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So first of all thank you for 5k reads. I´m so happy, words can´t describe my happiness, and I just want you all to know how much this means to me. I began this as a story just for me to write it how I would have made it or just how I think it would have been great. I hope you guys still like it though – how I could see in the reviews – some of you weren´t happy about Mallie hooking up. I hope you guys won´t hate me for the way it will go on...just stay tuned and please be as active as you are now!

Oh and I thought that from now on the chapters are called like song titles just as in Grey´s Anatomy.

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Feelings are meant to be hurt

Crying Lexie sat on the stairs to Meredith´s house when a car drove into the parking space in front of it.

"Lexie?" Meredith asked when she left the car and her sister looked up from her shoes into Meredith´s blue eyes. "What happened?" she wanted to know and sat down next to her.

"Mark...he...he.." Lexie cried and couldn´t finish her sentence because her voice cracked."It´s okay...you don´t have to tell me...come in you must be freezing." Meredith´s carrying words let Lexie nod and take her sister´s offered hand and stood up and entered the house behind her.

"Come in...you want to drink something? Tea, coffee, beer...tequila?" Meredith offered but Lexie shook her head saying nothing and sitting down on the couch.

"You want to talk about what happened?" she asked and sat down next to her and noticed the band aid on Lexie´s cheek. "Or why you got a pink Hello Kitty on your cheek?"

"It´s not important." Lexie replied sobbing and didn´t notice that the band aid didn´t stick anymore because of her tears.

"Why do you have a cut on your cheek Lexie?" Meredith asked now more serious.

"Like I said...it´s not important..." Lexie answered and looked down at her hands.

"You´re my little sister...everything that hurts you is important." Meredith gave her a comforting smile and Lexie looked at her but quickly on her hands again.

"It was...um..." Lexie bit on her lip nervously and Meredith arched an eyebrow. "It was...dad."

"What?! Oh my god Lexie what happened?" Meredith asked shocked.

"He...was drunk again...he thought I was my mother and I disclaimed it and then...he...he just slapped me." Lexie meant and started crying again while taking off the Hello Kitty and presenting Meredith the cut their dad caused.

"He slapped you?!" the blond one yelled furious and suddenly Alex showed up in the living room and it got quiet. He looked at the sisters with big worried eyes thinking it was Mark who slapped her and feeling a bit lump in size of a lemon in his throat. Lexie looked at him and could barely breathe and covered her face in her hands to not show her tears. Meredith, who was still mad at Alex for lying to Izzie showed him with a soft shaking of her head and her eyes to leave and so he did and went back to his room.

"Why were you with dad?" Meredith asked when Alex was gone and after Lexie looked around if someone was still there she looked at her sister.

"Mark he...he threw me out of the apartment..he believes I kissed Alex not the other way. I tried to tell him today that it´s a lie but he...he just...he had..." Lexie wanted to say but burst out into tears.

"Oh.." Meredith meant overstrained. "It´s okay...everything´s going to be okay."

Alex sat on the edge of his bed looking on a ultra sound picture of Denny. His lips were pressed together and tears were welling up his eyes.

"I love you Iz...please forgive me.." he thought loud with a shaky voice. "I can´t live with you...please forgive me..I´m so sorry for being a jerk and kissing Lexie...please forgive me...please forgive me..please forgive me.." he repeated again and again.

Izzie laid in the patient´s bed looking a a picture of Denny on her phone and pressed her lips together to not make loud noises while crying.

"Why did he do this?" he thought loud. "Why did he kiss Lexie? Why is he such a jerk? I can´t forgive him...he didn´t change since the day we first met...I thought I was the only woman he could live with...I can´t forgive him...I can´t forgive him...but I want...but I can´t.." she repeated again and again.

"Doctor Webber?" Bailey asked knocking at his office door while opening it. All she saw was the elderly man who sat over a big amount of papers and rubbed his forehead.

"I wanted to talk to you about Isobel Stevens." the small doctor explained shyly coming closer. "As we saw in the surgery today the cancer has spread into her liver. More operations and treatments are necessary than we thought before. She can´t afford this. I wanted to asked if we can do some of them pro bono."

