Stefan was looking at me with a smile which just made my heart break and I cried again his smile dropped at the sight
"Elena what's wrong" he ran towards me and put his hands on my stomach
"Stefan" I cried into his shirt as I heard Damon walk up behind us
"Damon what happened" he asked him as I didn't answer I couldn't
"I think you should sit down brother" we walked inside and sat down on the lounge where we told Stefan and showed him the pictures he was as silent as he stared at the ultrasound picture
"We can't do it there is too much of a risk" I heard him finally say which made me look up at him I thought he would want to do this test
"But you will both go crazy without knowing that you have a kid with special needs" Damon replied before I could
"But we'd both go crazy if we lost this baby"
"I think we should do the test" I spoke up Stefan looked back at me with pinched eyebrows he was confused "Stefan I'm not going to be able to stop worrying that something is wrong with our baby"
"But it's too risky Elena"
"Would you two get an abortion if something was wrong" Damon asked cutting in
"NO" Stefan yelled and I agreed
"No not this far but I'd like to know if our child needs special care so I can plan"
"Em nothing will be wrong our baby is strong"
"You don't know that" I cried out
"You're right I don't but I have to have faith that everything will turn out for the better" he replied and Damon left giving us some privacy to talk
"Okay you're right" I agreed and hugged myself into him relieved that he was home "I missed you"
"I missed you to"
We were lying in bed and I was really thinking over this whole thing again as I couldn't put it out just yet I would really like to know if our baby had special needs but if I miscarried I don't know if Stefan would ever forgive me
My parents were also on my mind I'd really like their advice as they have been through a pregnancy whereas Stefan and I this was a whole new experience and Damon wasn't much help and they didn't have any parents who could offer up advice
I looked over at Stefan who was reading his new pregnancy book looking at the next few weeks to come I looked at the clock and it was only seven so I picked up my phone deciding to call my mom I needed my mom right now
"Elena what are you-" he looked up as I sat up and put the phone to my ear but her phone rang out I didn't try again as I talked myself out of it
"Stefan I want to go and see my parents tomorrow"
"But-"
"I know that you are here for me but something's I just needing my mom okay"
"I just don't want you to be disappointed by them again"
"I won't let them get to me but I need to speak to her get advice and yes I know you can tell me anything but you can't learn everything just by reading a book she has personal advice"
"Okay I'll go with you" I shook my head
"I need to do this alone okay a mother daughter thing, I will be careful"
"Okay but I'm driving you" I nodded as I have no other way of getting there
We had woken up, had breakfast and I didn't realise how much I missed his cooking then he drove me to my parent's house, I waited for just a little bit just staring up at the house I grew up in
"Call me when you're ready to be picked up and whatever you do stay here don't walk around the streets" I nodded kissed him chastely then got out of the car he waited as I knocked on the door, I could hear someone getting the door and it was my mom who answered
"Elena I wasn't expecting you" she smiled at me then looked down at my stomach which I didn't even try to hide "You look great" she let me in and I smiled towards Stefan's car then watched him leave as I went inside "Would you like something to eat or drink"
"No I'm okay I had breakfast before I came"
"Are you okay"
"Yes and no" I answered sitting down on the lounge
"What's wrong sweetie has something happened" I showed her a ultrasound picture I brought with me as it would be hard to explain "Oh my god Elena is this the baby" I nodded smiling she was crying and I could tell they were happy tears "So what's wrong"
"This here" I pointed to the dot and she looked up confused "It's a marker for chromosomal abnormalities"
"Oh honey I'm sure the baby will be just fine"
"That's what Stefan said but I wanted your advice"
"Of course honey I'm always here for you no matter what's going on between us"
"There is a test we can do to make sure the baby's fine but there is a risk"
"An amniocentesis" she replied and I nodded glad she knew of the test "You're wondering if the risk is worth it" I nodded again "Honey if you want to do the test you should as I know you, you will worry yourself so much that you won't be able to relax and that could stress the baby out so if you believe that this test is the right thing it is"
"I'm scared that if I miscarry Stefan will hate me"
"No honey he won't hate you I had doubts about that boy but he has been there for you when we weren't and I'll never be able to repay him for that, he loves you and you're young you will have plenty of chances to try again if the worst case happens and I'm not saying that because of my first opinion okay"
"So I should do the test"
"You do what your gut is telling you Elena as its you're motherly instincts kicking in" I hugged her and was so happy to have my mom on my side again "I'm proud of you for doing what you wanted no matter what and I'm happy for you and Stefan you two will be great parents"
"Thankyou mom I'm so glad to have you on board"
"I know and I know I haven't been mother of the year when you first told us" I nodded and we ended up just talking and it felt so good to be able to talk with my mom freely I noticed her look down at my belly every so often
We heard the door open around lunch time and I realised I had been here for hours already but I looked up and saw my brother who looked startled that I was here and he was staring at my stomach
"Hey Jer" I spoke up first to break the awkward tension
"Hey Lena you look"
"I know it's weird" I replied hoping to reassure him that it was okay "Anyway I should go I'm late to go shopping with Lexi" it was half a lie since I wasn't going to be late but was going shopping with Lex so I texted Stefan to come get me
