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Love is a losing game
The truth.
The truth is a risky thing.
We teach our kids that not telling the truth is bad and the same as lying.
But often we´d prefer lying. Because sometimes...the truth can hurt more than a lie.
Lexie looked at Mark unbelievable trying to hold back the tears.
"Wow..." she sighed. "Wow...so..you invited me..on this dinner..." she got mad and every word got louder than the previous. "..to tell me...that you got your best friend pregnant?" she said it so loud that the people around them looked at them.
"No..." Mark replied quietly. "No..she told me maybe two hours ago."
"Stop talking." Lexie showed him with her hand to stop and closed her eyes sighing.
"Lex I-"
"Seriously. You´re not making it better." Lexie put the napkin on the table and looked at her not finished dessert. "I gotta go now. Thank..thank you for the dinner.." Lexie stood up which caused Mark standing up.
"Lexie please.." tears came into his eyes.
"No Mark. I´m leaving..and..unless you want this cup of hot coffee in your laps you´re not following me." she pointed on the coffee next to her plate before leaving him with a `Goodbye Mark´.
As doctors we need to tell the truth.
The whole truth.
We can´t just say that the surgery went well though there were massive complications.
We can´t lie to the relatives of our patients.
We need to tell them everything, even if it will cause pain.
Alex has already fallen asleep on Miranda´s shoulder when Meredith and Derek came towards them to tell him what happened.
"Alex.." Miranda woke him up and after a few seconds he realized what´s going on.
"How did it go?" he asked anxiously.
"There um...there was a massive bleeding...her BP was really high and we tried every-..." Derek explained with a lump in his throat watching Alex´ face turning pale. "..everything to..I´m sorry." Derek turned around and Meredith took over.
"We did everything we could to save her. Derek stopped the bleeding and we could continue the operation. But..." she continued and Alex who just let out a sigh of relief got nervous again.
"But what?" he asked loud.
"But..we don´t know if she will wake up or if she does wake up, she´ll have neurological damages." Meredith told him the news.
"Like after the test? That she can´t remember anything?" Bailey asked instead of her resident and Meredith sighed.
"Or even worse." she said.
Our life is build up on lies.
Everybody has cheated on a test once and told lies.
But who knows...maybe we wouldn´t live the way we do without the lies we told in our past.
"Hey what are you doing?" Owen asked Cristina who stood in front of the doors of the e.r.
"Waiting for a miracle to happen." she replied annoyed and took the coffee Owen brought and gave her after he kissed her on the cheek.
"What kind of miracle?" Owen continued asking while checking the computer.
"That whether Teddy wants me back or a good case comes in." she explained still looking at the doors.
"Why don´t you look here through the patient´s charts?" her boyfriend wanted to know and Cristina came to him an leaned against the desk.
"I already did...nothing good...broken toes...sutures and stomach-flu...nothing interesting." she said annoyed. "I want cardio back...I want to operate on a heart again."
"Well, there are also a few other cardio surgeons." Owen tried to comfort her.
"Oh please..I´m better than all of them together...I need Teddy to teach me something." Cristina behaved like a kid you took away a lolly from.
"Well, as I know Teddy she won´t give up on her belief. But as I know you, you do neither." he kissed her again on the cheek before leaving the e.r.
"Lucy?" Teddy came towards a blond woman standing at the nurse´s desk.
"Um..no." Arizona turned around.
"Doctor Robbins...you´re back.." Teddy smiled and so did Arizona.
"Yeah I guess I am..."
"Anyways have you seen doctor Fields?" Teddy asked.
"Oh the new head of peds...no sorry..I´ve been looking for her the whole day." Arizona excused.
"Oh okay...no problem..maybe she´s in surgery..glad you´re back." Teddy meant before leaving Arizona.
"Oh doctor Altman wait!" she stopped Teddy. "I wanted to invite the attendings to Joe´s you know..to celebrate my come back. Would you like to come?"
"Yeah sure..oh and I think we could call as by our first name." Teddy replied holding out her hand. "Teddy."
"Arizona." she smiled and shook the hand. "Then see you in an hour."
"Yeah." Teddy said while leaving. Arizona continued filling in some charts when Derek came to the desk to fill in Izzie´s chart.
"Derek hi." she smiled again.
