Hey guys!
Please welcome a new character A...
And oh my god my inner monologue is so similar to the one of 14x03 and I wrote it before I watched it XD
Superheroes
We are doctors.
In some people´s eyes we´re scary.
In other´s we are superheroes.
But we aren´t.
"Hey you!" Teddy greeted Henry when she entered his room with two fruit cups in her hand.
"Wow...don´t you have patients?" he smiled at her realizing how much he loves her.
"No I´m on call and nobody needs me right now. Fruit cup?" she explained and threw one of them towards Henry before sitting down on his bed.
"Sure...So how was your date with this guy yesterday?" he asked a bit jealous opening the dessert.
"God...let´s not talk about this...he was so self-centered and only talked about Shepherd´s attitude. I knew that this won´t work out after 15 minutes. God, aren´t there normal guys out there?" she asked sarcastically acting like she was praying while Henry looked down at his hands.
"Apparently not.." he murmured.
"Anyways...how are you feeling?" she concentrated on him again, noticing that something´s wrong.
"Good,...good...yeah Webber meant I can go home soon..." Henry meant faking a smile.
"You don´t seem happy.." Teddy noticed and grabbed his hand. "What´s wrong?"
"Nothing...I...I just don´t know if I can handle the diabetes alone and.." He explained pulling his hand away.
"And?" Teddy wanted him to finish his sentence.
"And I´m alone at home...I´m gonna miss these midday fruit cup dates." He chuckled and Teddy scoffed.
"You can visit me here." she offered joking.
"Funny...Finally coming home from hospital and then coming again for fruit cups...by the way these are disgusting." he laughed and so did Teddy.
"I´m gonna visit you. I´m your wifey. And I have to check if you take you meds so.." she replied and both started smiling again.
We are human beings.
We make mistakes.
We´re not flawless.
We´re not fearless.
We are not made out of steal.
Cristina was listening to some music, while dancing through the apartment brushing her teeth, when Owen opened the door from the bedroom and watched her.
"Hey." she greeted him with throwing her arms into the sky and smiling with the toothbrush in her mouth.
"What...are you doing?" Owen stepped into the living room smiling at his funny looking girlfriend.
"I´m getting ready for work." she explained. "Join me." she pulled the headphone plug out of her phone and turned it on the highest volume while coming closer to Owen. "Come on." she took his hands and started dancing around him.
"Cristina I-"
"No complaining...this is good for you." she assured and after a moment of hesitation he started dancing with her which made both laughing even more. Owen started brewing some coffee – still dancing – when Cristina looked at the letters they got.
"Unimportant, unimportant, my mother, unimportant,.." she sorted them through by throwing the unimportant ones – and her mother´s – on the floor. "Major Hunt." she noticed and opened it confused as Owen didn´t react, and started reading.
"There you go two hot coff- why did you turn off the music?" he asked when he noticed that it was silent in their apartment and Cristina stood at the desk holding a letter and not looking up from it.
"Cristina what´s wrong?" Owen put the cups on the desk and grabbed her shoulder worried.
"Owen this letter´s for you...it´s from the army...they...they want you back to Iraq."
Our emotions can let us go wild.
Sometimes we have to let them out.
Sometimes we push them back into the darkest corner of our head.
"Meredith come on...we´ll be late to work." Lexie knocked at Meredith´s door for like the 100th time.
"She´s still not answering?" Alex asked standing at the end of the hallway ready to go and Lexie replied with a soft head-shaking. He came closer and bumped against the door.
"Mer open the door. Come out! Don´t go all dark and twisty again." he begged loudly.
"Dark and twisty?" Lexie asked confused.
"Long story before you were here...not important now." Alex explained. "Enough." he said after no reply from the other side of the door and opened it, to face Meredith lying in bed her arms wrapped around a bottle tequila and the curtains closed.
"Come on Mer we have to go to work." he pulled away the blanket a bit but Meredith didn´t turn around.
"I don´t wanna go to work." she said huskily.
"I don´t wanna go to work either." Lexie replied and Alex looked at her mad.
"But we have to. Come." he tried to turn her around but she wouldn´t let him. Alex sighed looking at Lexie who still stood in the doorway. Then he laid down next to Meredith and wrapped his arms around her. Lexie watched them confused how they just lay there and didn´t say anything.
"Um...should I wait or go? Cause I´m an intern...I can´t allow myself to be late." she explained confused but got no answer. "I´ll go." she murmured and left them two lying in bed.
