Cas' POV

I held Dean's hand gently, I had been overwhelmed by the feelings surrounding me when Dean had been doing what he was. For whatever pure fear had hit me as I realized things were going tofast , now Dean was standing here thinking he had hurt me. "Dean, please look at me. I know you got carried away, we both did. I am not angry at you and you did not physically hurt me."

Dean looked away again, and then he softly said "Yeah but your newly human Cas… you don't know any better, and I do. I should have listened to myself and stopped."

I sighed and gently pulled Dean close to me, softly rubbing my erection against his leg making sure he felt it, "I didn't want you to. As much as I love you though, we should take things a little bit slower do you agree?"

Dean nodded slowly, "Yeah I do… C'mon Cas, it's about dinner time, do you want something to eat."

My stomach gurgled at the mention of food and I realized how hungry I was, "Yeah that sounds very good Dean."

Dean smiles, "You need to get your pant's back on but with the hard on you may want to just put pajama bottoms on, it won't put so much pressure on your cock." Dean turned and was about to go look in the drawers before he sighed, "I'll be right back. Give me a few minutes alright?"

I nodded silently, and watched Dean leave, after a few minutes he was back holding a pair of his plaid pajama pants. I nodded gently "Thank you Dean. That is very kind of you"

He smiled and I took the pants from him, pulling them on. Then I let him lead me out to the kitchen, where Sam was on the phone with someone and making himself a salad. Dean rolled his eyes slightly, "Sam who are you talking to?"

Sam looked up and blushed, "Uh, talking to Luka… hunter we met a few months back…"

Dean smiled a little, "Oh really. What's Luka calling you for hmm? He need help with a hunt?"

Sam shook his head, "Uh..no he was just calling…"

Dean laughed a little and rolled his eyes, "Well move out the way, I am going to make Cas dinner you weird herbivore"

Sam rolled his eyes and moved over then went back to his conversation, "Yeah, Yeah he doesn't approve of my desire to actually eat healthy. Yeah I know hunter food Luka, grew up with it all my life but I like to actually eat healthy food." I smiled a little and watched the two brothers, Sam came over and sat next to me and ate his salad still talking on the phone, "You sound like my brother Luka. Yeah well he is a Jerk, so are you. Oh really now? Yeah well fuck off you asshole. Oh really? Yeah well, I should go Luka, yeah. Yeah hey, be safe, if you need back up call me alright. Yeah, bye"

I smiled a little at Sam, I could tell he had feelings for the person on the other end of the phone line. I looked up as Dean placed a plate in front of me with some steak and potatoes, "Thank you Dean"

He nodded and sat across from me and started eating, I was half way through my dinner before I started feeling heavy and exhausted again. I felt myself start to drift off and Dean cleared his throat, "Cas your falling asleep again."

I shook my head clearing my head, "Sorry just feel so heavy…"

Dean nodded before standing and then helping me up, "Yeah come on, you need some more rest."

I nodded a little and got up with him and as we walked I leaned heavily against him, when we were by Dean's room I stared at the scorch marks that had been left behind by my wings, and I slowly pulled my hands away from Dean's and went to his room, and I stared at them before slowly touching the tips of what used to be my right wing. I heard Dean standing at the door, The room was small so the very tip of my right wing had stretched up onto the wall. There was a tightness in my chest and I closed my eyes tightly, the idea that never again would I get to see my wings or fly made my chest ache. Suddenly I felt Dean's arms wrap around me and he rubbed my back, "Shh hey your okay Cas, take a breath okay." I didn't realise I was struggling to breathe until Dean had wrapped his arms around me, and suddenly it felt like I couldn't breathe at all. Dean grabbed my hands and put them on his chest, "Breathe with me Cas, feel me breathe in, and out. There you go, there that's it. C'mon then slowly. There ya go Cas, I've got you now okay,"

I was still somewhat struggling to breathe but Dean was helping me calm down, I closed my eyes and hid my hands in my face. Dean kept rubbing my back, "s..sorry I just…"

Dean shook his head and lightly pressed his lips to the side of my head, "Hey it's okay Cas, you just got overwhelmed again. You had a panic attack, Just keep breathing with me alright, it'll help. Sammy used to get these all the time this was the only way to calm him down ever. You know how Sammy was talking on that phone to that guy Lukas, well a month or two back Sam mentioned him but instead of calling him Lukas he said Luka. I think he has got a crush on him you know." As Dean talked I could feel myself calming down, soon my breathing was normal again and Dean slowly helped me up. I followed him to the room next door, and gently laid down with him. "Talk to me Cas, what got you so upset…."

