Sorry people this chapter is real crap. Just wanted to say.

True love

As kid I always wondered what true love means.

Is it that you really love someone and don´t want to ever be with someone else?

That you intend to spend the rest of your life with someone?

That this someone is your perfect match?

"Good morning beautiful." Derek woke his girlfriend by kissing her cheek.

"Let me sleep...I need to be fit today." Meredith jiggled when Derek wrapped his arms around her.

"Me too...well, if Izzie and Alex agree to the surgery." Derek stopped hugging her and laid back on his back.

"Oh come on...they are smart..they will make the right decision." Meredith turned to her love. "Let´s talk about something different."

"Like what? Our babies we can´t get?" Derek replied without thinking, causing Meredith to press her lips together. "I´m..I´m sorry..I didn´t want to...I´m sorry."
"No it´s okay...I´m sorry that I can give you the future you wanted." Meredith turned around trying to push her tears back down.

"Mer...I love you no matter what...and as long as I´m with you I don´t need kids." Derek wrapped his arms around her kissing her neck again.
"Derek let me go." she giggled and tried to get rid of him.

"Do you really want me to stop?" he laughed. Meredith laughed too and turned around to him and Derek stopped. "What?"

"Nothing...I..I just love you." she smiled before he gave her a soft kiss.

Or that you can forgive and take back?

That no matter what, you always work things out and stay together?

In good and in bad times?

"I don´t know why you´re so mad. You don´t have any reason. You left me." Callie stood in the middle of the living room arguing with Arizona who went through the room nervously.

"I just don´t understand why. And why Mark." she shouted back.

"I was alone and he was there also alone...why does it bother you? You had another women for sure." Callie asked still mad.

"No I hadn´t! And I just...I mean he´s with Lexie, isn´t he? And only because I never wanted kids, you don´t need screw around and try to get pregnant-"

"Excuse me? You think I wanted to get pregnant? With another doctor´s boyfriend? Wow..you really think I´m such a whore, don´t you?" Callie asked shocked and Arizona stopped walking and looked at her.

"No..but it just seems like that. I mean I´m gone for a few weeks and come back to find out you´re pregnant." Arizona cam closer but Callie stepped back.
"Don´t...don´t you dare to say something like that. You left me. You put your job over me..don´t you dare to call me a whore or something."
"You broke up with me...you ended this not I." Arizona pointed on Callie saying this loud, mad and clear.

"Because you left me. You wanted to go back at Hopkins and I let you. But why does it bother you? We weren´t a couple, I didn´t cheat." Callie shouted.

"Because it´s Mark...I..I need to go."

"Yeah you should because I don´t want you in my apartment anymore." Callie made her clear. Arizona shook her head picked her bag up and went towards the door.

"I came back." she said with her face to the door. "I came back here...because of you." she turned around to face Callie. "I came back because I love you...and the pregnancy won´t change that." Arizona assured. Callie said nothing and Arizona nodded. "Okay." she said before opening the door and closing it behind her.

Does true love mean that you discuss everything with your partner?

And that you only make decisions together?

Or does true love mean that you give each other the space to decide on their own?

To let them have their own choices?

"You´re not gonna do this." Alex crossed his arms over his chest.

"Alex...I love you but this is my decision." Izzie tried to convince him. "And Derek is good. He´s the best neuro surgeon we know."

"Shepherd is good yeah, but it was the hell for me when you couldn´t remember anything." Alex went to Izzie´s bed and leaned over her.

"But that was just what could happen...It can work out." Izzie trusted Derek.

"You couldn´t remember the cards...you didn´t know who Meredith was..you..you didn´t know who I was...Izzie I could not handle it if this would be permanent..you are the love of my life..I don´t want to ever lose you." Alex sat down holding her hands looking deep into her eyes. Izzie replied nothing. She put her arms around him and pulled him into a hug.

"I love you too."

I always wanted to find true love...but does true love nowadays exist?

Cristina and her interns did rounds when Lexie got text messages from Mark. She couldn´t stop smiling over the dirty minded things he sent her.