"You stink like a sponge drank in tequila." Alex said smiling.
"I hate you." Meredith whispered trying to hold back the tears.
"You love me." Alex replied coming even closer to her.
"Derek didn´t want to come home with me yesterday. You think he´ll break up with me?" Meredith asked with a shaking voice.
"He´d be a fool." Alex replied.
"He didn´t say I love you back." Meredith whispered again.
"Want me to kick his ass?" Alex asked which caused Meredith smiling. "Izzie remembered yesterday. And then she died in my arms."
"Want me to kick her ass?" Meredith replied asking and Alex had to smile too. They remained lying and smiling over their special friendship.
In some points it´s right.
We are kind of superheroes.
We save lives. We cut out giant tumors.
But at the end of the day, at the end of our shift,
we´re normal.
We´re doctors, not superheroes.
"Hello stranger!" Derek, who stood by the nurse´s desk filling in some charts, heard behind his back. The voice was too familiar to not know who it was and when he turned around he faced a smiling woman.
"Amy! What are you doing here?" he asked happily hugging his sister.
"What I´m doing here? You don´t call, text me...I had to hear from Addison that you´re engaged." she meant not breaking the hug.
"Addison?" Derek pulled away looking at her confused.
"Yeah you know your crush from high school. I´m working with her at the Oceanside Wellness...a private practice mostly for pregnancy things." Amelia explained.
"I´m here too." a woman with gray hair stepped forward.
"Mum." Derek recognized her and hugged her too. "Why didn´t you call? I could have sent an escort for you."
"I don´t need an escort I can call a cab on my own." his mother replied smiling and ending the hug. "I wanted to surprise you and as the universe wanted it one of my daughters has an interesting case here." she continued and put her hand on Amelia´s shoulder.
"So you didn´t came for me. You came for a brain." Derek crossed his arms in front of his chest acting mad.
"I did also come for you.." she added quickly, smiling awkwardly.
"Well, I will look at the case." Derek meant without asking for allowance.
"I didn´t want you to-" Amelia wanted to reply but got cut off.
"Amy!" she heard Mark calling her behind her.
"Uh uh...only my brother is allowed to call me Amy." she went towards him and hugged him.
"Oh come on. I´m like your second brother." he giggled.
"Hardly." Amelia replied the giggle and Mark ended the hug when he noticed Derek´s mother.
"Mrs. Shepherd." he smiled and went to her reaching out his hand.
"Oh since when are we so formal. Come to me boy." she hugged him tight and Mark felt a bit overwhelmed.
"What are you doing here?" he asked after their hug and Amelia looked at Derek.
"Visiting Derek of course." she winked at her brother smiling.
"Hello doctor Yang. Do you have any case I could-" Lexie greeted Cristina when she saw her on the hallway but Cristina just passed her without any reaction. "...okay...why is everybody ignoring me?!"
"Everybody is what?" Derek asked her when he suddenly stood next to her and they went towards Izzie´s room.
"Everybody´s ignoring me. Cristina, Alex, Meredith...oh sorry...to soon?" she asked quickly but Derek didn´t reply on that.
"You know when the fusion starts?" Derek asked her.
"...obviously you too..." Lexie replied unbelievable that nobody listened to her.
"Hm?" Derek asked concentrated on the chart.
"On Friday." Lexie answered him.
"Friday? That´s in two days!" he eventually looked at her.
"I know. I´m excited for the new surgeons." Lexie smiled happily.
"That´s...unbelievable." Derek ignored her again and left her walking straight to Richard´s office.
"Seriously?" Lexie scoffed mad and continued her lonely walk through the hallways.
"So you were doing nothing to stop this?" Derek leaned on his arms at Richard´s desk.
"I already told you, I never intended to. I wanted to save this hospital and that was the only way." he justified himself.
"I can´t understand how you could agree to that." Derek walked around nervously.
"I thought we eventually ended this topic – why are you bringing it up again?" Richard asked confused but Derek didn´t answer still looking at the floor while walking. "Is it because you haven´t talked to Meredith yet or because your sister is here?" the chief asked and Derek looked up madly.
"You don´t get to tell me I am mad because of my family´s visit." he almost threatened him.
"I just thought that after she almost begged me to let her operate here you were afraid of losing your job." Webber explained and Derek scoffed.
"I would never be afraid of losing my job to my sister. She has a good job and she always says she can do that and after she messed up, she comes to me and begs for help." Derek told him.