"Wait you're not moving back in" my brother asked I felt bad but he had to understand that I wasn't ever coming home
"No Jer I live with Stefan now so that we can raise this baby without being in split homes"
"But you're splitting up our family"
"Jeremy I know it's hard but Elena needs to think about the baby and she was bound to move out its just happened a little earlier than we expected" I was thankful my mom stepped in
"Well she shouldn't have gotten pregnant" he yelled back and went upstairs
"I'm so sorry Elena it's been hard on him"
"I know it has" I replied and walked to the door where I opened the door but only to be pulled back as my mom hugged me which startled me but then hugged her back I'm so happy that she has gotten past this baby dilemma
I saw Stefan pull up and he got out of the car coming to the door saying hello to my mom who politely said it back which I was also glad that they could be civil
"Elena you will do the right thing okay" I nodded and thanked her then we left
"What right thing" Stefan asked once we were in the Porsche driving home
"Stefan I want to do the amnio"
"I thought we talked about this" he replied grabbing my hand and holding it in my lap
"I know but I need to know if something's wrong so that I can research whatever it is, get the best doctors and figure out a plan for ourselves"
"Elena" Stefan said stopping my babbling "I get it, we'll do the test" I looked up at him expecting him to be just saying that to shut me up but he wasn't
"You're okay with it" I asked
"Yes, because it's going to be fine they do amnio's all the time, the odds are in our favour and then we'll know" I nodded and kissed his hand that was still holding mine
I leaned my head on his shoulder relieved and finally I could stop worrying for now about this as its stressful to know that something could be wrong with our baby
I decided to skip the shopping trip with Lex as I just wanted this test over and done with so we called Dr. Alver when we got home and she said she could squeeze us in today so we grabbed Damon and Lex since they both wanted to come for support and we went to her office where we signed a waver saying we understand the risks
"Just take a couple of deep breathes and relax, okay" she said prepping the huge needle that scared the shit out of me, I was holding onto Stefan and Lexi's hand tightly "You got a full house today" she added smiling at everyone Damon was standing near the bed also and I know she was trying to distract me from the fact she was about to stick that huge needle into my stomach
A nurse was helping her with the ultrasound so that they could see what they were doing and she counted down then put it into my belly
After we did the test we went home and Stefan took me straight upstairs putting me to bed where I wasn't allowed to move for an entire two days
"Are you okay" he asked once I was safely in bed
"Yeah Dr. Alver assured us it went well"
"Can I get you anything?"
"Some juice maybe I haven't felt the baby move in a while and juice usually helps"
"Okay you got it for now you just get comfy" he leaned down and kissed me then left getting the juice
We've been sitting in this bed for two hours already I said that he didn't have to stay with me 24/7 but he insisted saying that he didn't want to leave me so he was lying next to me reading some novel, I hadn't felt the baby move yet and was growing worried
"Why hasn't the baby moved yet" I asked him
"You felt kicks earlier when we were leaving I'm sure it's fine, babies need sleep to"
"I hope so" I rubbed my stomach softly
"Hey" he put down his book and turned to his side putting his own hand on my stomach "You just need to relax and try to sleep"
"Yeah I know" although I know I should I couldn't possibly sleep right now not until the baby moves and I know their okay "Ugh but I can't can you talk to me about something, it'll help me get tired" he laughed softly
"I'll try to not take that as an insult" he replied and I smiled
"You know what I mean, just get me to stop thinking about it, please"
"Okay" he threaded our fingers together "How was talking to your mom"
"It felt so good to be able to talk with her it felt like old times but I really wished my dad could have been there to I hate that he wants nothing to do with this baby" this wasn't exactly helpful Stefan "So that all you got"
"What" he replied furrowing his eyebrows
"Come on I need you to talk to me for the next forty two hours" he laughed again
"Just so you know I think you made the right choice with the amnio, just think about how stressed you would have been not knowing and we've still got just under five months of this pregnancy left, that's a long time" I smiled and yawned as I was growing tired but knew I wouldn't fall until our baby kicked
It was dark outside now and I still couldn't sleep as the baby still hasn't kicked and I feared the worst which is what was keeping me up Stefan was almost falling asleep but was trying to stay awake with me
"I made a mistake" I said rolling onto my side with a pillow supporting my belly
"What?" Stefan said looking over at me sleepily
"With the amnio, I shouldn't have done it, if something goes wrong tonight or in the next forty one hours"
"It won't" Stefan reassured me
"But it could and it would be my fault like you said I would have been stressed if we didn't take the test and that was about me not about the baby and that is not a good reason" I rambled on
"It's not the only reason" he reassured me again
"I just feel like this was my first parenting test and I failed" I replied close to tears "I made it about my needs, my own anxieties not about the baby"
"Elena I promise you that everything is going to be okay you didn't fail" I nodded even though I didn't feel that was enough "Look Lena there's no right or wrong answer"
"Maybe" I couldn't look at him "But would you forgive me if something went wrong" I almost cried at him