"Doctor Grey. Do you want to tell us what´s so funny that you don´t pay attention?" Cristina asked but it sounded more like an order.

"Um..I..I pay attention, I do..I just needed to..um.." Lexie stuttered looking at her resident and colleges making fun of her. Cristina looked at her harsh when Lexie´s phone beeped again and she risked a look at the display which caused her boss to rip the device out of her hands and read it loudly.

"I´ll put you on the desk with your face downside then I take a...uh..." Cristina looked from the phone up at Lexie who pressed her lips together and looked into different directions. The resident cleared her throat and gave the phone back.

"I think you should use your photographic memory by remembering charts and not..this messages from your boyfriend." she gave her an advice and the turned around finishing the rounds followed by her giggling interns and the embarrassed Lexie. After leaving the last patient room Cristina gave everyone something to do when she suddenly got interrupted by another intern running past them and crying badly.
"Meghan..what´s wrong?" Steve asked worried when he could catch her hand.

"Webber fired me...I lost my job..and he fired others too.." the woman sobbed.

"What?" Cristina asked unbelievable.

"I don´t know why...he fired a lot of us. And he will fire more." Meghan cried and then ran away.

"Did you know something about that?" Steve asked Lexie, since he knew that she was one of Webber´s favorites. But Lexie shook her head.

"Of course she didn´t." Pierce said. "Interns that spread their legs for attendings don´t need to fear being fired." they both looked disgusted at Lexie.
"Hey! Before you judge people because of with whom they are in love, you should find someone who wants you. And who knows maybe it is because doctor Grey has or had or god knows what, a relationship with doctor Sloan, but maybe – and I´m pretty sure that´s the reason – doctor Grey won´t be fired because she does an excellent job and is not a pain in her resident´s necks. And now go...I´m sure the patients I gave you don´t want to wait for their rectal examination." Cristina explained to them harshly and the two men left them behind.

"Thank you." Lexie said quietly and Cristina looked at her.

"Don´t think we´re friends now." she answered dryly and also left her.

"Doctor Robbins? You´re back?" Alex saw his favorite attending standing by the coffee-car.

"Doctor Karev. Hi!" she hugged him with a big smile on her face. "Good to see you. How´s it going?"

"Good, good. But what are you doing here? Is there a special case? Can I assist?" Alex asked snoopy.

"No...I got my job back..well, I ´m not head of peds again yet but...I´m sure I will be soon." Arizona took her coffee and waited for Alex to get his order.

"What was going on here? Something new? Was there a complete jerk instead of me?" Arizona giggled.

"No she..doctor Fields is a really good surgeon, she´s also head of the gynecology so it was great to work with her. She´s kinda bossy."

"And I´m not bossy?"

"Well, you know...you are the cute surgeon who´s talking rainbows and unicorns." Alex admitted and took the two coffees he ordered.

"I can be bossy too. I´m hardcore." Arizona tried to convince him while walking.

"I´m sure you are." Alex chuckled.

"Hey...a pediatric surgeon is the most hardcore badass of all." she protested but Alex continued chuckling.

"So why are you back here at Seattle Grace? Did you want to be part of the fusion?" Alex asked sipping from one coffee.

"Fusion?" she asked confused.

"You weren´t at doctor Webber´s office yet, were you? There will be a fusion of the Mercy West and us. And as you can hear in the intern´s locker room he is firing some of them." Alex explained and Arizona looked at him unbelievable.

"Why should Richard do this?" she asked and Alex shrugged.

"Ask him yourself. I need to go this way." he replied and pointed on another hallway.

"The oncology? Oh, right! How´s doctor Stevens?" the two of them stopped for a few seconds to finish their chat.

"She´s good...you know as good as you can be with her disease. She took me back...I think everything is okay again. At least we are engaged so..."

"Oh my god Alex...Congratulations!" Arizona hugged him again and he replied it.

"Thanks...but I think Lexie and Sloan are not together anymore.." he thought loud and Arizona rolled her eyes.