"Sounds similar to me." Webber murmured.
"What did you say?" his employee asked angrily, his hands turning into fists.
"You haven´t spoken with Meredith yet huh?" Richard asked comforting and Derek calmed down again sitting down on the couch.
"I lost her. I´m constantly losing her." Derek meant cradling his head in his hands while Richard sighed. "I love her so much. I want to spend the rest of my life with her. But sometimes...sometimes I have the feeling she does not."
"Maybe you should tell her what you feel." Richard tried to comfort his neuro surgeon.
"I do...I do it all the time. I just...don´t know what I can do more. I want to be with her but I constantly lose her." he looked up and hold back his tears.
"You know...when I had an affair with Ellis Grey I had to lie to Adele so often. I felt guilty for lying but I knew the truth would more than just hurt her. I only wanted the best for her." Richard explained him.
"How is that similar to us?" Derek wanted to know confused.
"Meredith felt the same. She loves you so much, and she doesn´t want you to be hurt. So she lied to you. You are Adele and she is me." the chief told him and Derek sighed.
Lexie noticed that she worked with Shepherd today and went to the neuro wing. At least somebody she could talk to...though Derek ignored her. When she arrived at the nurse´s desk of the unit she asked where doctor Shepherd was and the nurse pointed on the scan room.
"Oh...hello I thought doctor Shepherd was here." she excused herself when she entered it and saw a woman.
"I am doctor Shepherd." the woman turned out to be Amelia and Lexie looked at her rather confused. "I´m sure you thought my brother would be here...I´m Derek´s sister." Amelia reached out her hand and Lexie shook it.
"Oh...yeah sorry I didn´t know he had sisters. I´m Lexie Grey." Lexie replied smiling.
"You aren´t my brother´s fiancé, are you?" Amelia asked confused.
"No..no I´m her sister...well, half sister." she explained and the attending nodded.
"Well, then...I´ll present you the case...um...34 year old woman with a tumor in her cortex visualis." Amelia started and Lexie looked at the scans.
"Isn´t it inoperable?" she asked concentrated remembering every word.
"It is...but not for me." Amelia assured confident.
"But if you go in under the wrong angle she could get blind...or you could hurt the cerebellum." Lexie noticed.
"So wouldn´t it be really cool to heal this woman?" Amelia smiled still very confident.
"What...are you some kind of superhero?" Lexie scoffed sarcastically.
"I like to call myself one." Amelia smiled and stared at the scans putting her hands on her hips. "You want to be one too?" she looked over to Lexie who was still skeptical.
Meredith and Alex walked into the resident´s locker room to change when they saw Cristina sitting on the bench staring at the wall.
"What´s wrong with both of you, that you look like paralyzed?" Alex asked annoyed of their moods but both didn´t reply. "Fine." he said and left the room after changing into his scrubs. Meredith also changed her clothes but sat down next to Cristina.
"Derek didn´t came home yesterday. He didn´t say I love you back. Do you think he´ll leave me?" she asked.
"Mer..." Cristina replied huskily and still staring at the wall.
"I mean I get it. I lied to him and I...it was my fault that Izzie almost died...but I only want-"
"Meredith! Could you please stop talking about your life all the time? For just one minute?" Cristina shouted and looked at the shocked Meredith.
"I..I..I´m sorry. I thought I could-" she stuttered. But Cristina cut her off again by standing up.
"No! Stop saying I, I, I...The whole world does not turn around you...you are not the sun! It does not...always has to be about you and your perfect life with your perfect McDreamy." Cristina leaned against the wall and looked at her shoes while Meredith watched her confused.
"My perfect life? Are you even listening to what you´re saying? My fiancé doesn´t talk to me and I? I´m as good as infertile and almost killed one of my best friends. My mother had Alzheimer and died because of it. My dad left me and started a new family. I drowned and had my hand in body with a bomb in it in the same year. My life is anything but perfect!" Meredith replied angrily and Cristina looked at her not regretting what she said.
"And you think mine is? My tutor fired me, and Izzie´s also one of my best friends. I´m the one she came to when she thought something was wrong. It was me who had to go through the DNR with her and then not follow her last wish. And Owen? He has to go back to Iraq!" Cristina replied shouting and pointing on herself. "But I´m still sitting here, listening to your crap instead of being with Owen...because you´re my person and that´s what I have to do for you. But when do you listen to me?" Meredith sat on the bench unbelievable what she heard.
