I don't want to give anything away but I will say some of you were pretty close in your guesses.
A/N: I know where I'm going with this story but I don't know how to get there. This chapter is kind of a filler while I work on the next one. Sorry for mistakes!
Disclaimer: I wouldn't need one if I owned it.
Bella sat in front of the Hale house for 15 minutes before Jasper came to knock on her window. She sent Rosalie a text early this morning asking if she could come over and the blonde responded with a yes. Bella was relieved because she wanted to ask Rosalie about her past but now that she's here she is completely terrified. Scenarios played out in her head on the drive to the house and she imagined what her reaction would be to the story or what Rosalie's reaction would be when she asked; she didn't know. And that's what scared her the most. The unknown.
Jasper stood in a black "Let's Get Naked" t-shirt with Scooby-doo pajama pants, his blonde hair is shaggy and undone; Bella momentarily wonders if Alice does it for him, and he is sporting a lazy grin on his face.
"Are you going to come in or…?" Jasper questions pointing to the house "It's warmer in there."
"Ye-yeah I just, I'll um be there in just a second." The blonde male shakes his head opening the car door.
"There's no use in stalling." Gently grasping her arm Jasper pulls Bella out of the car, pushing her towards the house. "She's in the kitchen."
Pausing in the doorway Bella smiles at how content Rosalie seems to be sitting in her light blue shirt as she draws in her sketchbook. The silent girl has her long blonde hair in a messy bun, head slightly bent with all of her attention focusing on the drawing in front of her. Jasper stepping behind her makes Bella jump and Rosalie is quick to look up a blush on her cheeks when she views Bella standing there.
"Hey" Rosalie smiles and points to the chair beside her. "Actually, I um- well I wanted to know if we could go to your room instead?" finishing the question weakly Bella darts her eyes around the room looking at anything but Rosalie.
After a moment of silence the brunette turns her attention back to Rosalie only to see that she isn't looking at Bella but out of the kitchen window instead. When Rosalie makes no move to answer her Bella sighs, running her fingers through her hair.
"Never mind, I shouldn't have asked. We can go to the garage like usual." Turning to exit the room Bella shakes her head when Jasper raises an eyebrow in her direction. "She's not going to let me up there."
"Did she say no?"
"No but she didn't say yes either" Bella retorts, frustration in her voice.
"She never says anything" Jasper replies calmly "Don't ask, just do." Finishing his statement Jasper turns around leaving the two girls alone. "I'm going next door." He calls out; the door closing behind him.
"Rose" the brunette mutters with her head down as she walks back into the kitchen "I was-"
Bella stops when she realizes that the blonde is standing in front of her gazing at Bella with an unreadable expression. Her eyes travel back down and she notes that this is the first time that she has ever seen the blonde in shorts and her mind becomes distracted looking at Rosalie's tan long slender legs peeking from a pair of black mid-thigh shorts A throat being cleared makes Bella blush, her eyes snapping up to meet blue ones. Grabbing a hold of the shorter girls hand Rosalie nods before beginning to lead Bella up to her bedroom.
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Bella mentally scolds herself for thinking that Rosalie's room would be different from any other bedroom. There was a bed, a dresser, with no mirror, an attached bathroom and a walk-in closet. Knowing the blonde as well as she does the only object that surprises her is the guitar resting in the corner of the room; turning to face Rosalie, who is standing nervously in the doorway, Bella shoots her an inquisitive glance.
"You can play guitar?" she whispers. Rosalie nods though her body is stiff and full of tension; Bella gives a small smile. "Come on, you can teach me to play."
Not allowing Rosalie to deny the request Bella steps closer to the blonde taking ahold of her hand and dragging her to the large bed in the middle of the room. The sheets are a dark deep red with many matching pillows;(Bella silently chuckled at the amount of plush on Rosalie's bed), the room is all around a darker atmosphere then the rest of the house. The black carpet seemed untouched and the brunette wonders if she should have taken off her red chucks. Stopping at the bed Bella allows Rosalie to take the lead and grab the guitar off of the stand; motioning for Bella to take a seat.
"Rose" Bella stops playing; or rather stopped strumming the same three cords, and looked up at the silent girl. "Can we talk?" Rosalie gave Bella a confused stare "I mean actually talk, it doesn't have to be verbally but I, I just want talk about the past-"
Rosalie shakes her head and Bella sighs. "Rose"
"Not yet." The blonde whispers.
Bella blinks startled at the vocal response before giving Rosalie a penetrating stare, her chocolate eyes lock on sapphire ones and she can see the fear swirling around. The sound of Rosalie's soft and broken voice along with her fearful expression has Bella giving in to the blondes' plea.
"Okay" she nods "but soon?"
Now Rosalie nods; eyes averting across the room, her teeth gently biting her full red bottom lip. Trying not to display the disappointment that she feels towards Rosalie's lack of communication, Bella begins to strum the guitar again. Rosalie's hand reaching out to clutch her arm stops her again; and gazing up she can see the regret in addition to the apology the blonde is trying to give her.
"You don't have to apologize, I get it you're still not ready. I'm not asking to be pushy and I will still be here for you no matter what but I want us to move forward and in order for that to happen I have to know about your past. Otherwise I won't-" Bella is taken by surprise as Rosalie surges headfirst and kisses her.
A surprised gasp escapes Bella's throat as her lips are covered by her girlfriends' soft ones. A tingling sensation spreads across her face where Rosalie places her hands on either side pulling her deep into the almost forceful kiss. Bella returns the kiss with about as much passion as Rosalie gives; she doesn't understand why the blonde was kissing her this way or what triggered the action but she was not complaining. Lips moved in synch with each other and when Rosalie accidentally bites Bella's lower lip a tiny moan escapes her mouth. Changing their positions Rosalie lies back against her mountain of pillows powerfully drawing Bella back with her.
