A/N: I know this isn't going to be a very long chapter and is really just a filler but I still wanted to keep to the episode chapters and felt this was necessary since Skye found out more about Derek's past

Skye's POV

I haven't moved from my spot on my bed except to eat, shower and use the bathroom because I just felt like there wasn't a point to, Derek had disappeared after Boyd died and wasn't picking up my calls or answering texts except left me a note on my pillow.

Skye,

I didn't want to leave you but I have to be alone for a bit, I'll call as soon as I figure stuff out, please don't go looking for trouble because I can't bear the thought of you getting hurt again so don't seek revenge on the Alpha pack

I love you so much
Derek xx

We'd come back to my place after dealing with Boyd's body because it would've been too hard to stay at the loft and I wasn't leaving him alone but that didn't mean he wanted my help and left me as soon as I fell asleep which meant the Alpha's have won, they've broken our pack apart, they've broken Derek by forcing him to do the one thing that he never wanted to do again and I had no idea how to help him which is why I haven't tracked him down and decided to wallow in my own self-pity.

"Are you alive in there?" I groaned hearing Stiles' voice and pulled the covers tighter over my head. "Skye come on, you can't whole up in here"

"Go away Stiles"

"You got get back out there Skye, you can't let the Alpha's win" I didn't reply and hoped he'd just leave me alone but he grabbed my covers and pulled them off my bed. "Let's go"

"What do you want Stiles?" I spat angrily sitting up.

"I was heading over to Derek's loft but thought you might want to come, see if he's there"

"He's not" I replied pulling a pillow over my head because the sun was killing my eyes since I've been sitting in the dark for the last two days.

"Then maybe we can see if they know where he is" I groaned then stood up. "You might want to change" I growled and flashed my red eyes at him but I went over to my closet and grabbed a large black long sleeved shirt that was Derek's and changed into some basic jeans before I followed him out to his jeep.

When we got to the loft I got out of the jeep I hopped out then headed up the stairs and I opened the door to the loft and saw the water been taken out of the apartment, as well as Boyd's body, I looked around and saw Cora standing at the window.

"Where's Derek?" I asked.

"Not here, he hasn't been here since it happened" she turned to look at us. "He's hiding, once when he was younger, he and Peter hid away from the hunters and they were there for two days, waiting, hiding that's what we're taught to do when the hunters find us...hide and heal"

"Okay, so is two days standard then or are we thinking Derek's on like some extended getaway?" Stiles asked as we walked down the small steps further into the loft.

"Why do you care?" Cora asked turning to face Stiles.

"Why do I care, let's see... because over the last few weeks, my best friend has tried to kill himself, his boss nearly got ritually sacrificed, a girl that I've known since I was three was ritually sacrificed, my other best friend this one has been holed up in her room sulking since her boyfriend just disappeared, Boyd was killed by alphas, I...do you want me to keep going cause I can all right…for like an hour"

"You think Derek can do anything about that?" Cora asked him again.

"Well, since he's the one everyone seems to be after, it's more like he should do something about it, yeah" Stiles replied pacing a little.

"I don't know, there's something different about him now he wasn't like this when I knew him"

"What was he like?" I asked a little interested in this fact about Derek since I've always wondered what he was like when he was younger.

"A lot like Scott, actually" we all turned and saw Peter coming down the stairs. "A lot like most teenagers, unbearably romantic, profoundly narcissistic, tolerable really only to other teenagers" I rolled my eyes as I moved over to Derek's bed and sat down

"So what happened to him, what changed him?" Stiles asked him

"Well, the same thing that changes a lot of young men, a girl" I frowned looking down at my hands as I muttered her name, the girl I knew changed Derek.

"Paige" I sensed everyone turn to me so I looked up and saw Peter's shock.

"He's talked about her with you?"

"I know enough" I growled out and he chuckled.

"I very much doubt that sweetheart" I glared at him with glowing red eyes.

"Don't call me sweetheart" I growled angrily.

"You're telling me some girl broke his little heart, that's why Derek is the way he is?" Stiles asked cutting in before Peter and I could start bantering.

"Do you remember Derek before he was an Alpha, had blue eyes, do you know why some wolves have blue eyes?" he turned to me but I didn't answer him since even I didn't know that.

"I just always thought it was like a genetic thing" Stiles replied sitting down in a chair by the large table and Cora followed him sitting down in another.

"If you want to know what changed Derek, you need to know what changed the colour of his eyes" Peter walked over to the couch and sat down. "Paige, she was pretty, smart, a lot like you Skyler because she didn't deal with any of Derek's teenage boy nonsense, he met her outside the music room, she played the cello, he was a sophomore a dumb sophomore blinded by love"

"Okay" Stiles sighed. "So if Derek was a sophomore back then, how old was he?" Stiles asked then turned to me. "Do you even know how old he is?"