"Wait, wait, wait...Owen´s going back to Iraq?" she asked shocked.
"Yes Meredith..he´s going back." Cristina replied still mad.
"So you want to go back?" Richard sat on his chair folding his hands together watching Owen.
"I..I have to." Owen stuttered on his typical way.
"I mean I understand..it´s your motherland...but...I´m very sorry to lose my head of trauma surgery." Webber looked at the files. "We are losing our residents and interns but the attendings for trauma are rare at Mercy West."
"I..I know. I don´t wanna go either. I have built up a life here. I was finally cured from my PTS. I..I have Cristina and wanted to start a future with her. I don´t know for how long this will take." Owen worried about his future.
"Well, you should know, doctor Hunt, that you will always have a place here." Webber assured him and Owen nodded.
"Thank you." he whispered thankfully before leaving the office.
"Derek? What are you doing here?" Amelia asked when she entered her patient´s room.
"Hm? I´m taking over the case." Derek replied not really showing any regret.
"I didn´t ask you to." Amelia mentioned confused
"I know. You should have." her brother said self confident.
"Derek, this is my patient. Step away!" Amelia meant harshly but controlled and Lexie switched gaze between the siblings not sure what to think about it.
"I´m afraid this tumor is inoperable and-" Derek completely ignored his sister and turned back to the patient.
"Derek." She replied angrily.
"And I´m very sorry for telling you this but-" Derek continued ignoring Amelia.
"Doctor Shepherd. Step away from my patient." Amelia now said loudly and harshly.
"Amy I-" Derek turned back to face the angry Amelia and overwhelmed Lexie.
"My name is Amelia. I´m not your little sister you need to protect anymore. I´m an adult. I am a brilliant surgeon." She defended herself in front of Derek when he went to her and pulled her aside.
"Amelia...the procedure is very risky...I just wan to-" He tried to explain whispering but Amelia cut him off.
"Help me? I don´t need your help anymore. I needed it a year ago when I was a drug addict but not now. I can do this on my own."she whispered back very harshly and hold back her tears.
"Amy. Give me the chart. You´re not in the ability to do this."Derek hold out his hand but Amelia didn´t react and looked him straight into the eyes.
"You don´t get to tell me what I can and can´t do." she let one tear out and pressed her lips together.
"Amy. Give me the chart." Derek asked her again and looked to Lexie for a short moment and saw that she was very uncomfortable with this family feud.
"I will never-" she wanted to say but her brother cut her off.
"Amelia! I´m not gonna let you do this. This tumor is impossible to remove. All you would do is kill this woman." he ordered her still whispering and Amelia bit on her lip nervously and sniffing. "Now give me the chart." he hold his hand out again and this time more demanding. Amelia looked on the ceiling to hold back her tears an pressed her lips together before handing him out the chart. "Lexie you´re on my service for the rest of the day. Give doctor Shepherd time to rest."he meant and Lexie nodded unsure after looking at Amelia who stared at her brother again.
"Um...yes doctor Shepherd." she replied and swallowed nervously when they went back to the patient and left Amelia at the door.
Meredith was sitting in the cafeteria with Alex talking about Cristina and Owen.
"I can´t believe he has to go back. They eventually lived a normal life. Hey are you even listening?!" Meredith clapped with her hands when she noticed Alex looking into a different direction.
"Hm what? Oh yeah so sad." he pretended to listen.
"What are you looking at?" Meredith tried to follow his gaze.
"This woman who sits over there looks around for 10 minutes. She hasn´t touched her food once." Alex noticed and pointed on her with his fork.
"You think she´s confused? Schizophrenic or something?" she asked him watching her.
"I don´t know. Maybe she sneaked out of the psych." he giggled and Meredith rolled her eyes.
"You know what I´m gonna ask her." she stood up and went towards her followed by Alex´ eyes.
"Hello. Can I help you?" she asked friendly and the gray haired woman looked at her.
"Oh no thank you. I´m looking for my son...he said he would be here ten minutes ago." she replied and continued looking around. In the meantime Lexie joined Alex and sighed exhausted when she finally sat down.
"Do you know Amelia Shepherd?" she asked him and Alex shook his head softly still staring at Meredith. "She´s a hardcore surgeon...and Derek´s little sister...hey! Are you ignoring me?" Lexie asked madly.
"Hush! I want to listen to them." Alex replied not looking at Lexie who looked around confused.
"Whom?" she asked whispering.