"Doctor Bailey...do you see these papers on my desk in front of me?" Richard asked with his typical look and she nodded a little bit afraid. "All these are bills...bills over bills over bills. I recently lost the head of the pediatric unit and other doctors are going as well. We don´t have the money to do something pro bono."

"But-"

"No! I don´t know what we can do anymore to change this. Did you know that we´re number 12 of the best hospitals? Number 12! We´ve got the best neuro surgeon and the best plastic surgeon here and we´re 12th!"

"12th? And why? What can we change?" Bailey asked surprised.

"I..I don´t know...I think we have to cut off some of the program and some saving...hopefully we don´t need a fusion with another hospital." Webber meant leaning back into his chair and rubbing his eyes. "I´ve been here the whole night thinking about the situation and I´ve got a meeting with the employee representation later that day...I hope our plan will work out without...without losing to many doctors."

"A fusion? With which hospital?" Bailey worried and played with her fingers nervously.

"Forget it...that won´t happen...I´m going to talk with the employee representation about Stevens surgeries and treatments. You can go now." Webber replied and concentrated on the bills again while the attending went towards the door. "Oh Miranda?" he asked suddenly and the woman turned around. "Please don´t tell anybody about what I told you...they should concentrate on saving lives and not worry about our financial situation." Bailey nodded and left the office. Once the door was closed she sighed and closed her eyes. Cut someone off of the program...fusion with another hospital..number 12...This doesn´t sound good...Miranda Bailey thought and went to the attending´s locker room after opening her eyes again.

The ringing door bell woke Mark up. Immediately he felt the consequences of last nights drinking – a hangover. Holding his eyes closed because of the sun light he went to the windows and closed the curtains and could open his eyes but the headache didn´t disappear. Slowly he left the bedroom and it knocked on his door again.

"I´m coming." he said quiet and went to the door and opened it. Derek – who was the one who stood in front of his door – raised his eyebrows when he saw his half naked best friend standing there like a sack flour.

"Hard night hu?" he asked sarcastically and Mark turned around and sat down on the couch holding his head while Derek came in and went to the kitchen to bring him a glass with water. "Everything´s alright with you?" Derek wanted to know when he gave him the glass and saw the red and swollen eyes of his best friend.

"I don´t know why she´s mad at me." Mark suddenly said louder and mad.

"Who?" Derek was confused.

"I mean she did it first...and it was over so why not?" he continued obviously talking to himself.

"I have no clue about what you´re talking." Derek admitted still confused.

"I slept with her. And it was great...like really great. And she kissed another man. That´s totally fine. I broke up so why is she upset?" Mark explained still a little bit drunk.

"Wait...so you...no I still don´t understand."

"Lexie caught me and Callie having sex and now she´s upset. But she has no reason why because she was the first one who cheated so I´m out of it."

"You did what?!" Derek asked shocked.

"It´s not unusual to be friends with benefits."

"But not during a relationship!"

"We don´t have one. She showed it to me the second she kissed Alex!"

"She didn´t kiss him!" Derek explained still shocked. Mark was silent for a second till he meant that Derek would say it just because he was against this sex controlled friendship with Callie.

"No...she didn´t kiss him. Alex lied to Izzie. He kissed her and Lexie pushed him away one second later. She was saying the truth the whole time. Mark...you were the one who first cheated." Derek recognized and Mark tried to deal with his thoughts running uncontrollable through his head.

"So she did nothing?"

"Nothing more then pushing him away and being tortured by the rumors."

"Oh my god..." Mark meant and put his hand on his forehead while Derek nodded. "I have to talk to her."

"Mark I think it would be-"

"No! I need to go to work and tell er that I´m sorry and that I didn´t know better than believing the rumors." he interrupted Derek and stood up to find the keys to his car.

"Mark you´re drunk! You can´t drive."

"I don´t care!"

"Mark! Stop! I will drive you."

"Thank you. You are really my best friend."