"Yeah...I already heard that...Anyway..it was nice to chat with you and I hoped Izzie gets better soon." Arizona pointed on the second coffee in Alex´ hand.

"Right...well, thank you and have a good day. See you around." Alex said while leaving her and she smiled at him. When Alex entered his fiancé´s room he heard her talking to herself.

"I know!" she shouted. "I just don´t know how to decide. I could die either way."

"Iz?" Alex asked confused looking at his girlfriend who talked with the wall.

"Alex...hi." she quickly looked at him and behaved like this didn´t happen.

"With whom were you talking?" he asked giving her the another cup of coffee.

"Denny..." she admitted looking down at the cup.

"Our baby?" he made fun of her.

"No...Denny Duquette."

"You still see him?" Alex asked worried and sat down next to her.

"I still have a tumor in my head." Izzie replied sarcastically.

"Right." Alex looked down on his hands.

"Good morning Izzie, doctor Karev." Derek and Meredith entered the room and stopped at the end of her bed where he put Izzie´s chart on the desk and looked at both. "Have made a decision yet?"

"I told you Shepherd, I´m not gonna let cut into Izzie´s brain." Alex stood up more aggressively than he should.

"Due all respect doctor Karev, I was asking the patient, not you." Derek tried to explain as calm and friendly as possible and then looked at Izzie again. "So? Have you, doctor Stevens, made a decision?" Izzie switched gaze between Derek who gave her a comforting smile, to Meredith who stayed in the background, to Denny´s ghost who stood in the corner behind Meredith leaning against the wall, and then to Alex who tried her to show with his eyes to say no.

"I..thought about it, and I talked to some people...or ghosts of people and I decided to try it. I want the operation."

"What?!" Alex, Meredith and Denny´s ghost said at once.

"Fine. I´ll write it on the o.r. board." Derek smiled triumphing.

"Wait, wait, wait, wait! You want what?!" Alex asked shocked.

"Iz, don´t you want to think about it a bit longer?" Meredith asked which caused Derek to look at her confused.

"Izzie...I don´t think that´s a good idea..." Denny came out of the corner and now stood directly behind Meredith.

"Izzie. I thought we decided not to have this surgery." Alex leaned over her but she pushed him away.

"No! You decided it. You made the decision for me. And..and there´s Denny Duquette right behind Mer, telling me not to have this operation." Izzie pointed on Mer who turned around but of course couldn´t see him. "And I´m sorry to say that, I will always love Denny. He will always have a place in my heart but I don´t want to see him because...because as long as I can see him..can..can talk to him and touch him I..I will feel sick. And I don´t want to feel sick. I want to feel the progress I´m making. So please Derek, please operate me so I can feel healthy." Izzie begged looking at Derek with her big, brown, puppy eyes.

"Doctor? Do you have time for an examination?" Lexie heard a man´s voice that sounded very familiar and turned around to face Mark.

"It depends on which symptoms you have." she smiled and Mark came closer.

"Well, my stomach feels really tingly, my heart beats very fast and not to mention what happens under my belt." he leaned in to kiss her but Lexie stopped him.

"Not here." she said. A few moments later they were locked up in an on-call room kissing passionately.

"I...didn´t think...to see you so...soon again here." Lexie murmured during the kisses.

"I just...couldn´t wait." he meant putting of his scrub shirt.

"I couldn´t wait either." she replied when they went to a bed not breaking the kiss. Mark was just about to put off his scrub pants when Lexie stopped the kiss.

"Did you know that Webber is firing interns?" she asked.

"What?"

"I mean am I save just because I...slept with an attending or...will he fire me because I did that..or-" Lexie asked put got cut off by Mark´s finger on her lips.

"Can we please stop talking about this?" he asked and Lexie nodded and started kissing him again. Mark put off his pants and pulled Lexie onto him. The kiss got more passionate than before and when Mark wanted to put off Lexie´s scrub shirt she stopped him.

"I´m sorry...I gotta go." she said rolling down of him and standing up.

"What? Oh come on!" he watched her putting on her lab coat again. "Seriously?"