"Arizona hello. How´s it going?" he asked writing.
"Good...good...yeah." Arizona lied and then looked up from her chart and turned towards her college. "Would you like to come to Joe´s in about an hour? To celebrate my come back?" she asked.
"Um...sure...can I bring Mer?"
"Oh yes the more the better."
"Fine. See you then." he meant and also went away.
"Good...now I have three.." Arizona murmured and closed her chart to go finding some other doctors to invite.
Alex sat next to Izzie´s bed holding her hand watching her sleeping.
"Izzie...can you hear me?" he asked sobbing. "I don´t know if you do...I don´t even know if you can ever reply again but I love you so much. I love you and I should have fought harder for you to not get this surgery. Please come back to me please. I don´t want to lose you Iz."
"Hey." Meredith tore him out of his thoughts when she leaned against the door and watched him.
"How long have you been there?" he sobbed and wiped away the tears on his cheeks.
"Long enough...I know you feel guilty. You don´t have to. You couldn´t have changed that." Meredith replied.
"I could have changed her mind. I could have keep her away from this." Alex cried looking at his fiancé´s hand.
"We both know Izzie. You couldn´t have done this. She´s a fighter. She fights for what she wants. And so she´ll fight to survive because that´s what she wants. She wants to live." Meredith comforted him. A short moment of silence filled the room before Meredith broke it again. "Derek and I are going to Joe´s in ten minutes. I don´t think you wanna come with us, do you?" she asked and Alex shook his head.
"Thank you...I´ll stay here." he replied and Meredith smiled.
"I thought so." she said turning around. "If anything is, no matter what...call me." she said and without looking at him she knew he nodded.
After that talk Meredith and Derek entered the bar where Arizona, Bailey and Webber already sat by a table eating nuts and drinking something.
"Mer...Der... hey!" Arizona who was already drunk greeted them with a hug.
"Wow..okay." Meredith was overstrained.
"Who did you invite?" Derek asked sitting down next to Meredith who sat on the opposite of Richard.
"Um..Teddy and Owen and he brings Cristina...hihi." she giggled before sipping from her cocktail.
"How many of these did she already have?" Meredith asked Miranda and Richard pointing on Arizona´s glass. But both shrugged.
"Well, Callie slept with Mark so let her be." Derek mentioned to her and and the attendings on the opposite widened their eyes.
"Excuse me?" Webber asked shocked.
"Oh no no no...please keep me away from all this stuff." Bailey said and stood up to get another drink. "Do you want something?" she asked and pointed into the round.
"Uhhh...Scotch for me and you?" Derek replied looking at Meredith.
"A coke...I´m driver."
"For me the same." Webber explained. "The coke of course."
"Can you bring me another one of these pink drinks? They´re delicious." Arizona chuckled and Bailey nodded while going to the bar.
"You don´t drink today?" Derek asked Webber.
"I don´t drink since 25 years." he meant proudly and and Derek nodded.
"Sorry...I didn´t know."
"He was in a meeting group with..Thatcher." Meredith explained.
"Yeah..I haven´t seen him for so long. Do you know how he´s doing?" Richard asked.
"You better ask Lexie...I don´t really have a boundary with him.." Meredith answered awkwardly.
"Teddy!" Arizona screamed happily drunken and hugged her.
"Wow okay someone´s having fun without us. I hope it´s okay I brought Lucy." Teddy replied.
"Oh so you are the badass." Arizona stood in front of her new boss.
"Um..." Lucy looked around unsure what to answer when Arizona suddenly hugged her too.
"You are so nice. Come here join us." she meant and sat down on her seat nearly tripping.
"Here you go. A scotch, two coke and a pink delicious drink." Bailey put the beverages on the table, greeted Teddy and Lucy and sat down again.
"Look who´s coming!" Arizona shouted through the whole bar. "Major Hunt!" Teddy turned around awkwardly and sighed.
"Great...and he has Cristina with him." she meant quickly looking forward again.
"Cristina I´m sorry..I didn´t knew-" Owen apologized when he recognized Teddy but Cristina cut him off.
"It´s okay...I´m over this." she lied.
"You are?" he asked surprised and she nodded.
"I´m gonna get some drinks." she said and quickly ran to the bar while Owen went to the table. "Hey Joe. Two beer please." she ordered and took out her wallet. "Oh hey Lexie." she said without even looking at her intern when she saw her sitting on a bar chair next to her. "Lexie? I thought you were on a date."