"It's kind of hard to explain" I replied, Stiles sighed and turned to Peter.

"How old were you, how old are you now?"

"Not as young as we could have been but not as old as you might think" Peter said.

"Okay, that was frustratingly vague" he turned to Cora. "How old are you?"

"I'm seventeen" Cora replied.

"See, that's an answer, that's how we answer people"

"Well seventeen how you'd measure in years" I couldn't help the small smile.

"All right, I'm just gonna drop it?" Stiles replied making me chuckle a little. "What happened to Derek and the Cello girl?"

"What do you think happened, they're teenagers, one minute its I hate you don't talk to me, the next it's frantic groping in any dark corner they could manage to find each other in for five minutes.

"God please fast forward" I groaned not wanting to hear this.

"Why feeling jealous sweetheart?" I growled again at him for calling me sweetheart.

"No I just want to get home soon so hurry up with your little story" he smiled.

"Their favourite dark corner was an abandoned distillery outside of Beacon Hills"

"Alright hold up, how do you know this, you just said they we're alone?" Stiles asked cutting Peter off.

"Back then I wasn't just Derek's uncle, I was his best friend, his closest confidante, that's how I know" Peter replied leaning forward. "One night while they were there the Alpha pack showed up but they weren't the Alpha pack back then, just different individual packs coming together for a purpose, one of Ennis' betas had been killed by the Argents and he wanted revenge, they were there to discuss it with a powerful Alpha"

"Who?" I asked.

"My sister…Talia Hale" Cora visibly stiffened when Peter said her name. "Talia didn't agree with avenging the death of Ennis' beta, so Ennis became angry and wanted revenge" I looked at Peter as he drew a spiral in the condensation on the window. "Our mark for vendetta" he explained.

"Man, you guys really take that revenge thing to like a whole new level, don't you?" Stiles asked.

"You don't really understand Stiles" I sighed.

"It's not just revenge" Cora cut in. "Losing a member of your pack isn't like losing family, it's like you lose a limb"

"Like a part of your heart is ripped out" I added looking down again remembering Boyd and Erica.

"They wouldn't even let him see the body" Peter cut in taking over the story again.

"I don't get it, what does this have to do with Derek?" I asked still feeling like Peter was dragging this on.

"Everything, it's never just a single moment it's a confluence of events, personally I looked at Ennis' circumstances I saw a profound loss, Derek saw something different he saw opportunity"

"Opportunity?" Stiles asked. "To do what?"

"To always be with her" I narrowed my eyes knowing what Peter was referring to, the Derek I knew would never look at that as an opportunity to turn someone he loved, he hesitated turning me knowing there was even the slightest possibility I would die.

"You mean to turn her" I said feeling the back of my neck where Derek had bit me and shivered as Peter nodded.

"The thing was he had this constant fear it wasn't just the fact that she may not be his mate but it was something else, he was obsessing over it thinking about it all night, all day, always on his mind he was scared she wouldn't accept him" Peter said continuing his story. "I kept telling him not to do it, she seemed perfect for him but there were parts of Derek that still had doubts, every day the more he thought about it the more convinced he became, you know teenagers I bet he even blames me, he's probably convinced himself the whole thing was my idea"

"Derek wasn't an Alpha back then, so who would have turned her?" I asked him.

"He wanted to ask his mother but with her and Deaton worrying about Deucalion and the packs, she had bigger things to worry about"

"So what is Deaton in all this?"

"An advisor, an emissary"

"They keep us connected to humanity" Cora cut in looking at Stiles. "But they're a secret even in the pack, sometimes only the Alpha knows who the emissary is, Derek and I had no idea about Deaton"

"Or his sister, Morrell" Peter added turning back to us from the window.

"She's an emissary too?" Stiles asked shocked.

"For the Alpha pack" Peter added.

"Our guidance counsellor, why the hell don't you people tell me any of this stuff, huh I shared some really intimate details with her" Stiles exclaimed leaning back in his seat.

"And did she give you good advice?" Cora asked him.

"Actually, yeah"

"That's what they do, it's what Deaton used to do for Talia" he paused. "Since Talia wouldn't do it Derek had me get the help of someone else, someone who had just lost a pack member"

"Ennis?" I asked shocked. "Why would he choose him?"

"Why not, Ennis needed a new member for his pack, Paige was young and strong doing a favour for Derek meant Ennis would be in good with Talia, back then everybody wanted to be in good with her"

"He doesn't remember it was Ennis, does he?" Stiles asked him as I fell silent again.