"Meredith and this lady over there." Alex now looked to Lexie and then both watched their friend.
"Who is that?" Lexie asked and Alex shrugged.
"Do you know the patient´s ID? I can find out if he has an examination or something." Meredith tried to help.
"No he´s not a patient. He works here." the lady answered smiling.
"Really who is-" Meredith wanted to know when someone cut her off.
"Mom...I´m sorry I had a patie- Meredith." Derek gave his mother a kiss on the cheek and froze when he saw his fiancé.
"Derek? This is your mother?" Meredith asked embarrassed and blushing.
"Are you Meredith Grey? Oh sorry I didn´t know. I´m Carolyn Shepherd." his mother reached her hand out and Meredith shook it looking at Derek who looked down on the floor.
"Yes I am...I..I´m sorry I..I have to go..a patient." Meredith stuttered uncomfortably.
"Oh sure I understand..I was a navy nurse." she smiled and Meredith went backwards waving goodbye and then leaving the cafeteria.
"Wait...is this Derek´s mother?" Lexie asked watching the whole situation and how Derek sat down next to Carolyn after Meredith left.
"I think so." Alex replied also watching them. Lexie got a message and giggled which cause Alex looking at her.
"What´s so funny?" he asked snoopy.
"Oh that´s just Jackson. He asked me if we´ll meet at Joe´s tonight." Lexie replied looking at her phone.
"The Mercy West guy? Where´s your loyalty?" Alex wanted to know looking disgusted.
"He will be one of us on Friday...and by the way...I am much more loyal than you are." Lexie answered trying to looked sassy while drinking from her juice box but Alex scoffed and looked back to Derek and his mom.
"Where did you leave Amelia?" Carolyn asked.
"She´s mad at me because I took her patient away." Derek replied drinking his coffee.
"Derek.." his mother sighed.
"What? You know that she would have cracked under the pressure. She always did. You raised five neuro surgeons...and four of them would tell you that this is not possible." Derek explained to his mother.
"She changed Derek...Amelia is not the same girl she was." his mother tried to convince him but he shook his head.
"They never change. Drug addicts will always stay drug addicts...And if she was clean for twenty years now she will always stay a drug addict." Derek stood up and left his mother after saying this. She sat there all by herself when Mark came across.
"Mrs. Shepherd...What are you doing here all alone?" he asked when he came to her.
"My kids are fighting again.." she sighed smiling. "And you? How´s it going with you?" Mark really appreciated her appearance. It felt like home to him.
"Well,.." Mark sighed and sat down and Carolyn looked at him worried. "I basically messed up everything that was beautiful in my life."
"Why?" she wanted to know and Mark looked down.
"I had a girlfriend...A wonderful, beautiful girlfriend and then...well, then I got my best friend pregnant." he explained.
"Oh Mark." she sighed again and he looked up at her.
"It´s okay. I´m moving on...sort of." he watched Lexie from the corner of his eye and Derek´s mother followed his gaze.
"Who is it?" she asked knowing that he´s looking at his ex girlfriend.
"The one with the juice box." he said and scoffed after noticing how ridiculous it sounded.
"She´s pretty." Carolyn straightly looked at Lexie who noticed it and quickly turned her head away
"The prettiest." Mark looked down on the table and smiled.
"Owen...hey." Teddy came to her best friend. "What´s up? You don´t look good." she noticed.
"I..They want me back." he told her.
"Who?" she asked confused.
"The army. I got a letter today. They want me back to Iraq." he explained with a shaky voice.
"But um...but you have a life here...you have your job and..and Cristina and me." Teddy stuttered unbelievable.
"That doesn´t care. I have to go...I have to go back to the war." Owen got mad and his hands turned to fists.
"When?" Teddy asked.
"Saturday."
"Saturday? That´s 4 days!" Teddy almost screamed and Owen nodded. "Does Cristina know?"
"She opened the letter." Owen explained and his friend sighed. "Teddy promise me you´ll take care of Cristina. You need her and she needs you. You come to me and tell me how dumb all of your residents are, but the only reason why you think they´re dumb is because Cristina did everything you asked her to. And she did it right. She made one mistake but don´t punish her for so long...she needs you now more than ever before."
"Okay." Teddy whispered nodding. "Okay." she repeated and hugged him.
"Thank you." Owen replied the hug.
Mark went down the hallway when Callie joined him.
"Hey you." he smiled at her and she replied it. "How´s it going?"