"I was." Lexie replied sipping from her beer.
"And how was it?" Cristina asked waiting for her bottles.
"Does it look like it was good?" Lexie replied clearly drunk.
"You wanna talk about it?" Cristina asked.
"Nope." Lexie shook her head and her resident sighed.
"Good. I didn´t want to talk about it either."
"You know...I just thought he changed. I thought I changed him." Lexie got emotional and Cristina rolled her eyes.
"You wanna talk about it." she murmured annoyed and sat down next to her best friend´s sister.
"I should have listened to Mer...she was right...he will always be a manwhore...but I thought I could change him and then...and then he gets every human being that has a vagina pregnant." Lexie cried still drinking from her beer.
"You´re pregnant?!" Cristina asked shocked and maybe a bit too loud.
"For god´s sake I hope not...Callie is...He got his best friend pregnant." Lexie now couldn´t stop chuckling.
"What?" Cristina asked still shocked but Lexie didn´t answer and just continued laughing. In the meantime Joe put the beer on the bar and Cristina took them.
"Joe? What ever she wants she gets it okay? I´ll pay." Cristina explained before she left Lexie scratching the label off of the beer bottle. Cristina joined the others handing Owen one of the beers and trying to not look at Teddy. They just had a deep conversation when Meredith got a message from Alex saying "911 don´t bring Shepherd!"
"Izzie." she murmured and jumped off of her chair.
"Mer, everything´s alright?" Derek asked.
"Yes I..I got a emergency page..I´m..I´m on call...I come back as soon as possible." she promised while heading outside and to the hospital.
"I better follow her." Derek stood up.
"No you drank alcohol. Stay here she´ll get this." Webber held him back
Meredith ran towards Izzie´s room where Alex was nervously walking up and down the hallway.
"Where have you been?" he asked anxiously.
"I´m sorry I came as fast as I could. What happened?" Meredith asked also nervously.
"Izzie...she woke up." Alex meant but didn´t seem happy.
"Really? Oh my god that´s great!" Meredith cheered but Alex warned her with his eyes.
"Meredith..." he looked her deep in the eyes.
"Which complication?" she asked with all her happiness shattered on the floor when Alex pulled her inside of the room.
"Meredith hi! How´s it going?" Izzie greeted her friend.
"Iz...you feel good?" Meredith came closer and checked the vitals on the monitor.
"Great." she replied and Meredith tested her pupil with a flashlight. Then she turned to Alex.
"I don´t know what you mean. Everything´s fine. Vitals are, good brain functions seem perfect. What is the emerg-" Meredith wanted to ask him but Izzie cut her off.
"Meredith? Hi! How ya doing?" she asked and caused Meredith to turn around confused.
"She forgets everything within 30 seconds." Alex explained.
"That´s bad..really bad." Meredith whispered harshly when she and Alex stood outside of the room.
"You don´t need to tell me I know it." he meant scratching his head. "I knew that something will go wrong. I knew it."
"Hey Alex...calm down...it´s gonna be fine okay? Maybe it´s just temporarily." Meredith tried to comfort him and hid her fear.
"Yeah...maybe." he went back into Izzie´s room followed by Meredith.
"Meredith? Alex? Hi! What´s going on? Why are you looking so upset?" Izzie asked.
"Izzie...do you remember what you did today in the morning?" Meredith wanted to know.
"Um..I was sleeping and then discussing with Alex if I should agree to the operation or not." she answered.
"Mer..what are you doing?" Alex asked unsure.
"I´m testing how damaged her STM is." she replied. "She can remember what she did this morning. That´s good. Do you know what happened later?" Meredith continued and Izzie looked at her hands.
"I um...I..." she stuttered.
"It´s okay take your time." Meredith comforted her with a smile.
"I...I don´t know.." Izzie replied nervously and Alex sighed.
"At least she remembers the morning." Meredith turned around to Alex who looked down at his shoes.
"Hey guys. What are we doing?" Izzie asked happily.
"Get her a ct, I´m gonna study what could cause this." Meredith whispered to Alex.
It was already 1 am and the doctors were drinking besides the one that were drivers and Arizona lost every sense of control.
