The curtains were closed, the room was dark. Lexie laid in her bed, staring at the ceiling without moving. The thoughts about Mark, Alex, the kiss and the lies told about her ran through her head uncontrollable. Was that the end of our relationship? Lexie thought while she felt the dried tears on her cheek. She cried so much that not even one tear came out of her eyes.
"Eileen!" Thatcher yelled from the kitchen. "Eileen come down...now!" he shouted switching the pitch of his voice.
"Eileen?" Lexie said to herself wondering why he called for her mother. She stood up slowly and opened the door to hear that he cursed because nobody replied. She went to the kitchen and saw her dad reeling.
"Dad?" she asked huskily and when he turned around she noticed the bottle of whisky in his hand only half full.
"Eileen!" he giggled happily and threw up his arms.
"Lexie...I´m Lexie...your daughter. Mom died two years ago...Are you drunk?" she wanted to know and looked at him disappointed.
"No she´s not! She´s standing in front of me! Shut up Eileen!" he yelled at his daughter.
"Dad! I´m not Eileen. I´m Alexandra Caroline Grey. I´m your daughter!" she tried to explain but Thatcher just shook his head.
"Shut up! You´re Eileen! You´re my wife!" he meant looking at the bottle. Lexie got mad.
"Dad! You were sober for like three months. What happened?" she asked loud.
"Shut up!" he yelled and suddenly Lexie felt his hand hitting against her cheek. She threw her head to the other side and tears came up when she felt the pain and realized what her dad just did – he slapped her.
"Oh my god..Eileen..I..didn´t want to hurt you...I.."
"It´s Lexie! I´m your daughter mom died...why are you drun-" and again Thatcher slapped his daughter but this time harder that she got a small cut on her cheek. The pain allotted through her whole body and her blood began boiling. She turned around and ran upstairs to get her bag which she fortunately didn´t unpack and ran to the door.
"Eileen! Wait! Please forgive me!" Thatcher shouted but Lexie just left the house by slamming the door close and sat down into her car. As she sat on the driver´s seat she let her tears stream down her face and took a tissue to stop the blood running out of the cut and examined if she needs to get sewed. After Lexie checked that sewing wasn´t necessary she searched for a band aid in the glove box but all she found was one with a pink Hello Kitty on it. She sighed and sniffed while putting it on the cheek and starting the engine after finishing her professional work and drove to the hospital in the hope to find Mark and tell him that everything was a big big misunderstanding.
"You did what?" Callie asked loud and mad.
"I´m tired...the surgery took longer than I wanted can you please let me sleep?" Arizona asked pretending to yawn but in fact only wanted to avoid this conversation.
"Not till you explain me how you thought this would work out!" Callie meant still loud and now pulling away Arizona´s blanket.
"What´s your Problem Calliope?!" she shouted back.
"My problem is that you told Colombani that you are going back at Hopkins!" Callie shouted at her girlfriend.
"But when he called me at the airport I told him only to go when they are having a job for you!" Arizona explained. "And they said they got one...so I don´t know why you don´t want to come with me."
"Because I don´t want to leave Seattle. I love my job and I love the Seattle Grace. And Mark´s here too." Callie told Arizona who just shook her head while standing up and looking her girlfriend in the eyes deeply.
"It´s the Hopkins. They pay you almost twice the money you get here. And it´s only a five hours flight. You can visit Mark."
"But it´s not the same! Now I need five seconds to him!"
"Calliope...I can´t understand how you can let this chance pass by."
"And I can´t understand how you can risk your relationship for a hospital you left for the Seattle Grace."
"So you won´t come with me? Even if it means that our relationship ends now?"
"Don´t turn it like I´m the one who ended it. You were it."
"So this is really the end?"
"What do you want more? The job at Hopkins without me or the job at Seattle Grace with me?"
"Calliope..."
"Wrong answer. Yes this is the end."
"Good morning.." Derek meant when Meredith woke up and turned around.
"Are you always watching women sleep?" she giggled and he smiled.