"If he does, he keeps it to himself"

"So then what happened?" Stiles asked Peter. "Did he turn her?"

"Almost" Peter replied leaning against the table hanging his head "Derek heard Ennis attack her and he couldn't take it, he went after him, he came at Ennis a 15 year-old boy against a giant but there was no reason for him to fight she'd already been bitten"

"So did she turn?" Cora asked but I already knew the answer, I knew Paige died.

"She should have, most of the time the bite takes, most of the time" Peter replied without looking up.

"When you offered it to me, you said, 'if it doesn't kill you'" Stiles cut in looking up at Peter.

"If" Peter replied. "I found them, she was lying in his arms, bleeding, and dying, he asked me what had happened but he knew the answer though, it didn't matter that she was young and strong some people just aren't made for this but she fought, she struggled desperately trying to survive"

"That's why Derek didn't want me to turn" I muttered more to myself but they had heard me.

"Paige knew about him though, she had figured it out and she still liked him and I think that's what really hurt him, she was fragile and in pain and she begged him to end it" Peter continued not commenting but he was looking at me especially when my eyes widened because I realised just was Derek did, the missing piece that Derek could never bring himself to tell me. "I watched as he killed her, I remember taking her body from his arms, to the woods, to a place where I knew that it would be found...another in a long line of Beacon Hills' animal attacks"

"And what about Derek?" I asked finally understanding why he is so protective of me sometimes, tears fell freely down my cheeks because I couldn't imagine what Derek went through and it broke my heart to hear it.

"Taking an innocent life takes...something from you as well, a bit of your soul...darkening it, dimming the once brilliant golden yellow to a cold steel blue...like mine" his eyes flashed to an icy blue, which matched Derek's beta eyes then Peter slowly rose and left the three of us alone.

I moved and sat down on the steps with Cora and Stiles joining me as I ran my fingers through my hair, without a word Stiles pulled me into a hug and I began sobbing into his shoulder as Cora moved behind me and started rubbing my back which surprised me but I appreciated her comfort.

"Skye what's wrong?" Stiles whispered as I sniffled into his shirt.

"Everything, Erica and Boyd are dead and it's my fault, Derek's run off to god knows where, I know Isaac is thinking about leaving the pack and…honestly all I want right now is Derek to hold me but he left me!"

"That's how Derek grieves" Cora replied as I continued to cry into against Stiles' shoulder "I'll try and call him again " Cora added sighing then she stood up and walking out of the room, when she returned Stiles and I hadn't moved but we looked up as she sat down beside me again. "What?" Stiles and I looked over at her. "What's this look on your face?" she asked looking at Stiles.

"What look?" he asked and Cora rolled her eyes.

"The kind of look that makes me wanna punch you"

"Oh my God, you are so Derek's sister I forgot" I let out a small giggle in between my sniffling.

"What is with the look?" Cora asked him through gritted teeth.

"I just don't believe him, all right in Ms Blake's class we're reading Heart of Darkness it's in first person right, narrated by Marlow the thing is that he's an unreliable narrator, you know the details of it have changed, you know just because of his perspective"

"Well then we heard the story from Peter's perspective" Cora replied.

"Right and I don't think we got the whole story"

"So what, are you just gonna ask Derek about the girl he fell in love with and then killed?"

"Yeah good luck with that?" I snorted because even I hadn't been able to get it out of him, I'd known about Paige but not to extent and now I understood why Derek has so over the top protectiveness tendencies because I couldn't imagine having to do what he did.

"If I have to" Stiles sighed, I let a small smile reach my lips because it was next to impossible to get things out of Derek if he didn't want to tell you but it fell when my phone vibrated with a text and I quickly read it.

Meet Me – Derek, I stood up quickly because it also had directions so I got Stiles to drop me home then I drove to the place Derek had given me.

I parked the Camaro then got out and looked around then up at the tall imposing building and as soon as I saw the spiral carved in the door I knew I was at the distillery from Peter's story, I walked towards it a little hesitantly until I saw a figure appear then ran and jumped into his arms clutching his neck.

"I'm sorry, I didn't think you'd worry so much" I scoffed then got down and hit his arm.

"You didn't think I'd worry?" I snapped at him. "There are still four Alpha werewolves out for your neck Derek" he sighed then pulled me back into his arms.

"I'm sorry" he apologised again, I sighed but melted in his arms and let his scent calm me down as I cried against his chest, he didn't say anything else knowing I just needed to get it all out and he just hugged me tighter and waited until I was ready to speak.