"I´m beautiful. I´m sexy. I don´t need Calliopeeee to make me happyyyy." she sang the whole time. Bailey also was a bit drunk and sat next to Arizona applauding the whole time she ended her song.
"If she thinks she can just...screw around with Mark and get pregnant...then she should do it.." Arizona continued.
"Excuse me?!" Webber asked shocked and the rest of the group was surprised too.
"Okay. I think we need to go. My shift starts soon." Owen meant and Cristina nodded.
"I think we should go too." Webber said and helped Arizona and Bailey up from their seats. "Come on doctor Robbins..We´re going." he took them by their hands and pulled them towards the door when Bailey got free and ran back to the table and hugged Derek from behind.
"You are ma favorite doctoooor." she giggled and Derek smiled.
"Thank you doctor Bailey...and now go home and get some sleep." Derek chuckled and pulled away from the hug while Richard took her by the hand again.
"And you!" she pointed on Cristina who just put on her jacket. "Woe betide you you´re not fit during rounds tomorrow." she threatened while Webber pulled her outside to his car.
"Shall we?" Owen asked Cristina and she nodded. After saying goodbye they wanted to leave when Cristina saw Lexie still sitting at the bar.
"Wait." she meant and went towards her already sleeping intern. "Come one little Grey. Time to go home." she put her by her arm and helped her walking to Owen´s car and they drove her home to Meredith´s.
The next morning when Lexie woke up she had a terrible headache and the need to puke. When she went downstairs into the kitchen Derek already drank his coffee and read the newspaper.
"Good morning." he greeted her.
"Do you have to yell?" Lexie whispered and pour in some coffee into her cup.
"I´m sorry." Derek giggled quietly.
"What´s the time?" she sat down next to him.
"9 am. But I don´t think you can work like that today." he smiled.
"No no...I have an appointment with a coiffeur. I return to brunette." Lexie explained
"Wow...why?" Derek continued the small talk.
"Somehow I always need a change when something goes wrong in my life." Lexie looked into her cup.
"I heard it yesterday at this little party...I´m sorry." Derek put his hand on her shoulder.
"It´s okay. I´m fine. Well, at least I pretend to be." Lexie nodded. It was a moment of silence which was broken by Lexie asking how the party was.
"Well, good...kind of. Meredith had to go...a patient or something and I took a cab home. She´s still there."Derek told her.
"Yeah. I don´t remember how I came home. The last thing I remember was a tequila shot." Lexie giggled which cause more pain in her head and that caused Derek laughing.
"Okay I need to drive to the hospital. You´re really fine?" he asked standing up and putting on his jacket.
"I´m good. Go!" Lexie smiled and Derek left the house and her behind.
"Doctor Torres I´m glad you could make it." Webber entered his office where Callie already sat on the chair in front of the desk.
"Yeah but I´ve got my free day today...Why am I here?" she asked confused and mad that she had to be here.
"Well, I heard a rumor...about you and...well...Mark Sloan.." he started and Callie sighed and immediately knew what it was about. "I just want to clarify the truth about it."
"Well, if you mean the rumor about me being pregnant with Mark Sloan´s child then it´s true." Callie told him clearly and her chief sighed.
"You know...you´re a very good orthopedic surgeon and I would never fire you. But since we´re in the need of shorting our personal I think-"
"You´re firing me?!" Callie asked madly and shocked.
"I didn´t say that. I´m just warning you that the management will take every opportunity to fire people." Webber explained folding his hands together looking her deep in the eyes.
"So you´re telling me to abort?" Callie asked confused.
"No..no..you should do whatever you want...all I´m telling you is that you should show them what a loss you would be. I know it, you know it, every doctor in this hospital knows it. But you have to convince the management." Webber smiled and Callie nodded.
"May I go now?" she asked and he agreed so she left the office.
"Okay mister Burton." Webber entered Henry´s room in which Teddy was sitting and talking with him. "How are you feeling? Ready for your operation?"
"A operation which could cause my death? Couldn´t be more ready." Henry joked and Teddy looked at him madly.
"How often have I told you that you shouldn´t say things like that." she asked him warning and Webber rolled her eyes. Suddenly Teddy got a page. "Oh damn it..e.r. I gotta go. See you after the surgery." she left the room smiling and Henry watched her also smiling when Webber cleared his throat.
