AHHHH! This chapter is…yeah, you'll have to read it first. A/N at the bottom.
Sorry for mistakes!
Enjoy.
Bella breathes out a huge gust of air, staring at her reflection in the mirror; she told Rosalie to dress casually and she was doing the same. Eyeing her tight black jeans, white blouse, with a red and black vest covering it she releases another breath, running her hands through her slight curly hair. Okay Bella she thinks you can do this, you said six it's time to go. With one last quick glance, she grabs the CD, notepad, cell phone, and keys from her desk exiting her room.
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To her surprise, Jasper is the one to open the front door; Bella assumed he would be at the Cullen's with Alice. Clearing her throat Bella hides her shock, giving the male twin a tiny smile.
"Hey Jasper, is um Rosalie ready?" Everyone with the exception of Charlie knew of the date between the two girls, but they were also advised by Esmé to not make a spectacle of the event.
"She's coming down now" he drawls out gazing down intently at Bella. The sound of footsteps approaching averts Jasper's eyes briefly from Bella as he glances behind him. "Be careful with her" is whispered before he steps aside allowing Bella to see Rosalie.
Rosalie is wearing a black and white striped shirt and nicely fitting black dress pants; her shinning blonde hair was straighten and thrown over left shoulder. Bella stared at the blonde amazed that after all this time Rosalie still seemed to take her breath away; she barely noticed Jasper closing the front door as she tried to come to her senses.
"You ready?" Bella questions gazing up into her eyes; Rosalie nods and Bella takes her hand leading her to the Camaro.
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Bella parks her car outside of the Bar and Grill, rotating her body to face her silent date.
"Is this okay? I didn't want to go to some fancy uncomfortable place" she chuckles, tugging nervously at the ends of her hair. Rosalie smiles and Bella sees the glint of amusement in her sapphire orbs.
"I wasn't sure if you were hungry so I thought we could stop by here first" noticing the curiosity in the blondes' eyes Bella elaborates further. "This um- isn't where I want to take you" she speaks quietly staring at her.
A moment later she exits the car going over to the passenger side to open the door for Rosalie; once the blonde is standing next to her hand attached, Bella grabs the notepad and they walk inside. The girls are seated, per Bella's request, at a small booth in the corner of the restaurant sitting next to each other. After drinks are ordered Bella looks to her date handing over the notepad.
I don't know what to talk about; we already spend so much time together Bella muses gazing at her companion.
"I um-" Rosalie turns her attention to Bella patiently waiting for the brunette to speak. "Wow, this is harder than I thought" Bella laughs. "Is there anything you wanted to talk about?" She watches as Rosalie opens the notebook, beginning to write a sentence.
How is your Mom?
Bella smiles at her, grateful for the easy topic.
"She's fine, still as free as ever" she replies leaning back into her seat. "Can we work on my car tomorrow? Or do you have to speak with Esmé?" Bella gives the waitress a polite smile when she places the drinks on the table; watching the blonde mark the paper.
Esmé and Carlisle have an event. You can come over. Bella goes to respond but pauses as she notices that Rosalie begins to write again.
Can we leave? Bella stares up into the blondes' eyes confused, she observes the tentative look in the orbs; and nods trusting her mute friend.
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For the second time that night Bella parks her car turning to Rosalie, this time however it is on the cliffs that Charlie use to take her to when she was younger. Waterfall Trail was the most, in Bella's opinion, beautiful and peaceful spot in Forks and she wanted to share it with the blonde.
"I want to show you something" she whispers.
A five-minute walk later the two girls are sitting at the top of Bella's favorite water fall watching the stars in the sky as the sound of the water rushes through their ears.
"Whenever I would visit Charlie, I made sure we came to this place at least once" Bella speaks moving her gaze towards Rosalie. "Something about it can always make me happy, no matter what is happening in my life."
Her stare remains on the blonde viewing how beautiful and perfect she looks in the moment, with the moonlight reflecting off of her blonde hair.
"Rose?" Bella speaks quietly her body suddenly overflowed with emotions; the girl in question turns to her a look of tranquility in her eyes. "I uh- I mean, you look really stunning" she stutters out watching the faint blush appear on Rosalie's face.
"I know that you are skeptical when it comes to people, but I just uh I want to try with you." Bella ensures her voice is clear and she keeps her gaze locked on Rosalie trying to convey her sincerity. "I care about you a lot and I just want to understand you if nothing else." She takes a deep breath and Rosalie tenses as she waits for Bella to continue.
"You said you stopped speaking because everyone stopped listening and I'm not asking you to start now; all I want is for you to tell me the truth and trust that I won't do the same." Bella gently takes Rosalie's hand into her own, shifting her body closer to her date.
The air is silent and after a few seconds have passed Rosalie returns her gaze to the sky and Bella sighs moving her own to the water below. Maybe I shouldn't have said anything she thinks glancing to the blonde; Rosalie removes her hand from her own and Bella brings her knees up to her chest laying her on them, her head facing away from the blonde. She retains the position for a while holding back the tears of frustration threatening to leave her eyes.
The light tap on her shoulder surprises Bella as she turns her gaze to see Rosalie staring at the ground while she holds out the notebook.
You make me feel things and I don't want to scare you away.