"I´m sorry...you know take it slow...this shouldn´t have happened when you´re taking it slow." she went towards the door.

"So what does taking slow mean? I´m not allowed to kiss you? To flirt with you?" Mark asked annoyed and confused.

"You are allowed to flirt with me...I just...I want to start like a normal relationship does." she admitted and tried to comfort him with a smile before leaving and closing the door behind him. Mark let himself fall back putting his hands on his face.

"Hello Mister Burton..." Webber entered Henry´s room finding Teddy sitting on his bed and laughing. "...and doctor Altman...of course. Would you mind to leave the patient room for a moment, doctor Altman?" Richard asked her.

"Oh no, it´s no problem...Teddy can stay." Henry assured.

"Yeah it is." Webber explained harshly. "Legally `Teddy´ is neither your doctor, nor your wife or any other kind of relative. Therefore, she´s not allowed to stay."

"It´s okay...I´ll just come back later." Teddy said and went outside but stayed at the nurse desk on the opposite side to listen to what they talk about.

"Well, Mister Burton I have good news for you. We can operate you tomorrow in the morning." he smiled.

"Um...tomorrow is bad..Teddy and I are getting..well, married tomorrow forenoon." Henry explained.

"Well, I guess then that´s not possible."Richard said still mad at Teddy for this.

"But without my health insurance it´s also not possible." Henry got serious.

"Are you serious? You punish him for my behaving?!" Teddy entered the room really mad.

"I´m sorry mister Burton. I have a lot of patients and you need to be operated ASAP. I don´t have space for you." the chief ignored his employee and left the room. Henry looked down on his hands.

"Nevermind. I´ll find someone who can do this today."

"Teddy it´s Sunday. Nobody will wed us today, so we can betray the state."

"Trust me Henry. I was a doctor in the army. I will find someone."

"Why did you want Izzie to think about the surgery again? Don´t you trust me?" Derek asked Meredith loudly when they were in an on-call room.

"I do trust you. I am just unsure after the test. She couldn´t remember anything." Meredith protested.

"But I can do this. I´m a neuro-god." Derek promised and Meredith rolled her eyes while shaking her head. "What? Do you think that I can´t do this?"

"This...this whole neuro-godcomplex...you overestimate yourself and that leads to mistakes." Meredith explained.

"You think that´s a number too high for me right?" he asked sarcastically.

"No. Derek. I believe in you. And you need to trust me when I tell you that you can do this. And I will assist you and you can prove me what kind of god you are." Meredith put her hands on his shoulders. "I love you Derek."

"I love you too Mer." he replied and they exchanged a soft kiss.

"Okay...I will go...prepare myself." Meredith left him and only a few moments later Derek also left the on-call room.

A few hours later...

"Mer..hi. We haven´t seen us since I left for the spa. How´s it going?" Lexie asked when she met her sister on the hallway.

"Lexie...wow..your hair..it´s..blond." Meredith noticed when Lexie stood next to her.

"Yeah...I think I remove it soon. Anyway. I heard you´re gonna operate on Izzie?" Lexie wanted to know.

"Yeah in an hour. Derek will remove the tumor in her brain and I´ll assist." Meredith explained.

"Well, good luck...you know I haven´t talked with her in a while...how is she?" Lexie looked at her sister.

"Um..well, she started her interleukin 2 and is doing well so far and she´s now engaged with Alex." Meredith told her the news.

"She´s engaged with Alex? But she can´t forgive me? For doing nothing?" Lexie shook her head and rolled her eyes madly.

"Yeah let´s not talk about it. How was your spa weekend?" Meredith was now asking.

"You know the funny thing was that I went there to forget Mark and Mark went to a spa to forget me and we both ended up in the same room." Lexie smiled happily.

"What?!" Meredith asked shocked.

"Yeah. Derek allowed the receptionist to put me in his room. Well, they lost my booking and Derek didn´t know it was me but that´s how it happened." Lexie mentioned to her sister.

"And now you´re back together?" Meredith asked and hoped she´d say no.

