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So with that being said here is Chapter 4. Read and Review tell me your thoughts.

Previously on Roza?

"Roza we need to talk."

Oh boy. Could this day not get any worse?

RPOV

"First of all its Guardian Hathaway to you," I said.

This time Dimitri isn't hiding and I clearly see his pained face. Good. He deserved it. I know I'm showing a lot of my anger but I can't help it. What gives him the right to do that to me? He knocked me up and leaves 2 days later not even saying goodbye, slammed the door in my face, and never reply back to my letters. He doesn't deserve me or his son. I thought he loved me but dumping me right after he had sex with me, clearly showed he didn't.

"Second why did you leave Lady Ozera," I asked in the most bitchy tone possible.

He slowly walked towards my desk and sat down on one of the leather chairs. "Lady Ozera and I both agreed that I was not needed anymore. She is better off without me there."

"And why is that," I asked as I leaned forward and put my hands on top of the desk.

"Because even though I take my charge seriously, she wanted a family. A family I could not accept," he said.

"So you came here unannounced for a new charge?"

"No, actually I came here wanting to work here at Court."

I leaned back at my chair and let out a huge exhale.

No way in hell would I let him. But what reason can I give him for not working here? That it's too full? We recently had an attack no way it is too full. He won't buy it. But he knows the real reason if I say no anyways. All my reasons are all personal. But how unprofessional and low class am I to do that? Any Guardian who requested something we try our best to accommodate.

But if I let him stay what will his position be? Another charge that isn't close to Lisa? Who am I kidding everybody knows and hangs with Lissa. Patrol maybe?

DPOV

Roza was sitting quiet for a few minutes now and she looks as if she is fighting battle against herself.

I know my request is hard for her but I need her. I want her. She was all I can think of. If I work here chances are I can find a way to get her back. I really regret burning those letters but why bother regretting if it's already done.

"Very well. You may work here but I will decide by tomorrow at 3pm what your position will be," she said.

I lit up like a little kid. "Thank you."

She still had her guardian mask on so I can't tell what she is thinking. She gave a little nod and went back to her paperworks.

When she realized I was still sitting there her eyes looked at me but her hand is still poise flipping through the documents.

"Is there something else you needed Guardian Belikov?"

I hesitated for a moment. It's now or never.

"Roza can we talk about these past few years?"

She slammed her desk and stood up as well as I.

"THERE IS NOTHING TO TALK ABOUT. I AM NOT YOUR FUCKING ROZA. HOW MANY TIMES DO I HAVE TO TELL YOU THAT? YOU LOST THAT PRIVLEDGE THE DAY YOU ABANDON ME AND-" she screamed at me. She stopped mid-sentence. And Who? Who did I abandon besides her? I saw tears watering up her eyes but looked away from me. She closed her eyes and took a deep breath. She sat back down in her seat and I slowly follow suit.

"Listen Comrade," she said to me as she looked at me. I now fully see how tired she really was. Her eyes looks as if she saw a ghost. But I didn't care I haven't heard that nickname for over 5 years and lit up like a kid. "I loved you. I thought you did too. But the day you abandon me was the day you lost me. The day you slammed the door in my face was the day you lost the right to know about my life. Did you even read those letters?"

I shook my head slowly. "I burned them," I said softly and quietly.

RPOV

"Kinda figured," I said.

Otherwise he would have been there through my pregnancy and he could have even stopped my baby boy's death. But he didn't. When I visited Jordanat the grave. I told him Dimitri doesn't know and it's the truth. He would have come back to Court or at least called if he did.

I shut my eyes for a few second.

"But Roza please-" he tried to talk but I held up my hand to silence him.

"No. No more. You would just put more heartache on me. This will be my last time telling you this. Our relationship was and will always be forever professional. If you try to bring up the past I will transfer you far away from here. Am I understood," I asked him.

He nodded his head and got up.

He walked to the door and without turning he said, "I still love you. I never stopped."

With that he walked out.

If he did love me he would have read those letters and came back to me. He could have even stopped my beautiful Jordan's death. I don't blame him for not being there but if he claims that he never stopped loving me I say that is bullshit. He would have been here.

Today has been an emotional day so I decided I deserve a break and left my office. I would visit Lissa today but I will see her tomorrow anyways along side the day care.. so with that being said I went to get dinner and hopefully go to bed without any interruptions

So what will Dimitri's position will be?

And why is she going to the day care?

what will she and Lissa talk about?

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