"Only when they are the love of my life." Derek explained and leaned over to kiss her. The kiss got more and more passionate and and Derek rolled onto his love when someone opened the door and stepped in without knocking. Quickly the couple looked at the person shocked.
"Cristina?" Meredith asked quite unhappy to see her now where Derek laid on her.
"Am I interrupting sex?" the woman asked not paying attention to Derek who rolled his eyes when going down from his fiance. "Are you already making babies?"
"I´m going to make breakfast." Derek whispered and gave her a quick kiss.
"Oh no you can stay. I need Mer to come with me. It´s important. About Evil Spawn.." Cristina explained showing with her eyes to leave the room. Meredith nodded and left the bed and went on the hallway with her best friend closing the door behind her.
"What´s up?" she whispered so Derek couldn´t hear them.
"We have to tell Izzie the truth!" Cristina immediately explained.
"But when we do that she will hate Alex. And she has surgery today...that´s not good." Meredith thought loud.
"Would you prefer her to hate your sister? We can´t lie to her." Cristina meant.
"I know...let us tell her after her surgery...that would be in seven hours...hearing about him..where´s Alex?" Meredith asked but Cristina shrugged. "Okay I will get ready and then we can drive to the hospital. Give me ten minutes." Cristina nodded and went upstairs to wait in the kitchen. In the meanwhile Derek came down still in his sleeping clothes, taking a bowl and pouring in some cornflakes. When he opened the fridge to take some milk he first smelled at it – and that was quite a good idea because she wasn´t eatable anymore. He noticed the milk next to Cristina who already ate cornflakes and when he reached out his hand to grab it she shook her head.
"Empty." she meant with her mouth full. Derek rolled his eyes again thinking what he did to earn that and put the cornflakes in his bowl back to the package.
"I´m going to eat something at work." he wanted her to know and went upstairs to change his clothes. In the meanwhile Meredith came down blowing him a kiss and left with her friend.
"Good morning doctor Karev." Bailey meant when he noticed him sitting by Denny. The man fell asleep and woke up by the voice of his attending.
"Good morning doctor Bailey." he answered rubbing his back.
"Izzie´s surgery start´s in a half hour. Don´t you want to wish her sweet dreams or something like that?" the small doctor asked not looking at and concentrating on the babies´ vitals.
"Yeah...in fact I wanted to go now...see you around." he said quickly and ran into his girlfriend´s room.
"Hey.." she greeted him huskily and he replied with a weak smile.
"How are you feeling?" Alex asked worried and Izzie smiled.
"Perfect.." she lied. "Bailey and Webber are going to check my liver today. They think the cancer spread there too."
"Can we please talk about something else?" Alex tried to change the topic.
"How´s Denny going?" she asked and Alex told her how strong he became and that he was a fighter. Izzie smiled and felt happy so he continued. I shouldn´t have lied to her...she makes me happier than anything...But I would have lost her if I told her...Alex thought constantly. Only a few moments later and for the couple a few moments too soon Bailey, Webber and some other doctors came to prepare Izzie for the surgery. Alex hold her hand till the o.r. wing and kissed her for a good bye. Tears came up when he watched her bed rolling through the doors into the sterile zone. He quickly wiped them away when he heard Arizona calling him.
"Yeah doctor Robbins?" Alex sniffed when he turned around to see the blond woman coming to him – not smiling at all which never happened before.
"I need you to check my pre and post op patients." she meant and handed him out a dozen of charts.
"Can´t someone else do this? I´ve got enough to do." he tried to avoid making this work.
"Alex...I´m leaving...today...I´ve got enough to do. And I trust you...you are a good surgeon." Arizona whispered so nobody would pay attention to them.
"Like leaving for a trip or..."
"Forever...or at least a longer time. I´m going back at Hopkins."
"Hopkins? But that´s...why?" he wanted to know.
"They offered me a job and it´s a really good job..." she explained with tears in her eyes.