"Well, not really. I told him to take it slow and start everything like a real relationship since the last one happened really fast. I´m confident it will work out this time." Lexie said.

"Lexie...I don´t quite-"

"No! Don´t say it Mer...I don´t want to hear it. I know you were against us from the very beginning but I don´t care. I´m an adult, I can decide with whom I sleep an with whom not on my own. I don´t need you to tell me." Lexie cut her off and Meredith nodded.

"Okay...I need to prepare for Izzie´s surgery." Meredith said and let her sister behind.

"Great!...thank you so much." Teddy hang up and went to Henry´s room showing her phone. "I made it."

"Made what?" he asked confused.

"I found someone who can wed us. It appears that you can find people really easily when you were in the army." Teddy smiled.

"Really?!" Henry replied the smile.

"Yes...He´s here in a half hour." Teddy said sitting down on Henry´s bed. "You´re gonna get a health insurance."

Mark met Derek at the nurse´s desk and stopped next to him.

"So I have a question for you." Mark started.

"Doctor Sloan...what a pleasure." Derek joked and looked up from Izzie´s chart. "How was your weekend off?"

"That has to do with my question. I´m not good at these whole date and romantic things...but..um..you are...so there´s a girl I really like..and she wants to take it slow so I wanted to ask her out...I just don´t know how." Mark looked at the floor and blushed.

"Is that girl the one that shared a room with you?" Derek asked and Mark nodded. "Well I would just book a table at a nice restaurant and then ask her out."

"That´s all?"

"That´s all. And then see what happens. I´m glad you´re over Lexie." Derek said while closing Izzie´s chart and leaving Mark by tapping on his shoulder.

"If you know..." Mark murmured when Derek was gone.

"Iz, Are you really sure?" Alex asked when he hold her hand while the nurses rolled her bed towards the o.r. wing.

"Alex. I am..I love you." Izzie smiled comforting when the bed stopped.

"You can´t go further on, doctor Karev." A nurse said.

"I love you too Iz." he kissed her hand and then her lips when she got drove through the doors into the sterile section and their hands lost each other.

"Good afternoon doctor Stevens, Ready for the surgery?" Derek asked when she lied on the table and the nurses put injections in her veins.

"Couldn´t be readier." she smiled and Derek replied it under his surgical mask. As soon as everybody was in their sterile clothes and Izzie was narcotized Derek and Meredith went to her head which was already shaved and Derek looked around.

"Okay guys. It´s a beautiful day to save lives." he said and then started opening her skull.

Three hours later he was about to remove the tumor while talking to Meredith.

"Mark´s moving forward. He wants to ask a girl out for a date. He even asked me for help. I think it was a good idea to allow this girl sharing the room with him. I knew he would get on other ideas with her." Derek told Meredith while cutting around the tumor.

"Just that, the girl he shared the room with was Lexie and the girl he used to get over Lexie was Lexie." Meredith explained madly.

"What?!" Derek asked shocked and suddenly Izzie´s blood pressure rocket high. "Damn it!" Derek cursed.

"Hello doctor Grey." Mark smirked and stopped next to Lexie.

"Um..hello doctor Sloan. You know with taking slow I didn´t mean that we can´t call each other by our first name." Lexie giggled.

"I know..I wanted to ask you out for a date." Mark said.

"A date? When?" Lexie was impressed by his idea.

"Depends on when your shift ends." he smiled and so t´did she.

"Um...7 pm." she looked at her wrist watch and blushed.

"So then...meet you at 8 o´clock at Luigi´s." Mark said before leaving and Lexie watched him going away not stopping to smile.

True love is the greatest gift the human can receive.

It means that you feel depressed and sick without the person you love.

You feel like your live is meaningless and has no sense without them.

Bailey finished a surgery and went to the family of her patient. After telling them that everything was going fine and that they could visit him she wanted to leave to but saw Alex sitting in the waiting room with tears in his eyes.

"Karev? What are you doing here?" Miranda asked when she came closer to her resident.

"I´m waiting for someone to tell me how Izzie is...she´s in the o.r. with Shepherd." Alex explained sniffy.