"Yes, of course and it won't, it's going to be okay and we will have plenty of time to try again"
"I hope so" I replied
"Look we can't go back, were here now we did the test you got to let it go"
"That's not exactly my strong suit" I said as he wiped away my tears that fell
"I know, I know it's hard" he replied just as I felt a kick and I was so relieved that the baby was okay I grabbed the spot where they kicked and Stefan freaked out "What, wait what is it"
"It's good, the baby just kicked" I smiled up at him and he placed his hand over mine he couldn't feel it yet but I couldn't wait until he could and could also tell that he couldn't wait either
"That's great"
"Yeah it is" I kissed him when he leaned in
The next day and a half was stressful but I was so relieved when I was finally able to get out of bed which I where I was now happily sitting at the dining table while Stefan cooked me bacon and toast
"Can I get you anything else more juice"
"Nope I'm just really enjoying this chair, never knew how much I missed sitting in chairs" I replied making him laugh
"I'm just happy that these forty eight hours are over they were stressful and now we just have the stress of waiting two weeks for the results"
"Let's really try not to stress" I replied as I didn't want to as I have enough to stress about already with school, the normal baby stuff and the problem with my dad and brother "Part of my new philosophy: letting go a little" he smiled and nodded
"All right, I'm in" he held up his hand for a high five and although it was stupid I high fived him anyway and he threaded our hands together after making me laugh
"Elena" Lexi yelled running into the kitchen making me jump slightly "We should go shopping now we need to get you maternity jeans and I want to buy the baby things although that would be easier if you two would find out the sex" I laughed and shook my head
"Green, white, yellow and browns would be fine" I replied giving her ideas
"Lex she only just got out of bed you can wait a couple of more days and Elena and I are going to do the baby shopping if you don't mind you can get them one present and no designer brands" Stefan cut in making me laugh as Lexi only buying one present that wasn't designer was like a seeing a pig fly it will never happen
"Way to ruin my fun Stefan and I said nothing that you couldn't come along" he shook his head and told her no again "Elena please" she begged me looking at me with puppy dog eyes I couldn't say no to that look she knew that I was a sucker for anyone who pouted at me like that
"I guess I could for a couple of hours"
"Elena no you still need to take it easy and shouldn't be on your feet for long periods of times"
"It's not like I will let her run around Stef and like I said you're welcome to come"
"Tomorrow Lex she only just got off bed rest"
"Fine but I'm holding you to that but for now let's online shop" I laughed as she ran and grabbed her laptop as Stefan shook his head
"There is no reining that girl in is there" I asked as he shook his head laughing
We went shopping the next day after school with Stefan tagging along even though he really didn't want to be there but I grabbed some maternity jeans and other clothes that will last me the rest of this pregnancy
Lex and I couldn't stop laughing at Stefan's facial expression when we walked into the underwear section as I need to get some maternity bras he looked so uncomfortable it was really funny that he finally excused himself leaving us as we couldn't stop and my hormones made it that much worse
"Oh my god Lena look" we were walking past the baby section in target and she stopped holding up the cutest little onesie
"Oh it's so cute" it had little bunny footies and the attached hat had bunny ears it was so adorable "But Stefan would kill me" I replied but she grabbed the right size and put it in her basket "Lex I can't ask you"
"You didn't ask me" I smiled and thanked her resuming our search for Stefan which is what we were doing
We found him later in the toy area which I found weird as Stefan wouldn't have set foot in that area usually, we snuck up on him making him jump
"What you doing" I asked him he was hiding something behind his back "Stefan" I warned he smiled shyly and showed me a stuffed spotted dog he was hiding
"It was supposed to be a surprise"
"Stefan" I cried taking the cute little dog off him "It's so cute baby's first toy from daddy" I hugged him "I love it and so does the baby" it was true they were moving around I could feel it so strong right now I placed his hand where I felt the baby kicking but he didn't seem to be able to feel
"Nothing yet" he said frowning I know he is dying to feel the baby
We went home soon after that as I was getting sore and tired from walking around, we ate dinner which Stefan cooked spaghetti as that was what our baby had me craving then went to bed as I was growing more tired I tried to get him to stay downstairs and spend time with Damon but he wouldn't listen he never did when it came to spending time like this with me
I was lying on my side with a pillow supporting my baby belly feeling the baby kicking me really hard like they were having a party in there it was really starting to get annoying, I groaned loudly and rolled to my back
"What is it" Stefan asked sleepily
"Your kid is keeping me awake" he laughed and put his hand on my stomach but then jerked his hand away
"I felt it" he yelled out proudly putting his hand back and smiled broadly as he felt it again
"Finally now can you go to sleep baby you let daddy feel" I replied talking to our baby
"No I like it" Stefan said excitedly
"You're not the one that has to feel it all night I need sleep we have school tomorrow"
I was finally able to fall asleep an hour later Stefan had fallen asleep just before me with his hand still resting on my stomach and a smile still played on his lips
A/N: Sorry about the really late update i have been really busy and I hope you have all stuck it out with me and are still interested in this story, i like to hear your thoughts so be sure to review and fav my story if you havent already