the patient. "And today is the great day. I will fly to the hospital the heart you´ll get is and then I come back and doctor Karev and I and implant it into your chest."
The sun light shined into Izzie´s face and she woke up seeing Lexie noting something into her chart.
"Hey." she meant huskily and Lexie looked up.
"Hey. I´m sorry I´m already gone." she meant while turning around and going towards the door.
"Wait! Why?" Izzie asked confused. Lexie´s face turned into a big question mark. Didn´t he tell her? Lexie thought and turned around. She wanted to stay and talk with her friend but she felt to guilty and thought about what she could use as an excuse to leave when her pager suddenly went on. Robbins...thanks god..she thought when she looked at it and then back at Izzie.
"Robbins needs me. I..I..I need to go." she meant quickly and walked out the door before Izzie could answer.
"There you are! Doctor Grey!" Arizona called through the hallways when she saw Lexie coming through the door to peds. Alex turned around and suddenly it got really cold.
"What is she doing here?" Alex whispered to Arizona and pointed on Lexie.
"I paged her. I needed someone who I can trust." she meant and Alex tried to stay calm when Lexie stopped next to him. She also heard her inner voice screaming but tried to look confident.
"Doctor Grey...You and I are flying to the Dillard hospital to get a heart for Bryan Jones. I need doctor Karev to stay here and check his vitals and call me if something changes and to look after my other patients. Can you please do this?" Arizona explained and Lexie nodded. "And doctor Karev?" she said still mad of his thoughts about peds. "You are going to care for every patient and do whatever they want okay?"
"Okay." he meant quietly.
"Doctor Grey? We´re starting in 30 minutes." Arizona meant and left the two behind.
"You didn´t tell her." Lexie said looking down at her shoes.
"Did you?" Alex asked also not looking at her but noticing that she shook her head. "Did you tell him?" she again shook her head trying to avoid crying right now. Alex nodded.
"So that´s it? We´ll leave it like that? Nobody will know and we will carry this burden with us?" she asked ignoring the lump in her throat which caused that she sounded really high.
"Well, I think that´s how it goes." he answered and left her. Lexie looked up on the ceiling taking a deep breath and closing her eyes. She ran into the intern´s locker room and opened the locker to pack some stuff now letting the tears stream down her cheeks.
"Lexie?" Meredith asked when she showed up behind the lockers.
"Mer!" Lexie meant and hid her face behind the locker´s door.
"You want to talk about it?"
"I don´t know what you´re talking about."
"You do. Because I know it. Alex told me last night." When Meredith said these words Lexie felt how the huge wave of sorrow and guilt came over her and she started crying out loud. Meredith noticed it and immediately went to her to hug her. Lexie replied the hug and said how sorry she was.
"I know. I know." her sister meant and stoke through her hair. They stood like that for a few minutes after Lexie calmed down and pulled away.
"I..I have to pack my things for the flight." she said sobbing.
"If you want to I can take over this job." Meredith offered but Lexie disclaimed it.
"It´s okay. I can take this. Just make sure that neither Mark nor Izzie will find out. I will tell them." Lexie said and Meredith nodded. Then they gave a quick hug before Lexie left.
"I heard that it was actually your free day...but why are you at the hospital?" Arizona asked after the plane took up.
"I wanted to check Izzie." Lexie replied while looking out of the window. She hated flying and that she didn´t talk to Mark made it even worse.
"I hate flying. I always feel closer to death on a flight than in the o.r." Arizona admitted smiling but Lexie didn´t react. "That´s why I called Callie before we took off. Did you call Mark?" she asked. Lexie fought with her tears and tried not to show that she´s crying. "To say him that you love him?" Arizona continued and leaned over to see Lexie´s reaction and noticed that she was crying. "Oh god. I´m...so sorry. Did I say something wrong?" she asked and the intern shook her head.
"Can you keep a secret?" she sobbed and the attending nodded. "I didn´t call Mark because I can´t talk to him...I feel so ashamed and guilty..."
"Why?" the blond one asked and put her arm around Lexie to comfort her.
"Alex...he...he kissed me...yesterday..." Lexie cried and Arizona´s eyes opened wide.
"He did what?" she asked shocked. "He´s such a dick." Lexie laughed when Arizona said that and stopped crying.
"Yeah he is...just could you please don´t tell anybody? I want to tell my boyfriend first." Lexie explained and Arizona nodded.
Christina and Meredith met on the hallway and went together to Izzie´s patient room.
"Did evil spawn tell her?" Christina asked and Meredith shook her head.
"I don´t know. But Lexie told me not to tell Izzie so I think she doesn´t know yet. Just don´t mention it." she answered. For a minute it was silent. "Derek wants to have children." Meredith admitted and Christina looked at her surprised.
"And you?" she asked.
"I don´t know. I mean he´s a good father for sure but I? What if I´m like my mother?" she explained and Christina giggled.
"You won´t be. You and Derek would pamper your kids. I am the one who would teach them right." Christina joked.
"You will be a good godmother." Meredith giggled and they laughed and said funny names till they reached Izzie´s room where Alex was sitting and she was holding her hand over her mouth.
"I think he told her." Christina meant serious.
"We should leave them alone." Meredith meant before grabbing her best friend´s hand and turning around leaving.
"Again..." Izzie said looking at her hands.
"It was yesterday night. I was terrified and sad. She was there and tried to comfort me. I couldn´t stop crying so she kissed me. I stopped her immediately. She wanted to do it again but I left. I´m so sorry I didn´t tell you earlier but I had to deal with it. " Alex explained. "Izzie I love you and I would never cheat on you. I don´t know what she thought by doing this but I-"
"But that doesn´t make any sense." Izzie cut him off. "This girl is madly in love with Mark Sloan."
"I don´t know why she did it. Important is that you know that I didn´t want it and that I stopped it as soon as my brain noticed what just happened." Alex explained and his girlfriend nodded. She closed her eyes and took a deep breath before telling him that he should leave her alone.
"But I-" he tried to defend himself but she showed him with her hand to stop.
"Please. I need to think about it." she meant and he nodded while leaving the room.
"Doctor Stevens? Hey I don´t want to disturb you. Do you know where Lexie is?" Mark asked when he entered Izzie´s room who had red eyes of crying.
"Why should I?" she asked angrily and Mark got confused.
"Well, because she meant she would be here at the hospital to check you." Mark explained but Izzie had to chuckle.
"If she had been here the last 20 minutes I would have probably killed her." Izzie said and Mark wondered why she was so angry.
"Um...why?" he asked not prepared for what came next.
"Because she kissed my boyfriend. She kissed Alex last night."