"Don´t get this wrong but when you´re not here who takes over the pediatric unit? I mean you´re nice...what if an asshole comes?" Alex worried.
"I´m sure Webber finds someone who´s also nice. And you are a good person Alex. You just need to show it." Arizona gave him a weak smile and he also had a little one on his mouth.
"I think you are the only one who thinks this. My only friends hate me."
"So it´s time that you believe it even more because you often make wrong decisions in life but the more you try to fix them the more you become a better person."
"So you´re giving me life lessons before leaving?" Alex joked.
"When you want a life lesson from me here it is: Never do something life changing without discussing it with your girlfriend. Never hurt her even if you thought it was a good idea. Or never do something that could cause the end of your relationship because once done you can´t change it. That´s the life lesson I give you on your way. And now hug me." Arizona taught him.
"What?" Alex asked surprised.
"Hug me. Because I´m going to start crying any second and I don´t want you to see it so hug me for a goodbye." Arizona meant holding back her tears and opening her arms so Alex could hug her and he really did though he wasn´t the hugging type of guy.
"Thank you." she whispered after pulling away a few seconds later and wiping away a tear before leaving him behind.
It was already lunchtime and Izzie´s operation was finished. She laid in her bed slowly opening her eyes to see Alex sitting next to her holding her hand and Bailey and Webber standing by her feet with a serious look.
"What did you find out?" Izzie asked sure to know the answer.
"The liver was as we expected also full with metastases. We took everything out but it will be a longer and more exhausting fight than we thought before." Bailey explained and Izzie nodded.
"Well, that´s good right? There are no more metastases in my liver right?" she tried to let the situation sound more appealing.
"Iz..." Alex meant shaking his head softly.
"No that´s fine...I know it´s bad and that the prognosis is bad but it´s not nothing." Izzie smiled but also cried. She and Alex talked for a while about something different than the cancer and Alex showed her pictures from Denny since she was to weak to see him. After a while when Izzie rested from her narcosis she wanted to go to the cafeteria so Alex helped her into a wheelchair and carried her to the cafeteria.
"Wait!" she said pulling the brake of the wheel chair when they were only meters away from the entrance doors. "I don´t want to go in. I don´t want them to see me so week."
"Should I bring you back to your room?" he asked carrying
"No...No...can you just please go in and take it? I don´t care which food you bring...but I don´t want to go in. I´ll wait here." Izzie said and Alex drove her to the side and gave her a kiss before entering the cafeteria.
In the meantime Lexie looked at her pager. She paged Mark now for dozens of times and he didn´t reply. After looking at the o.r. board, in the on-call rooms and through the whole ENT, burning and plastic units she was near the break down. Her head hurt and with all the stress she had the wound on her cheek didn´t stop bleeding and the Hello Kitty band aid was almost to weak to save the blood from running down her cheek. The girl went towards the cafeteria to get something to drink and to calm down. She tried holding back her tears when Derek came around the corner and she ran to him hoping he knew where his best friend would be.
"Derek! Do you know where Mark is?" she asked exhausted.
"Lexie see I don´t hate you for what you did because you´re now like a sister of mine but please leave Mark alone...he doesn´t deserve something like this." Derek replied and wanted to continue his way when Lexie took him by his hand and turned him around.
"What are you talking about?"
"You know exactly what I´m talking about. Why did you kiss Alex when you were with Mark?"
"Why I...god...I didn´t kiss him! He kissed me!" Lexie yelled so everybody around looked at them. "He kissed me" she continued ignoring Derek´s face which showed her to stop "Alex kissed me...I did nothing...all I did was pushing him away and stopping him to do it again! I don´t know why he lies to everyone but I´m not the whore. He is!" she shouted and not till she stopped the true words coming out of her mouth she noticed that it was quiet around them and Alex stood by the doors of the cafeteria with a tray in his hand switching gaze between Lexie and something behind her. She looked at Derek who already looked down at his shoes and then again at Lexie.