"Oh it´s not what you think it is...it´s completely platonic." Henry promised.
"I see...You two married yesterday?" Webber read in the chart and Henry nodded.
"Yeah you know nothing big...only her and me...we didn´t want to invite family or friends.." he joked.
"Mhm...Well, then see you in the o.r." Webber meant closing his chart and leaving the room which was the sign for some interns to prep him.
"Good morning sweetheart. Where have you been all night?" Derek kissed Meredith on her cheek when he came to her to the nurse´s desk.
"Oh...you know..the patient.." she lied.
"Mhm...Have you checked on Izzie?" he asked taking a chart.
"Yeah..um..she´s..fine..great..she´s great." Meredith lied again.
"You know I think I´m gonna go to her now.." Derek smiled and Meredith got nervous.
"No no...you don´t need to she´s..sleeping...yeah..sleeping." she tried to hold him back.
"Are you okay?" he asked suspicious.
"I´m fine." Meredith smiled and Derek´s pager beeped. "Oh you got a page. I´m sure it´s very important. Hurry up!"
"Okay. Love you!" he kissed her again before rushing into the e.r. Meredith sighed and went into Izzie´s room.
"Have you already received the ct scans?" she asked Alex.
"Yeah." he bit on his lip nervously and showed them to her. "Have you told Shepherd?"
"No." Meredith murmured looking at the scans. "Crap. There´s a bleeding. That´s why she forgets everything after 30 seconds."
"Why didn´t you tell him? He´s the only one who could cure this." Alex asked madly.
"I know...I just..couldn´t tell him. After the surgery...it would hurt him even more to hear that there are some complications after he was so sure he could do this." she defended her acting.
"Well, there´s a bleeding..in her brain..I don´t think you can cure this. He needs to know asap." Alex explained.
"I know. I can read a ct. I´m going to tell him. Trust me." Meredith replied a bit mad.
"When? When she already died? He needs to know now!" Alex shouted which caused Izzie to wake up.
"What´s wrong? Why are you shouting?" she asked confused and Alex came to her bed and hold her hand.
"Everything´s fine. Close your eyes and sleep again." he promised and so did she.
"Don´t you want to tell her?" Meredith asked.
"What sense would it have? She would forget it only seconds later." Alex answered.
"Good morning doctor Bailey. Why are you wearing sungl-" Cristina greeted her attending when she met her outside of the hospital.
"Shhh. don´t yell at me like that.." she whispered.
"Why are you wearing sunglasses?" Cristina asked whispering.
"It´s so light." Bailey answered looking at the hospital standing in front of it.
"Um..there are dark clouds on the sky and no sun...are you sure didn´t just have had too many drinks last night?" Cristina asked sarcastically and caused Bailey to turn to her and gasp angrily.
"I did not...have too many drinks...I can control myself." she defended herself.
"If you say so." Cristina chuckled and entered the hospital.
"I did not-" Bailey yelled after her but immediately stopped when she got headache from her yelling. "Maybe one too much." she murmured and also entered the hospital.
"Derek?" Meredith asked knocking at the door of an on-call room before entering it.
"Mer?...What do you want?" he asked confused and tired when she sat down on the bed he was sleeping in, ten seconds ago.
"I lied to you." she admitted and he looked at her still not less confused. "About Izzie...she´s anything but fine." Derek sat up quickly and grabbed her by her arms looking her deep into the eyes.
"What? What is wrong?" he worried.
"She has a bleeding...and lost her STM..." she murmured and Derek jumped out of the bed cursing why she didn´t tell him yet.
"I´m sorry...I didn´t want to hurt you even more.."
"Your acting could cause a patient´s death..you need to tell me the truth. Was she the patient why you left yesterday?" Derek shouted angrily and Meredith nodded. "You´re off of the case."
"What? Why-"
"No discussing." Derek cut her off and left the room by shutting the door close really loud.
"Okay...so you don´t need a surgery but I would like to keep you here over night okay? The nurses will bring you to a room." Teddy signed a patient´s chart and gave it a nurse before she told the patient goodbye and went to the desk.
"Is there anything else?" she asked and the nurse behind the desk shook her head when suddenly Teddy got a page. "Webber?...Henry!" she noticed and rushed to the o.r. Webber operated Henry.