As soon as they arrived at the hospital Mark ran to the intern´s locker room but couldn´t find his girlfriend. He wanted to run to the cafeteria when Derek grabbed his hand and stopped him.

"Come with me." he meant and pulled him into an empty patient room where he forced him to lay down in the bed. He gave him an infusion so he would be sober sooner.

"Lexie has problem´s with an alcoholic dad...she doesn´t need her boyfriend to be drunk."

"You´re right...just as always." Mark grinned and Derek shook his head smiling softly and then paged Lexie because of a `emergency´.

Callie woke up still naked covered in her sheets with a strong headache.

"Uh...ouch..." she meant pressing her eyebrows together and closing her eyes to avoid the sunlight from making the pain even more. She sat down on the edge of her bed stroking through her hair and trying to keep everything in her stomach when she felt the need to throw up. Her hand on her mouth she tried stopped breathing for a few seconds when she finally sighed. But only one second the feeling was back and this time she ran to the toilet. She was almost too late when she threw up into it. After finishing this disgusting produce she sat down next to the toilet with her knees pulled to her body and holding her head with her arm.

"I will never drink again." Callie promised herself. After a while of sitting on the floor she finally stood up and went to the kitchen where she drank a glass of cold water to refresh her throat. After a little cough she leaned against the table and remembered what last night was going on.

"Oh my god." she said suddenly when she realized with whom she slept. Immediately she put on a shirt and went to the other side of the hallway and knocked on Mark´s door. Nobody opened her and of course she had an extra key and entered the apartment but all she found was a empty bedroom and glass on the couch table. She left the building and took a cab to the hospital because she was still too drunk for driving. Once arrived there she paged Mark who replied her that he was in the patient room 3653 and she went directly there.

"Hey.." she meant a bit embarrassed.

"Hey you.." he replied sleepy.

"Did you drive?" Callie asked worried.

"No Derek visited me and he drove...he´s searching for Lexie. She didn´t reply when he paged her." Mark explained and Callie nodded embarrassed.

"You remember what...happened...you know...yesterday?" she asked looking down at her shoes.

"I do..Well, kinda...some things I have a hangover so...but I remember it was great."he replied and Callie looked up to look in his beautiful eyes.

"Yeah it was.." she giggled and without noticing that she laid her hand on her best friend´s hand when suddenly the door opened and both Mark and Callie looked to it.

"Good morning! Where are you?"

"I´m at the hospital. I drove to Mark´s because he didn´t appear to work and he´s drunk so I brought him here and gave him an infusion. Do you know where Lexie is? She doesn´t react to my paging and Mark wants to tell her that everything´s a big misunderstanding."

"Yeah Lexie is here she came yesterday when you were at work and slept here. What kind of misunderstanding?"

"He thought she kissed Alex and that´s the only reason why he slept with Callie. But now he knows tha-"

"He did what?!"

"Mer, please calm down. Just send me Lexie. She needs to know that."

"Alright. I will drive her. We will be there soon."

"Fine. I love you."

"Love you too." Meredith hang up and went to the guest room Lexie slept. After a soft knock on the door and Lexie allowing her to enter she came in and looked at her sister lying in bed and staring at the ceiling.

"Lexie..." she meant a bit worried but with a carrying voice. "I´m so sorry."

"So you know it?"

"Derek told me. You should come to the hospital Mark wants to talk to you."

"Did you know that the first time we ever had sex...the first time I´ve ever had sex...we laid like that only naked, staring at the ceiling, not talking and just breathing."

"Lexie.."

"I never knew sex could be so good. I mean I have heard of it. How great it was and what kind of things were especially good and this and that. But nobody told me how overwhelming sex could be. Or maybe they just never had the best sex in their life."

"Lexie..."

"It´s okay Mer...it´s fine...I´m ready in ten minutes."

After Lexie got ready they drove with Meredith´s car to the hospital where Derek already waited.