"Izzie..." he whispered and Lexie looked around when her eyes stopped on the blond woman sitting in the wheelchair her brown eyes filled with tears. She lifted the brake and rolled away Alex following her by calling her name.
"Iz...Izzie! Please!" he cried giving Lexie a mad look so she wanted to die at this second.
"Oh my god what did I do?" Lexie asked herself.
"Well, you just told everyone in this hallway the truth." Derek answered and she looked at him with tears in the eyes. "But I don´t know if Mark will believe it too." he continued as he could read her mind.
"Do you know where he is? I could try it at least." she meant with a shaky voice and tears in her eyes.
"He´s not here. He´s at home said he was sick." her brother in law. Lexie nodded and because he told her now she thought he allowed her to see him so she went to her car and drove to Mark´s apartment.
"Izzie! We need to tell you something!" Cristina meant out of breath because Meredith and she ran to her room when they heard that her surgery ended long time ago. They found her sitting in her bed playing with her hands and not looking at them.
"Lexie didn´t kiss Alex...he kissed her." Meredith finally admitted and Izzie stopped playing with her hands and looked at them.
"You knew it? For how long?" she asked not understanding why her best friends didn´t tell her.
"Well, we...um...you already knew it?" Cristina stuttered and looked at Meredith who also was confused.
"Lexie yelled it through the hallway only a few minutes ago. Why didn´t you tell me?" she asked now with a mad undertone.
"We...Alex...he..he told us he would tell you...And then he meant that he told you something wrong...We...we didn´t want you to get nervous right before surgery so...we decided to tell you now." Cristina meant and wanted to sit down beside Izzie but she showed her clearly not to.
"When did he tell you?" she asked the twisted sisters.
"I think a few moments after it happened..." Meredith answered and Cristina boxed her into the side to show her that it didn´t help to tell her that they knew for so long.
"You knew it for two days and didn´t tell me?" Izzie asked loud and angry so her blood pressure got high.
"We...we thought that he told you...We´re sorry Iz but-"
"Stop! Go! I don´t want to see you know."
"Izzie...please..."
"I said now!" she shouted so the doctors and nurses outside looked at them.
"Of course." Cristina meant before closing the door behind her.
"Izzie...you can´t do this alone." Bailey meant when she came in.
"I want to rest now." she replied dryly and turned her head to the other side.
When Lexie finally arrived at Mark´s apartment she got afraid. Will he understand? Will he let me in and talk to him or will he even open the door? She thought the whole time while waiting for the elevator. She became even more nervous as she stood in front of the door. After a few knocks at the door she waited but nobody opened her. The second time Lexie knocked also nobody came to open the door. With the hopeful thought to still have the key she searched in her bag and a few seconds later she found it. Maybe this is a sign of the universe that he will believe me and I have to go in...Lexie thought but it would really have been better if she had left.
7 hours earlier:
"What do you want more? The job at Hopkins without me or the job at Seattle Grace with me?"
"Calliope..."
"Wrong answer. Yes this is the end." Callie meant looking into Arizona´s deep blue eyes and trying not to cry out loud.
"Calliope...Can we please talk about this?" Arizona begged also with tears in her eyes.
"I want you to leave my apartment...now!" Callie said with a shaky voice.
"But-"
"Now!" Callie shouted and couldn´t hold back the tears anymore. Arizona nodded and took her bag where she packed a few clothes she had here. Before leaving she turned around once again and watched Callie still standing in the same position with the back to her.
"I love you..." the blond woman meant and closed the door leaving Callie behind crying.
"I love you too..." she whispered though she knew Arizona couldn´t hear her anymore. Callie went to the kitchen and took out a bottle of vodka and a glass. She looked at the glass then at the bottle and decided that the glass was unnecessary and opened the vodka bottle and took a few sips. A few minutes later she was drunken and danced threw the apartment laughing loud.
"She thinks Hopkins is better than I am? Fine...she can go suck it!" she chuckled not noticing that her neighbor knocked at the door.