I closed my eyes shakily, "I… I am never going to fly again…"

Dean sighed heavily and hugged me tightly, "I'm sorry Cas, I am so sorry"

I nodded and buried my face in his chest, and started sobbing again. Dean started rubbing my back and I felt him hugging me tightly. I am not sure how long it was before I had cried myself to sleep. When I started to wake up again Dean was still holding me but his grip had loosened as he was sleeping. I wiped the tears from my eyes and watched Dean sleeping, I smiled a little, despite my desire to be able to fly again I would always love Dean, and want to be with him. I softly kissed his head and pulled out of his arms, then went to Dean's old room again staring at the burnt remnants of my wings again before looking at the door, I closed it and then closed my eyes, "God I know you are listening... I am not going to ask you to give my wings back, I just wish to speak with you about a few things…"

I heard a slight flutter of wings and felt a whoosh of air behind me, and I wanted so badly to turn around but at the same time I was terrified, I heard Chuck's voice, "Hello Castiel…"

I took a shakey deep breath and turned around, there stood Chuck, "Hello Father…"

He stepped closer to me and smiled a little, the smile looked odd on his face but I said nothing, "You wanted to talk to me Cas, it helps to actually talk…"

I bit my lip, "Last time I saw you, you had taken no form. However you had informed me that would be the last time you would bring me back, and then you tell Dean you will bring me back as a human. I do not wish to argue father…"

Chuck laughs a little and softly shook his head, "Dean was begging me Cas, I gave him a choice. He made it because he needed you. You and Dean can live the rest of your lives together, your vessel James Novak was a few years older then Dean. I know you are scared Castiel, you are worried that just being human won't be enough for Dean, but it is Cas. It's why you called me here isn't it Cas?"

I bit my lip and closed my eyes, then took a deep breath and nodded, "Dean fell in love with me as an angel father, how can I expect him to love me now that I am just a human… I mean I can't heal him or Sam if they get hurt… I can't protect them"

Chuck shook his head, "They don't care about it, it may have been convenient that way but Dean will never stop loving you Cas. Trust me the two of you will fight, and you are going to hurt each other, but you two will never stop loving each other Cas. So, I am going to remove the marks, I left them so you would know to call me, had a feeling you would have forgotten otherwise. So, live your life with Dean, Cas. Live the rest of your human life as Castiel Novak, simply change your vessels name, and that will legally make your birthday July 10, 1973 Cas, I know this is confusing for you right now, I will restore your vessel so you can be a regular human, you will still have your memories, I won't take those away however I will help you adjust a bit okay. So close your eyes Castiel" I did as Chuck asked me and closed my eyes, and somehow everything just felt balanced, all the human emotions felt normal, as if I had always had them and been used to them. I gasped out at the shock of it all and Chuck laid his hand on my shoulder, "Easy son, this part is going to be the worst of it, everything is snapping to place is all that's happening right now. Okay now one deep breath and you will feel better" after a long deep breath in everything was calm, it almost felt like nothing had changed but at the same time everything had changed. I looked up and Chuck was still standing there and he nodded a little, before snapping his fingers and the burn marks that had once been my wings were gone. "I needed to talk to you because I wanted to have one last chat with you and explain things, You were always one of my favorites Castiel, so take care of yourself. When it is your time, I will welcome you again and give you your wings once more." With that he disappeared. I looked around relieved that the scorch marks were gone, and I realized where Chuck had been standing, there was a pile of official looking papers. When I went over and picked them up I smiled, because he had given me everything I would need to start my life as a human, a birth certificate that now instead of James Novak said Castiel Novak, social security card, Driver's Liscense, everything I would need as a human, to spend the rest of my life with Dean Winchester.

((OKay, so I sort of like this as a way of ending. I haven't completely decided yet, just saying it may be a good ending for this story. For now though I will leave this open and in progress. Thank you all for reading, Please Follow, Favorite, And Leave a Review!))