"What´s the matter? What´s wrong?" she asked worried and stressed.
"The tumor has infected more of the pancreas than we thought. We have to take out so much that he would be a diabetic. Could he live with that?" Webber asked with his back to Teddy who was still standing there shocked.
"I..I don´t know I-" she stuttered.
"But you´re his wife!" Richard acted shocked.
"Why don´t you call his emergency contact? I´m...I´m not the one who should decide this!" Teddy explained overstrained.
"Well, he put you as his emergency contact." Webber mentioned and Teddy´s eyes widened.
"Me..What?!" she asked loudly and shocked.
"Doctor Altman you need to decide he´s already longer narcotized than he should be." Richard meant harshly.
"Um...I um.." Teddy stuttered switching her gaze between Henry and her chief.
"Hey doctor Bailey..." Arizona whispered when she slowly went towards her college.
"Doctor Robbins." Bailey replied whispering.
"So you´re...you´re having it to? A hangover?" she asked and Bailey nodded.
"What about if we don´t talk and just go down this hallway to the coffee car." Miranda asked.
"Good idea." Arizona agreed and they walked to the coffee car not talking at all. When they arrived at their destination and waited for the coffee to be ready Mark joined them.
"Good morning ladies." he greeted them way too loud.
"Go way Mark!" Arizona warned annoyed.
"Ah so you already know." he faked a smile.
"Yeah I know. And I don´t want you in my life. So I´m just waiting for Calliope´s decision and hopefully it doesn´t involve you!" she replied angrily.
"Well, as I know her it will involve me." he grinned.
"Really? What does Lexie say to...well, this huh?" she asked provocative.
"Screw you." Mark answered harshly and went away.
"Wow...I never thought you could be so badass." Bailey complimented Arizona.
"Thank you." she replied watching Mark leaving, taking her coffee and leaving Miranda in the other direction.
Meredith hid behind the nurse´s desk in front of Izzie´s room and watched Alex and Derek talking. She quickly looked at some charts pretending to write something when Derek left the room. After he was out of sight she went into Izzie´s room to check on her friends.
"Hi Meredith!" Izzie greeted her friendly and Meredith replied with a nod.
"What did he say?" she asked Alex, who still sat next to Izzie, whispering.
"He meant the he won´t operate yet and wants to watch it. Maybe it goes back and if not he will operate. We´ll see tomorrow he said." Alex explained watching Izzie knitting a scarf.
"I´m...sorry..for not telling him." Meredith meant after a pause.
"It´s okay...It wouldn´t have changed anything." he smiled weakly.
"When was the last time you slept?" she asked carrying.
"I didn´t get a lot of sleep the last few days. I´m sitting here or at Denny´s bed. I´m so exhausted. But I´m afraid something happens when I fall asleep." Alex explained tired.
"And when are you working?" she wanted to know and sat down next to him.
"I took a few days off...I start tomorrow again. I thought everything would be better after the surgery but...well, it´s not." Meredith placed her hand on Alex´ shoulder and he shivered at her touch. "You can go...you don´t need to stay."
"Okay...if anything is call me alright?" Meredith stood up and went towards the door but left after he agreed.
Telling the truth is always hard.
"Hi." Teddy greeted Henry when he opened his eyes.
"Hey." he replied huskily and Teddy gave him a cup of water.
"How ya feeling?" she asked worried sitting next to him.
"Okay...I´m good." he answered after finishing drinking.
"Okay um...there was a little complication...during your surgery...the tumor infected more of the pancreas than we thought...you put me as your emergency contact so I had to make a decision." Teddy started explaining stuttering.
"Wait wait what?...Teddy what are you talking about?" Henry asked confused.
"I´m telling you the truth..because that´s what I have to do..that´s...that´s what I agreed to by marrying you...I had to decide if they take out everything that was infected but what would cause you to be a diabetic, or let something in risking that the tumor will grow again and infect more and cause more damage. I didn´t know what to do so I decided to let them take out the whole tumor." she continued and Henry leaned back sighing. "But there are a lot of programs and nowadays it´s really no problem to be a diabetic. Moreover I´m a really good doctor...I can help you."
it can change someones life. In either a good or a bad way.
"So you´re telling me that...that they took out the whole tumor...but I´m a diabetic now?" Henry wanted to know and Teddy nodded.