"Good, good, good..." Callie lied nodding with her head.
"One more time and I believe you." Mark scoffed. "What´s up?" he put his arm around her shoulder and she put her head on his.
"I miss Arizona...I´m devastated...I need her back in my life." Callie explained.
"I feel the same way." Mark replied and both smiled. "But Arizona wants you back too...maybe you just go talk to her."
"After she left me? No!" Callie answered quickly.
"Come one...at least you get the chance to be with her...I won´t ever get that again." he told her sadly.
"Yeah I´m sorry for that." Callie replied sarcastically.
"Don´t be..it was also my fault..but please for god´s sake talk to her." he begged his best friend.
Derek went to Izzie´s room to check on her when he saw Alex sitting by her side and laughing.
"Izzie, doctor Karev. I see you´re feeling better." he noticed.
"Much better." Izzie smiled to Derek and then back to her boyfriend.
"That´s good. Very good." Derek checked her pupil with a little flashlight and went back smiling when everything was fine.
"When can we continue the interleukin 2 treatment?" she asked impatiently.
"Iz.." Alex sighed.
"Izzie you just had a brain surgery. You as a doctor really think that you should put toxic chemicals into your veins?" Derek meant closing her chart.
"Well, I want to be healthy asap." Izzie´s smile was gone and she played with her fingers nervously.
"But taking it too fast can make it even worse." Alex whispered comforting.
"I know." Izzie sobbed. "I just want to be able to hold Denny in my arms. The last time I saw him I collapsed."
"I know...but he´s doing well. Doctor Fields said I can take him home tomorrow." Alex gave her a comforting smile but Izzie started crying heavily.
"Izzie?" Alex asked overstrained seeing her like this. Her BP got higher and Derek was worried about her health.
"Izzie. Please calm down. This is not good for you recovery." Derek came closer and hold her hand.
"Denny´s gonna grow up without me. He won´t know I´m his mother. He will think Meredith or Lexie are." she cried and Alex handed her out a tissue.
"I´m sure he won´t. When you follow the plan of your recovery you will be out here in a few weeks." Derek assured her.
"But I will miss the first few weeks when he´s home."she looked to her doctor wiping away some tears.
"He won´t remember." Derek smiled at her comforting and she replied it weakly.
"If you excuse me now I have to check on another patient." Derek excused himself and let Izzie and Alex alone.
Lexie was walking down the hallways reading a medical journal when suddenly somebody pulled her into a scan room.
"Uhh..hel- doctor Shepherd?" she wanted to shout for help when she noticed Amelia in front of her.
"We´re gonna operate." she announced excited.
"What...Derek allowed it?" Lexie asked confused.
"Not really. But he´s not my boss and I´m sure I can do this." Amelia told her confident.
"Well, technically he is-" Lexie thought but Amelia cut her off."
"You want to operate this tumor? You want to be a neuro – goddess? You want to be a superhero?" Amelia asked and Lexie thought about the consequences but also the knowledge she would have afterwards.
"Hey doctor Grey! Have you checked on Henry recently?" Teddy asked Meredith when she walked by.
"Due all respect doctor Altman..he is your husband and you are a doctor..you can read his vitals." Meredith asked annoyed because of her chat with Derek´s mother and Cristina´s behavior.
"Excuse me?" Teddy asked shocked.
"I´m..I´m sorry it was a rough day for me...but can´t you just realize that he´s so madly in love with you? Can´t you just realize that you need Cristina on your service to be happy again? And can´t you just let me do my work?" Meredith begged her and left again.
"Madly in love with...me? No he would have..oh god..." Teddy thought loud and opened her eyes wide as she noticed it´s true. She ran to Henry´s room and almost bumped into him as he wanted to leave the room.
"Henry.." she said quietly.
"Teddy? I thought you wouldn´t come to say goodbye." he smiled at her.
"Goodbye?" Teddy asked confused.
"I´m going. I´m allowed to leave?" Henry reminded her and Teddy nodded.
"Right...you know...I didn´t know you..were..." Teddy stuttered.
"I was what?" Henry wanted to know.
"Come on...you know what I mean..." she tried to not speak it out loud but Henry raised one eyebrow full of confusion. "That you...love me?" she explained by whispering the last two words.
"Oh..um..Meredith told you right?" Henry asked and Teddy nodded pressing her lips together. "Yeah that was a joke...I joked around with us being married because you love me so much..I didn´t mean that I was in love with you.." Henry lied and faked a smile.