The feeling of Rosalie's body tensing beneath her makes Bella jerk back and glance at her girlfriend. Rosalie's eyes are screwed shut and she appears to be having an internal battle, immediately Bella understands what her girlfriend is doing, why she had kissed her like that. Shaking her head the brunette sits back completely, keeping her eyes focused on Rosalie.
"No, you don't have to do that." Rosalie opens her eyes "I didn't bring it up for that reason Rose." She sighs running her fingers through her hair. "When I said moving forward I meant in general not sexually; fuck Rosalie I'm not with you for sex, you should know that."
Creating more space between them Bella takes a deep breath willing the frustration and anger to leave her body. She stares at the blonde unable to comprehend why Rosalie would assume that that is what she wants. I haven't even thought about that the brunette thinks releasing another sigh. Rosalie puts her head down and her eyes shut tightly; the silent girl is holding off tears.
"Hey no, don't cry; please don't cry." Bella rushes forward collecting Rosalie's body in a tight embrace. "I do want you that way Rosalie, I'm not denying that but that isn't why I asked for you to talk to me. We both know that we're not ready for something like that and that's fine, I just want to understand you." Bella continues to murmur in Rosalie's ear while the blonde silently sobs, her face buried in the crook of Bella's neck.
Drawing back Bella wipes the few tears that escaped from Rosalie's eyes and gives her a soft smile. I love you she thinks scooping her into another hug.
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"How'd it go?"
"She didn't tell her" Alice responds to Emmett, slightly turning her head to face the large boy.
"Huh? How the hell do you-"
"Think about how you first reacted" the pixie cuts him off and Emmett nods in empathy.
After her small breakdown Rosalie wanted to be left alone and despite Bella's thoughts she accepted the blonde's wishes but decided to stop by the Cullen house before going home. Her monthly lunch at the diner with Charlie is this afternoon and she needed the distraction anyway.
Emmett, Alice, and Jasper are the only ones in the back yard; Emmett is on the steps of the pool, Jasper is sitting on a chair with Alice perched on his lap. The moment Bella exited the backdoor all eyes were on her and Emmett was the first to ask the obvious question.
"Alice is right." Bella speaks "I just wanted to come and say hi and that I'll see you guys later." Without waiting for a reply Bella quickly left the house.
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Charlie and the waitress are awkwardly flirting from across the diner, they have been for 15 minutes. Bella watches in amusement at the scene, Charlie isn't the most sociable of people however as Bella sits and observe she has to give her old man credit for trying.
"You can go and talk to her if you'd like" she suggest "I'm almost finished here."
Charlie turns to his daughter with a rosy blush on his cheek. "No I um, sorry Bells I know this is our day."
"It's fine Dad really, we live with each other I see you every day." Charlie chuckles shaking his head.
"We do live together but I haven't seen much of you since you started having a girlfriend." Bella ducks her head at her father's words, blushing further when Charlie releases a gruff laugh.
"To be young and in love" Bella's head snaps up and she stares wide-eyed at Charlie. "Hey don't give me that look, I might not say much but I notice things." He smiles at her, picking up his Dr. Pepper and taking a sip he clears his throat. "Besides your mother told me."
Bella lets loose her own laugh.
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Monday morning Bella and her group of friends laughed as Emmett follows behind the principle with a dejected look upon his face for accidentally throwing a snowball at him. Forks is a lot colder than normal and the snow covering the ground has everyone dressed in warm, well warmer clothes. The bell won't ring for another 15, or 14.5 minutes according to Alice, and Emmett started a snowball war with Jasper. The boys were in the middle of their game when principle Smith walked by in the direct aim of Emmett's snowball.
"I told him it wasn't a good idea." Alice chirps up. She was sitting next to Angela on the hood of Emmett's Jeep; Edward is on Angela's left. Jasper releases a southerly laugh stepping in between the pixies legs; Alice brings her hands up to Jasper's hair shaking out some of the snow that lay there.
"You technically didn't" Edward pipes up. "All you told him was that it might end badly."
"Same thing" she responds dismissively waving off her cousin.
A light tug of her hand disrupts Bella's focus on the conversation in front of her and she looks to the blonde sitting beside her with a curious look.
"You okay?" Rosalie nods answering with a little smile. "You sure?" Bella ask turning to face her girlfriend completely; mirroring the position of Alice and Jasper.
"Okay" Bella settles when Rosalie nods again. "However I do have a question for you." She speaks playing with the pocket of the green sweatshirt Rosalie is wearing. "My Mom wants to meet you and I'll be video chatting with her today so if you want to, I was wondering if you would come over today?" Nervousness runs through Bella but she swallows the emotion down waiting for Rosalie's response.
The taller girl opens her mouth briefly before she stops herself, her eyes dart around the parking lot.
Yes
Bella grins.
"Hey Bella!" craning her neck to glance behind her, Bella watches as Mike jogs to catch up to her.
"Hey Mike"
"What are you doing over here? Did you get switched out of Bio?" the blonde haired boy inquires as the two begin walking together.
"No, I was walking Rosalie to class. Why are you on the opposite side of the building?"
"I just got here." He shrugs. "Doctors appointment; you and Rosalie are dating right?"
"Yup."
They arrive to their classroom and go their separate ways, Mike takes his seat next to Jessica and Bella next to Lauren.
"Okay class, today we are going to be dissecting pigs" Bella groans, her head falling to the table.
"Can I fake being sick." She mutters under her breath and Lauren giggles next to her.
What's your favorite drink?