"She lets him do the surgery? I heard of how the test went...isn´t she afraid?" Miranda sat down next to him.

"I told her not to do it but she wouldn´t let change her mind." Alex said and a tear rolled down his cheek.

"Karev..." the attending tried to comfort him. I´m just going to sit here and accompany you okay?" she asked and Alex nodded.

"I love her so much...she´s the love of my life...I love her." he cried and Bailey put her arm around him.

"Shh...she´s gonna be fine."

But true love doesn´t mean to be sexual.

You can feel true love for your best friend too.

It means to care for each other physically and emotionally.

After Mark finished his shift he drove home to get ready for the date. When he was about to open his door he heard sobbing out of Callie´s. He knocked at the door and was worried when Callie with red and swollen eyes stood in front of him.

"Callie..." he opened his eyes and pulled her into a hug. "What happened?" Callie went into her apartment and sat down on the couch with a tissue in her hand. Mark followed her and sat down next to his best friend.

"Mark...I need to tell you something. I´m...I´m pregnant..with your child." Callie sobbed.

True love is that you would give everything for your partner.

It is that you do things that your partner is happy.

True love is a give and get.

When Lexie was done with her shift she drove to Meredith´s place where she was sleeping. When she entered the living room she screamed because Cristina was sitting there on the couch with a beer in her hand and Owen right next to her.

"God you scared me to death." Lexie cursed when she put her bag on the floor. "What are you doing here? "

"We wanted to make a couple evening or something like that. It was Owen´s idea." she replied annoyed

"A couple...Derek and Meredith are working. They are operating Izzie Stevens."

"What?" Cristina asked surprised. "Izzie let them operate?" she asked and Lexie nodded.

"Well, then sorry for the disturbance. We´re leaving." Owen meant and stood up.

"Wait! I maybe need you doctor Yang. Just for a few minutes." Lexie smiled and the couple exchanged confused looks. After agreeing the three of them found themselves in Lexie´s room searching for a outfit for Lexie´s date.

"There´s not even one outfit that looks good." Lexie cursed.

"I don´t even know why you´re making it so complicated. I thought he has seen you naked a thousand times?" Cristina who sat on Lexie´s bed joked.

"Bad..bad images in my head." Owen murmured and shook them off.

"Do you think Mer has something in her closet?" Lexie asked desperate.

"What about the red one over there?" Owen asked and Lexie took it out of the closet.

"This one belonged to my mother. She loved it. And my dad loved it too." Lexie remembered before trying it on.

"It looks great." Cristina said.

"It really does." Owen agreed.

"So this one?" Lexie asked unsure but all her doubts where gone when both surgeons nodded heavily. "Okay...thanks."

True love is wanting to marry someone though you weren´t even dating for so long.

To live happily ever after with this person.

It´s the feeling that you would do anything just to see her smile.

After the couple left and Lexie had her hair and make up done she drove to the restaurant and went in.

"Lex..." Mark saw her from the table he was already sitting.

"Hi. Sorry I´m a bit too late. I had a little dressing problem." Lexie excused herself.

"You look beautiful." Mark couldn´t believe his eyes. "Please have a seat." he offered her the chair opposite of his. "You want some wine?" he asked and pour in some white wine after she nodded.

"Wow...you really want this, huh?" Lexie smiled overwhelmed by all of this.

"I do.." Mark replied her smile and they ordered their meals.

After they finished their received meals they ordered a dessert.

"Cheers...on our first real date." Lexie smiled and they chinked.

"Lex...I need to tell you something." Mark admitted and looked at her sorrowful.

"What? Did something happen?" Lexie worried.

"Arizona is back..." he began.

"Wow okay...um...that´s great? I guess?" Lexie replied and took a bite of her dessert.

"Yeah...yeah..um...Callie´s pregnant." Mark continued.

"Wow...okay...wait. So Arizona´s back now. Did they do it before she left or..." Lexie wanted to ask but then read then answer in Mark´s eyes.

"I´m so sorry Lex."

But...how often do we experience true love?