"Oh...well, then...great we cleared this...text me when your home...goodbye." she smiled and hugged him.
"Bye." Henry replied biting on his lip sadly.
"Calliope...hi." Arizona came to Callie who stood at the nurse´s desk. "I wanted to talk to you...about the things between us."
"Me too." Callie admitted and Arizona sighed relieved.
"Great...how about tonight at Joe´s?" she asked hopeful.
"I´m pregnant." Callie reminded her.
"He also has nonalcoholic drinks." Arizona tried to convince her.
"Okay...I´ll meet you around eight." Callie smiled and Arizona looked at her wrist watch.
"Uhh..my shift ends in two hours." she cursed and Callie also looked at her watch.
"Um...then nine? Is this better?" Callie suggested and Arizona smiled.
"Much better. Thank you." Arizona was very grateful for Callie understanding.
"Cristina..." Owen whispered when they were lying in a bed in an on-call room cuddling.
"Hm?" she replied staring at the wall.
"I´m sorry." he told her but she shook her head slowly.
"It´s not your fault." she explained and Owen came closer and tightened his grip.
"I feel like it is." his voice started shaking. Cristina turned around and placed her hand on his cheek.
"Shh..it´s not..." she kissed him softly and a tears started rolling down their faces. "Come with me." she meant and stood up.
"Where are you going?" Owen wondered.
"Don´t ask...just follow." she took his hand and went with him to the staircase and they went down the stairs till they arrived in the cellar.
"What are we doing here?" Owen asked annoyed when Cristina stopped in front of a door.
"Remember when you first came here and I was crying on the hallway? You brought me down here and showed me this room." Cristina pointed on the door.
"The boiler room." Owen remembered and Cristina nodded opening the door.
"If you want to cry, don´t cry in some beds in on-call rooms...come with me." she pulled him into the room and placed him on the grid over the ventilation.
"I love you Cristina.." Owen smiled and Cristina replied the smile.
"Wait for it." she ordered smiling and a few seconds later the warm air stream came and ran through their clothes and hairs. Cristina giggled happily when Owen started kissing her passionately.
Derek went to check on the patient he took from his sister but when he entered her room she wasn´t there.
"Excuse me...where´s the patient?" he asked the nurse Taylor but he shrugged.
"I´m sorry my shift started ten minutes ago." he answered and went away. Derek tried to page Lexie but got no response. He went to the o.r. board to check if Lexie was in surgery with another doctor. When he found her he couldn´t believe with whom she was operating. Derek ran to o.r. three to find Amelia and Lexie standing in front of the opened head of his patient.
"Lexie? What are you doing here?" he asked madly and Lexie looked up.
"Don´t respond to him." Amelia ordered and continue her work without looking up.
"Amelia! You put away the scalpel immediately." Derek yelled and the staff looked at him and then to Amelia who ignored him and continued her work.
"Suction please." she asked but the nurse hesitated. "Suction please!" Amelia repeated loudly. "Or do you want to kill the patient?" The nurse looked down and gave her the instrument she asked for.
"Doctor Grey...what can you see here?" she asked and pointed on a part of the brain.
"Amelia..don´t make me go to the chief!" Derek threatened her.
"Bokhee can you please bring doctor Shepherd out of my o.r.? His existence disturbs my work." Amelia asked the nurse who nodded and lead Derek to the door.
"We are not finished yet!" he meant before storming out.
"Well, doctor Grey...would you like to take out the tumor?" Amelia asked her smiling under her mask.
"Me? Really I..i´m just an intern..I-" Lexie stuttered overwhelmed.
"Calm down..I already cut it out..all you have to do is take this masterpiece of tumor out and put it into the bowl over there." she explained and made some space for Lexie.
"Thank you." she replied the smile and took the tumor out calmly and carefully.
"See? You can do it perfectly." Amelia meant after Lexie put the tumor into the bowl.
We are anxious, angry, and fall in love.
We are just like you.
We have our past. We have our problems, our things to cope with.
"That was inappropriate!" Derek yelled at Amelia when she came out of the o.r. wing.
"What? Saving her life?" she asked sarcastically.
"Doing something so dangerous! Risking a patient´s life!" he explained still yelling.
"I saved her life...this intern saved her life...I´m not gonna let you yell at me!" Amelia replied harshly going away.
"You will never get my job, Amelia. After this Webber will never replace me with you." Derek yelled after her till she finally stopped and turned around.