Bella scrutinizes the words on the paper, her heart hammering inside of her chest as she attempts to sort out the array of emotions playing through her body. Nervousness. Excitement. Curiosity. Love. Bella blinks gazing at the vulnerable teenage girl in front of her and she shudders at her thoughts.
"You're not going to scare me away" she whispers over the beating of her heart. "I promised you that I wasn't going to leave you and I meant it." Rosalie looks to Bella meeting her stare head on.
"Okay" she speaks her approval with her eyes and Bella is grateful for the connection.
Neither of the two girls make a move and Bella realizes that Rosalie doesn't seem to know how to start. Running her hands through her hair, she drops her knees down choosing instead to sit cross-legged facing the blonde. After a moment of thinking Bella decides to start with something somewhat simple.
"Where is your Dad?" Rosalie hesitates and Bella waits patiently for her decision.
New York
"I thought you moved here from Texas?"
Born in New York
"Why isn't he here with you?"
My Mom blames him for what happened. Bella raises her eyebrows in shock, the answer throwing her off guard.
"What did happen?" Rosalie shakes her head. "Okay, how about the green sweatshirt you wear in the house?" she probes desperate for any answers.
It was given to me after what happened.
"And you don't want to tell me what happened?" another shake of the blondes head. "Because you think it will scare me away?" A nod.
"Fuck this is harder than I imagined" she mutters looking to the piece of paper. "Is there anything you want to tell me?" Rosalie shrugs and Bella sighs; thinking back to previous days spent with the blonde, hoping for something to pop out at her. An idea surfaces and she silently prays that this will work.
"You remember the day we first sat in your garage together?" Bella continues once Rosalie nods. "Earlier you left the Cullen's home because I said that I didn't want kids" the taller girl stiffens but Bella resumes pretending not to notice. "Angela said that you're sensitive about the subject of kids and I've been careful not to bring it up. I thought about it exceedingly and with the scar on your stomach I think I know why."
"Did you- I mean can you not have kids?" she questions inspecting the blonde in front of her.
Rosalie closes her eyes, wrapping her arms around herself and Bella watches as a silent stream of tears path their way down her face. Bella resist the urge to reach out to the blonde because she knows the second that she does she won't be able to focus.
"I'm sorry" she voices out. "I-" Bella pauses seeing Rosalie open her eyes, pain broadcasting inside of her and Bella gasps when she understands, looking to the arms that Rosalie has warped around her body, tears forming in her own eyes.
"You were pregnant" she whispers out; it isn't a question and Bella looks on in amazement at how the blonde can even cry in silence. No longer fighting it Bella moves forward wrapping her arms around Rosalie's shaking body, murmuring 'I'm sorry' over and over in her ear.
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Later when both girls are calm and Rosalie is sitting in between Bella's legs as they play a distracting game of tic-tac-toe, the brunettes' mind swarms with thoughts of the newly learned information. No words have been said, verbally or otherwise, for almost an hour and Bella knew that it was time to start heading back; gently taking the pen away from Rosalie she writes down her thoughts on the pad resting on the blonde's knees.
I have to get you home.
Rosalie turns her head to look at Bella, giving a shy smile she shakes her head at Bella gazing into her eyes. Bella breathes out at chuckle; she leans forward to place a soft kiss on her cheek before moving to her ear.
"I'll sing to you" she whispers, the air hits Rosalie's skin making her shudder. She nods slowly and Bella releases another chuckle. Ever since the blonde learned that Bella loved to sing in her spare time Rosalie had been insistent that she sing to her but Bella had always refused stating she would sing if Rosalie would talk; considering the progress made today she decided to alter her statement. "Okay, but just one song" she says before clearing her throat.
"A drop in the ocean
A change in the weather
I was praying that you and me might end up together
It's like wishing for rain as I stand in the desert
But I'm holding you closer than most 'cause you are my heaven
I don't wanna waste the weekend
If you don't love me pretend
A few more hours then it's time to go
As my train rolls down the east coast I wonder how you keep warm
It's too late to cry
Too broken to move on
And still I can't let you be
Most nights I hardly sleep
Don't take what you don't need from me
It's just a drop in the ocean
A change in the weather
I was praying that you and me might end up together
Its like wishing for rain as I stand in the desert
But I'm holding you closer than most 'cause you are my heaven
Misplaced trust and old friends
Never counting regrets
By the grace of God I do not rest at all
New England as the leaves change
The last excuse that I'll claim
I was a boy who loved a women like a little girl
And still I can't let you be
Most nights I hardly sleep
Don't take what you don't need from me
It's just a drop in the ocean
A change in the weather
I was praying that you and me might end up together
It's like wishing for rain as I stand in the desert
But I'm holding you closer than most 'cause you are my
Heaven doesn't seem far away anymore
No
No
Heaven doesn't seem far away
Heaven doesn't seem far away anymore
Heaven doesn't seem far away
A drop in the ocean
A change in the weather
I was praying that you and me might end up together
It's like wishing for rain as I stand in the desert
But I'm holding you closer than most 'cause you are my heaven
You are my heaven"
A/N: Okay so at first the date was going to be NOTHING like that, it was supposed to be a very happy time but when I sat down to write it this came out. It took forever because I had rewritten it at least four times before I was remotely satisfied and this is what I stuck with. Hope it was worth the wait!
P.S. The song is a last-minute add in.
A Drop In The Ocean – Ron Pope