"Callie? Everything´s alright?" the male voice asked and though she was drunk she could recognize who it was.
"Markilein!" she shouted happily when she tripped towards the door and opened it to see Mark with red, glassy eyes standing in front of her wondering what she was doing. As she could read his mind she said, "Arizona left me...she went to Hopkins and left me...that´s fine for me..."
"I left Lexie...she kissed Alex and I throw her out of the apartment last night...that´s..really not fine for me.." Mark meant crossing his arms over his chest trying to avoid to cry again.
"Want some vodka?" Callie asked holding out the bottle. Mark nodded and came in taking the bottle and taking two huge sips.
"Argh...that´s hard stuff." he meant and drank a second time.
"You wanna talk?" Callie asked and Mark shook his head sitting down on the couch.
"You?" he asked but his best friend also shook her head and sat down next to him.
"You wanna get drunk?" Callie asked and Mark nodded. "Then...cheers." she continued and looked at Mark who replied her gaze and nodded.
"Cheers.." he meant and put the bottle a little bit higher and drank again this time longer and more sips. Only twenty minutes later they searched for another bottle.
"There it is..." Callie giggled and showed it to Mark who also laughed and throw himself on the couch again while the woman opened the bottle and sat down next to him with her legs on his thighs.
"Arizona is gone for 6 hours and I already miss the sex like hell..." Callie sighed after she made the first sips from the new bottle.
"I miss Lexie too...go our sex was so good.." Mark meant and grabbed the alcohol.
"Women are so complicated." Callie meant shaking her head and Mark nodded holding the bottle at his lips.
"It was so easy with us...just best friends having sex without romantic feelings or something like this crap." she noticed and Mark grinned.
"Yeah it was..." he remembered and looked at Callie who suddenly started laughing. "Why are you laughing at me."
"I´m not laughing at you...I just...it´s stupid.." Callie meant and took the bottle to drink.
"Tell me..." Mark begged.
"I thought that...maybe we could repeat it..." she admitted and watched Mark arching an eyebrow not saying anything. "I told you it was stupid." she quickly added and drank the vodka.
"No it isn´t...let´s do it!" Mark meant surprisingly so Callie nearly choked on the alcohol.
"What? Mark it was just a stupid one-second thought."
"But it´s a good idea. We are both kinda single and hot and horny...let´s do this Callie." Mark meant enthusiastically while his hand glided up and down her leg.
"You think that´s a good idea?" Callie asked unsure if it was Mark or the alcohol that spoke to her.
"Like you said...no feelings involved..." he meant leaning over to her. "Just..." he meant coming closer. "...hot and good..." he came even closer and stopped right in front of her lips. "...sex!" he meant and kissed her. Callie immediately replied the kiss and it got more and more passionate when they involved their tongues and Mark laid his muscular body on his best friend. An hour later Mark and Callie laid in her bed naked and giggling.
"That was good. Like really..good.." Callie smiled.
"Yeah...it...was..." Mark replied and stopped smiling. Of course Callie noticed it and looked at him.
"No, no, no, no! No! You´re not going to think about Lexie now. No! Stop!"
"I´m Sorry Cal...I need to go now."
"No! Mark! Mark stop!" Callie tried to grab his arm but failed and so he stood up and put on his boxer shorts. The two of them were still drunk so he wasn´t able to put on more clothes and went towards the door. Mark opened it, stepped outside and closed it behind him Looking on his feet.
"Mark?" a female voice asked and he looked up from his feet to find Lexie standing by his door with the key in her hand looking at his naked body.
"Lex." he replied quite shocked.
"What are you doing in Callie´s apartment...nake- oh my god." she realized what was going on.
"Lex..." he meant coming closer but she made one step backwards shaking her head.
"I really thought you changed...I thought I made you to a better person."
"Lexie please.." he wanted to grab her hand but she pulled it away.
"Don´t.." she meant before turning around and running down the staircase.
"Lexie!" he shouted after her but she couldn´t her him anymore – or didn´t want to hear him.