"Hey." he greeted the sisters by kissing Meredith and giving Lexie an encouraging smile. "He´s in patient room 3653 if you want to visit him. He wants to talk to you and to explain why and you know..." Lexie nodded going to the patient room slowly. She didn´t want to hurry because first she didn´t want to breathe heavily and second she wanted to seem fine and as it wouldn´t bother her which of course was a big lie. When she finally arrived there she took a deep breath and wiped away a tear which came out during her way. She slowly opened the door a bit, happy that Mark wanted to talk to her but the happiness disappeared the second she saw Callie sitting by him with her hand on his. She nodded when the two looked at her.

"Lexie.." Mark said but it sounded like a question. She turned her head away to not show her tears and now they noticed that their hands touched. Quickly Mark pulled his way and tried to stand up but failed as he was too tired and dizzy.

"I gotta go." Callie meant and stood up and left the room.

"Lexie.."

"Even in the hospital you can´t stop touching this...mean...jealous...lesbian...hot..best friends of yours?" she immediately shouted when the door was closed again.

"I didn´t... I didn´t notice...but Lexie please...you have to believe me..I really thought it happened like Izzie told me...please believe me."

"Believe? Why should I believe to you when you trusted a woman you hardly know more than your girlfriend? You should have listened to me when I wanted to tell you everything. But you just threw me out of the apartment, believing every lied word and letting me sleep at my dad´s who slapped me twice because I explained to him that my mom died two years ago!" Lexie yelled while crying and watching Mark getting even more nervous and feeling sorrow and sadness.

"He slapped you?" he wanted to know quiet while looking at his shoes.

"Why do you think I have this cut? Because I cut myself while shaving? Yes he slapped me." Lexie cried and her legs could barely hold her because she was tired because she had two nights no sleep and because she was exhausted of having the love of her life not around.

"I´m so sor-"

"Don´t say it! Just don´t say it." Lexie meant and went towards the door.

"Lexie please! You are the love of my life! I can´t survive without you!"

"That´s the problem. I can´t live without you anymore like I learned the past two days. But you clearly showed me that you can survive without me." Lexie meant leaving Mark behind who hardly could keep the tears in his eyes.

"So wait...Mark slept with Callie? But why?" Meredith whispered when she and Derek went from to the neuro surgical unit.

"He thought Lexie cheated on him and he was drunk and so he and Callie did it...I don´t know why he thought this was a good idea but you know Mark." Derek answered quietly so nobody heard them and no new rumors would be told in the hospital.

"That´s why I didn´t want them to have something. Because I knew he would hurt her." Meredith meant and hold her forehead with her hand. "But I´m afraid Lexie will go back to him."

"Why?" he asked her and looked at his love.

"This morning she told me how good the sex was..."

"Oh Mer please...I don´t want to know that."

"Sorry...but that´s why I think she will go back to him and act like nothing happened."

"Probably...but let´s see and not worry. At least she´s an adult and smart. She will know what to do."

"But she´s also my kid sister."

"Come on Mer...we have to worry about something different...Did you made an appointment with your gyn?"

"Derek...we´ve got all time of the world."

"So you didn´t?"

"I will call her as soon as her practice opens."

"Good morning doctor Stevens. My name is Camille Davis and I´m your oncologist." an Afro-American woman in red scrubs introduced herself and continued after Izzie gave her a weak fake smile. "Today´s the first day of your treatment. We wanted not to do a straight chemo but to do a new therapy called interleukin 2. It´s similar to a chemotherapy but we think it will work better on you."

"Okay...I heard of it so I know what it is about...when is the first session?"

"We first wanted to make sure if you´re in the right condition...You gave birth to a baby only a few days ago and...well, I also heard the rumors about-"

"My love life does not affect my treatments." Izzie explained harsh. "And I rested after the birth of Denny. We can start today."

"I also wanted to make sure that you have someone who supports you during the procedure." Davis explained worried as she saw Izzie looking at her hands and knowing that she lost her friends by being so disrespectful.

"She has me." a female voice behind the oncologist appeared and when she stepped aside Izzie saw Bailey and had to smile a bit. "She has me to support her."

