Dean's POV

I watched as Cas slowly ate his breakfast, when suddenly I was pulled into the War room. I growled a bit at Sam, "What the hell Sam?"

Sam sighed, "Sorry, but I'm worried about him Dean… I mean I get it, you needed him but I don't think it was fair for you to make that choice for him…"

I sighed and ran my hand through my hair also shaking my head, "Stop Sam okay. I am not arguing this shit alright, you don't get it. You just don't get it Sam. After everything Cas and I had been through I was ready to tell him how I felt… and then I get possessed and I get to watch my hands kill him! It wasn't just me needing to be with him… It was the fact that I had killed him!"

Sam sighed a little and ran his hand through his hair, "I'm sorry Dean,"

I nodded, then smiled a little, "Bitch"

He rolled his eyes, "Jerk"

I smiled and then went back to check on Cas who was eating slowly but his shoulder's had slumped slightly. I gently laid my hand on his shoulder, "Hey Cas you okay?"

He looked up at me with his gorgeous blue eyes, "Yeah I am just very tired Dean, feels like I haven't slept in weeks, I suppose technically I haven't"

I softly sat next to him and gently rubbed his back, "Get some food in you and then if you want you can go back to my room and sleep some more…" Cas nodded a little, and went back to eating his breakfast. I softly rubbed his back as he ate, he leaned against me only halfway through his breakfast. I wished Chuck would have at least brought him back feeling normal, now he was weak, and exhausted. I softly stroked a hand through his hair as he leaned against me, I realized his breathing had evened out and he had fallen asleep right there. I couldn't help but smile just a bit as I rubbed hisback gently. I carefully picked him up in my arms and cradled him close to my chest walking back to my room I stopped as I looked at the scorch marks of Cas' wings, and my heart squeezed in my chest. I shook my head and softly went to the room next to mine, I couldn't look at those scorch marks. Cas whimpered a little and cuddled into me more. I softly stroked his hair, before kissing his head. "Shhh, it's alright Cas. Your safe now okay, I promise I am going to keep you safe Cas."

Cas slowly opened his eyes and looked at me with confusion. "Hello Dean, I… I am sorry did I fall asleep?"

I laugh a little and nod, then kiss his lips softly, "It's okay Cas, your body needs rest."

He nodded slowly before carefully sitting up and looked around, "Why aren't we in your room?"

I bit my lip hard and closed my eyes, "Those scorch marks from your wings… I couldn't bear looking at them.. cause its my fault… I killed you and then… now you've lost your wings 'cause of me."

I felt Cas' hand cup my cheek, "Dean I told you when I was dying it wasn't your fault. You didn't kill me Dean, that Demon that possessed you did it."

I shake my head and closed my eyes tighter, "I got to see my hands plunge that angel blade into your chest Cas, me or not you really expect me to move on from that."

Cas sighed a little and he arched his head up and pressed his lips to mine, I kissed him back slowly and held his hand tightly. Cas smiled into our kiss and then softly pulled his lips from mine before cupping my cheek again, "Dean, yesterday you told me you loved me. I wanted to tell you how much I love you as well, since I pulled you from hell I loved you, as I pulled your soul back together, piece by magnificent piece I fell in love with you. Your soul was the purest soul I had ever laid my eyes on, even after all the time in hell. Your body had been torn to shreds by those hellhounds and I put your soul back in that broken body and I healed it all, I healed you. I fell in love with you as I did all of that Dean. I love you as well Dean,"

I closed my eyes hiding the tears that burned at the corners of my eyes, "You okay with being human…."

Cas laughed a little, "I do not have much choice in the matter"

I frowned a bit and looked at him, "Cas I want you to be happy, was Sam right… I shouldn't have made that choice for you… it wasn't my choice."

Cas shook his head, "I may not exactly like the idea of being a human, I mean I have been an angel for centuries. I still have all my memories, all those memories of being an angel. What heaven was like, but of all things I can remember the best, the thing that made me the happiest Dean, it was my time with you. When I was little, I had been so excited about so many things, and then I became a soldier. I forgot what it was like to feel until I met you, I knew what I felt was wrong, or at least I knew it was wrong for an angel. I would rather spend the rest of my human life with you than to be dead as an angel."

I smiled a little and kissed Cas hard, carefully cupping his cheek and smiling a little. I kissed him deeper, tasting Cas. He tasted so much better than I could have imagined, I softly pulled Cas closer to my chest. He pressed himself closer to me arching slightly into me and grinding up into my crotch, I couldn't stop the moan that slipped from my mouth. I knew Cas didn't understand exactly what he was doing, his body was just acting on instinct. I wanted to stop but he kept grinding his hips up into mine, I moaned out lowly and pulled from Cas' lips gently panting by his ear, I took a deep steadying breath before grabbing his hands, "Cas, stop." He groaned a bit before arching up into me again. I shook my head and kissed his head, "Shh Cas, You are just getting overwhelmed by your emotions. It's okay alright. I can't do this to you right now."

Cas groaned and shook his head, "I don't care Dean. I just don't care" I bit my lip and looked into his eyes, his pupils blown wide with lust and he was panting hard. "Oh screw it then" I kissed him roughly and ground my hips down into his crotch, and closed my eyes. I ignored the bit o me that said I shouldn't do this, that said I shouldn't push Cas to far. I kissed him hard and then I reached down, unbuttoned his pants, then slid my hand into his pants. I slowly wrapped my fingers around his half hard cock and gently rubbed his cock, eliciting lewd moans from his lips. I smiled a little and kept rubbing his cock slowly, he groaned and arched into me more. I pulled his pants down some, slowly pushing his boxers down. I kissed gently down his body as I shoved his pants off with his boxers, and looked up at him, his pupils blown with lust and he was panting just a bit. Without giving him any warning I took his cock in my mouth and slowly started sucking up and down, using my tongue on the underneath. Cas cried out and thrust his hips, but he did his best to stop himself obviously not wanting to hurt me. I kneaded his thighs gently sending him the message it was okay, as I swallowed around his cock and bobbed up and down slowly. Cas moaned loudly and arched into my mouth, he snaked his hands through my hair and suddenly his hands pulled my hair and he whimpered, "Dean, Dean stop I can't"

I quickly pulled myself off him and looked at him panting a little, and his eyes were no longer with lust but they held confusion and fear. My brain quickly realized I had hurt him and I pulled off him, standing up and I looked away. "I… I'm sorry Cas I didn't mean to… I shouldn't have"

Cas was panting hard on the bed and he pulled his boxers back up and then stood up and gently grabbed my hand, "It's okay Dean I know you didn't mean to, not really"

I looked him in the eyes and bit my lip, "I shouldn't have done that Cas… I just got carried away, and I shouldn't have done it…"

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