"I´m sorry...but why did you take me as your emergency contact? I know nothing about you!" Teddy started arguing.
"Because your the only friend I have!" Henry explained and Teddy arched her eyebrows. "I had to change my jobs really often because of the bills for my treatments. You don´t really find friends that way."
"But don´t you have any more relatives?" Teddy asked and worried at once.
"I have a sister. But she lives in Prague. I don´t want to bother her with my problems she has enough on her own." Henry looked down at his hands playing with them nervously when Teddy grabbed them and he looked up into her beautiful eyes.
"Listen to me. Everything´s fine. I´m gonna be you emergency contact and insurance wife. In fact I would love to be." she smiled and so did Henry.
But no matter what confronts you...You never want to feel the consequences.
"I can´t understand why you didn´t tell me!" Derek yelled entering the house followed by Meredith.
"I just didn´t want to hurt you!" Meredith defended herself following him into the kitchen where Lexie sat eating dinner.
"You are a doctor! You can´t lie about a patient´s condition!" he explained angrily and still yelling. Lexie switched gaze between her sister and Derek.
"Um-" she started but Meredith cut her off.
"I know! I just thought maybe there´s something you didn´t cause...then I would have told you!" she meant unsure if she really had done this.
"But I caused the bleeding! I caused the loss of her STM!" Derek shouted looking at his fiancé who crossed her arms over her chest.
"Who?!" Lexie asked loudly and both looked at her.
"Izzie." Meredith answered sorrowful.
"Izzie? Oh my god..." Lexie stared at her food. Derek left the kitchen and went towards the door.
"Where are you going?" Meredith shouted after him.
"I´m sleeping at the hospital! I can´t be here tonight I need to fix what you did wrong!" he said opening the door.
"Seriously?!" Meredith asked shocked.
"You can be happy Alex is your friend and won´t tell Webber anything. By the way...nice hair Lexie." he meant before closing the door behind him.
"Thank you..." Lexie murmured more asking than thanking. "What happened?" she asked her sister.
"I don´t wanna talk about it." Meredith meant and went upstairs.
Derek closed the door looking down on the floor when he heard a familiar voice saying his name.
"What are you doing here Mark?" he asked annoyed and tired.
"Is Lexie in there?" Mark asked and pointed on the door.
"Yes she is but you´re not gonna-"
"Lexie!" Mark interrupted Derek by shouting her name which she and Meredith heard. Lexie looked at the door and Meredith who still was on the stairs looked at her when she stood up from her chair.
"Oh no no no! You´re not gonna go there!" she stopped her sister.
"Mer...let me talk to him please. I´m not that stupid to make this mistake three times." Lexie promised.
"You also said you were not that stupid to do it once." she claimed.
"Lexie!" Mark yelled again.
But when it comes to the point...
The point you want to hear the truth...
You need to expect everything.
"Stop it!" Derek pushed him away and pressed him against the wall. "Stop asking for her. After all you did you don´t get to think she still wants to see you."
"Leave him alone." Lexie suddenly stood outside and watched them.
"Lex.." Mark almost cried.
"Derek can you...can you please leave us alone." Lexie asked him and Derek left Mark.
"Don´t you dare to hurt her again." he whispered to him before he went to his car and drove to the hospital.
"So...what do you want?" Lexie closed the door and crossed her arms over her chest because it was cold.
"I miss you." he said.
"Mark...I can´t." she replied.
"I´m sorry...I really am...but this is my child. I want to have a family. I want to have a family with you."
"You know how weird this sounds? That you want to have a family with me and your lesbian best friend who carries your child." Lexie laughed mad.
"I know..I know..but I want to be a father...I want to have this child. I want to start a family with Callie and Arizona and-" he meant looking her in the eyes.
"And me?" she held back her tears.
And with all good that can come by telling the truth...
You have to expect...
"Of course I do...but don´t let me choose between you and her.." he whispered sorrowful.
"Why? Because you would choose Callie and the baby?" Lexie asked biting on her lips nervously.
"Yeah.." he meant after a pause. "I would choose her with the baby."
"I think our relationship...or whatever it was...just ended." she explained and put her hand on his cheek and kissed him softly. Afterwards she turned around and went inside before he could say anything.
...being hurt.