"This is the voicemail of Arizona Robbins. Please leave a message I´ll call you back." Callie heard when she called her ex.

"Arizona please...pick up!" she begged.

"Hey..what´s up?" Mark asked when he came closer.

"Nothing I just...what happened? Did you cry?" Callie noticed worried.

"What...no I...I didn´t..." Mark lied but felt detected by Callie´s eyes. "I did..."

"So...the chat with Lexie was..."

"She left me...this time it´s really over." Mark pressed his lips together.

"Mark I´m so sorry...I...never wanted to cause that." Callie swore and put her hand on his shoulder.

"It wasn´t you...It was me...everything that happened was my fault."

"But I said that we should...you know...do it" Callie meant and tried to make him look in her eyes and to convince him that it wasn´t his fault.

"No...she´s right...I should have believed her and I didn´t..." Mark explained and couldn´t stop his tears from streaming down his cheeks. Callie put her arms around him and hold him in a hug for a few seconds after he pulled away and wiped away the tears.

"Thank you Callie..." he meant and she gave him a soft smile and nod before he went to the restroom to cool down his face. He leaned his arms against the sink and and took a deep breath when suddenly someone came out of the cabinet.

"Oh good morning doctor Sloan!" the man greeted Mark who looked into the mirror and after a he blinked a few times he recognized who it was.

"Good morning doctor Hunt!" he replied trying to make his voice sound normal and not shaky. An awkward silence filled the air while Owen washed his hands.

"Do you have some interesting surgeries today?" Owen asked and dried his hands.

"Not that I know." Mark replied not looking him in the eyes.

"I can finally start to operate again. My hand is healthy and I hope some interesting cases will enter the e.r." Owen explained smiling but Mark didn´t reply. Owen raised his eyebrows and wondered why his college acted so strange. "Well, then...doctor Sloan." he meant and nodded.

"Doctor Hunt." he replied as a good by and watched the trauma surgeon leaving the restroom.

"Owen! Owen!" Cristina called her boyfriend when she saw him leaving the restroom.

"Cristina!" he replied smiling and kissed her after she ran to him.

"Guess what...Altman has a big heart aneurysm and she lets me operate it." she meant happily.

"She lets you...wow that´s great...have fun." Owen answered surprised.

"And you? You can operate today...do you have some cases."

"I was just on my way to the e.r. maybe I´ll find something. Or better someone." he replied joking.

"Cristina!" Teddy Altman yelled from the door to the cardio-toracic unit.

"I´m coming!" she replied turning her head towards Teddy then back to Owen. "Wish me good luck..though I don´t need it." she kissed him and ran happily to Teddy.

"Good luck!" he called after her grinding.

"Good morning Rose. Are there any cases?" Owen asked when he entered the empty emergency room.

"Not yet." the nurse answered and did some office work.

"I´m also waiting for some cases." Callie meant sitting on a chair. "I need to get my head off all the problems and a surgery would be great. But I think the e.r. won´t get any interesting things. God I need a broken hip or some other bone things."

"Don´t say that. You just cursed the telephone. I swear by god that´s only the silence before the storm." Owen worried and rubbed his forehead.

"Oh please...that´s crap.." Callie joked and Owen shrugged.

"We will see...but if it happens I can only say that I tol-"

"Stop! It won´t happen...it will be a smooth, easy da-" Callie said when suddenly the phone rang. The doctors watched the nurse answering the phone.

"Seattle Grace emergency room what can I do for you?" Rose asked nervous. "Mhm...okay...we will be prepared." she replied before hanging up. Both Callie and Owen looked at her with asking eyes hoping it won´t be something bad.

"Multiple crash...The first victims will be here in 10 minutes. We can expect to be full." Rose explained while carrying a car with supplies out of the storage room. Owen sighed and Callie let her head fall into her hands.

"I told you." Owen meant and earned a mad look from Callie. "Okay guys page ortho, neuro, general and plastics we can expect a lot of damage." Owen shouted and Rose immediately paged everyone Hunt asked for. Quickly the doctors and nurses prepared the e.r. and only moments afterwards the first paramedics arrived and brought the patients into the hospital. In the meantime the Meredith, Cristina and their interns joined their colleges and ran out into the rain to get the best cases.