"You think all of this was to get your job? You think I want to steal my brother´s job? I have a wonderful job in California, I don´t need yours. I came here to show you that I changed. That I´m a better surgeon now." Amelia explained coming closer again.
"You didn´t change at all." Derek told her disgusted.
"I didn´t change? Okay I didn´t change." she scoffed. "Look at me!" she pointed on herself. "Look at your little sister." she hold out her ID. "You know this is something every drug addict wishes for. With this ID you can go to every storage room of this hospital and take all the drugs you want. And what am I doing? I´m standing here getting yelled at by my brother but still not taking any of the meds I could get with this." she put it back on her coat and wiped away a tear. "So tell me one more time I didn´t change...go on...tell me everything you always wanted to say...because I know that it isn´t true...I graduated from med-school I made a hell out of a surgeon and I´m clean for one year...I reached everything I wanted to reach...I am..a superhero!" Amelia explained, her voice shaking and Derek biting on his lip nervously.
But to be a superhero we have to leave it home.
We have to put on our suit, our pokerface,
and not let anything come in our way.
"Hey...I was afraid you wouldn´t come." Callie smiled when Arizona walked through the doors of Joe´s and sat down next to Callie.
"Yeah sorry a kid with appendicitis came in." she sighed and looked at Callie´s water with a lemon in it.
"Okay...So what would you like to have to drink?" she asked.
"The same thing you have." Arizona smiled awkwardly. Generally the mood between them was awkward.
"Calliope, listen, I really want you back...I really love you...and I don´t care if you´re pregnant I just want to be with you." Arizona explained.
"I also want to be with you...and I love you too but-" Callie replied but stopped when she saw Lexie and Jackson walking in. "Oh god.."
"What? What´s wrong?" Arizona looked around.
"The guy Lexie´s with...he´s from the Mercy West and Harper Avery´s grandson. Mark´s gonna freak out if he finds out their dating." Callie explained fishing out her phone from her pocket.
"Calliope..can we please not talk about Mark tonight?" Arizona begged and Callie looked up from her phone.
"Mark´s my best friend..." Callie said with an asking undertone.
"I know..but..he´s not mine..and I don´t want him to.." Arizona stuttered.
"To be in your life?" Callie asked raising an eyebrow.
"Well,.." Arizona wanted to lie but she knew it wouldn´t make sense.
"If you want me back in your life and this baby in your life you have to live with Mark because he´s the father." Callie stood up and grabbed her bag.
"Where are you going? Calliope?" Arizona watched her.
"This doesn´t make sense. I thought we could work things out but it doesn´t make sense with you being against Mark." she meant and left her.
So to be honest I hate being a superhero.
Don´t get me wrong I love being a doctor.
So I´m happy we aren´t superheroes.
I´m happy we are normal people.
"Everything´s alright?" Jackson asked Lexie when they sat down at the bar.
"Yeah that´s just...that woman was the reason I broke up with Mark.." she explained.
"Oh I´m sorry for that." Jackson smiled comforting.
"Anyway..let´s drink on my successful surgery today." she changed the topic quickly and handed him a beer.
"Yeah you didn´t tell me yet. How was it?" he took the beer and asked interested.
"I operated with Derek Shepherd´s sister and there was so much drama going on but this tumor was worth it." Lexie explained excited.
"You look like it was." Jackson kind of complimented her.
To have the problems others have.
To have the family affairs others have.
But to also feel the love and pain the others have.
But what should I tell you...my life isn´t normal.
My life is anything but ordinary.
Meredith sat on a bench in front of the hospital when Derek came to her.
"Hey." he greeted her.
"Hey." she replied and looked to him. "I embarrassed myself in front of your mother."
"I just yelled at my sister." Derek sat down next to her.
"You also have a sister?"Meredith asked shocked but smiling.
"I have four of them." he giggled.
"I mean I didn´t know I have two sisters 2 years ago." Meredith replied the giggle.
"Who knows...maybe there gonna show up some more sisters you don´t know about." Derek laughed and so did Meredith.
"No these two are enough for me...I mean I don´t have contact with Molly but I don´t want to miss Lexie in my life again." she explained.
"If I was brain dead I would like to have all of them by my side...and of course you." Derek stopped laughing and Meredith looked down at her hands.
"I want you back home." Meredith whispered and looked into Derek´s eyes.
"I want to be back home too." Derek admitted.
My life is hard.
But...
Isn´t every superheroes life hard?