Cas' POV

I stared into Dean's eyes as he asked me to marry him, "D…Dean what have you done…?

Dean bit his lip, "I couldn't live without you Cas… I begged God to bring you just one more time… He came… and told me I could have you just one more time but he would only bring you back as a human… I… I didn't have a choice… I couldn't live without you Cas, I need you okay…"

I struggled to find words, my mind was racing and felt so hazy as well. "I… I don't understand D…dean…"

He slowly nodded and kissed my forehead, "It's okay Cas, you are going to be fine okay. You were dead and you still have all your memories, you are just a regular old human now so you need to relax and don't force it okay. Close your eyes and relax okay, just take your time, I promise it'll be alright."

I closed my eyes, struggling to process what was going on, I could feel that I was human, I had to breathe, my body felt weak and odd. I bit my lip and shook my head, trying to process everything that was going on. The last thing I had actually remembered was the Demon that had possessed Dean thrusting the angel blade into my heart, I remembered faintly going to Heaven but that was it, suddenly I am back here with Dean cradling me in his arms and I was human. And then Dean had told me he loved me, and he wanted to Marry me, my head felt like a maze of confusion. I felt Dean softly running his hand through my hair, and I slowly opened my eyes, Dean softly smiled at me. "D…Dean"

He nodded, "Yeah Cas?"

I looked at him, started into his gorgeous green eyes, "I'm sorry Dean, I am just very confused. I love you also Dean, you have meant a lot to me over the years, I am so very privileged to have gotten the chance to know you Dean. I, I would love to marry you but I am just, as I said I am very confused."

Dean nodded and kissed my lips slowly, and my skin prickled with pleasure. He slowly pulled away from me and nodded, "I know Cas, I am sorry. I probably shouldn't have sprung the whole marriage thing on you. Just relax Cas, I've got you alright. Try to get some sleep alright, it'll help you work through some of this stuff alright. Just try to sleep some Cas," I closed my eyes, and slowly pressed myself closer to Dean. I slowly fell asleep, after I don't know how long it was before I woke up again, but I woke up pressed against Dean's chest. I looked at Dean's face to see dried tears on his cheeks, so I softly reached up and wiped them off, his eyes opened and he smiled a little, "Hey, How are you feeling Cas?"

I looked down at my hands, "I don't know. I mean, I feel better, I no longer feel so confused. However I feel rather weak, then again I am human now…"

Dean laughed a little bit, "You may be human but you will always be my Angel Cas."

I closed my eyes and bit my lip, "I won't ever be an angel again Dean, I'm just a human now, the term angel…. It doesn't apply to me"

Dean cupped my cheek a bit and he slowly kissed my lips, just as he pressed his lips harder to mine there was a knock on the door and I heard Sam's voice through the door, "Dean, you need to come out here and eat, listen Dean I know you are really broken up about losing Cas, I get it okay. Please Dean at lease come eat something,"

I frowned at Dean and whispered, "You didn't tell him you brought me back…."

Dean sighed and ran his hands through his hair and softly called out, "Sam… I gotta talk to you…"

Sam hesitated before opening the door, at first he didn't see that my eyes were open or that I was breathing, but then his eyes connected with mine and his eyes widened, "Cas, oh my god I thought you… I mean I saw the demon possessing Dean, I saw it kill you Cas, I mean I don't understand…"

I looked at Dean who was crying again, and I softly grabbed his hand to comfort him, "You will need to ask Dean what happened, I am a little fuzzy on the details…"

Dean closed his eyes and then looked up at Sam, "Chuck, he, he is good or maybe was just using Chuck as a vessel, I don't know… But he told me he would bring Cas back on more time… but he would only bring him back as a human, he would let him keep all his memories but he would be a hundred percent human… I didn't want to live without Cas again so I made the choice"

I closed my eyes as Dean talked, I bit my lip. Sam voiced my feelings, "No offense Dean but I mean.. I don't think that was really your choice… I hate to say this Dean but what about how Cas feels,"

Dean looked at me, "Cas… are you mad at me…"

I bit my lip and carefully shook my head, "I'm not mad Dean. I wasn't ready to be gone… to be without you… I am not sure… if I wish to be human though…"

Dean closed his eyes and sniffled back tears and closed his eyes, "I'm sorry Cas… I really am but I didn't want to leave without you. I will help you adjust to being a human okay, I promise I will be there for you for all of it okay."

I nodded and closed my eyes, softly nuzzling into Dean's chest sleepily, still extremely exhausted. "I told you I understand Dean, I really do honestly, I am sorry it's just that I am exhausted. I feel so bone deep exhausted."

Dean nodded and softly kissed my head, running a hand gently through my hair, "I get it Cas, I can't help that but why don't we go eat something, I am sure your stomach is empty, so come on."

I started to get up but I felt weak, and struggled to untangle from Dean, Dean helped me up and so did Sam. "Easy Cas, you haven't eaten in a long time and your body is pretty weak alright. Let us help you okay"

I nodded and leaned heavily on Dean as we walked towards the kitchen. He carefully helped me sit down at the table as he fixed me a plate of the food that Sam had made. I slowly ate the breakfast Dean staring at me quietly, so was Sam, and it was starting to be uncomfortable but before I could say anything Sam pulled Dean into what the boys had dubbed the war room.

((Okay, So Cas is human, hundred percent human. No getting out of it this time... Thanks so much for reading! Please Follow, Favorite and Leave a Review!))