"50 year old male, driver. Was stuck in his car, flatlined in the ambulance once. Abdomen is hard maybe free fluid." one of the paramedics explained and Meredith and Cristina looked at each other.

"General. It´s your´s!" Cristina meant and ran with her interns to another ambulance.

"Okay go!" Meredith meant and she and her interns entered the e.r. with the patient.

"Is Lizzy there? Where´s Lizzy?" the man asked worried.

"Who´s Lizzy?" Meredith asked stressed.

"She´s my...ahh.." the man wanted to reply when he suddenly flatlined again.

"Okay guys faster!" Meredith yelled.

"14 year old female, passenger. Is pregnant in the 8th month, her water broke in the ambulance. Irregular heartbeats we couldn´t hear a fetal heartbeat." the paramedic from the other car meant.

"Cardio! Mine!" Cristina shouted when some other residents went outside.

"Where´s Leo? Where is he?" the girl asked.

"Is Leo your boyfriend?" Lexie asked carrying and the girl nodded while some tears streamed down her face.

"Okay...we will find him. What your name honey?" she wanted to know and smiled.

"Lizzy...my name´s Lizzy."

"Okay."

"Doctor Grey? What´s the problem?" Bailey asked when she entered the trauma room and a nurse put her on a yellow lab coat and gloves.

"He got free fluid in his abdomen...I think the liver...or maybe the colon...I..I don´t know it´s-"

"You don´t know?" Bailey asked shocked watching her resident trying to concentrate on the ultra sound.

"Well...it´s kinda all smashed together.." she meant and Bailey came closer to see that all abdominal organs laid over another and not on the place they actually should be."

"Oh god..." Bailey said quietly and both doctors looked at the ultra sound.

"1,2,3.." Cristina shouted before the put the girl on the bed in trauma room 2.

"What´s up Yang" Teddy Altman asked when she entered the trauma room.

"Irregular heartbeats and the baby´s heartbeat can not be found. We should page the gyn or peds shouldn´t we?" Yang explained and Teddy ordered to page the peds. Then she tried to hear the girl´s heartbeats with her stethoscope.

"Okay...um...Yang you think you can do the aneurysm completely on your own?" Teddy asked after she put the stethoscope around her neck again.

"Well...um..yeah I think so." Cristina replied surprised.

"Okay...you need to do it alone...I think this will take longer..I trust you Cristina!"

"Okay...I´m leaving to prepare myself." Cristina smiled and left after Teddy nodded. Suddenly a female, blonde surgeon entered the room with Alex and his interns following her.

"You paged gyn?" she asked and Teddy nodded.

"Yeah...I never saw you before...who are you?" she asked suspicious.

"Lucy Fields...I´m the head of gyn and newly head of peds. For Arizona Robbins." Lucy meant and shook Teddy´s hand while Alex behind her checked out her ass.

"Teddy Altman...head of cardio. Doctor Karev?" she tore him out of his thoughts. "Maybe you should concentrate on the heartbeats of the patient."

"Okay the we need to do a c-section that fetus lays in breech presentation. That´s the reason why the heartbeat couldn´t be found." Lucy meant after she finished the ultra sound.

"How´s Leo?" the girl asked quietly and Lexie, who still held her hand looked around.

"What´s his last name sweetie?" she asked with a soft smile.

"Winterglass...Leopold Winterglass." she answered huskily.

"Okay...I´ll go and find him." Lexie offered and the girl smiled forming a thank you with her lips. She left the room and went around the e.r. asking if someone had a patient with this name. When she was about to return Meredith and Bailey left their trauma room with the patient and carrying him towards the elevator.

"Where´s Lizzy? Where´s Lizzy?" the patient asked the whole time.

"Wait! Lizzy?" Lexie shouted and ran to her sister and the general surgeon. "What´s your name sir?"

"Leopold Winterglass." he answered and Lexie´s eyes opened wide. "Do you know how´s my sweet Lizzy?"

"Well, um...she´s...um...she needs a...c-section but it seems like there..there aren´t any big problems." Lexie stuttered and switched gaze between the two surgeons and the patient.

"Is there anything you need to tell us doctor Grey?" Miranda asked harsh. Lexie came closer to the small attending and held her hand next to her mouth so nobody could see what she´s saying.

"She´s...Lizzy she´s...his girlfriend is...she´s 14." Lexie whispered stuttering and Bailey also opened her eyes wide.

"Doctor Sloan! What are you doing?" Hunt asked shocked when he saw a wound on a girl´s arm stitching.

"Um...my work?" he answered sarcastically.

"We don´t have time for some pretty stitching...The e.r. is full and we get new patients constantly!" Owen explained and clamped the wound together.

"What the..?" Mark asked loud."

"Finished. Now go check other patients!" Owen ordered. Unwillingly he stood up and put off his gloves when he went to another patient.

"Who made him the chief of the emergency room?" he asked a nurse when he passed her and she shrugged.

"Lizzy? You´re..um...boyfriend needs a surgery...but I´m sure everything´s fine. And you need to stay calm because otherwise we can´t do the c-section and that could cause damage for your baby." Lexie tried to comfort the girl while the other doctors carried her out of the room.

"It´s going to be fine." she continued holding her hand and smiling before she looked around and looked Alex directly in the eyes. A huge expression of sorrow could be read in his eyes. She looked down back at the girl hoping that she didn´t has to scrub in with him.

"Okay...doctor Fields do you need someone to help you?" Teddy asked the new pediatric surgeon who looked around in the round of interns.

"Is someone here resident?" she asked and Alex stepped forward. "Okay..you are going to help me and...you." she meant pointing on Lexie who felt like she´s drowning any second.

"I´m sorry doctor Fields I...I feel very sick..." Lexie lied and tried to avoid eye contact with Alex.

"Okay well then...you!" she meant pointing on Steve who smiled and they went into the o.r. wing with Altman who meant to do this on her own.

Lexie went to the e.r. again to find some cases to work on but there wasn´t one left. So she leaned against the nurse´s desk and watched the event in the e.r. when she noticed Mark examining a man with burned skin. Watching him work let her knees get soft like butter and her stomach feeling like butterflies flew through it. Her cheeks blushed and her eyes filled with tears at once. To stay on her feet Lexie pressed her back against the desk and gasped as he looked up from the patient and his blue eyes met her brown Bambi eyes. Quickly she looked down at her shoes watching from her outer corner of her eyes that he left the patient and the e.r.

"You should talk to him." Callie, who sat on a chair behind the nurse´s desk, meant. Lexie turned around looking at her with questionable eyes. How can she dare to tell me what to do after sleeping with him? She thought and looked back at the e.r.

"I understand that you don´t want to talk to me...but don´t blame him. I made him do...you know...it. And really regrets it. He does. All he want is getting back your trust!" the black haired surgeon explained and Lexie tried to push her tears back down. "Trust me you´re the only woman he wants. And my god he´s the only man you want." Callie continued and stood up as Lexie still didn´t reply. She went around the desk and stopped in front of the intern. Lexie looked her in the eyes and now Callie noticed the tears welling up in her´s. "You can hate me...that´s okay...really I totally understand this I would hate me too. But don´t hate him. Don´t try to push away the love for him and replace it with hate. Don´t do that. He loves you more than anything. He never loved another woman the way he does now. And I´m sure you feel the same way. So hate me but don´t waste time with acting like you don´t listen to me and go talk to him." Callie ordered and looked Lexie deep in the eyes. Lexie was thinking if she should believe her or wait till Mark comes talking to her but the longer Callie looked her in the eyes the more she had to admit that Callie was right. Lexie nodded and Callie gave her a soft smile which Lexie didn´t reply. She ran the direction Mark went hoping to find him but of course she waited too long and he was gone.